"What do you think, do you want to keep her next year?" He Qixin simply crossed over to Lin Xiao and looked at Huang Lu and asked.

"Eh, that's my thing. Lin Xiao frowned unconsciously and said, "I should ask for my own opinion." ”

"I've been consulted, but your opinion is completely informative, and it doesn't make any sense to ask you. He Qixin turned around, leaning his back against the railing of the lake, and the fireworks exploded in the sky behind him, and the brilliant light fell, imprinted on his face, making the already serious expression even more gloomy.

This is the most serious moment he has seen since Lin Xiao met He Qixin.

"Why?" Lin Xiao's voice also cooled.

He Qixin has always been arbitrary, but at least most of the time he has a basic bottom line, and he will not interfere too much in too many things. But now, He Qixin has indeed crossed the line.

"Not by anything. He Qixin's voice was still cold, with a completely irresistible pressure. Unexpectedly, this time Huang Lu remained silent in a rare way.

"How hard it ......"

"Look at what you look like now. He Qixin interrupted Lin Xiao mercilessly, with a little fierceness in his expression.

"What am I like. Lin Xiao was stunned, He Qixin's attitude tonight was too out of her cognition, so that she didn't know how to react at all.

"What do you say you look like?" He Qixin sneered, took out a lighter and lit a cigarette, and blocked it slightly with his hand, and the firelight happened to be reflected on half of his face. I don't know if it's Lin Xiao's illusion, but I actually feel that his eyes are a little red.

"Chen Niannian is dead, everyone should be sad, but you can't. He Qixin exhaled a deep puff of smoke rings, and his voice was not radical and angry just now, but seemed to be left with endless melancholy: "You should know that what she wants to be the most is like you." ”

Chen Niannian has congenital heart disease, and he can't resist or lift it, and he can't be stimulated a little more, not to mention that when Lin Xiao was in VISION, he tensed his nerves from morning to night, like a perpetual motion machine, and kept dealing with all kinds of things.

But people are always like this, the more they can't have something, the more they want it.

Chen Niannian couldn't be tired, but he wanted to be like Lin Xiao, who liked his work from the bottom of his heart and liked to get everything possible by his own efforts.

Sadly, she couldn't.

Lin Xiao was silent for a long time, so long that when He Qixin and Huang Lu thought that she might not return, they heard her whisper: "But I killed her." ”

When she said this, her voice was so soft that it seemed as if she would be blown away by the cold wind as soon as she said it.

She killed Chen Niannian to death.

This is the thing that Lin Xiao has always dared not admit, but at the same time, it is something that Chen Niannian's family firmly believes.

"I thought she wanted to work hard. Lin Xiao muttered. The wind was strong at the lake, blowing her hair up and hanging messily on her forehead, at the corners of her mouth, and even on her eyes. But she just couldn't muster her energy, and went to pull the hair that was covering her vision.

It takes exponentially more courage to admit than to face it. But when you don't dare to face it for too long, you may almost lose all the courage you once had.

"Chen Niannian told me that she is the eldest in the family, and she has passed all the way from the inside of the township, and finally was admitted to the outside university and exposed to the outside world. Lin Xiao's voice was very distant, as if she was saying something completely unrelated to herself: "She didn't expect to come to VISION." ”

"Hehe, I really hit it by mistake. Chen Niannian mentioned the situation during the interview, and there was still some obvious embarrassment on his face: "Before I came, I didn't know that VISION was still one of the top companies in the industry." I only think that this company has very low requirements, even for people like me who speak English and endorse it stumblingly. ”

"It's normal," Lin Xiao smiled at her soothingly, and said, "No matter how well they perform in school, many people will still become dumb English when they first graduate." Shame to say it, shame to express it, even if it is necessary or what you are usually very good at. For recent graduates, HR knows that more kindness will be given. ”

"Hehe, I still feel like I've hit a big luck. If I had known that VISION was so powerful, I would not even dare to submit my resume. Chen Niannian grabbed his short hair, and glanced at Lin Xiao with some embarrassment, but he didn't expect to bump into Lin Xiao's sight, and suddenly felt embarrassed.

"If there's anything, just say it. Lin Xiao was a little helpless, and tried to keep her voice soft so as not to make her feel stressed and embarrassed: "You have to say it, so I can know what you are thinking, at work, you can't handle most things with your mouth shut." Whether it's right or wrong, you don't know until you say it. ”

"Actually, it's not a big deal, it's just a little curious, Sister Lin, were you the same as us when you just graduated?"

