I really looked for a job for a few days, and it really didn't work out after that, and these places are not good jobs at all, 9 to 6 tired.

However, I don't want to complain to anyone since this thing is something I chose, and I think I've made such a decision, so I am obligated to do so.

It was already more than ten o'clock, I suddenly remembered that the puppy in the house has not been fed yet, I really feel very greedy, I feel that I am really not suitable for raising dogs, and I think that if I have a puppy, then I have to raise it, this is a responsibility, it is a life.

I went back exhausted, I couldn't find the injection on the side of the road for half a day, and it happened to be just getting up from work, so I was helpless, I could only go directly.

I didn't expect to walk for a long time, and it took me a full hour to get home.

I'm very tired, I also want to make myself happy, I keep myself better, I don't want to be very depraved, and I don't want to be very decadent, in the end I just dance while walking, I sing a song at the same time, I can sing a lot of songs, I sing Yanzi Sun's songs, I sing Jolin Tsai's songs, I can even sing English songs, every time I go to a place, I praise myself.

I don't even want to care about other people's abuse of me, I don't want to compliment anyone, I just want to be myself.

Right on this path, there are very few people walking on the 9th street lamp, and then I can go and sing some songs while I am in a relaxed manner.

"Ahem, now I invite Hong Kong and Taiwan smart singer Leng Shuiyue to perform a song for everyone, this is one of Leng Shuiyue's famous songs, if you want everyone to listen to it well, please throw flowers over"

All I know is that I didn't have a job today after I got a job one day, but I didn't find the right job, I like to fight with people, and I still have fun helping people, so I got into a fight with people, and this is very bad for me, and I know that I have to use the way to relax now.

When I got home, I looked at the light, and I felt like I wanted to go to bed, and when I got home, I was through a curtain, and I saw that there was still this successful car on the street next to it, and I knew that this thing was really difficult, because I felt that he was usually very busy, and I really didn't want him to be here, and he brought it every day, which caused a lot of psychological pressure on me.

After thinking about it for a while, I thought it would be better to talk to him, because I didn't want to delay him too much.

At this time, Master Chen Feng had already seen me, and he smiled at me.

We haven't seen each other for more than a month, and he is still so suave, and he looks at me with a smile: "What's the matter? What are you busy with all this time? I've been waiting for you for a long time, you're finally down, are you finally willing to come to see me?"

"No, Mr. Chen, you really shouldn't come, you should go to work hard, I know you're very busy working here now. ”

"Why is it for what, Leng Shuiyue told me that you only need to leave this company for him, but why didn't you stay with him for half an hour, is it really because of him?"

He looked very good, and I didn't know how to answer this question to him in a bit of a panic.

Then he said this lightly.

"Actually, if Leng Shuiyue really wants to refuse me, you can tell me directly, and there is no need to leave this house at all?

Me: "Maybe it's because of him, but it's also because of him, I don't think there's any need to care, if you don't care, you have to refuse, I just think there are a lot of things I didn't know to solve at first." ”

He looked at me incomprehensibly, and I knew that he might not understand my thoughts, so I could only talk to him very calmly.

"Mr. Chen, from the very beginning, he told me not to go to his house, let me not work here, and I think I should obey this arrangement, even if this period of time has long passed. ”

But I understood what I was saying, and nodded a little.

I continued: "Actually, I hope that Mr. Chen will never come back in the future, and I don't want everyone to feel embarrassed, and during this time, I am also very busy with work here, but if you have anything, you can just call me, we can talk occasionally when we are free, and we will go to have a meal together." ”

He looked at me and said.

"Okay, Leng Shuiyue, you promise me, I don't want you to see you have a hard time, and otherwise I will definitely come over, if you want to make yourself back, I will be very happy, but I don't allow you to make yourself look like you're rushing. ”

I need not to put on a big smile.

"Don't you think I'm happy now? It's true that this thing is my hard work to get rich, and there has never been anything before, you also live in a circle, you should know that many things are not easy, so I'm very happy, and I take care of the life I dreamed of before, I rely on my own self-reliance, maybe the process is very tiring and uncomfortable, but I always feel that with perseverance, maybe some things will get better, you know. ”

He looked at me with a deep look and a gaze that I couldn't give up.

