0166 I love you, but I love freedom and distance even more
It's night.
It's tender like water.
It's a fire.
It's a blend of water and milk.
It's a snowstorm.
You can see that the snow on the top of the mountain is slowly melting.
That's love and freedom.
……
Chen Wan'an leaned on the head of the bed and thought.
It was a somewhat lonely night.
How loneliness is contrasted.
That is the non-loneliness of others.
Chen Wan'an swiped the short video until he closed his eyes, and he was still holding the mobile phone with the screen on in his hand.
Maybe it's insomnia.
……
It's dawn.
Chen Wan's peace of mind was full of thoughts.
This trip to Lijiang really took too long.
Although there are still many places that have not been set foot in, Chen Wan'an seems to have felt that the harvest this time is enough.
In fact, when he came back from Lugu Lake, Chen Wan'an already had such thoughts.
After all, you don't have to live in a city for a long time, and it is impossible to make this place perfect.
So when Ye Suifeng arrived, it was regarded as a holiday together, and then, Chen Wan'an had been thinking about it in the past few days, and it was time for him to return.
Whether it was the approaching date of Lin Qingchen's project visit as promised before, or the experience in Lijiang, Chen Wan'an already felt that it was time to leave.
Chen Wan'an, who originally went to Lijiang, had already achieved all those thoughts and expectations, and the others did not arouse much interest in him, so naturally there was no reason for Chen Wan'an to continue to exist in Lijiang.
After Ye Suifeng and Shen Liuyun left last night, Chen Wan'an and Gu Naier also chatted for a long time.
Many times, Gu Nell is very sensitive.
It is possible to detect the slight changes in Chen Wan'an.
Just when she returned from Lugu Lake, when everyone was moving forward separately, Gu Naier felt the change of Chen Wan'an.
That's the kind of state that you should continue to set off and go to the next place.
It's just that Chen Wan'an didn't show it.
Chen Wan'an himself knows that there are still many places he hasn't go, at least Lashihai or Stone Town, which are all places worth seeing, but Chen Wan'an didn't find a reason why he had to go in the last three days of Lijiang.
Travel, it must be because you are interested in the destination.
Otherwise, if there is no goal, how can the process come about?
Everyone in the world says that the end of the journey is not important, but the process.
But how can the process of not even having a goal be deeply rooted in the hearts of the people.
In Lijiang these days, Chen Goodnight has completely painted a perfect sentence for Lijiang in his heart.
Perhaps this is the respect for the heart.
So on this morning, when Chen Wan'an was silently in his pocket, standing on the roof with a cup of black tea and looking at the snow-capped mountains in the distance, Gu Naier didn't know when she also appeared behind Chen Wan'an.
The sky is clear and the white clouds are long.
The snow-capped mountains are slowly fading the golden brilliance of the sunrise.
Chen Wan'an gently took a sip of steaming black tea and looked intently at the Jade Dragon Snow Mountain in the distance.
Gu Naier gently put a strand of hair behind her ear, took a deep breath, and then tightened the clothes on her body.
"When are you going to leave?" asked Gu Nell pretending to be relaxed.
Chen Wan'an was stunned.
Gu Nell always appeared so quietly by her side.
"Perhaps...... It's today. Chen Wan'an's throat seemed to be blocked by something, and some words were difficult to say.
"Well, you can't stay in the same place forever, I know. Gu Naer's eyes looked upwards a little.
"Lijiang is very beautiful, I like the sunshine here, I like the flowers everywhere, I like the rhythm of life here, maybe one day I go to all the places I want to go, I will choose to stay here." Chen Wan'an smiled and said.
"Perhaps, in fact, sometimes I am quite helpless with you. Gu Naier suddenly turned around and said with a smile.
"Why?" said Chen Wan'an.
Gu Naier touched her forehead and said: "At that time, because of your words, I came to Lijiang alone, I gave up my original life, work, friends and family, but it seems that life in Lijiang did not have your appearance, but I was growing up slowly." ”
Regarding Gu Naer's words, Chen Wan'an was a little incomprehensible.
looked at Chen Wan'an's puzzled expression.
Gu Nell smiled.
"Chen good night, since you came to Lijiang, you have always taken me to visit the surrounding scenery, to see all the scenery I have not seen, and then you chose to leave, leaving me alone to continue to live in this courtyard, have you thought about it, after you left, I still returned to the way you were before you came...... So has your arrival changed me in Lijiang?" Gu Nell looked at Chen Wan's eyes.
After a pause, Gu Nell continued: "Actually, when I came to Lijiang, I was always looking forward to when you would come to Lijiang and when you would appear in front of my eyes...... I just hope you come, maybe just because you're a good tour guide and have a lot of fun with you. ”
Gu Naier seemed to be a little cold, and took a sip of the black tea in Chen Wanan's hand.
Only then did he continue: "But when these days have passed, Chen Goodnight, do you know, I found that I am not indispensable to you, but you are looking forward to me, and it is not until today that I know what I prefer for me when you come...... You know what?"
Chen Wan'an pondered for a moment and shook his head.
"Actually, I didn't know, until I came over just now, and I saw you standing here looking at the snow-capped mountains, and I remembered that morning in Dali, and we watched the sunrise over Erhai Lake together...... I understand, what I probably prefer is the life you live with me after you come to Lijiang, which may be why I chose a small courtyard inexplicably. ”
Gu Naier's words made Chen Wan'an bite her lip.
"This half a month of getting along may leave me with better memories of a few days in the small yard, porridge in the morning, wine in the evening, planting flowers and grass, reading books and feeding the dogs, this may be the time I am looking forward to, Chen Wan'an, what do you think?" Gu Nell looked at Chen Wan'an's eyes.
In fact, Chen Wan'an has been asking himself since just now.
What kind of emotion does he have for Gu Naier?
If you say ruthless...... But I also missed it again and again, and when I came to Lijiang, I laughed and was sad, and the time with it was also very happy.
The time when the two people were holding the little magic bucket and shaking the swing, the afternoon with the warm sunshine, the morning when they drank porridge together, and the night when they drank together, all flashed in front of them.
Happy?
If there is affection...... But why did he choose to leave without hesitation?
Who are you here for?
And why left?
And should a person like himself choose an emotion?
Faced with Gu Naier's inquiry, Chen Wan'an was in a dilemma.