She just stood in a daze, and after a long while, she tried to do as usual, and said, "I've been a little busy lately, I'll see you when I'm free." ”

Her voice was low, and it took a lot of effort to say that sentence.

Song Ting is sensible, and after answering the problem, he hung up the phone after sensibly letting her busy.

Song Yu held the mobile phone and stood for a long time without moving. After a long time, she closed her eyes and leaned against the wall, and she didn't open her eyes again until Tang Xu hadn't seen her come looking for her for a long time.

The two did not stay in the Tang family's old house at night, and returned to the new house after dinner.

Song Yu was unusually silent and never spoke. Tang Xu talked to her, but she didn't seem to hear it, and she would react when he said a few words.

There was a rare lack of traffic jams along the way, and it was only eight o'clock when I arrived at the new house. When Tang Xu was on the road, he received a call from his assistant and needed to meet a customer who came over temporarily. He was going to send Song Yu upstairs, but Song Yu refused, saying that he would let him go and do his job, and she would just go back by herself. Also take a walk to eliminate food.

She has restrained herself well recently, and Tang Xu is quite relieved of her at this time, and she does not insist. At the gate of the community, she was let out of the car.

He quickly drove away, Song Yufa was stunned for a while, and then slowly walked towards the community. The wind at night was a little cool, Song Yu hadn't walked around the community for a long time, and now he walked slowly, looking at the lush plants, and suddenly gave birth to a little bit as if he was in a different world.

She couldn't remember how long it had been since she had seriously felt everything around her. Most of the time, she's like the walking dead. Even, she didn't know what she was living for.

Still dazed, she stopped walking and stared blankly at the mottled shadows of the trees on the ground. She didn't even react when a child ran up to her and bumped into her. It wasn't until the adults behind her apologized to her that she came to her senses.

At this time, it is the time to take a walk after dinner to eat, and there is a little more fireworks in the community than during the day. Song Yu was not in a hurry to go upstairs, and sat down on the long wooden chair on the side.

Looking at the children playing not far away, Song Ting's childish face came to her mind. Perhaps because she was alone, she suddenly became addicted to alcohol.

It was like a devil in her heart, and she couldn't help but want to buy wine. She had been trying her best to control herself all this time, and before she became addicted to alcohol, her willpower was weaker than she could have imagined. She didn't sit any further, and hurried upstairs as if she were fleeing.

When Tang Xu returned home, it was already past twelve o'clock, and the lights in the house were on. Song Yu had been suffering from insomnia all this time, and he was not surprised that she hadn't slept yet. I thought she was watching TV or in the studio, but she didn't. When he entered the house, he realized that she was cleaning. He was lying on the ground and wiping the floor with a towel.

She did it so seriously that she didn't even notice him when he got to the door.

Tang Xu knew that she hadn't slept until now because she couldn't sleep because of insomnia, so after standing at the door for a while, she said, "It's late, don't get it, let Auntie come over to clean it tomorrow." ”

Although Song Yu didn't notice him coming back, he was not surprised to hear his voice. I simply said yes, stood up very calmly, and went to wash my hands.

Tang Xu, as usual, took out the wine from the wine cabinet and handed her a glass after she washed her hands.

Song was silent, and only said thank you in a low voice after taking the wine.

She drank very slowly tonight, and after drinking, Tang Xu didn't let her rest as usual. Knowing that she couldn't sleep, he poured her another glass and let her rest until she was slightly drunk.

The two get along much more naturally now than before, and when they got to the bed, Song Yu curled up in a ball and bit his lip jerkily after Tang Xu got into bed.

She is much more active now than before, Tang Xu's eyes were dark under the soft bedside lamp, and she let her explore jerkily for a while, before she turned passive and took the initiative and grabbed her hand.

Song Yu's mood was low last night, but after getting up the next day, she was no different from usual. I don't know when she got up, but after Tang continued to get up, she had already made breakfast and put it on the table. I boiled millet porridge, steamed buns, and fried eggs.