"The more you say that, the more I can't give up what I have, and the harder it is for me to make this judgment."

"Take your time after that, we're still friends, right, we can have a meal often in the future, now I won't bother you, I'm tired now. ”

Maybe it was fatal for me, but I finally found out that the city was recruiting some important public officials, and I had one of the requirements for experience, and after passing the exam, I could go straight to the town hall, and I thought about it, I should still take this interview, it should be the best change in my life, because after all, I still have the ability to do things.

But after my first interview, my sister was able to participate in the exam training, and when we were training together, there were a few girls, one named Li Li, and the reason why I went to eat and chat with her, and we both lived together.

That's why I think sometimes I'm still a little far away from her, or maybe it's too high or because I see something very real in him, and that thing is very realistic, and it's the current affairs for Junjie.

In the course of this one-week training, I actually met this Ye Jingbei twice, and in this process we had a good chat and communication, that is, we have not become any friends now, but our relationship is getting more and more harmonious, and we can chat and tease each other.

The training process is much the same.

"You left my company, and you came here is actually a good choice, and compared to the case of the company choice, then the choice here may be a little easier, and I especially like to have a girl in your future development should be a little better. ”

He smiled at me, and it always made me feel like there was a deliberate, once-in-one feeling, or that he seemed to be in a state of being.

Actually, I looked down and thought about me for a moment, because I felt that my relationship with him should be kept at a certain distance, or that the relationship between friends might be better.

"Mr. Chen, in fact, to speak from the heart, I know that you may think about this matter for me, and I used to be so willful, of course, in this company or in which company, I treat you like a brother, I respect you very much, and I value your opinions very much, I am true!"

I'm sure he understood what I meant when I said that.

When we went out, after he saw a KFC next to him, he suddenly asked me if I wanted to eat something delicious, and when I nodded and said that she really went inside and got a family bucket.

Me: "Mr. Chen, do you eat this kind of thing too?"

He said: "When I was studying, I liked to eat this kind of thing, and I was very hungry, and although it was said to be junk food, it still tasted delicious. ”

The two of us sat on this bench, next to the park, and there was a lot of management nearby, not to take advantage of the lunch break, to rest here for a while and chat, and there are a lot of couples here, I just happened to have a couple of male husbands next to me, I was a little embarrassed, and I ate chicken legs like that.

"Why did you really want to eat KFC that day?"

I was stunned for a moment, and I suddenly remembered that I might have been in a friend's house that day when I was in the cave and cried in my arms, and I thought that I wanted to eat so much, and he did the same, and bought me a lot of snacks from outside.

I smiled.

"Actually, I also want to try to communicate with these feelings in life, and since I was a child, I really accepted the conditions and accepted the kind of rules at home may be too much, those things can be eaten, those things can't be eaten, so words, I was very envious of those children when I wrote, I can do what I want to eat, and the people in the family tell me about these junk food, not suitable for me is a kind of noble person, a noble person to eat, but what, I watch others eat junk food when they eat so happily, plan, I think this kind of thing is very good, so I have always wanted to eat, eat all this junk food, happy. ”

I looked at him and looked at me deeply, my eyes were a little painful with makeup, I knew that what I said may have touched him a lot, but what I said just now is indeed something I imagined when I was a child.

"So you want to live some ordinary life, right? And to be honest, I also want to live, it's the life of ordinary people. ”

In fact, I don't know why I suddenly remembered that the words he just said from the shape of his mouth were not this sentence at all, it was obviously something else, and I only knew.

If I'm not mistaken, when he said that, I love you like this simple and ordinary you.

Since this meeting, the two of us have been in contact with each other more, and we can very simply, we often meet for 3~2 days, and by the 6th day, I finally called him.

"Chen Feng, do you want to go to the end of the week today, I just received a salary, please eat a McDonald's, plus a tofu skewer, stinky tofu is very delicious, do you want to laugh, you can also go to the food stall next to it, it tastes very good"

He was really very fast, and said to me with a smile: "Leng Shuiyue, I really think you should make up for all the regrets you had when you were a child, it's not bad, and if there is such a situation, if you have such a life, I think it's still very good."