"Of course," I didn't expect that the other party had been entangled in this, Lin Xiao suddenly cried and laughed, and said: "Most people are like this when they just graduate, because they don't know and don't understand many things, and the most important thing is that they don't know what they like and what they want to do." Confusion and anxiety lead to more nervousness, and it is very normal to do things badly. ”

"And when did you find out that you like what you do?"

Lin Xiao tilted his head and thought about it seriously, and said, "From the moment I finished working overtime and walked out from here." ”

There is no tiredness and sleepiness, but I feel excited and excited because I have completed countless things.

"Even when I feel the hot wind, I feel that it is gentle. ”

"Then I like it too. ”

"Why?"

"You can get a salary increase, you can get promoted. Although Chen Niannian was still a little embarrassed, his tone was firm and confident: "There is an elder brother and a younger brother in the family, everyone is very powerful, only I seem to be easily ignored." After all, I don't know anything, I can't do anything, and sometimes I feel that life is really boring. ”

"But after working, it feels quite different. As long as you are like you, you can do what is in front of you every day, and you can continue to improve. ”

Money and position, in the eyes of the vast majority of people, are things that smell of copper. But in a way, it's a proof of presence.

Some people like stability by nature, and they do have enough conditions to be stable all the time. But some people can only see hope if they continue to work hard to move forward.

"I'm also like you, working hard and being able to get out of the small county town on my own. Chen Niannian laughed hesitantly and said, "I can rely on myself to have a house and a car." ”

It was originally quite normal, but when she said this, it was like something she was ashamed to talk about. Lin Xiao couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth and said, "These things will be there in the future." The most important thing now is to decide what you like. ”

"I really like my current job, although sometimes I feel annoyed when there are too many things, but I am still very happy to have a job, a future and hope. ”

"Then you work hard, at least in VISION, you can see hope. ”

So, Chen Niannian held this idea and continued to maintain high-intensity work. Until finally, on the way back to the company from the factory, he had a heart attack and fell directly into the lake.

The rest of the matter is a matter of course.

Even though it was Chen Niannian who concealed his illness that led to the tragedy, the high-intensity work and overtime still pulled VISION down. At the same time, Chen Niannian's direct leader and master Lin Xiao was trapped forever.

After the tragedy, not only VISION, but also Lin Xiao was on the cusp.

Lin Xiao left all his savings to Chen Niannian's parents, resigned and left VISION, and shrank in his own home for more than half a year. It wasn't until the mortgage was in a hurry that I had to come out to work.

Lin Xiao always felt that it was his ridiculous so-called "seriousness" and "hard work" that would cause Chen Niannian to continue to work regardless of his physical condition.

If the other party met not her, but other departments, supervisors with a relatively peaceful mentality, or even other small companies that were more relaxed and quiet, Chen Niannian might not be like this.

"Do you really think so?" Huang Lu suddenly spoke, saying the first sentence since he came out.

He put the cigarette in his mouth, and his voice sounded a little slurred: "If it was really you who did it, you should go to jail instead of doing the so-called ridiculous introspection here." ”、

The wind by the lake was really strong, and the smoke he had just exhaled was instantly dispersed, and the smoke slowly diffused all around, as if the whole person had fallen into a hazy and gloomy filter.

It's hard to tell his emotions.

Lin Xiao didn't continue to speak for a while. She had to admit that even so, she had no way to forget that when Chen Niannian said to herself that she wanted to work hard, her eyes were so bright that they seemed to be glowing.

Some people are in high-rise buildings, and the so-called struggle and hard work dreams can be done without the need for chicken ribs. But there are people who are themselves on the flat ground, and they keep moving forward, but they are just necessary for life.

"Whatever you want to have, you have to give, and everything is right. Huang Lu's voice was flat, even to the point of being a little indifferent: "It doesn't matter if you work hard, or be content with the status quo, but it's all for yourself, there is never anything right or wrong, and there is no right or wrong." ”

"Everything is your own choice, no matter what the final consequences are, you have to bear it alone. Huang Lu looked at her with an indifferent expression: "Isn't it?"

"Guilt and self-blame can never trap people in their place. ”

"Fantes doesn't need such people either. ”

The New Year's bell finally rang, and thousands of fireworks burst out at the same time, reflecting the originally dark sky. The brilliant fireworks were reflected on the faces of the three people, all of which were completely different colors.

"Happy New Year!"

"Happy New Year!"

The square erupted in bursts of cheers and celebrations, as if joy had overwhelmed the world.

"Happy New Year, let yourself go. ”

Lin Xiao heard Huang Lu say in a voice that was so light that it was almost inaudible.