"What do you say?!Do you want to get rid of it all?"

On the big screen, Francis's mother questioned her daughter with a trembling voice, "You have unique conditions, beauty and a glorious future, you are a movie star!"

Francis stared at her mother motionlessly, as if for the first time in her life, she had seen her for what she really was.

"Mom, you mean to send me back, don't you?"

Frances, played by Jessica Lange, shows a powerful acting skill that seems to be able to overwhelm everything. Even if it's the second time I've seen it, Yukiko Okada can't help but hold her breath and fall in love with the heroine's performance.

It's Tuesday, and there is no second person in the screening room for someone like her who came to see the movie early in the morning. If it hadn't been decided that everything would have ended here today, she wouldn't have been in the cinema at this time.

"Francis" is a film released in the United States in 1982 that tells the tragic life of Hollywood star Francis Farmer. On January 17 this year, it was introduced by the art theater chain and released on RB. Although the number of museums is not large, the reviews are good, and it has been screened until now.

Three days ago, on April 5th, Yukiko Okada watched the movie with her friend, Yoko Minamino, who is also an idol.

That afternoon, Yukiko Okada had a performance at the Shibuya Public Hall, and she took advantage of the time before the rehearsal to take advantage of the time to go out with friends to relax. After lunch, Yoko Minamino proposes to go to the movies, so they walk into an art theater.

Idols live busy lives every day, and Yukiko Okada is in a hurry, and this friend's situation is not much better. Yoko Minamino, who is on the rise, works every day from morning to night, and it is rare to have a chance to take a breath.

Because they are busy with work, these girls are obviously only teenagers, and they are the age of chasing trends, but they are very slow to be popular, and a gust of wind blows, and when their skin feels it, it has already blown over.

"There's a movie I've always wanted to see. Before walking into the cinema, Yoko Minamino said this to a friend.

At the beginning of this year, Yoko Minamino saw an introduction to "Francis" in a magazine that introduced foreign films and was very interested. However, since the beginning of this year, she has worked hard and has been delayed until now to see.

Unwilling to compromise with life at the mercy of his boss, Francis Farmer, a young Hollywood movie star who was sent to a psychiatric hospital for eight years, had his pituitary gland removed, and died of cancer in 1970.

Before this, Yukiko Okada didn't know who Francis Farmer was, and the movie was a bit dull and boring.

As a chess piece in the hands of capital, no matter how glamorous they look on the outside, they will inevitably be at the mercy of the fate. This point, as a high-profile idol star, Yukiko Okada, probably has a deeper experience than ordinary moviegoers.

Recently, I have been asking myself "why" in my heart, and the sad fate of Francis Farmer in the movie mirrors each other.

After the end of the movie, Yoko Minamino sighed: "Jessica Lange's acting skills are really outstanding, it's a pity that she didn't win an Oscar." ”

This can't be helped, the opponent of "Francis" back then was "Sophie's Choice".

"It's horrible. Yukiko Okada said.

Yoko Minamino took her friend's hand, "What's scary?"

"It's really happening in the movie, it's scary. Yukiko Okada lowered her eyelids, and a heavy sadness welled up in her heart.

That day, after watching the movie, the two girls went to a dessert shop that was said to be very popular recently. By the time I hurriedly returned to the Shibuya Public Hall, I was already ten minutes late.

"Why did you come back so late?" the anxious agent said reproachfully when he saw her.

Yukiko Okada lowered her head and apologized, but before she could even out her breath, the agent put his hand on her back and gently pushed her, sending her to the makeup artist and costume artist.

The puff was gently slapped on her face, and the idol-style gorgeous costume hung on the hanger, waiting for its owner. Yukiko Okada is at the mercy of the staff, motionless like a puppet.

Today at the Shibuya Public Hall, there are 150 staff members busy, including temporary workers, and they all rely on the sign of "Yukiko Okada" to eat.

Yukiko Okada keeps asking her "why" in her heart, and no one can answer for her.

The well-dressed Yukiko Okada is young and beautiful, and as an idol, her signature is an optimistic and cheerful smile with a somewhat boyish smile. But now, she couldn't smile at all, and she looked like a lifeless plastic flower.

