450. in the first place

Akina Nakamori turned her head and met him with a generous gaze.

It's been a long time since that letter was written, and it's not unpresumprising that Iwahashi Shinichi suddenly asked this question again. However, when he mentioned this matter again, Akina Nakamori felt relieved first compared to surprise, or thinking that he was exploring something.

After the news preview of "FRIDAY" came out, the things she thought about in her heart, the questions she wanted to answer and confirm, and the questions that Shinichi Iwahashi suddenly threw out, subtly overlapped.

She wanted to talk to Shinichi Iwahashi, but she didn't know how to say it, because his question could be asked so naturally.

Not knowing what to do with origami kittens wasn't really the question she wanted to ask.

......

"FRIDAY" published the gossip about the blind date between Masahiko Kondo and Keiko Fujishima, and after Akina Nakamori heard Omoto talk about it, her first reaction was to buy a gift for Shinichi Iwahashi, which has exposed her innermost thoughts.

For Kondo Masahiko, from the inner wavering on the eve of the big award, the doubts about him after the big award, to the cold war and estrangement, he finally rejected his proposal to buy a house, and also vetoed the meaning behind the purchase of a house.

The matter of buying a house made Akina Nakamori completely see through the hypocrisy of Kondo Masahiko, and finally even the last phantom in his heart was completely shattered. The expectations and imaginations that were once held in this person are gone.

And she is now confused about the breakup, not because she still has any feelings about Kondo Masahiko, but because of the confusion about the breakup itself.

"What is the so-called breakup?"

Rather than asking Shinichi Iwahashi, Akina Nakamori seemed to be talking to herself, "It's that we don't see each other anymore, we don't talk on the phone, we don't eat and drink together, we don't care about each other anymore, and we don't care about each other anymore." Is that so?"

"If that's the case," Akina Nakamori muttered, "wouldn't it be the same as breaking up with a friend?"

These words are a bit childish, and if you say it to others, it may attract ridicule and ridicule.

When Iwahashi Shinichi heard this, he didn't understand.

However, when I heard her later sentence, which seemed to be even more out of tune, my mind turned, and I suddenly caught a little clue, and I guessed where her confusion came from.

......

Perhaps, in her heart, she has always been imagining this relationship with Kondo Masahiko.

Among a group of male and female idols of the same age, two people who seem to be a better match are constantly coaxed together by the people around them, and they gradually take it seriously, so they imagine that each other also likes themselves, and then they get close to each other and really become a couple.

After becoming a couple, the outside world began to expect them to become the second pair of Baihui Youhe.

But Akina Nakamori's idol is Momoe Yamaguchi, and the trauma caused by her background and original family makes her have excessive expectations for marriage.

So, she took the imagination that Kondo Masahiko could understand her and be able to offset the wounds brought to her by her original family, and she had the idea of marrying him, and then following the example of Yamaguchi Momoe to retire and have a complete family.

As a result, she didn't think of Momoe Yamaguchi, and Masahiko Kondo wasn't Tomokazu Miura. Instead of coming true, the imagination collapsed. The relationship between the two was hung on the page of the preview by the magazine with the words "de facto breakup".

It is said that the matter can be over at this point, but "imagination" does not only exist in love, but also in breakups.

When Iwahashi saw that she was so confused, he had a guess for a while, that is, in Akina Nakamori's heart, there may be some kind of imagination about the breakup.

Although he didn't know what the breakup that Akina Nakamori imagined would look like, at least, she probably didn't expect that it would end up in such a silent way as it is now, like a stone thrown into water and immediately swallowed.

Or should I say that her imaginary breakup with Kondo Masahiko was not like this.

......

It's not that I can't understand her mentality.

Because, love that starts with imagination is a particularly special kind of love. What is special about it is that this process of falling in love is not only weaving dreams, but also destroying dreams.

What Masahiko Kondo did during her relationship made her exhausted and saw her imagination destroyed, and at the same time, it may have intensified her new imagination - the imagination of breaking up.

