When people talk about these things all the time, and they talk about all kinds of emotions all the time, of course I don't have any expression at all about this thing, I don't want to discuss so many things with them, I just want to tell them in my own way that I'm not wrong at all, I just want to tell them that this thing is the final decision I made on my own.

So I couldn't bear it anymore and just stood up and said it.

"Then let me tell you about this matter, for me, I want to tell you a major new issue today, I broke up with Ye Jingbei and divorced, this is not who brought it up, this is something we discussed together, we divorced by agreement, neither of us has any mistakes on this issue, we are originally a wrong marriage, we should not exist together in marriage, our ending has been predicted by everyone a long time ago, you know from the beginning, this cannot be maintained。 ”

After I said this, I calmly pulled up my backpack, and I wanted to walk out.

"I'm sorry, you're chatting now, I'm not going to accompany you to eat first, I'll go see my sister first. ”

But after I said this, my father was already very angry, and directly pointed at me and scolded me.

"Leng Shuiyue, after so many years, why do you have to say this? Why don't you have a family interest to think too much about the situation, when did you treat me as your father, you have never heard of my words, right, you understand my words as the wind in your ears?"

One sentence completely angered me, I don't know why I've suffered such indifference for so many years, I don't know why, I suddenly have a kind of courage and courage that makes me can't wait to crack and say it.

"Then I want to ask you, do you really treat me as your daughter, do I really have such an image of a daughter in your mind, and when did you see me as your daughter?

And my father looked very anxious, he immediately jumped like thunder, grabbed the vase on the table next to him and smashed it directly, of course, this is usually an action that only my brother makes, and today I have made such an annoyance and anger, it is conceivable that my father is already very angry, and he is already very anxious.

The brother next to him immediately rushed up to dissuade him.

"Father, don't be angry, it's Leng Shuiyue who is in a bad mood during this time, and you just got divorced and slept well, you don't want to be like Leng Shuiyue, everyone calm down, it's no big deal!"

But looking at my father's appearance was really angry, and it involved a thunderous emotion, and the language was speeding up, shouting very loudly.

"Okay, well, I already knew, you are such a woman at all, since you don't recognize me as a father at all, then since it's okay, let's go to the hospital to do a paternity test, let's identify it thoroughly, to see if you are my daughter, I have long suspected that you are not my daughter at all, if I have a daughter, how can I never think about the interests of the family like you!"

I'm going to be so angry that I swallow tears, and I know the emotions that have happened to me at this time, maybe because of the reason for my divorce, or because I once knew that the secret was still the same in his mind, like a fishbone in our throat.

I don't know why I'm so upset, I just took my scissors and cut off a strand of my hair, I'm on the ground, and I'm going to say something viciously.

"You don't even recognize me as your daughter, and whether I'm your woman today or not, I know that you have met me twice, and I'm grateful that you let me repay what I can. However, I will no longer be able to make any contribution to you in the future, I am actually the one who has divorced Ye Jingbei, from now on, you don't care about me anymore, don't pay attention to me anymore and treat me as if I was an air!"

I never thought I would say such a thing, and with tears in my eyes, I said it to them step by step.

"Okay, the plan I had in mind today has already been said, you should be very glad that after so many years, I finally have a clear thing, and I will look at my sister now. ”

There was silence behind me, I don't know what they thought, maybe they had never seen such anger, maybe I never did, but what happened today, I realized that I was the most important, a pale and powerless, and I might have found a little bit of family existence by such anger. Well.

When I got to the second floor, I saw that my sister was still the same as before, and she looked stupid and stupid, and the scar on her face was a little better, although it didn't look so hideous, but at least how to recover a little bit slowly, maybe a few more cosmetic surgeries, maybe the recovery progress would be faster.

Now my sister is playing, and a Transformer is doing all sorts of moves for them.

I walked to the past, my sister didn't say a word, I just quietly looked at my sister's current appearance, I thought that if my sister married Ye Jingbei, maybe the matter would not really develop to this root and be solved, it is a cousin respected by this family, I am just a mixed-race sorry sister, I really shouldn't have taken away your character at that time, I really shouldn't have done this, these are all my faults, it is me who didn't take good care of your sister.

