Since I was a child, I have been very dependent on my home, I feel very much that this is a harbor for me, and I will be terrified when I go outside, maybe this is really a quiet place I can find, maybe I didn't belong here.

I'm different from Coldwater Dream's financial dependence, I really regard this home as my last safe haven, whenever I get hurt, no matter how sad I am outside, sad and under all kinds of pressure, I just remember that this is my home, I just know that even if I have nothing outside, I can still have a place to go back.

The two brothers in the family are always in trouble, and the family always helps them to put out the fire in more situations, so Leng Shui Meng is always a tricky and willful princess, and the family has no scruples to help her settle down.

It's really all about me.

I'm only now realizing that I'm really too different from my sisters and brothers.,I've always been very obedient.,Maybe I used to think that maybe this was an innate independent character that I like.,And I especially like to be silent.,I don't need to compete with others.,So,Leng Shui Meng has regarded me as her follower since I was a child.,For a long time, it seems that I am naturally accustomed to such a behavior.。

It turns out that I just found out this, it's not my situation is different at all, in fact, from the very beginning, I have strong genes with my brothers and sisters, and this aspect is different, so we have created different personalities.

I walked slowly on the street, I really realized that I was really so different, I suddenly felt funny, in fact, everyone didn't like me very much, it turned out that everything was gone, I swallowed all the pain, I felt that I really couldn't bear it, when this kind of life, so that it can be in my body when it is more bloody than studying the script.

I suddenly remembered what my aunt said just now: "If Leng Shuiyue has been at home for so many years, it is not a waste of support, and she has finally made some contributions to the family, at least we can see this good thing." ”

I don't know why, I suddenly remembered Ye Jingbei's very evil smile, I think this situation, if something happens to me, then will this family still keep me, then I really become nothing, but I can't create any more efficiency for the family, maybe all this is worthless in their eyes, right?

I don't know where to go, I don't even want to go home, both homes are blank for me, I spend at the intersection of the riverside, I look at the cold sea water below the river.

The moon is exceptionally bright tonight, but how many thousands of lights are there in this sky and how many stories will happen, I just think that there are too many futures in life that you can't predict, and some things are not what you want at all, or what you want to get, and it will inadvertently happen things that make you suddenly dream.

It was a tidal wave, and I was standing there with my hands outstretched, and I wanted to embrace the world, but when I held it tightly, it was just some air.

I don't know how long I've been standing here, I don't know if it's a few minutes or a few hours, or a lifetime, but it's been a long, long time, so long that even my hands and feet are cold, I don't know why, I suddenly want to let myself open a big smile, let me open my hands, I walked towards the beach step by step.

This feels good, I've never been so careless, and it's been a long time since I was so willful.

Great, I'm walking all the way, I'm singing all the way, this world I feel is what we have no scruples about, no one is managing me, I can shout loudly at this.

Suddenly, at this time, I saw a black figure running towards me, and the waiter was panicked and made people feel inexplicable, so when he saw this black voice, he grabbed my arm and pulled me back from the other side of the sea.

I was completely confused, I looked at the person in front of me in a panic, I felt that this person was so familiar with the right, it turned out to be Ye Jingbei, didn't he recuperate at home? What is he doing here?

He looked very angry, he looked very angry, walked over my shoulder, and shouted at me, "What are you doing, why are you so stupid? Why are you going to do something? Don't you think you're so confused? Are you just running here to kill yourself because of some small thing? I'm telling you you're so cowardly, you really disappoint me!"

My whole head was really dizzy by his head, I looked at the eyes of the constant roaring at me, and this look was very angry, I really felt speechless, this person is inexplicable.

I looked at him indignantly, "Please, aren't you supposed to be lying at home, what are you doing here?"

He said very seriously and excitedly: "Leng Shuiyue, I know all this, do you know? This thing is just an unconfirmed thing, but it is just a suspicion, and it does not prove the truth of this thing, maybe all this is just an imagination, just a guess." ”

I looked at him like that, and I finally understood what the content of this nonsense language he was talking to me today? It turned out that he also knew what I had gotten today, and I never expected it to be so bloody, and even so many people knew about it.

I don't know why, I burst into tears again, I shook my head I was so sad that I wanted to find someone to talk to.

