I struggled with the medicine and this pain, and I muttered all this nonsense, in fact, I don't know why, I only think of my mother at this time.

I kept calling my mother, I wanted my mother to save me quickly, in fact, I knew that I would never let my mother save me again, even my father had left me, I knew that I was an orphan in this world.

The innocent parents were once wiped out in a tragic car accident and never came back.

I don't know if I'm free, I just feel like I'm out of breath after taking this medicine, I reach out, I want to grab something, but it's just in vain, because I will always be an illusory person.

At this time, I suddenly remembered the best first love in my most youthful years.

I thought of the boy who would give me eternal warmth and eternal peace and leave me forever, because he had a boyfriend and girlfriend, and he stood downstairs in my house and said that to me, I will always remember you.

"Let's break up, these things are good for us, we are too young to understand what each other needs at all. ”

He really left, without any distance, I could only look at his back, I cried and wanted to pursue him, but I don't know why the more I pursued him, the faster he left me, and finally formed a beautiful figure.

I gasped for breath, I felt like I couldn't breathe at all, I thought I might really have to ove the next moment

Finish.

For the first time, I felt how close I was to death.

In fact, three years ago, I also committed suicide because of something, but when my parents left, I locked myself in the bathroom, and I took a fruit knife and cut one of my own arteries.

At that time, I really felt like I couldn't do it anymore, and I just sat on the toilet.

And the water in this bathroom is blazing, and I give them the illusion that I'm just showering in it, but I'm just hiding the smell of blood in this way.

Then I leaned against this wall, and I felt in a daze that the water on the ground and the blood on my body were completely mixed and turned red, which was shocking, and I was always afraid of blood, and I never thought that one day I would really be scared to death by this blood.

I don't know why, I really fainted, I just thought I must have been cursed for some reason.

According to one of my plans, such a vein was cut open, and I should have lost it in no more than an hour.

But at this time, I never thought that maybe my smell of blood was too strong, and this husky dog and cat had been barking loudly and meowing, so that these housekeepers ran directly in, and only then did they find out about my situation at that time.

Maybe it's because I don't die, maybe God shouldn't say my life, no matter what, I finally survived as strong as a little strong.

I don't know how much blood I left in this hospital, but it seems that I left a lot of it, and it is said that most of the blood bank in this hospital was used urgently for me.

All in all, I know that the surgery seems to have been done for a long, long time, and recently I spent most of the day trying to repair the wound in my arm.

But in the end, it's like now I can't hold a single thing in my hand, because one of the bones of my artery has been completely damaged, and there is no way to recover it, although this wound is gradually fading, but my hand is really useless forever.

I couldn't even hold these water cups when I brushed my teeth.

Since then, I have not been able to lie down on my beloved piano, because I have left this beloved piano.

How can a crippled hand be able to measure, so there are many things, such as some very skillful manual work, I can't use it, because only me and Ye Jingbei know that my hand is useless.

This secret was unknown to everyone, including my best friend, and at that time I didn't know why I carried a jade bead every day, which was just a wound that contained my wounds.

Later, I relied on a strong willpower to die and wanted to go to my parents, but at that time there was no chance for me to survive again, and God did not even accept me.

In the past few years, I have really been faceless and skinless, but I have survived by relying on this relationship with Ye Jingbei, and I am very happy, this is really a very funny scene.

This layer of special medicine really makes me feel dizzy, makes me want to vomit, the dose of this medicine is too strong.

I looked at the ceiling, I really felt foggy, my vision was completely in a panic, an illusory thing, and I would find myself with too much hope spinning around in my mind.

It was completely in the midst of this residual power and the brink of collapse, and I only knew that I had to endure it, and as long as I had a little bit, I would be able to get through it, just like when I cut my arteries, as long as this feeling passed, you had to survive.

Every time I thought like this, but Ye Jingbei didn't think so, my eyes were avoiding him, but he immediately moved my eyes back and let me look at him face to face.

His eyes were really charming at this time, and it reminded me of the cheetahs in the zoo with a kind of wild beauty to be hunted.

And his movements really didn't hesitate.

His deep gaze looked at me, as if I had fallen into the Pacific Ocean, his hand was really not particularly warm, and it made me feel that my whole body was shivering, I hoped it must be warm, I tried my best to twist him to the other side, I didn't want to look at him face to face, but my face gave him a strong pull.

I used to be very cowardly to him, I was really cowardly, I never easily refused this, and I could also go against his fate.

That's natural, he's a super accurate guy for me, how can I offend them, I can't move an inch in my current life by driving him alone, and I also represent the interests of a family.

But today I don't know if it's because of the drug or what kind of emotion, I don't know where the strength or an unknown courage comes from, I immediately turned my head and bit his left finger hard.

Exhausted the power of that desolation.

I bit it and soon smelled it in my mouth, and he didn't even scold me loudly, didn't say a word, still looked at me deeply, still didn't withdraw his hands.

I feel that he is really a top hunter in the food chain at that time, even if the other party has some reporters who have bitten your wounds, but he still has not given up the courage to kill.

After a long, long time, I don't know what my condition is, I seem to fall asleep for a long time, and the drug is very heavy all at once, I don't know what the reason is, I don't know if it's because of the pain or because of a shock from the drug, or if they will never appear again, I fell into a deep sleep.

At that point I never dreamed of a nightmare again, I slept peacefully, really, I would feel that everything was so gentle, I felt as if I was in a spring.

It was as if I had fallen into this prairie, with no cheetahs, no talents, only white rabbits, only flowers, white clouds and trees.

Wait until dawn on the second day.

I was really sad because I had someone who was sent to the hospital again, and when the doctor of this organization cut my pajamas with scissors, and there were several big wounds in it, he looked at me and kept shaking his head, a very interesting look.

And his movements are really gentle, but it still makes me involuntarily crack my mouth in pain, even if I eat this painkiller and smell the effect, there is not much obvious effect.

He started to de-inflammatize my back again, and then threaded a needle to close the wound, and asked a very curious question.

"How could it be like this, when I went back last night, didn't I tell you? Don't do any strenuous exercise?"

When I heard that, I touched my nose and told him directly.

"No, because I might not be able to sleep last night, I got up and played a few games in the future, and I may have just hit this king when I was fighting for supremacy, I may have been too proud, and I leaned on this stool all of a sudden, and it became like this. ”

"If you can't tear open all this wound, even if you go to play basketball and badminton last night, it won't crack so badly, is it the first time I've heard of this game until I play this game so well tonight. ”

I listened to his teasing, and I didn't say anything, because I was really grinning in pain.

Later, I found out that it was because of a technical problem of this doctor, and of course it was also an insistence of Ye Jingbei in this regard, and I was probably worried that such a situation would affect my back wound.

So this time, one of his stitches is also insisted on using that kind of beauty technique to make it, so it is guaranteed that even if I am in good health in the future, I will be beautiful in a swimsuit.

Sure enough, it was one of his products, and it must be configured in the most advanced and suitable way.

Later, I went straight to one of the VIP wards, saying that it was to observe my condition at any time.

After I got back to the ward and had two more bottles of water, I called Lisa directly and asked her to help me take a few days off, because I didn't want to affect my studies anyway.

When Lisa got my call, she came straight to the hospital to see me, and he looked at me in an unbelievable way.

"Wow, Leng Shuiyue, you look really majestic like this, you look like you're fighting with others, it's that type of fight. ”