So far, the trip to Xishuangbanna has been completed. In fact, Banna's Mohan Port and Keno Cottage are also places I yearn for very much, and not being able to visit is a small regret, but it doesn't matter, as long as Gege feels no regrets, it doesn't matter. After all, based in Yunnan, there are still many opportunities in the future.

After a short break, we bought some big and cheap pineapples from the local area and decided to return to Spring City.

The way back was all daylight, the weather was breezy and cloudy, and we ran on the highway unhurriedly, and the beautiful scenery along the way was everywhere.

Gege looked thoughtfully at the upside-down scenery outside the window, and remained silent, and we drove silently for a long time.

Later, Gege turned around and suddenly asked, "Do you have any goals in life?"

The sudden question made me slightly stunned, thought about it seriously, and said: "When I graduated from college, I also set life goals and planned my life trajectory, but I was slowly faded by reality and gradually forgot the previous plan, the general situation is not good, and I don't have the heart to struggle and toss around, let's take a step and see a step!"

As soon as the words came out, I regretted in my heart, such a depressed attitude to life, I can say it calmly, so what hope can others have for me?

I hurriedly glanced sideways at Gege next to me, only to see her shake her head slightly, sigh a little disappointed, and then start to look at the scenery outside the window again.

Although she did not comment on my attitude towards life, it could be inferred from her sighs that she was angry at her misfortune.

I felt that I was a little wronged, and the negative attitude towards life was not my subjective will, which must be explained here, so that she could not misunderstand, so I hurriedly asked, "Why don't you speak?"

"It's nothing, I don't know what to say, I've met a lot of people who say that the big situation is bad in the past two years, and as a little woman who has no achievements, she shouldn't comment on you big men. ”

"Ah, don't, the so-called authorities are confused bystanders, as an authority is really very confused, and no one has ever been willing to help answer questions, so I can only continue to 'don't know the true face of Lushan', if you have any comments or suggestions, just tell me, so that I can understand the true face of Lushan. ”

"You should have a good academic background and have a special talent, but I don't know what the level of professionalism is, so it's hard to give good advice. ”

After listening to her words, I said: "Well, the academic qualifications are okay, the skills are okay, and the specialties are not obvious." ”

"Look, your pattern doesn't seem to be big, you only see your major, but you ignore your own strengths, such as writing. Gege heard my remarks of avoiding the important and immediately criticized him.

"Hmm, do I have this specialty? Even if I did, I hadn't grown to the point of being outstanding, so could it be of any use?"

"It's rare to see you humble once, in fact, your specialty is already longer than most people, I think you can take the civil service exam, just by virtue of your writing level, the civil service exam will be much easier than the average person. ”

"Civil servant? I think the position of civil servant is difficult to help me realize my dream, and secondly, if I take the examination for a position where I have nothing to do every day, I will not only waste my profession but also learn anything else.

"There is some truth in what you said, but is the current state very good? Don't you feel that you are a little high or low?

"You're right, but ......" As soon as I said this, I saw Gege wave his hand and say, "Okay, stop, I don't want to argue with you." ”

I didn't say anything more, and she lost interest in continuing to talk about life.

For the rest of the road, the atmosphere inside the car has been very quiet.

I thought about the conversation just now, I seem to have been looking for a reason for my own lack of effort, the idle life day after day has made me develop a lazy attitude to life, the current state is to eat and wait for death, it doesn't matter if the dream is thrown aside, anyway, it will not starve to death, it seems that the downturn is really a soft knife that kills people without seeing blood, it destroys a person's dreams silently, and destroys a person's original intention to work hard.

When it was getting dark, I finally arrived in Spring City, and I asked, "Gege, it's not too early, I'll arrange a hotel for you, and then go to have dinner, you can have a good rest in the evening." ”

"No arrangement, I'm not hungry, just send me to the train station, I'll go back to Lijiang." She rejected my offer in a noncommittal tone.