It was a little late last night, but both of them tacitly didn't mention the evening. Tang Xu raised his eyebrows and went to change his clothes and wash.

In the morning, it was still Tang Xu who sent Song Yu to work, and he didn't care when she carried the lunch box when she went out. When she was sent to the ground, she gave him the lunch box in her hand and said, "It's not good for your stomach to eat takeout all the time, and it's too easy to do it in time, but you can eat it if it's not hot." ”

She even made him takeout. Tang Xu raised his eyebrows, glanced at her, and asked, "What time did you get up?"

She was making a bento box and breakfast, and it would take an hour or two to make her. Last night was tossed until the early hours of the morning, and now it seems that she barely slept last night.

Song Yu didn't expect her to ask that, so she paused slightly, didn't answer what time she got up, but said, "I got up if I couldn't sleep." ”

She didn't look at Tang Xu when she said this, and was about to get out of the car.

But Tang Xu suddenly locked the car door at this time, she opened the car door and couldn't open it, so she couldn't help but look at him.

Tang Xu's whole person was hanging, rubbing his chin with one hand, and said with a thoughtful smile: "Mrs. Tang still has the energy to make a lunch for breakfast so late last night, it seems that I didn't satisfy Mrs. Tang?"

He was like a ruffian, with a pair of peach blossom eyes slightly raised, waiting for Song Yu to answer.

It's been a long time since he's said such shameless words, Song Yu didn't expect him to come out at this time, and after being a little stunned, his face turned red, and he said vaguely as if he didn't hear it: "I'm leaving, I'm going to be late." ”

Tang Xu didn't embarrass her and let her get out of the car. When she was about to close the car door, she said lazily, "I'll wait to pick you up in the afternoon." ”

Song Yu was afraid of being seen by his colleagues, so he nodded indiscriminately and left in a hurry.

Song Yu hadn't seen Ren Yi for a long time, and when Ren Yi called this evening, she saw the name flashing on her phone, and she felt a little away from the world. I stood for a while before I picked up the phone and said hello.

Ren Yi on the other end of the phone didn't speak, and only after a while did he ask when Song Yu was about to speak again, "What have you been doing lately?"

His voice was as cold as ever.

Although he already regarded him as a friend, Song Yu still didn't know what to say, so he simply said nothing.

The atmosphere was a little silent, and after a slight pause to avoid silence, she said, "You're busy, aren't you?"

Ren Yi sighed on the phone and said, "I went on a business trip abroad." He didn't talk any further, and continued: "I haven't seen you for a long time, come out to eat together." I'll be downstairs from your work in a moment, and I'll call you when I'm there. ”

Song Yu was not in the mood to go out to eat, but after a little hesitation, he still responded.

After hanging up the phone, Song Yu called Tang Xu after standing for a while. Tell him she's going out to dinner with friends in the evening so he doesn't have to come and pick him up.

She had barely socialized before, and she hadn't gone out since Yu Manzhu's death. Tang Xu agreed that she was going out to eat, and he didn't ask this or that, so he simply agreed. Let her call him after dinner and he went over to pick her up.

He has always been considerate during this time, probably because he was afraid that she would not be able to withstand the blow and do something. Song Yu did not refuse, and responded with a good word.

After she called Tang Xu, she began to pack her things, and after the things were packed, Ren Yi called her and asked her to go downstairs, saying that he had arrived.

He had probably just gotten off work, and he was dressed in a formal suit. The hair was cut short, and the whole person was cold and detached. Song Yu got into the car, and he just nodded lightly, which was regarded as a greeting.

Song Yu had long been accustomed to getting along like this between the two, and he didn't speak, and fastened his seat belt after getting into the car.

When the car was started again, Ren Yi looked at her again and asked, "What do you want to eat?"

Song Yu was distracted, and when he heard him ask, he was half a beat slower, and only replied after a while: "You can eat anything." ”

Ren Yi stopped asking and nodded.

