That night I remember that when I got back to the dorm it was late, or the lights in the dorm were off, and we couldn't go there yet, and when we got back to the dorm, Lisa and I still climbed the wall and climbed into the dorm to get enough sleep.

I went straight to the bathroom to brush my teeth when it was dark, and the minty smell of this black toothpaste rippled directly inside my teeth.

I didn't think there was, the dare was in my mind as if I had forgotten that it was an important thing, just a toothbrush on my stomach, and I remembered a lot of goodbyes, I remembered some of the things just now, and each world was so real in my mind.

The place at the entrance of this campus.

Wang Yiqiang followed the boys directly back to the boys' dormitory, and of course Lisa and I went back to the girls' dormitory.

So we quickly parted ways, and when I looked at them forever, I felt like they were gone.

I will implicitly find this Han Liu's figure through it, but it seems that I haven't found a night at all, he seems to have disappeared in front of my eyes forever, I saw it, but this is just a bustling black street, and this is a city that never sleeps, because the night snack business here is very good, and many students often come back, especially on weekend nights.

As I watched them disappear into my eyes, I still felt like it was in my dreams, maybe he never appeared, maybe it was just a fantasy of mine.

So I'm sad all night, I don't know what to do, I'm a little nervous, I'm a little unsettled, anyway, I talk a lot, in fact, I don't usually talk a lot, I actually but tonight I said a lot of special things.

Maybe I was too scared and anxious tonight, and I was hiding myself in this way, or maybe I was worried that others would see that I was different from others, and I ended up talking too much, which made me look more different from my classmates.

In a word, my acting skills are too exaggerated, and my acting is too show-off, so it will seem that your situation will be exposed all of a sudden.

I'm sorry, I can't help but do this, because Han Liu's appearance made me panic all of a sudden, and all my composure and calmness at this time disappeared at once.

So I waited until they parted directly from here and returned to their boys' dormitory, the two of us were in opposite directions, the boys' dormitory was on the west campus, and our girls' dormitory was at the east gate, and my heart was still tight, and he was hanging in the air, as if half a boot had not landed.

Actually, when I brush my teeth, I have always tried to exert a lot of strength, because my whole mind and my whole movement is mechanical, and it is confused, I don't dare to come up with anything in my head, I hold this tooth in my left hand, and I hold this glass of water in my high right hand, and I am basically shaking very much.

The water in the water cup has been splashing, I quickly put this water cup down, maybe the next second I may not be able to hold it steadily, maybe it will fall to the ground immediately, this is a real situation for me, because I only know my current situation.

Well, I was standing in front of the mirror in this bathroom, I looked at myself through the moonlight, and I found that the person in this mirror was completely a dark figure, and I subconsciously touched a hand next to me, which was a fatal secret of mine, so it would not be easy to know, because this secret had been blocked by me with a bracelet.

Yes, why do I never take off my bracelet easily, I tell them that this is my talisman, I will never take it off easily, even when I take a shower, in fact, this place hides a very big secret, this secret knows, I know.

Because the secret is that there is a deep, short scar hidden under this hand.

And this two sides are the remains of one of my wounds, although this wound is not very long and short, it is two centimeters.

The wound was enough to hurt my nerves at first, and it is said that if I hadn't had the best doctor to give my son at that time, I probably wouldn't have been able to repair it, which means that my hands are basically not as complete as a human being.

My left hand basically can't go hard, I can't use any strength, I carry a glass of water to drink, I will use 6 hands to drink, this is the secret of my left hand, so the words will not let any of us know.

Sometimes I feel like I'm a master of the world, and when everyone thinks I'm used to using my right hand to exert force, no one actually knows that my left hand is crippled, and in a way he's a cripple.

I remember when I was 16 years old, I took an exam for the violin, and I played a lot of famous songs for my mother, and I went to the school gate with Han Liu and sneaked in, and played the violin, and I played the violin and she played the piano.

But that never happened again, because I knew I would never pull the reminder for the rest of my life, because my left hand could not hold any solid, and my trembling would make my notes simply confused.

I lost my best music, I lost my best youth, I lost my best smile.

Yes, I used to want to be a violin musician, but these things have long since disappeared with my dreams, and they will never exist forever, with the return of time.

I remember that night in the ward, Ye Jingbei just hugged my grandmother tightly, as if he was so warm, and the way he looked at me made me cold, just like looking at a dead person.

He touched an artery in my hand, cold, almost with a very intimate smile, with a vampire-like one,

"You're really funny, why don't you just have another operation, why don't you just cut your hand a little harder, then don't come all at once, it's all over, isn't that actually great? And I'm telling you that if you are a little harder, and you can use a little harder, this water will squirt out at once, and even directly onto the sofa next to you, I dare to guarantee that you will not have 10 minutes, you will be able to do whatever you want because of all your things, and you can live the life you want without any scruples, isn't that great? Why do you have such a chance?"

I hated him very much, I hated him very, very much, but I didn't have the strength, I didn't even have the strength to hate him, because I had just had surgery.

I lost a lot of blood, I felt exhausted, I really didn't have the strength to resist him, I didn't have the strength to fight with him, because I felt that this was the last suicidal act I tried, and I would never do anything again, because I felt that I had created his breath, this is my life, this is my life, so I have to accept my fate.

I really know each other, I really, really feel ashamed, I actually survived in this situation without face and skin, and I was with him, I actually gave up, I want to go to reunite with my parents under Jiuquan, I am simply not human!

Of course, in this case, I have to rely on him, if we had been friendly with him, I would not have been able to go to this university, and there would have been no way, there would have been no such high spending, and of course, most importantly, I would not have been able to sponsor my uncle.

It's all because of my existence, I'm really a very sanctimonious person now, and I think that if I know about my situation as a good student in the future, I think everyone will despise me.

I have a little modesty in my heart, I know that this matter can't be known to anyone, so my breakup with Han Liu is also the best ending, if he knows all this, he will definitely be sad and look down on him even more.

Of course I'm glad that I hope our relationship will only last for a hundred or two hundred seconds, and that there will never be that kind of filthy environment because of such a relationship.

Han Liu, in fact, this name is very honorary title, at this time I once asked where his name came from, he told me that it was taken from an ancient poem, whenever I practice his name, I think it is really romantic and beautiful.

Yes, whenever I need to start pronouncing his name in the night, I really feel very warm, warm, I really won't let anyone hear it, it's the root of my world, it's like a speck of dust.

But the name is one of the most beautiful treasures in my life, something I have ever had, and one of the best parts of my life.

But it wasn't until today that I realized that it was all gone, that I had nothing, that I had lost everything, that I had lost even my most precious things.

Because I know that his loss is like the loss of my parents, no matter how much I cry, how much I make trouble, how loud I scream, how loud I cry helplessly, is it all useless?

My parents won't come back to life and comfort me, just like Han Yoo will never come back.

After a whole mood, my mood is really very uncomfortable, I am listless today, I stay in this dormitory in addition to a lot of things in class, I spend a lot of time asking myself to brush up on the questions, I hope to use this way to pass the time, let you forget those memories.

Maybe only in this way will the obsessive-compulsive body make me forget some peace, so that my mood can be maintained, just like a monk chanting sutras, just keep chanting sutras, and you will feel your peace.

I know that everyone treats themselves differently, just like I treat myself the way I treat myself, which is to use a storytelling way to forget about myself.