But.

Sister, do you know? Actually, you shouldn't marry him, marrying him may end up the same as me, this man's heart is the same as iron, because he has already loved another woman, no matter who he is, he can't enter his heart, and his last choice is always that woman.

I walked over.

I gently stroked my sister's hair, now my sister's hair is cut very short because of chemotherapy, unlike the beautiful girl with long hair and curly hair before, but now it has become more pure.

If my sister came to her senses and knew that her very proud hair had been cut into a short hair, she would have been very sad and sad.

I suddenly felt like crying, but I can't cry now, I have to keep a smile on my sister, I have to give my sister more courage, because in front of her, I don't seem to have the strength to cry at all.

"I'm sorry sister, I know the reason why these things are dependent, I hope you don't hate me in the future, I hope the two of us are still as happy as before, do you know? ”

My sister couldn't hear a word I said there, and it seemed like the Transformers who were following were playing a game, and the concubine didn't know what kind of language at all, so she said it slowly.

"Big hero, I know, you're the best person, you're going to take me to fight this world, right? You're going to be the best character here, you're going to be Spider-Man, and Spider-Man is also your good friend, right? ”

"When the moon goes, I will go, and I will follow my brother. ”

I don't know why, I really want to cry, I'm really, really sad, but I suddenly felt that this nursery rhyme was singing this song in my sister's mouth over and over again, it was really strange, I suddenly remembered something once, yes, I once heard such a song in Zihui, when Zihui was in kindergarten, I also taught this song to those children.

I was struck by this, is this song popular? It's a very unique song, but why is there such a situation? Do the two of them know each other? Or is it the reason why they are singing the same song?

I don't know why, I suddenly felt this kind of very strange emotion, I felt very curious and even very suspicious, but whether this feeling is because I read too many novels, or I can't find such a content, I always feel that there must be something in it that I can't understand, but something I can't understand.

My sister rolled her eyes, but she heard an older brother next to her say at the door.

"Leng Shuiyue, what are you thinking? Now that you see your sister's appearance, you should just comfort her, it's hard to recover now. ”

I stood up, and I saw my brother standing in the doorway, and I walked out of the gate pretending to be very direct.

"What's the matter? I just feel a little sad, and I'm a little sad to see my sister like this. ”

I said after I walked out.

"Brother, in the future, what about the family affairs, you may have to take care of it more, I may not come back for a long time, so the matter on my father's side, if you can tell him at the right time, I was so impulsive just now, then it is really hard for you to take care of them!"

My brother looked at me and smiled.

"Leng Shuiyue, you don't want to be in the housekeeper's affairs, wait for you to be in a better mood, come back when you are calmer, in fact, everyone may be a little more inevitable in this regard, and may be a little heavier when you speak, you know? ”

I often sigh too.

"Actually, I know that my personality is sometimes very impulsive, and sometimes it may not be as likable as others, but from tonight, I may have to live independently, I like to feel like this, if there is anything in the future, come back to me. ”

After saying this, in fact, I really smiled, whether I pretended to be relaxed or lived hard, but now, I am really not very confused about the future, maybe I should have a better plan for life, no matter what, I should go step by step, I don't want to write myself into a very difficult predicament because of the appearance of such a thing.

My brother patted me on the shoulder.

"Do you know Leng Shuiyue? Actually, when I fell out with my family before, I was able to get out of this comfort zone, I really may not have held on and come back, but no matter what, you must hold on, get out of this comfort zone, my brother once did not get the independence and freedom, help me realize this dream. ”

In fact, I know that it is not that my aunt did not persevere, because it is a family inheritance, and my brother needs to return to the family to take on this responsibility, and maybe it is also the kind of free life he yearns for in his mind.

I nodded, and I had a little bit of tears in my eyes, because it turned out that I couldn't stay in this house at least so far.

When I got home, I went to re-examine all my accounts, made an assessment of all my current assets, made a statement of all my bank cards and a financial statement, and I saw how much money I could use now.

