Sometimes, I always have such a picture in my mind, how can I repay you?

When I talk about such a story and such a problem, it is actually a teacher before me, he used to teach me, in the days when he taught me, it was also the most glorious time in my life, in the days when I was taught, it was also the happiest time in my life, and it was also the days in my life full of emotion, because he was very good to me, so I always remember that among all the teachers from childhood to adulthood, he was the best one for me, and took care of me like my father, but when I always woke up in my sleep every time, thinking of thinking of his goodness, I really wanted to go to him again and see his current life, but why don't I have the courage to appear in front of him every time?

The reason for this may be because my current situation is not very good, and sometimes I find that people still want to save face, especially after I joined the work, because my work has been mediocre, and I am not a successful person, and I don't want to see my teacher like this, sometimes I find out that I have met my former acquaintances, whether they are classmates or teachers, Or friends, we always have to inevitably do homework, and in the process of homework, we will still be annoyed by our current status quo and will be unbearable for this status quo.

But I have been thinking in my heart, how should I repay this teacher, although this teacher said that he has not retired, he has been a teacher, and I also saw this name in a form document a few days ago, saw this teacher's name and his school, in fact, I think I should be able to find him through such a name and school, I think maybe, this teacher still remembers me, but how should I repay this teacher, sometimes I also think twice, and hesitate for a long time。

I remember the last time I went to see my teacher, I bought some things for the teacher, because I thought it was human nature, but later I found out that the teacher didn't want my things, and later, I also felt very unhappy.

Sometimes I also think that buying some things is a necessity for people nowadays, because after all, I go to other people's homes, and I should buy some things, but later I found out that other people don't want my things, maybe these teachers think that we can go to see them and be very happy.

I have been working for ten years, and I am also working silently in an ordinary position! Although I am a very ordinary person, I really want to meet that teacher, sometimes I find that every time I struggle like this, wandering in my heart painfully, what kind of feeling is it, and sometimes I find that I am really unhappy and sad.

Maybe the teacher doesn't care what he looks like, he doesn't care if he mixes well or not, as long as he can see his teacher again, I think it's a very good choice, but later, I still feel that I always have a very uncomfortable, embarrassed feeling every time, maybe it's because of vanity!

People are like this, they accept the good of others, there are so many people who have been good to themselves before, but when they grow up and become adults, what do they take to repay these beneficial?

I couldn't figure out such a truth, but later I realized that when I joined the work, I still wanted to go to those former teachers and friends, and I would go to some teachers to talk to each other!

But I am still very confused and depressed. Teachers are also human beings, after these decades have passed, I found that teachers are not like before, when educating us, they are very young, but now they are all about to retire, already old people, and we, young people, what should we say to teachers?

Sometimes I find that it is really strange, especially for some people like us, sometimes we want to talk to some former acquaintances, but because of the ordinariness and mediocrity of our life and work, we retreat again and again.

I don't know what the reason is, maybe it's just my own psychology.

It's also because of my own psychology that I'm doing trouble, I haven't done what I want to do, and I've been feeling depressed in my heart, in fact, every time I think of such a problem, I'm running away, I don't know how to face such a problem, how can I repay the teacher who was kind to me before?

I thought about it for a long, long time, in fact, such a question has been bothering me for many years, since I was studying, I have always wanted to wait for myself to graduate from college, find a good job, I must visit such a teacher, but then I found out that when I graduated from college, I have been working for ten years, and I have not yet gone to find my teacher, time flies quickly, I am already in my 30s, and when are I going to visit my teacher?

And I myself am still in the inner contradiction, a contradiction is decades, for the same problem, I don't know what kind of good way to do it, and later found out that in the process of such a contradiction, every time I think of such a thing, my heart is very unhappy, very sad feeling, but how to solve my sadness, I still don't have a good solution, maybe only when my daily life is mixed well, can I go to my teacher, but the teacher's age is already over 50 years old, can I wait for such a time？

If I can't wait, it will be a regret for my life, but I have thought very clearly, on such a problem, how should I repay my teacher, should I go to the door to thank the teacher, but then I am still hesitating, because of such a thing, I have written an article out, but, after writing such an article, writing my heart, there is still a feeling that I can't let go for a long time, how to solve such a problem?

I don't know how to let go of my feelings, so that my heart can have a feeling of being a little better, I don't know, then I hesitate for a while, if I really can't help it, if I want to see the teacher, then go, anyway, no matter what kind of thing, as long as I go with the flow, so that my heart can have a calm.