Whether it is Director Kosugi or Masahiko Kondo, although the rhetoric of the two sides to persuade her to withdraw from the award is different, they are all talking about asking her to make concessions.

The difference is only that it should be given to Hiroshi Gogi or to Masahiko Kondo.

When she realized this, Akina Nakamori suddenly felt an unspeakable loneliness, a sadness that she had been being demanded by others.

When I was a child, at home, as a member of a huge family, neither elder nor younger, in order to be able to win the attention of my family, in order to be able to be praised, I always sacrificed my own personality and put the will of others before my own.

After entering the entertainment industry, after debuting as an idol, he got acquainted with Kondo Masahiko and was cared for and cared for by him, so he fell in love with him. As a result, the good times didn't last long, and soon after they started dating, their boyfriend began to mess with flowers and grass outside.

Before I got the stable life I was looking forward to, I first had the trouble of being betrayed repeatedly.

Despite this, Akina Nakamori, who has never been treated first in her life, when she was hurt, she thought about the care and care that Masahiko Kondo had really given, and she also missed his true feelings at the beginning.

When she was a child, everyone in the family was crammed into the small living room to watch TV, and no one paid extra attention to her. She deliberately imitated the funny artists on TV to make her family laugh.

If the atmosphere of the family is like this, can other things be changed by such efforts? Just like the family members who didn't pay attention to her, laughed and praised her at that moment, and focused their attention on her.

It doesn't matter if it's unproductive, or anything else, something that has never been obtained, and when you get it once, you never forget it.

However, no one told her that life requires such patience.

To endure the excessive demands and betrayals of your family, to endure your boyfriend's troubles, to passively think about others, the value of life seems to have always been dedicated, and no one has ever been on her side, first for her sake.

Is it really possible to live a life that has been dedicated like this? Akina Nakamori asked herself.

Director Kosugi said that the oath was true, and Kondo Masahiko said that the sky was full of flowers, but in the end, it still hasn't changed, let her dedicate her life.

In a dilemma, feeling forced to breathe, Akina Nakamori remembered very clearly the day she met Shinichi Iwahashi in the recording studio.

That day, after inviting him to listen to the recording, he said to himself, "This is a song that I can't sing a second time." ”

Akina Nakamori heard the concern in his words and felt the sincerity and tenderness with which he treated others.

This man knows how to think about others......

Director Kosugi told her that if she didn't believe him, she would ask the firm. On the side of the office, if she shows hesitation to participate in the big awards, she will definitely push the boat down, because they don't want to offend the singing industry.

If the firm really supported her to withdraw from the big prize to make way for others, as Director Kosugi said, it would be a great harm to her.

If the firm that has always believed in her and is trusted by her is not for the sake of the artist, but only wants to protect its own firm, then it will lose its trust in the firm and will not be able to continue to cooperate as before.

Akina Nakamori was in a dilemma, and she couldn't ask the firm's opinion on the matter.

And in the midst of such a dilemma, Iwahashi Shinichi's sincerity shone like a precious gem, making her involuntarily want to seek his help in her heart.

However, she and Shinichi Iwahashi don't know each other.

What has always been between them is a silk thread as thin and unpredictable as spider silk. I don't know how hard I can withstand the pull, and I don't know when it will break off naturally.

This kind of unknown connection, which will be broken at some point, makes Akina Nakamori unexpectedly lose the kind of caution that needs to be risked when he is in front of him, and his heart becomes stable, and he is not afraid to be himself in front of him.

If Shinichi Iwahashi knew what was going on in her heart, I don't know how she would feel.

However, it would be nice to meet with him and discuss this matter with him.

Akina Nakamori prayed in her heart that she could see him again. However, once I had the idea of taking the initiative to meet, I realized how weak a relationship without burdens was.

In the past, when I went to work at a TV station or a recording studio, I didn't think that I would meet Shinichi Iwahashi, but when I turned the hallway or entered or exited the elevator, I occasionally thought that I might meet him here, and then I said hello while thinking about what a coincidence.

But now, when she goes to the recording studio in Shimbashi or TV Asahi, she always thinks in her heart that it would be nice to meet him, and every time she leaves with hope, she always leaves in vain.

With feelings and fate, I met again and again, and although I didn't have to carry any baggage in my heart, I was able to communicate calmly. However, once you lose this fate, it means that you will never have the opportunity to see each other again.

And in the midst of such repeated requests and can't get it, Akina Nakamori vaguely realizes that behind such an urgent desire to meet such a person who will think about her, there is an antipathy to giving way to others and a life of continuous dedication.

......

Akina Nakamori knew that Shinichi Iwahashi was involved in the production of a show called "Band Heaven". When she wanted to meet but couldn't see each other, on Saturday night, when she went to the studio to record, she went to the pantry and turned on the TV during the break.

The timing was just right, and the opening movie had just finished on TV, and the camera swept over the representative seats behind the censors, and Akina Nakamori saw Shinichi Iwahashi sitting there at a glance.

He was talking to the female delegate sitting next to him. Before Akina Nakamori could see clearly, the camera returned to Yuji Miyake. He explains:

"At the beginning of this issue, representatives of Crown Records and Polystar Records sat down in the audience, with the dream of being able to sign in with their favorite newcomers...... Of course, it's just a dream now. ”

Akina Nakamori made Yuji Miyake's words amused.

The agent Big Ben came over with a cup, a little surprised, "Mingcai-chan still watches the band heaven?"

"Well, just in time for a change of channel. Akina Nakamori said.

"Yes, my children and my wife are very happy. ”

"Mrs. too?"

"That's right, it's fun to say that these bands are participating...... Eighty percent of them still have handsome guys to watch. "I'VE HEARD THAT BANDMAN IS VERY POPULAR. ”

On the TV, Yuji Miyake finished his witty remarks and turned to the topic, "So, in order to make your dreams come true, today's show will begin, let's invite the first band-"

Akina Nakamori smiled, didn't answer again, and focused on the TV.