I calculated every cent of the account clearly, I was about 12:00 later, I had my God, I found out that I was really pitiful, I really didn't save money, although my salary during this period was quite high, but I spent a lot of money to belong to the moonlight clan.

Oh my God, I'm so depressed, I'm really just now realizing that I want to spread my wings and want to get out of here, and now it's really hard to move an inch, and my money is too much pressure on me.

I used to think that I could travel abroad and stand and settle.

But now I have found out that my reserve wealth is too small, so it is indeed relatively difficult to realize such a dream, and now the cost of going abroad, this ratio of money is currently not recorded in the financial realm.

I lay on the couch, and I looked up to the sky and sighed.

"Dear, if I don't buy such a luxury building that day, I don't need so much money every day, I feel like I have enough everything, why should I waste these things so much?"

In fact, when I was really going to study abroad, I prepared for myself, and I thought that everything could go on according to normal life, at least there would be no shortage of money, but I found out that I now went to buy the best bags, to buy the best clothes, to go to the most exclusive galleries to get my head done, to choose the best quality socks, and even my slippers were Chanel's.

Now that I've become a moonshine clan, what am I doing, and why is the money only included when it's spent?

But that's it, I definitely can't just break down like this, I started to seriously and actively think about some various methods on the second day, if I don't have enough funds, then I can only apply for the union method to go abroad, and then when I go abroad, I will go to work part-time, and then work a few more jobs, and then I can save my living expenses.

Yes, I have to apply for these things and try them out now, so I basically ran through this aspect of the relationship and filled out various forms to get them reviewed as soon as possible.

When I finished eating in the afternoon, I was really tired, so I sat directly on the bench in this park, and I was thinking, if it really didn't work, it would be no problem for me to come forward and find Chen Feng to borrow some money.

But I can't find it so small, forget it, I can't find too much trouble, and now that he is in this situation, if he thinks that I borrow money, he will definitely look down on me, and then this kind of relationship will not even be able to do friends, and that kind of relationship is very embarrassing.

No, I think women, in the most difficult times, you have to rely on yourself no matter what.

No, I have to keep trying, I have to continue to have my own way to get more resources, I have to tell myself that I can get more opportunities.

I ran for a few days a year to fill in various files, and later wrote a few application materials, and I was able to get a study abroad office.

Of course, this work and study actually depend on one of the reasons why my members work in the company, so it must be a big part of Chen Feng's face.

At the same time, when I heard that I was going to study abroad, I really felt that it was a pity, and I was a little reluctant to give up.

"Leng Shuiyue, I don't think you should go, I write, I think you are developing very well here, and you are very good at public relations work in this area, and you know very well how to socialize, how to make adjustments in this area, we are short of talents like you now. ”

I just smiled at such a comfort.

"Don't say so much, in fact, these things can only be a lifetime of things, and I really want to study abroad, do it for a long time, people will have a kind of inertia, maybe slowly thinking will be firm, I want to try other methods, maybe I can have a better experience." ”

Actually, only I know that I want to leave here, not because I want to study abroad, I just because I really want to leave here, I don't want to stay here, there are too many things here that make me feel sad, very sad, I don't want to touch the scene.

Of course, if I go abroad for a few years, I think it's good, and I hope that many things will change naturally.

My plan to go abroad has been a normal hobby on my own, I think no matter what, since I must go out of the valley, I will invite my classmates and friends to have some rubbing.

I invited a lot of people, I posted this post, of course, I actually only have one thought in my heart, I have to get this money in a short time, because I have to have this money, so that I can spend at least three months of my living expenses abroad, otherwise I won't even get a penny.

Of course, in fact, these things I think are very practical, although it seems a little too pragmatic, but for short-term behavior, it is obviously not omnipotent.

After I chose a date, about two weeks passed.

I only invited everyone to a five-star hotel, although there seemed to be quite a lot of people, and I was thinking that in the past few years, I have actually participated in various kinds of parties seriously.

So it makes sense to get the money back.