From training to exams, I think that after passing the exams, and this period of time on the job should be said to be relatively busy, and from September to the Chinese New Year, we can play with each other no matter where we are.

Really, the two of us are completely like a big child to eat, drink and have fun, all of them are playing, we go to Xiong's mother-in-law to ride the roller coaster, we go to KTV to sing, we even go to the stall to eat food stalls, and then go to the teahouse to listen to Sichuan opera, to go to the children's paradise to go ice skating, and you can also go to various places to interview for a big adventure, anyway, all kinds of very childish travel methods, all have a clean play.

The two of us even signed up to participate in a game of tearing off the name tag of the running brothers, although it was organized and really happy, I felt that I could relax my whole body in the process.

One day we had to wait in line for two hours to grab that roller coaster with the young crowd, and I think I was really happy about it.

Am I still joking: "Do you think that these two of us can still compete for this position with these college students, maybe they despise us behind our backs, and think about how to dare to play this roller coaster at this time, but what if the heart beats down at this time?"

The two of us hugged each other and laughed, and it was even more contemptuous of the kind of contempt around us.

Speaking from the heart, we finally boarded the roller coaster, oh my God, this fast speed really made my heart really skip a beat, but there was a kind of after-holiday feeling that I felt like I had a feeling in my heart, and as a result, after doing a process, I was really not too scared of a lot of things, and I really challenged a very scared limit.

And we were looking at this intersection when we saw it, and we happened to see a couple not far away, and we saw a couple passionately together.

OMG.

And suddenly I was in this room, I saw Chen Feng's appearance all the time with my dark eyes, in this small space, I felt a very high temperature, because I was a little suddenly overwhelmed.

I don't know why, I suddenly have some buses, and I don't know what to do, I feel a little dizzy on my scalp, I always feel that something is going to happen, and I even feel like I can't control one of his feelings.

Sure enough, he slowly passed the test, and he had a mixture of the cologne smell and the faint smell of tobacco, and he slowly approached me in the process, and his heart was pounding.

For some reason he suddenly lowered his head, and sat in my hand, and in a very elegant voice, it was very painful outside, but inside our room seemed very enthusiastic.

He lowered his head and dug his head into my forehead, and said very seriously.

"I've been waiting for this day for a long, long time, I thought it was the day that you hinted at me, I couldn't control it, I felt that I couldn't do anything during this time, so that my mood could remain calm.

In fact, I was silent, I actually haven't thought about this matter in the past few days, and Ye Jingbei's matter has been reported a lot in the media, and slowly I am thinking why don't I give myself a chance, and after so many days of getting along.

In fact, I found that this success is really a very harmonious and ideal life, and it is different from the general kind of rich second generation and ***, maybe not just talking to me, and he wants something very much, and it is very convenient, in the eyes of many people he is completely a very perfect man.

And this man he loves me, and only loves me alone, and he is so deep, why don't I choose why I want to refuse?

The two of us leaned on our heads, and I could only relax with my own hearts, I wanted to let myself accept this feeling, or this relationship has a great meaning for my future, I can't be with Ye Jingbei This thing is already doomed to this ending for me, why should I let myself be lonely for the rest of my life, it is really a pity for me to leave such a good person.

Then he looked up at me, and the two of us went back to look at the scenery, and didn't say anything about the direction he was going, because he was walking fast and was very patient with me.

Actually, to be honest, I feel very guilty, I know so far, I know that we need some time, and he needs some time, and we slowly give each other more opportunities, or we can only find a good opportunity in the process, maybe that's what I want to get.

I still have a lot of information to check after the evening, because today I am going to receive a tour group to break up what I am doing, I am very interested, anyway, although I drink very much, but I may not have to drink, and if this method is too restrictive, it may cause others to reject.

I think it's better to keep a low profile.

I don't know why this hour has passed, and my heart is still standing on the playground just now, maybe there is something in my heart that I can't put down.

I don't know why, I suddenly felt that this street was jubilant as the New Year was approaching, and my heart was empty.

When I took a taxi, the driver asked me where I was going, and I just vaguely said, "Let's drive in the direction of the north." ”