The night was as dark as ink.

He had that nightmare that had come up so many times.

Ice slag was floating in the pond, and my father, who hadn't been seen for months, suddenly came home and took him to eat the hamburger and fries he had always wanted to eat. In the end, he even brought one with him, which he wanted to keep for his mother.

Inside, there is hot milk tea and fragrant bread.

As he passed by the pond, his father's slow pace suddenly stopped.

Turn your head and look at him.

It was a look he had never seen before, strange, cold, and fierce, like a devil who was about to pull him into the abyss.

Caught off guard, he was pushed by his father into the icy pond.

The ice water took away the body temperature from his body in an instant, and his mouth, nostrils, and ears were all poured into the ice water.

He knew how to swim a little, so soon, he was already surfacing.

But before he could even breathe a breath of fresh air, he was pressed into the water by his father on the shore.

My father's palm is still so big, and in the past, this palm would lead him across the street and gently pick him up. He thought that this arm could protect him for the rest of his life, but unexpectedly, it became the culprit who wanted to put him to death.

Again and again, again and again, pressed again and again.

The feeling of suffocation is getting worse......

Qi Ziqian suddenly opened his eyes!

He was short of breath, his forehead was covered with cold sweat, and he even opened his eyes for a while before he was able to pull himself out of the suffocating feeling.

Fortunately, he is still alive and has not drowned.

After staring at the ceiling for a few moments, he seemed to suddenly remember something, and then turned his head abruptly.

Beside him, Ruan Xin was asleep, she didn't seem to be affected by him at all, her eyes were still closed, and the corners of her mouth were slightly hooked, as if she had dreamed of something happy.

Just one look at it will make you feel healing.

Qi Ziqian looked at it for a while, then bullied him and hugged Ruan Xin tightly in his arms.

He hugged him tightly, as if only by pushing so hard could he confirm that she was by his side.

He didn't tell her that when he knocked on her door last night, he was just trying to make sure.

Confirming that she is still there is enough is enough.

He was afraid that all these years had been just a dream, and now that he had woken up from the dream, the darkness that had haunted him had found him again, and he would also lose the warm and sunny her.

The goal that sustained him in those years was to escape from the darkness. It wasn't hatred or anything, he just wanted to escape.

His mother taught him that if he always had hatred in his heart, he would never find the good again.

He was very glad that he was not carried away by hatred, so he was able to meet Ruan Xin and discover her warmth and beauty.

But he also found that when he was too small, it was difficult to pursue what he wanted.

So, isn't he, too, time to do something?

I don't know how long it has been, but Qi Ziqian finally calmed down slowly.

He lowered his head and imprinted a kiss on Ruan Xin's forehead, then let go of her and got up to light a cigarette on the balcony.

The smoke was extinguished in the wind, and he didn't smoke it, just clipped it to his fingertips and watched the smoke drift away.

Today, Old Man Min's words seem to be still floating in his ears: "What you did to survive back then is definitely not glorious." I don't even need to give it to the media, I just have to show the girl next to you, and that's enough. ”

"She's very nice, and she doesn't care at all if you have a mother like that. However, can she accept that the person she loves has such an unbearable past?"

"I know you love her very much, otherwise you wouldn't have heard of her and rushed over at once. That's why I brought her here. So, do you really want her to see your past?"

After saying that, as soon as Old Man Min raised his hand, a stack of photos on the corner of the desk fell to the ground one after another.

Qi Ziqian lowered his head and saw at a glance that the photo was his teenage self.

He was wearing a black T-shirt, a baseball bat in his hand, and a fierce expression.

He didn't like black, but simply because black could hide the bleeding on his body.

Ruan Xin asked him about his past several times, but he was vague about the past.

She didn't know that even he didn't want to recall those things. He originally thought that as long as he didn't think about it, time would always take away those pains.

But this time, he found out that he was wrong. What has been done has been deeply imprinted in his life. Whether he wanted to remember it or not, he couldn't change that fact.

In his hand, something suddenly came up, and Qi Ziqian shook it off without thinking about it.

When he raised his eyes to look, he found that Ruan Xin was waved back by his movements, and he took two steps back in a row before standing firm.

"The smoke is almost finished. She spoke.

Qi Ziqian looked down at this time, the smoke had almost burned out, and his fingertips were slightly yellow by the smoke.

"Why did you get out?" he said, throwing the cigarette away, his voice cold.

In fact, since Min Gongguan, he has always had such an attitude. Cold and hard, with a bit of alienation.

Ruan Xin pursed her lips, "I see that you are not here, so I want to come and see you." ”

She said calmly, Qi Ziqian did hook her lips and smiled, "What, I'm afraid I won't be able to jump from here?" He glanced downstairs, "In your eyes, I'm so fragile?"

After a moment of silence, Ruan Xin let out a soft "um".

Such an answer, Qi Ziqian was somewhat surprised. Isn't this kind of problem a direct negation of normal?

"Actually, it's not a question of fragility or not," Ruan Xin stepped forward and stood side by side with him in front of the railing, "I just hope that you can smile when you are happy in front of me, and have a cold face when you are not happy." If you live with a mask, it will be very hard, right?"

Qi Ziqian paused for a moment and grabbed Ruan Xin's hand: "What are you doing now?

"Ruan Xin, I don't need your sympathy. He shook her hand away, "If that's what you're thinking, now, get out of here." ”

In the past, Ruan Xin felt that sometimes Qi Ziqian was a little moody. Most of the time it's nice and gentle, but I don't know what's going on, it becomes cold and sharp.

At that time, Ruan Xin didn't understand, but now in such a scene, Ruan Xin suddenly understood a little.

His coldness and sharpness towards her may have been due to the ...... in his heart Inferiority.

Because of his origins, his identity, and the darkness he has experienced before.

Or maybe it's because I'm afraid.

Because I was afraid that when everything was exposed, I would be ridiculed and spurned by the people around me, so I simply didn't have those gentleness in the first place. It's like a child who knows he won't get something and says he doesn't like it at all.

Everything, nothing more, is the fear of being abandoned.