Ren Yi's emotions are not easily exposed, and his preferences are not easily exposed. To this day, Song Yu still doesn't know what he likes and dislikes. I thought he would find a place he thought was good for him to eat, but he didn't.

After driving for a while, he looked sideways at Song Yu, knocked his fingers on the steering wheel, and said a little lazily: "I've been tired of eating outside recently, it's still early, how about buying vegetables?"

He said as he raised his wrist to look at the time.

It's a cloudy day, and it looks like it's getting dark. But it's not even seven o'clock, and it's still early.

His proposal made Song Yu stunned for a moment, and before she could speak, Ren Yi said again: "If you don't mind, go to my house, although you don't cook much, you have everything you should have." The wine made last time in the villa was brought back, and it tasted good, so you can try it in the past, and you can occasionally drink it and have fun by taking some back by the way. ”

His tone was familiar and casual, as if he had been a friend for many years.

It may be presumptuous to say it from someone else's mouth, but it is not presumptuous to say it from his mouth.

Song Yu subconsciously wanted to refuse, but people are frank and unrestrained, and her refusal inevitably seemed too stingy. She hesitated for a moment, but finally said: "It's too disturbing, I know that the home-cooked food is good, and it tastes very homely." ”

Ren Yi naturally didn't insist, looked at the long dragon blocked in front of him and said, "Then go over and try it." ”

The place Song Yu said was a small restaurant, although it was clean and tidy, but it could be seen that Ren Yi was not used to coming to such a place. But he didn't say anything, and his face didn't change at all.

It's all home-cooked food, although there aren't many people at this time. But because the store is small, it is a little crowded. Song Yu sat down and handed the menu to Ren Yi.

Ren Yi didn't order, saying that it was his first time coming, and he didn't know what was delicious here, so he just let Song Yu watch it.

Song Yu knew that he was not used to it, so he did not refuse, and ordered three dishes and one soup.

The main dish here is home-cooked food, and there are a few dishes that taste a little similar to Zhang's mother's cooking. Song stumbled upon this place when he came out to run the news. It's just that it's far away and rarely comes.

After ordering the food and serving a pot of tea, the waiter went down.

Song Yu picked up the teapot and poured a cup of tea for Ren Yi, and said, "You can try this tea, I heard that the proprietress grows tea in her hometown, and the tea in the store is picked by her personally." ”

Ren Yi nodded, picked up the teacup and drank the tea.

Although this tea is not as good as the tea he usually drinks, it has a unique charm. He didn't put down the teacup, but slowly tasted it.

The place recommended by Song Yu is naturally not recommended indiscriminately, and the dishes here are indeed very homely. Although it is not as delicate as private cuisine.

Neither of them spoke when the two were eating, and when they were almost finished, Ren Yi picked up the teacup and sipped the tea, and asked, "Is there anything going on lately?"

Song Yu said very little, and even his smile was not as much as before. Naturally, he saw it.

Song Yu had tried his best to behave as usual, but he still couldn't do it. She paused slightly when she heard Ren Yi's question, then squeezed out a smile and said, "No." ”

She said that there was no Ren Yi and did not ask, and then drank tea.

The consumption here is not high, and this time Ren Yi did not rush to settle the bill with her again. She stepped out of the diner as she checked out.

Song Yu went out after paying the bill, and saw him standing under the street lamp smoking a cigarette, and his tall figure was a little lonely. Song Yu had never seen him smoke, so he hesitated a little in place before walking over.

Probably heard her footsteps, she was still so far away Ren Yi extinguished the cigarette butt and threw it into the trash can on the side, then looked back at her and said, "Okay?"

Although he only smoked most of the cigarettes, he still had a faint smell of tobacco on his body.

Song Yu nodded and said, "Okay." ”

The expression on Ren Yi's face was faint, she remembered his lonely back just now, hesitated for a while and asked, "Do you have something?"

Ren Yi has helped her a lot, and she hasn't been able to repay his favor.