Patience to the limit will explode, and the breakup she imagined should probably be an extremely drastic way.

However, no one expected that a big prize incident would occur.

The despicability of Kondo's personality exposed in this matter made Akina Nakamori waver, step by step, first questioning him, then seeing through him, and finally taking the initiative to reject him.

Originally, she put herself on the passive side, but in the end, it was she who took the first step.

A person with a despicable personality will not be able to build a perfect family with him. The despicable personality is completely in conflict with the perfect family she imagined, and seeing through this matter, she also let her personally break and shatter the imagination of love from the root.

However, in this way, although she kept her mind clear and calm, it also made the initial imagination useless, and this confusion was generated.

What the hell is going on with the breakup? Akina Nakamori really didn't figure it out.

She lacks the experience of falling in love, and is in such an "imaginary" love. I never thought that a relationship could end so plainly, without getting angry or arguing.

Because of this, she couldn't understand for a while, where is the boundary of the breakup?

Akina Nakamori has been silent all the time, in a state of "de facto breakup", not because she still has any nostalgia for Kondo Masahiko in her heart, but because she feels lost in this kind of bland breakup.

After seeing the report of "FRIDAY", her subconscious reaction proved that she had no nostalgia for Kondo Masahiko in her heart. It is precisely because I don't feel nostalgic for Kondo Masahiko that I feel even more lost.

Akina Nakamori told Iwahashi about this, and after finishing speaking, she looked at him silently, wanting to hear what he had to say.

......

"That's different. ”

Iwahashi Shinichi accepted her gaze, and after thinking about it, he spoke.

He looked at Akina Nakamori and told her seriously, "It's normal for people who have broken up to stop meeting and no longer calling." However, there are also people who can still meet and call after a breakup - although they still keep in touch, the breakup is serious. ”

"So, the real embodiment of the breakup is in another place. ”

Iwahashi thought for a moment and said to her, "I think that the so-called breakup should be my life from now on, and I will never have anything to do with each other anymore." ”

From now on, it doesn't matter in life anymore.

Shin Iwahashi said this calmly, and Akina Nakamori listened to it in her ears, and suddenly remembered that she had rejected Masahiko Kondo's purchase of a house.

refused to buy a house, and no longer had hope of marrying him and starting a family, but instead developed fear and disgust for his character. Isn't this just to draw a line between his life and him?

Then, she thought that before the big award incident, she was suspicious and shaken about Kondo Masahiko, and chose to meet Shinichi Iwahashi, and finally attended the big prize.

Refusing to give the award is pushing Kondo Masahiko away from his life. Then all kinds of things happened, every doubt she had, every refusal, was pushing this person. And refusing to buy a house is the last push on the edge of the ring.

She didn't break up because she no longer met with Kondo to make phone calls, but because this person was pushed away from her life, so she stopped contacting.

From the moment she rejected Kondo Masahiko, Akina Nakamori's life has nothing to do with Kondo Masahiko.

"You said it in your letter," Iwahashi Shinichi said again, "rejecting something that I would never have thought of refusing in the past." If it's a breakup that you can meet again the next day, you don't need to show so much courage. ”

In other words, her seemingly unimagined and bland ending was not due to the lack of "boundaries" for the breakup, but the fierce outburst she imagined took place in another form.

There are thousands of ways to break up, but no matter which one you use, the fact is: she has broken up with Kondo Masahiko.

After saying this, Iwahashi Shinichi closed his mouth.

Akina Nakamori's gaze never left him, listening to him and watching him finish. After staring at him for a while, she suddenly said to him, "Thank you, Iwahashi-san." ”

"Thank me?"

However, Akina Nakamori didn't say thank you for the reason, but changed the topic and said, "Thinking about it like this, it's incredible to know you." ”

"Do you mean 'chance is inevitable'?" Iwahashi joked.

Akina Nakamori smiled at his words, but shook her head slightly, "Since 'chance is inevitable', it is not incredible. When I talk like this, I go back to that somewhat childish naughtiness.

"Yes. Iwahashi Shinichi agreed, liking what she said.

