Jiang Youxi turned his head and looked at Cheng Mingming calmly.

His eyes have always been beautiful, and at this time, under the light, they are even more brilliant like gems.

But from his eyes, all Cheng Ming could read was calm.

Cheng Mingming also restrained her smile and said in her slightly sonorous tone: "You have paid a lot, now is the time to test the results." Next, you can receive notices that you can earn tens of millions of dollars a year, and even higher in the future. And you are only so young, and if you find someone you can trust to help you manage your finances, twenty years later, you will be less than 50 years old, and you will already be able to sit on a net worth of hundreds of millions. ”

"What else are you not satisfied with? You don't want to laugh even a smile?"

Jiang Youxi smiled slightly.

The smile is not forced, it is natural to smile, and this smile does not mean much, it is a very simple smile.

"Sister, I'm not dissatisfied, and I'm not unhappy. I'm just thinking about something. ”

"What do you think?"

"Think about how I got to where I am and where I'm going to go next. He leaned back on the sofa, with the back of his head resting on the pillow, and looked up at the ceiling: "Sister, do you know that I don't actually like singing? ”

"I heard you mention it once. ”

Jiang Youxi's eyes were misty, not like he was talking to Cheng Mingming, but more like he was talking to himself.

"My dad...... Or that he is not my real father, everyone in the town knows that I was born from my mother's affair, and I don't look like my father at all. ”

"My dad...... He used to be an auxiliary police officer, but he is said to have been disabled during a police trip and lost his job. Although the unit also compensated some money, that money was not enough to treat him. ”

"But he was taken care of in the town, and then he opened a mahjong parlor by himself, which is actually a small casino, and the police also turned a blind eye, as long as he provided some information and clues, assisted in solving the case, and assisted in the arrest. ”

"He had a very short temper and liked to drink. For as long as I can remember, I've been beaten regularly. ”

"He is very fierce when he fights people, maybe he drinks too much and doesn't know the severity, he is simply beating people to death. I was always bruised and swollen after the fight, and I didn't even know how I survived. Every time I was beaten, I was still able to breathe, and even though it hurt, I felt very fortunate that I survived again. ”

"At that time, I thought, I probably wasn't his biological one, if it was his biological one, how could I be so badly beaten. ”

"I later found out that I really wasn't born to him. It was my mother who stole the birth behind his back. ”

"But he didn't beat me so badly because of that. Later, my mother gave birth to two more to him, a son and a daughter, and he was also very fierce to them, especially my brother, who was very skinny since he was a child, and he beat my brother more cruelly than I did, and once he got drunk and broke two bones and sent him to the hospital to lie down for several months. ”

"Probably because the medical expenses made him feel distressed, or maybe he was afraid that he would almost kill someone, so he relented later. ”

"My mother was a cowardly woman who was attached to him. ”

"Maybe because of cheating in the early years, I couldn't hold my head up in front of him. So in our house, my mom never dared to speak loudly. My dad beat us when he was drunk, and she only hid and cried, and she didn't dare to persuade her, she was a woman with no status. ”

"But, to blame herself, who let her cheat? The whole town looked down on her, and even if she was beaten by my father, everyone would just applaud. ”

"But my dad doesn't beat her, never does. scolded very fiercely, often scolding her with the most obscene and vicious words, but just didn't beat her. Even when she was drunk, she only beat us, not her. ”

Cheng Mingming looked at him with a look of pity in his eyes.

She has some understanding of Jiang Youxi's past. For example, she knew that he had an alcoholic, irascible father, and knew that he had a bad relationship with his parents.

But some of the words were heard from him for the first time.

It even shocked her.

"When I was in elementary school, I knew I was born by my mother. I think it's the second grade of elementary school. It's all going on in the class, no one talks to me, and they don't take me to play any games. It's as if I have germs on my body, just pointing fingers behind my back. ”

And they said, Behold, this is the bastard. ”

"I heard that his mother was a wrecker. ”

"What do you mean by scratching?"

"It's the meaning of a bad woman anyway. ”

"He was born of a bad woman, so he's just dirty. Don't play with him, everybody!"