"It really doesn't matter much, and I'm really sad, I didn't think that maybe maybe it's not just a suspicion, maybe my father has been very sure for so many years. Maybe my father never regarded me as a real biological person, maybe my existence is just to get more benefits for the family, but now that I can finally marry you, will the benefits that I bring to the company and the family in the future be regarded as a return? ”

He tried to persuade me, but he didn't find any of them, and he could convince two reasons.

He said indignantly: "Leng Shuiyue, you are a big fool with your head and bottom to the side, this is the case, you don't need to look for death here, why do you have to torture yourself in such a way, is it that you are dead, you jump from here, you will disappear tomorrow, do others think that you are your own daughter, and others will have any sympathy for you? Is this what you want?"

I knew he was helping me, but there was only one thing I could tell him.

"No, you're wrong, I just wanted to blow the cold wind here, I never thought of jumping into the river, I never had that concept in my life. ”

But he avoided blaming this one, or because he accused me of standing on the beach in the middle of the sea, and asked seriously: "If you take a few more steps, this sea water will come to your waist, do you know that this is the time of high tide at this time, and even if you stand here now, you will die!"

I want the sea breeze to dry my tears, I smiled bitterly: "I tell you you're wrong again, I originally wanted to wash my feet on the side of the sea, and that's not all."

I looked at him, he was stunned for a moment, maybe even he didn't expect it, he thought I was here to commit suicide by jumping into the river, in fact, I think many people see a person standing there by the sea, as long as there are righteous people will rush up to stop it, right?

So I understand his loss of control.

So his loss of control made him feel very embarrassed, and said angrily: "Leng Shuiyue, let me tell you, if you really want to wash your feet and step on snails in the seaside, then you just go, why don't you just go a little farther, and walk a few steps to touch the top of your head directly, go, hurry up and go over there, maybe there will be a mermaid!"

After saying this, he pushed me again, and I looked at him with a frown: "Did I say Ye Jingbei was mistaken, I originally had such a mind, are you helping to abuse the people now? Do you want to take the opportunity to retaliate? This vast sea of people is suddenly a wave of people and everyone is gone, you can just clear your guilt?"

He immediately took me by the hand and went straight to shore.

I shook off his hand, and I glared at him angrily.

He said very stubbornly: "Don't stay here anymore, let's go home now, I'm a sick person who stays and blows this sea breeze, I'll get sick too." ”

I stubbornly shook my head: "Don't let me take care of me, I don't want to go anywhere, you go back first, don't drag your illness down, I can't afford this responsibility." ”

He was indignant, "Leng Shuiyue, you can still be so willful, what's the use of you staying here?"

I said, "I really don't need you to be responsible for it here, I just want to blow the sea breeze, what's the matter? Do you have to take care of me with this thing? You go back quickly!"

I ignored him, and walked straight to a stone bench next to me, where I sat on, not wanting to discuss it too much, because I was in no mood to do it.

I looked at the sea calmly, I really want to break down alone, sometimes there are too many things I don't understand, I don't want to go anywhere before I think about it, especially these two homes are not my home at all.

He didn't leave, he sat next to me and told me very seriously.

"Leng Shuiyue, let me tell you, people have to rely on themselves for a lot of things in their lives, live on their own breath, even if you sit here, even if you are worried, what can not be changed by this thing, I have always felt that the fate of people must be in their own hands, if you are like you, even if you leave your home, do you really have to die? And you look at your current appearance, your unkempt face is pale, you simply make people feel that you are a woman forgotten by others. ”

In the face of his monologue, if it were usual, if I had such a big temper, I would have been in the past, but today I am really not in the mood, and I don't want to be angry about this at all.

I looked at the seashore and finally tears fell from my eyes.

yes, it's really like being out of a joke book over the years.

He said: "Let me tell you, if you want to shout to the sea, you can cry if you want to, don't look like this anymore, do you think Lin Daiyu's funeral flower soul is still popular? I tell you that this thing has no value at all!"

After he said this, he directly hugged me tightly in his arms, and I tried to push him away, "You let go of me! I don't need your sympathy!"