Since she thanked her without saying what it was, she didn't ask.

However, it was probably the first time that the old accounts had been turned over for the first time in a long time, and Iwahashi Shinichi's curiosity was stronger than before. He didn't choose to let go of this matter, and asked, "So, for what is it to say thank you?"

"Various......

Akina Nakamori listened to the vague words, and finally took her eyes off his face, and looked at the origami kitten in her hand with a smile, "I used to only know that there were origami stars, thousand paper cranes, etc., but after reading the origami book, I knew that the craft of origami was so broad and profound." ”

Is this the rhythm that wants to divert the topic?

But Iwahashi Shinichi vaguely felt that this was like an embarrassment after answering "various".

......

The two got up from the bench and walked back.

On the way back, Akina Nakamori looked more relaxed and lively than when she got up. This change is probably related to the fact that the words are spoken.

"I don't know what kind of reason Omoto-san came up with to help......" Thinking that Omoto was going to bother for her, Akina Nakamori smiled at the success of the prank.

Shinichi Iwahashi said of her, "It seems that I really want Omoto-san to be embarrassed." ”

He is not worried at all that the big book can't make up a good reason, if the basic skills of this kind of agent are not good, then it is better to resign and go back to his hometown to plant radishes.

"Just a little. She doesn't deny it.

Big Ben just pulled Iwahashi Shinichi and talked endlessly, with a posture that was going to be separated between her and Iwahashi Shinichi. Because of this, Akina Nakamori wanted to play a prank on him.

However, if it weren't for Big Ben's attempt to stop her from talking to Shinichi Iwahashi, she might not have offered to invite.

Iwahashi Shinichi also sensed the defense from Daimoto just now, but he didn't take it to heart. As a broker, there's nothing wrong with that. However, if Taopu Star wants to play a prank on him, he is happy to watch the excitement.

Walking back to the corner of the boulevard, Iwahashi looked around, "Back to the original place, the tour guide is still very reliable." ”

Akina Nakamori was teased like this and showed a small smile.

"That's right. ”

As she was leaving, she said to Shinichi Iwahashi, "I bought you a gift yesterday. ”

"Gifts?"

Akina Nakamori told him that it was to thank him for his previous treat. However, he didn't tell him that after listening to Big Ben talk about "FRIDAY", he had to buy gifts.

After speaking clearly just now, after listening to his answer, she had already made a decision in her heart about what she should do.

Iwahashi Shinichi smiled when he heard this, "...... such a thing" smiled, but thanked her seriously, "Thank you for bothering so much." ”

In such an era when it is the norm for men to pay the bills, remember such a little thing and buy a gift on purpose. This Akina Nakamori may be regarded by some people as old-fashioned, but it has the cuteness and preciousness of her old-fashioned school.

However, as soon as Iwahashi heard her finish speaking, he felt that there was one thing that needed to be explained to her.

"That's right. He said, "I was born in 1966, so Nakamori-san doesn't need to be so polite." "Although she looks a little older, she is actually a year and a half younger than her.

"Huh?" Akina Nakamori couldn't contain her surprise on her face.

Iwahashi-san, is it even younger than her???

She stared at Iwahashi Shinichi's face as if she was going to count the rings on his face, looked and looked, and suddenly smiled and said to him, "But, you are really reliable. ”

Suddenly, I realized that I couldn't change my mouth for a while, and she was still honorific. However, the reason why I have an older impression of him is precisely because he is a reliable person.

When Iwahashi heard this, he smiled and joked to her, "If that's the case, I'll feel much more comfortable." ”

"I'm sorry. Akina Nakamori narrowed her eyes, but looking at the smile and expression on her face, she knew that this was not a real apology.

The two laughed at each other on the streets of Karuizawa because of this little misunderstanding.

Shinichi Iwahashi said goodbye to her, "See you next time, then." ”

"See you next time......"

After Akina Nakamori finished saying goodbye, her tone paused slightly, looked at his face, and suddenly proposed: "In the future, will you be asked to be Shen Yijun?"