In this case, I am not a person who drags mud and water, I go to the station when I go to the station, and when I arrive at the station, there is a ticket that is about to depart, and the two of them stand in the station square full of vigilance, and I look very embarrassed when I want to speak and stop.

At this time, Gege smiled slightly and said: "I am very happy on this trip, thank you for accompanying me all the way, you are a boy with cultivation, connotation and knowledge, you are so good, don't be so sad, I'm going to the station, you go back, don't think too much." ”

When she said this, my heart was very nervous, especially when I said the string of parallel sentences of "you are a ......", I involuntarily added a sentence in my heart "You are a good person", although she did not say this, but it seemed that a "good person card" had been issued, my mood was instantly very depressed, I wanted to say something more, but I was speechless, only a thousand tears in my heart.

I thought hard for a while, and finally held back the four words: "Have a good trip." ”

After Gege left, the joy of this trip was gone, and I drove to Lao Zhao's house full of melancholy.

After parking the car in the parking space, he called Lao Zhao and told him not to come out at home, and gave him the key the next day.

However, after Lao Zhao learned that I had arrived downstairs at his house, he insisted on letting me wait where I was, saying that I was going to go to the nearby box park to have a barbecue together.

I thought about it and felt that this decision was not bad, otherwise I would be alone in a daze when I went back, and I would be even more depressed when I was depressed.

Lao Zhao came out quickly, men just have such a common advantage, from deciding to go out to going out very quickly. If it's a woman who decides to go out on the spur of the day and asks you to wait? It's better to find a coffee nearby, order a cup of coffee, find a movie from your phone, and then return to the same place after watching a movie, and that's pretty much it.

Box Park, as the name suggests, should be a park, but when Lao Zhao arrived at the park, he found that there were vegetable sellers, department store sellers, food, and barbecue, which was very different from my initial judgment. There is a lot of food here, barbecue can be found everywhere, and it is really a good place to have a late-night snack.

After sitting down, Lao Zhao looked at my unhappy expression and asked jokingly: "Lao Du, what's wrong? When I went out on a date, I didn't take precautions, and I got pregnant before I got married?

"Go, just talk nonsense, at this age, if you are unmarried and pregnant, do you still need to be depressed? Why don't you hurry up and set up a restaurant to celebrate?"

"What's the matter? Isn't it supposed to be full of joy and pride?"

I thought about it for a while, and felt that this matter was full of negative energy, and there was no need to say it again to exaggerate others, so I said: "Don't mention the unhappy things, it's actually quite fun to go out to play, but it didn't happen that you thought about those spring things, stop speculating, my reputation doesn't matter, it's not too kind to ruin other people's reputation." ”

"Heh, look at your complexion, although you are in a bad mood, but your spirit is vigorous, and you don't lose your energy. If you don't care about your own feathers and defend others, do others know your good intentions?"

"Alas, what you do is not to let others see or know, the key is to have a clear conscience, if you can't cross the moral bottom line in your heart, it will definitely not work. ”

I first talked about the moral character of a person from the height of morality, and then continued: "It's not that I am willing to be unknown and selfless, but what is the point of being intentional and ruthless in falling flowers, and I have to show what I have done in front of others?"

Hearing this, Lao Zhao seemed to realize something, and laughed "hehehe". At this time, the skewers and beer were brought up very appropriately, and Lao Zhao opened two bottles of beer and said very happily: "Come on." ”

It can be seen from "how to solve worries only Du Kang" that drinking alcohol is the best way to relieve melancholy, so I raised the bottle and replied with a cheerful "dry".

"Tons and tons of ......", the two drank the whole bottle of beer at the same time.

After drinking, Lao Zhao handed over a skewer and said, "There is no grass at the end of the world, why bother looking for it by your side." Miss a tree and there's a forest ahead. ”

That being said, what is the source of my unhappiness? I'm still a little ambiguous, am I being given a good person card? Or am I complacent with the status quo and not wanting to make progress?

