Of course, I can't say anything about Lisa's words, because no matter how you say them, there is no way to solve the current dilemma.

This has nothing to do with my relationship as a top student, and it has nothing to do with anything else.

The reason is that I love Han Liu so deeply, and that is just my own personal matter, not about Han Liu's affairs, let alone about Ouyang Qianqian's affairs.

These two things are completely unrelated.

I continued to eat the skewers of beef, I had my head down at this time, I didn't know what to say, what else could I say, I had been speechless about all these things.

I continued to gnaw, and this lisa was interrogating me about what had happened to me back then, and I told him a few words, but he was still like a gossip reporter, chasing endlessly.

"What happened back then that made you so touched, there must be something you can tell me?"

I babbled a few words in reply.

"I can't say anything about that thing, we used to talk about it for a while, and it was only a little time, I was also in my high school days, but then some things changed, some problems happened, he proposed to break up, I thought it was actually quite good to break up like this, and it didn't matter, because you know that we haven't been particularly smooth together, and both of us are very fond of arguments, and not to take a step back for each other makes people feel that such a quarrel, tired of each other, so for this once the best first love, maybe there is a little bit, I just affirmed, I really don't care about the other party anymore, so I'll tell you that I've really let go, and I swear by the name of the doctor!"

I gritted my teeth to say this sentence, and every word I said was like boasting.

Lisa was clearly already angry, and she was already angry with me the way she was, and she probably hated it even more, and slapped it directly on this wall, with a kind of righteous indignation.

"I don't care so much about you, I don't care if you love it or not, then why do you if you really don't care at all, why do you show those ecstatic looks on my birthday, why do you seem to be going to die or live, as if you want your life, I tell you not to bully me, I don't remember what happened that night, that night I thought you were so weird, some were different from usual, high-profile people didn't feel the same, I thought you were very happy that day, it turned out that Han Liu came, right？”

Lisa was really angry.

She really only says these barbaric words when she is angry, which is usually not like this, she usually looks like a human and a dog, pretending to be the image that those celebrities and ladies should have.

In fact, my personality is the same as her, just like when I am really angry, I just greet Ye Jingbei in my heart.

I ate all of these barbecues, and I watched calmly.

"Why is what you said really right, I tell you that my fate with him is gone, really, since we broke up, we have never met once in three years, we have not had a phone call has been inhumane, you think about it He is just in the school next door to me, we have not met, you think about it again, the other party already has a girlfriend, and I, also have a boyfriend, I think the two of us get along like this is very good, why bother to dwell on those past events, after a while, everyone may have forgotten those messy things, because after all, this is just a first love, Maybe I already had my own children at that time, I had already married a family, I would have followed my children to talk about the stupid things of my mother back then, it was just a first love, those youthful years at that time, in fact, it really won't be so important, I will tell my woman how good my studies were, I was a top student back then, not only obsessed with Jacky Cheung's songs. ”

I went and went all the way to bragging, and seemed to have a more inattentive attitude, and he suddenly looked at me and was not angry, and just sat there looking at me, with a long sigh, as if he had been coaxed by my situation.

In fact, I often coax myself because of this situation, making myself feel that many things will pass quickly, and it is not a big deal, maybe I will endure everything and everything will be calm.

Just like when I knew that my mother and father had been in a car accident, I died again and again, I cried again and again, but every time I had to hold back.

I endured it for many years, and finally calmed it down, because I knew that my father and mother would never come back.

There are many things, what sad things can only be known by yourself, and those things can only make yourself more clear.

So no one knows what I have suffered, all those years I kept crying in the middle of the night, I deceived myself over and over again, I endured it, I had to endure it, I had to endure it.

So no matter how great the suffering is, I think I have endured it, so what is there that I can't bear compared to the suffering of my mother leaving me, the worst has passed, the worst has happened, what else is there?

I once remembered one of the best female writers saying it.

Because he once described a thing in a book, I can't bear it anymore, I can start over again if I can't bear it, I have already lived to this day, so if I don't bear it, I would have followed my father and mother about three years ago.

So for this sentence, I deeply understand that there are some things that you must give back if you are sad and sad.

I guess my eyes, my demeanor, made Lisa look shocked, and she was scared.

So after a long period of time, I often looked in the mirror in the dormitory, and I looked at myself in the mirror, those black circles, pale face, and I was startled by my sad demeanor, but I don't know why, my demeanor today is revealed again, with a kind of helplessness, a kind of loneliness, with a kind of confusion about the future.

Lisa looked at me, suddenly reached out and hugged me tightly, crying at me.

"Leng Shuiyue, I know you must be in a very uncomfortable mood, if you feel sad, you will cry happily, just cry if it's okay, you can't get over anything, you will definitely not be able to get over this hurdle, don't you say it? It's a thing of the past, it's a fantasy, sleep and eat a braised meat skewer, everything is fine!"

I felt a serious smile at her, with a nonchalant teasing, and with a woundedness.

"Lisa, I've already told you, it's just a story that happened three years ago, I don't feel anything anymore, I don't feel anything uncomfortable, I just feel like a lot of things are like this, it's really okay. ”

She gently patted me on the back and was really uncomfortable with the way I looked.

"Leng Shuiyue, your appearance makes me feel sad, I can't even feel better now, I can't eat tonight, it's really annoying. ”

Actually, it's nothing, really, those things are just these words that the literati say exaggeratedly, and when you think about it, you will realize that all this is just that, and what you think is a very profound language is actually just a few seconds in a flash.

I took a nap, and when I woke up, I forgot about Han Liu today, because I had more important things to deal with now.

Of course, only Ye Jingbei called me, that is, I had to go all out to deal with him, and when he came, I didn't have too much thought to think about my sad things that had happened in the past three years.

I must now cheer up and go all out to deal with Ye Jingbei.

I took a Didi taxi from school and drove all the way to the villa, I was still a little nervous, I don't know why, I always felt that something was faintly inappropriate, because he said that he was a little cold to me during this time, and kept a certain distance from me.

According to Ye Jingbei's previous living habits, he should come back every six months or every other month, but I don't know if it's a good phenomenon, it's still a very common bad thing.

So I'm not sure what the other person's attitude is towards me, is the other party starting to get tired of me, is he ready to kick me away?

When I first entered this house, I saw that there seemed to be a lot of workers in it renovating and demolishing.

I looked inside, and it turned out that the workers were dismantling some old furniture, bringing in some new furniture, and then installing some lamps and lanterns, busy like ants, neat and regular.

Everyone is busy.

I also looked at everyone, and at this time I saw that the housekeeper was completely concentrating on arranging the decoration of this lamp, as if he was guiding how to install it more safely and properly.

The butler didn't seem to notice my arrival, and just raised his head and commanded the workers.

"Yes, you can take your time to the left, take out the pendant from the side little by little, put it in the box, and then move more gently, this is an authentic crystal glass, don't have any damage, I'd rather take it slowly and slower a little." ”

In fact, I also know that these Chinese-style jewelry is a favorite of Ye Jingbei.

These things have been accumulated by him over the years, and I know that my collection is not something that we can easily touch, and if I accidentally break something, I will not be able to pay it off for the rest of my life.

So I never touch it.

I only touch it when I'm crazy, and I'm not stupid.