But I couldn't break free from his embrace, his arms were really like an impermeable iron wall, he just didn't let go, I could only stand in my arms and cry bitterly, crying, I cried while talking.

"That's right, now I'm no longer the eldest lady of the Leng family, do you think that marrying me home is really a bad deal, and now the budget of the two of you has failed, right?"

He frowned, and I felt his arm already, but I felt such a situation that I even felt a slight tremor.

He didn't speak, and I assumed that he was silent in acknowledging the fact.

I smiled bitterly again: "Yes, now you have no way to cooperate with our family, you two family members are completely willing to fail, regret it, but this matter is just like this, there is no way to regret it, Ye Jingbei, let me tell you, you can go to the Civil Affairs Bureau with me now, you just happen to have a second-level existence, so I won't block your road." Anyway, even if you marry another woman, with Li Xiao's identity and a net worth, you can completely get things out of your busyness, I want to congratulate you, and you can finally get the real thing. ”

I laughed and cried or teased me, and even I thought it was funny, when I said these words.

Yes, maybe the hurt is just me in the end, but why do you want to hurt me like this, I didn't actually do anything, do I have to suffer such a result?

Sometimes I feel unfair, I'm unfair, so why are many of your things in a passive state, why are we all in a vulnerable group, why are you always in the space where you have no choice to do a thing that you have to do, no one knows.

His voice was low above my head, "Leng Shuiyue, you are tired, you go back and get a good night's sleep, maybe it won't be so uncomfortable, it's nonsense again." ”

I looked up at his very perfect face shape, which really looks like the face of a top traffic star, and indeed has a face with an extremely high return rate.

I smiled, "Isn't this what I'm talking about?" At that time, when our two families were married, but they also looked at me, the identity of the eldest lady of the Leng family was already said to be a Gao Pan at all, so now in fact, I have proved that I really don't even have a real identity, and now I must be even less worthy of others." ”

I don't know why I say such self-defeating words, in fact, in my life, I am a relatively independent and resilient person, and I never say these frustrating words, maybe because this person hit me too hard.

It was at this moment that he was bowed down, and without surprise all my anger was choked.

I was so dizzy that I fell asleep on my side.

When I came to my senses, I realized that I had his clothes on me, and I was already lying on a stone bench in the park next to me, and he was standing not far away, and he was looking at the water, not knowing what he was thinking.

I was a little cold and I said to him, "Go, I want to go home, I'm tired right now, I want to eat something hot." ”

He turned to look at me, "Are you feeling better now?"

I deliberately gave him the clothes, deliberately tidied up the clothes, and said casually, "Forget it, I don't have to tell you anything about these things, or if you are such a gentleman, I will definitely have a good impression of you when the time comes? ”

He snorted, "It's better not to have any affection for me, too many women have been moths to me, and there is no shortage of you." ”

I combed my hair into a ponytail, in fact, I now wonder what kind of mood you are, Ye Jingbei, how can you be like me can't open it, and how can I be like this If you are happy, the two of us are like two hedgehogs and tell me, what are you and I in this heart?

But I'm a little unwilling, I don't understand, I always feel that even if I want to leave, I want to ask clearly, I want to ask clearly, I suddenly asked him.

"But didn't you have enjoyed the air conditioning at home last night?

He suddenly said that I turned around, his eyes could not see a single mood swing, I didn't even know what he was thinking now, I always felt that there were too many secrets hidden in it.

I'm not reconciled, I just went up and asked him, I just want an answer, it's enough to stick to the truth, I don't want to be deceived, and I don't want to be so confused anymore.

"What the hell is it? Can you tell me? Why don't you even have the courage to say this? Why don't you even dare to say this kind of thing? Because you don't want to say it at all, because you think it's a problem for me to say it, so you choose to refuse to say it's right or not, just tell me why!"

He stood there for a long time, and when I said a word, I suddenly felt a sense of disappointment, and I finally understood that what I had just said was nothing but nonsense, and that I would not get any answers to what I had done.

Disappointed, I turned around and walked down the road, no longer asking too many questions.

At that moment, she suddenly pulled me over and held me directly in his arms, feeling that with great strength, I felt that in such a hug, I even felt a little suffocated.

I gasped vigorously, "Suffocate me! I want to breathe!"