Ren Yi should have something to do, but he didn't say it. I just said lightly that it was okay.

Song Yu didn't know much about him, so he didn't want to say it and didn't ask again.

The car was parked outside the alley, and both of them had something on their minds, and neither of them spoke for the rest of the day. Walking in silence all the way.

After walking for a while, Ren Yi took out another cigarette and smoked it. This time, Song Yu did not speak again.

It was already past nine o'clock, and when he walked out of the alley, Ren Yi didn't immediately walk to the car, and his footsteps stopped.

Song Yu didn't know why, and when he walked a few steps and saw that he didn't move, he couldn't help but look back at him, hesitated for a moment, and asked, "What's wrong with you?"

Ren Yi didn't answer her words, looked at the time and looked around, saw a bar not far away, and said, "Come with me to sit over there." ”

After he finished speaking, he didn't wait for Song Yu to answer, so he walked to the bar first. Song Yu didn't know what was wrong with him today, so he hesitated and followed.

When he arrived at the bar, Ren Yi ordered a drink and began to drink. Although he was drinking, he didn't give Song Yu any wine. For a person with an alcohol addiction, being in a bar is undoubtedly a temptation.

Ren Yi was wrong today, so that no matter how itchy Song Yu was in his heart, he didn't touch the wine, and sat quietly on the side.

Ren Yi drank a few glasses of wine in a row, then pressed his forehead and said, "I'm sorry." His voice was low and deep.

For a person like him, who has always been rigorous, it is already a gaffe like this.

Song Yu shook his head, wanting to ask something, but he still didn't speak.

Ren Yi drank several more glasses of wine, stood up after settling the account when he was slightly drunk, and said to Song Yu, "Let's go." ”

He was a little clueless like this, and when he got to the car, he reached out and pressed his eyebrows, and then said in a dumb voice: "Sorry, gaffe." Probably because of the drinking, he didn't be silent anymore, paused slightly, and said: "A few days ago, a friend of many years was depressed...... Committed suicide. I met him, but I couldn't convince him. And when he had left his dwelling, he cut his wrists...... By the time they found it, they were no longer dead and were sent to the hospital for rescue...... I couldn't save it again. ”

His voice was hoarse, and his emotions were depressed.

When I heard the word suicide, it was as if something was knocking heavily on my heart. There was a sudden pain that spread through the chest.

Song Yu stiffened his body and didn't move for a while, Ren Yi didn't open his eyes, and then said: "He and his ex-wife are childhood sweethearts, and marriage is a matter of course. After a year of marriage, he got tired and cheated. After being discovered, he filed for divorce. His ex-wife did not reproach and divorced according to his request. ”

It's just that feelings are something that is often lost before they can be perceived as precious. Half a year after he regained his freedom, he suddenly discovered that the person he had always loved was his ex-wife. After waking up, he began to pursue his ex-wife again.

It's just that no one will wait for anyone in the same place, and his ex-wife is unusually indifferent to his re-pursuit. And half a year later, he quickly found a boyfriend and got married in a flash.

He suffered from severe insomnia and depression in the daily drunkenness of the gold fan, and finally committed suicide by slitting his wrists after his ex-wife gave birth in the hospital and knew that there was no hope of reuniting.

He sent him a text message before leaving, saying that the biggest regret in his life was that he didn't cherish his relationship with his ex-wife.

He had just left his apartment when he received a text message and rushed back to notice something was wrong, but it was too late. His body was slowly getting cold after breaking in.

They had known each other since they were students, and he was not a good husband in marriage, but he was competent as a good friend.

There are feelings that once you miss them, you miss them. At his funeral, his ex-wife did not appear. It only appears at the time of burial, but not alone. Rather, with her current husband.

Her current husband cared for her, and she was saddened by his suicide, but only out of friendship with whom she had grown up.

She didn't love him anymore.

Feelings are not first-come, first-come, and once you miss it, you will never be able to do it again.