"You can't treat the audience with such a face, you know?" the agent cheered her up.

Yukiko Okada raised the corners of her mouth, "I know, Mizoguchi-san." ”

By her side that day was her most trusted agent, Nobuo Mizoguchi.

"There were moments in your life that left unpleasant wounds in your memory, and what inspired you to pick yourself up, to move on with your life, and to be with us tonight, Francis?"

On the big screen, Francis was removed from the pituitary gland, removed the "root of the disease", and finally left the mental hospital. When I went to participate in a TV talk show, the host with a spring breeze asked this question.

At seven o'clock last night, Yukiko Okada went to the premiere of "Rocky 4".

At the premiere, her performance was impeccable, but except for her and her agent Asako Hayakawa, no one knew that before going to the venue, Yukiko Okada played a big name.

"I don't want to go to the premiere in the evening. "When I went out early in the morning, Yukiko Okada said to Asako Hayakawa.

"How can that be done?" Hayakawa Asako told her with a serious expression, "As a 'STAR', it is dangerous to have such disrespectful thoughts. ”

“...... I know. The awkward expression on Yukiko Okada's face just now is gone.

Hayakawa Asako had a satisfied expression.

After the premiere, Yukiko Okada followed her agent back to Aoyama's apartment.

When she was physically and mentally exhausted, she thought of Toru Minegishi, whom she admired in her heart and cared more about herself. Yukiko Okada called Toru Minegishi to page.

It wasn't until he was about to fall asleep that Toru Minegishi's call back came. Obviously he couldn't open his eyes anymore, but Yukiko Okada still cheered up, "Minegishi-san!"

However, on the other end of the phone, Toru Minegishi's reaction was extremely cold and perfunctory. After chatting for a few words, Yukiko Okada couldn't bear the cold atmosphere on the phone, held back her tears, and asked, "Minegishi-san, what should I do?"

Toru Minegishi smacked his lips impatiently, "It's really the first trouble in my life to have something to do with you." In the future, can you please don't call me again?"

The phone hung up.

Yukiko Okada put down the earpiece and wanted to endure the tears, but the tears were uncontrollable and poured out.

On the morning of the 8th, Yukiko Okada had work from nine o'clock.

At 8:30, Hayakawa Asako rang the doorbell of Yukiko Okada, and without waiting for anyone to answer, she opened the door with the key and walked in.

"Yukiko, how are you preparing?" asked Hayakawa Asako in a raised voice as she walked inside.

However, no answer was received.

Hayakawa Asako knocked on the bedroom door, "Haven't you gotten up yet?" I went in, and there was Kiko-" but when she pushed the door open, there was no one inside.

Hayakawa Asako stood outside the bathroom again and listened, but there was no movement, and after entering, it was still very damp inside, and it was used not long ago.

Hayakawa Asako was a little flustered and searched all over this small apartment, but there was no sign of Kiko Okada - where did she go?!

"Now, Francis, I join those friends who are with you in wishing you all the best in your new endeavours. After this show, we'll have a cocktail party for you and your friends at the Roosevelt Hotel in Hollywood......"

The party was over, and Francis walked alone on the street late at night. Suddenly, her former lover appeared in front of her.

"I want you to send me back......"

Francis looked at him, "I really want you to send me back, but—"

But she's been ruined.

Yukiko Okada watched the movie intently. She no longer cares about the job she escaped, she doesn't care about everything. Because she has decided to do something big today.

"If you don't mind, I'll walk you for a short distance, okay?"

Francis smiled and nodded, "Okay." ”

The movie is over. Yukiko Okada looked at the subtitles at the end of the credits, and her heart did not feel the horror she felt when she first watched this movie, but the sad feeling continued unabated.

She already knew that the only lover in the movie who brought some warmth to Francis did not actually exist, but was fictional in the movie. Francis's fate is even more tragic than in the movie, and there is not even a trace of warmth.

Today's work was cut away by her. She finally became a rebel.

If she resists so much, will there be such a tragic fate waiting for her?