I ate a skewer, oops, it tastes really good, it's delicious. I sorted out my thoughts and said, "Lao Zhao, do you think I'm eating and waiting for death every day?"

"Yes, but it's not that you're eating and waiting to die, it's us all eating and waiting for death, don't be afraid, you have to die together, and you won't be alone on the way to death. Lao Zhao did not hesitate to affirm my doubts.

His words make people feel very warm but also very stinging, the warm thing is not alone, the stinging thing is that he is really eating and waiting for death.

"Lao Du, I recommend a part-time job to you, it looks like it is tailor-made for you. Lao Zhao suddenly said slyly.

Looking at his expression, I guess nothing good, but it didn't matter, I was still full of interest, so I asked, "Tell me about it?"

"There are a lot of dog owners in this city, and a dog's life is basically composed of three parts: eating, sleeping, and walking, all of which are indispensable. ”

"Huh, dog life, how do I feel like you're cursing?"

"Huh?" Lao Zhao was stunned for a moment, and then hurriedly explained: "Lao Du, you think too much, don't you have one more time to work?"

"Oh, it looks like I'm going to work more than a dog. ”

"Being able to go to work is the biggest difference between normal people and animals. ”

"There are still many people who never work and are lazy to do it every day. ”

"Lao Du, I'm talking about normal people who can work, who have the ability to work but can work if they don't work. ”

"You're quite thoughtful in what you say, forget it, don't worry about it. It's no wonder that people often call single dicks 'single dogs', and there are indeed great similarities. ”

"Are you laughing at yourself?"

"Well, I don't know if I'm a dick or not. ”

"You, not exactly. ”

"Well, how do you say that?"

"Dick Si refers to mediocre and idle people, and you belong to technical talents, as long as you have the opportunity, you can create a lot of value, so it does not meet the basic characteristics of Dick Si, but when there is no opportunity, it is a bit like. ”

"Alas, helpless, by the way, what were you going to say just now?"

"Oh, then I'll continue. Many dog owners are very lazy, when walking the dog, the dog is just strolling around, but the owner is already tired, the dog can not enjoy the joy will be depressed, and even accumulate depression. Due to the fact that this phenomenon is relatively common, the profession of 'dog walking' came into being, and the market is quite broad. Lao Zhao introduced me carefully.

It sounds a little interesting, but I think of the experience of being bitten by dogs a few times, and I feel that it is still unsafe, so I said: "I was born with a dog's life, and I was bitten by a dog. ”

"This is not afraid, you don't take on the business of walking large dogs and fierce dogs, only take some small dog walking business such as Pomeranian, Teddy, Chihuahua, etc., so it is safe and effortless, it has to go where you want to go, the golden retriever is not good, although docile but too strong, basically it has to go where it wants to go, and it is not good. "Lao Zhao's analysis is quite in place.

"Why does this sound like a bad job?"

"No, foreign countries have developed dog walking apps, and you can book a dog walking specialist according to customer needs. In the process, live text broadcast, GPS tracking and other methods are also used to ensure that the owner knows the process of walking the dog. Staff also need to pass special training and pass the assessment before they can take up their posts. ”

"If you walk a smart dog, it's better, but if you walk a stupid dog, defecate everywhere, you can't understand what you say, and you have a headache to death. ”

"Don't worry about this problem, you can find someone to walk the dog is basically rich people, rich people's dogs, where there are stupid ones, they are all good breeds, one is smarter than the other. People who have stupid dogs are not in a position to hire someone to walk the dog on their behalf. Lao Zhao told the truth in one sentence.

"Alas, I'm single, and I have to drag a dog every day, this combination is a veritable 'single dog', the meaning of the picture is too unlucky. ”

Lao Zhao smiled again, and then said: "I see that your peach blossoms have been very prosperous recently, and it is estimated that your single life will not last long." ”

Lao Zhao's comfort was very much in line with me, but when I thought of breaking up with Gege, I felt lost again.