He reviewed to Hu Xuanning: "I had poor concentration, I endured it and endured it, but in the end I couldn't hold back, I kissed her, and then we rolled together." ”

Hu Xuanning kicked him again and scolded: "You beast, have you forgotten that you have a wife and a son?

He hung his head and was silent, and only raised his head for a while and asked Hu Xuanning: "You tell the truth to your brother, can you hold back?"

Since having his first intimate contact with a woman, Hu Xuanning also knows that in the face of a woman he likes, if there are suitable conditions and environment, it is difficult for him to sit still, but he can't admit this, and he can't let his senior brother feel that this matter is excusable, so he replied stiffly: "If it's her, I will definitely be able to hold back!"

"Okay! I damn it, I regretted it countless times afterwards, if I had been stronger-willed and pushed her away with all my heart, maybe her fate would not have been so miserable. ”

He had been separated from his wife for several years at that time, and the man of his prime, once he opened the door of desire, he could no longer control the torrent of desire, that day, they lingered in the studio all day, until the evening, Yuehe, who was exhausted by his toss, whispered: "I'm hungry, are you hungry?"

Only then did he get up a little ashamed, and together with Yuehe, he collected a few packs of instant noodles in the studio, beat two eggs, boiled them in an alcohol stove, and the two of them had a makeshift meal.

After eating, he was ashamed to talk to Tsukiha about his wife and son.

Yuehe knew what he meant, and cried at the time: "I don't have any ideas, if it weren't for you, I would have been ruined by those hooligans yesterday, maybe I didn't even die, I don't blame you, let's just assume that this incident didn't happen, you and your family live well." ”

In fact, he didn't think about what to do, he talked to Yuehe about them, just to let her understand that there was a problem with his identity, and he couldn't handle the relationship between them for a while.

He wanted to explain to her, but it was difficult to speak, he had wanted to divorce for a long time, but for him, divorce was by no means a simple matter, he was not absolutely sure, and he did not dare to give her any promises.

In the end, he could only say: "I know that it is useless to apologize or anything, I will find a way to give you an explanation, please believe me." ”

That night, he stayed up all night and painted a large oil painting "Liuzhen", which touched many people with the grief, pain, chaos and despair he wanted to express, and that painting won him the first prize of the Venice Biennale Oil Painting Exhibition.

On the morning of the next day, martial law was lifted in the capital, he went out to buy a set of clothes for Yuehe, Yuehe wore it and returned to Hu's house, Hu Yalan has been in a meeting these days, Hu Xuanning's mother accompanied him in the hospital, Hu Zijian and his wife happened to be at his father-in-law's house on the day of martial law, and they didn't come back until today, so the family didn't know that Yuehe didn't come back in the past two days, and naturally they didn't know what happened to her.

He informed the school of Ding's death, and in the following days, he received the bad news of several good classmates, his heartache can not be described in words, these people have great ambitions, want to use their blood to make the country better, but did not expect that it backfired, in the end, not only could not succeed, but was used by foreign evil forces with ulterior motives, and finally misled the country and people, and died young.

For the first time, he deeply realized that the bookish spirit was indeed a pipe dream of young people, and that empty talk was a wise saying.

After seriously reflecting on his naivety and immaturity, he felt that he should come out and do something, for the sake of his classmates who had taken the wrong path and had unpaid ambitions, and for the blood that had never turned cold in his veins.

He went home and talked to his father, saying that he was willing to enter politics, but put forward an additional condition, he wanted to divorce Shen Jiaying.

As soon as his father heard that he had changed his mind, he was as happy as anything, and immediately said that as long as he was willing to pursue a career in office, he could personally go to discuss their divorce with his in-laws.

At that time, he was at a good time when the cadres were knowledgeable and younger, and his high education, age, and family background were all great help to him, and after his file was sent to the organization department, the organization quickly informed him that he would be given a four-month closed training, and after the training, he would be assigned a job.

Before leaving, he mentioned the idea of divorce to Shen Jiaying, and Shen Jiaying was tired of this hopeless marriage for a long time, and said that she should think about it.

He also thought of meeting with Yuehe and told her that he was going to train for a while, and when he finished training, he would contact her.

But when he came back from training, he didn't wait for Yuehe at the door of Hu's house, he asked Hu Xuanning about it, and only then did he know that Yuehe had returned to his hometown.

He didn't know anything about the situation in Yuehe's hometown, and he didn't dare to ask Hu Xuanning openly, so he had to go to great lengths to guide Hu Xuanning to say it himself, and he asked many times before he roughly figured out where Yuehe's family lived.

Hu Xuanning recalled that during that time, the senior brother did meet with him frequently to drink, he thought that the senior brother was about to go to work, and he was reluctant to part with him, and he was very moved, but now he realized that it was to inquire about intelligence, and he couldn't help but scold him for being a bastard:

"Why don't you dare to tell me clearly, you have to tell me at that time, let's find a way together, maybe Yuehe can avoid all this. ”

"I'm ashamed of you, and I can't tell you what you want me to say about that situation? I'm not a very honest and shameless person, and I'm afraid that I will break off my friendship if you know everything. ”

He was soon sent to a remote county in southern Jin as a county magistrate, before taking office, his father-in-law's family gave him a strong trip, he went, and when he was half drunk, he filed a divorce issue at an inopportune time, and was almost beaten by Shen Jiaying's younger brother Shen Jiawen.

During this period, his father also went to his father-in-law to discuss the divorce of the two with him: "The conditions are as easy as Jiaying mention, you can ask for a house and money, Sihan is willing to stay, our family will be very grateful, if Jiaying wants to take it away, although we are very uncomfortable, we can also consider it." ”

His father-in-law never gave them a clear answer.

He reported to Jinnan, where he worked hard for more than three months, and did not go home during the Spring Festival, so he moved to a week's vacation and prepared to go home.

He went to Yuehe's hometown first, and after getting Yuehe's address in the county seat, he rushed to the county seat, and didn't dare to go to her openly, so he had to pass her a note.

After meeting, he was very surprised, he never dreamed that Yuehe was pregnant, and she was about to give birth, this incident caught him off guard, he hadn't talked to Shen Jiaying about divorce yet, what could he say?

He returned home, and Shen Jiaying also hurried back, and when she saw him, not only did she not greet him coldly, but also greeted him affectionately, he was as uncomfortable as eating a fly.

played with Li Sihan for two hours, and when it was late at night, he went to find his father, didn't say Yuehe's name, but vaguely said that he had a lover outside, the other party was pregnant, and he was going to divorce now.

His father was frightened, in those days, to make such a mistake, if he didn't deal with it properly, his career would be over.

The father tentatively asked his son if he could persuade his lover to do the child first, so that the divorce would be more calm, he said no, the lover will give birth next month, at this time, there is no reason to do the child.

His father couldn't help it, so he went to his father-in-law's house the next day to discuss the divorce of the two of them again.

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