"At first I was angry, in pain, in agony and wanted to die. But after a long time, it doesn't matter. ”

"During class, I sat alone at the back of the room. In PE class, other kids go to play football, play table tennis, and I run alone. ”

"The more uncomfortable thing is the music class, we have to sing in the chorus and line up in the music class. But no one wanted to stand beside me, and they all looked at me with disgust, as if I had on my body. So after that, I took time off from music lessons every time. ”

"I really want to study hard and get good grades. But I don't have the mind to read, no matter how hard I try, my grades can't be top-notch, and I can't go up or down. ”

"I don't want to go home because at home, I don't know when I'm going to get in my dad's eyes, get him slap in the face, or kick me in the head. ”

"When I was in junior high school, my dad rarely beat me, saying that I had grown up and was a man, and he wanted to give me respect. ”

"He really doesn't beat me very much, but whenever I don't do anything well, even if I don't hold the food steady, even if I make a noise when I drink the soup, even if I accidentally get my clothes stained by ink, he will scold me for being useless, scolding me for being useless. Saying that I am so stupid should not be born to be embarrassed, and living is a waste of the country's food. ”

"My mom doesn't scold me much, but she doesn't care about me either, she hasn't cared about me since I was a child. I thought she was cold, but she was really nice to my younger siblings. ”

"Sometimes I look into her eyes and I can read her eyes clearly. What she thought was: If only I hadn't given birth to you. ”

"Really, if she hadn't given birth to me, her life would have been completely different. I heard that my dad used to spoil her very much, but it was only later that she cheated on her, so he didn't treat her well. And even if it's not good for her, I will never hit her. If she hadn't cheated, or hadn't left me as a sinister after cheating, her life would have been many times better. ”

Jiang Youxi looked at the ceiling and smiled, "What am I doing with this, it's really." ”

Cheng Mingming was rarely gentle: "There's no need to suppress yourself, just say it if you want to, sister, listen." ”

Jiang Youxi was silent for a long time before speaking again: "So in fact, my position at home is very embarrassing, since I was in elementary school, every day I try to protect myself, survive, and then leave home when I have the opportunity." ”

"When I got to junior high school, my dad stopped beating me, and I didn't have to think about self-preservation. But I still want to leave home, and I don't have to be scolded by him every day when I leave home. I want to live as a person, to live a nourishing and chic life. ”

"It is said that reading changes fate, but I am really not good at reading. When I took the high school entrance examination, I didn't get into a few good high schools in the city. If I pass the exam, my parents will provide for me, and it is right that they are cold to me, but they will not let me lack clothes and food, and they will not get stuck in my studies. ”

In fact, they are all kind people inside, but because of the tricks of fate and the weakness of their own character, they are all unhappy. ”

"Really, now that I think about it, I don't blame them anymore. It's just that I always have a breath in my heart, and I don't want to prove anything, I just hope that one day I can say it out loud to him, I'm not a useless waste. ”

Cheng Mingming sighed lightly.

She already knew the rest of the matter, Jiang Youxi didn't go to high school later, and went to the city to look for a job.

Later, I was lucky enough to find a musical instrument store, and the owner's family was from the north and had played rock and roll before.

Jiang Youxi has been learning to do instrument maintenance and maintenance for more than a year, and slowly got in touch with a little music theory knowledge, occasionally singing and playing the guitar.

Then it happened that Huayu was casting a wide net to recruit trainees, and the nephew of the owner of the musical instrument store went to apply, but he was not selected.

Jiang Youxi, who accompanied him to see the excitement, was taken by the staff in charge of recruitment at that time because of his excellent appearance and good voice, and he was signed by the staff in charge of recruitment at that time.

That year was 2000, and Jiang Youxi had just turned 16 years old.

"Hey, Sister Mingming, did I tell you that I used to hate music lessons so much, why did I like music later?"

Cheng Mingming thought for a while, "You didn't say it." ”

"Oh. Jiang Youxi squinted, and that scene resurfaced in front of him.

It was the autumn of 1999, the leaves had turned yellow, the osmanthus had just bloomed, and the air seemed to be filled with the lingering fragrance of osmanthus flowers.

I remember it was still very hot, stuffy and hot.

Jiang Youxi seemed to have returned to that time, feeling the scorching heat and viscosity of the air.

The 15-year-old hurried to deliver a guitar that a client had sent for maintenance to an address.

It didn't take long for him to get soaked in sweat and it was too hot.

He lifted his sleeve to wipe his sweat, his steps were fast, but careful. The guitar he was carrying was very expensive, and according to some of the older seniors in the store, it was so expensive that he could go to the small country called Annan in the south and buy 10 very beautiful virgins to come back and be wives.

So he was cautious, for fear of breaking the frighteningly expensive guitar if he fell.

The small shops on the roadside put on songs to attract business, which was also a characteristic of that era.

There is the latest one-man show, ask, at least and you, it is sung by a very sweet-looking female singer named Su Manqian, who has been popular all over the country for a while.

There are older ones, Xingyu Xingyuan, DI DA DI, Notepad, etc., which are sung by a female singer named Duan Xiaochen, and people say that she may be the next diva.

There are also "Love Like a Tide", "Lovesick in the Wind and Rain", etc., which are still hot at this time.

Naturally, there are also "The Great Wall", "Glorious Years" and "No Land for Shame" by the Walker Band.