Chapter 151 Reluctance

At this moment, Leng Shuiyue was sitting next to a fountain in Dalian Wanda Plaza, and at this time she lowered her head, as if watching some hurried office workers coming and going.

It feels like a feeling of coming and going in a hurry, as if this kind of thing is in the same mood as myself, but I don't know why I am in this rush of business.

How can there be so many such concerns here, how can there be so many things that cannot be given up, maybe it seems that I am in this complicated city.

It still seems so lonely, and there are so many independent people who can't integrate into this prosperous city, as if they are really small in the process.

And in this process, it seems that I really have a lot of things, I can't give up, and I can't make one more choice, I'm really in this world.

It's so chaotic with everything here, and these things don't give me any personal sobriety and a little bit of clarity.

It seems like it's really hard to let yourself go in the process. You really want to hide your sense of thinking, but no matter what you do, you can't hide the past at all.

Because when this kind of thing is completely placed on your body, you will find that this kind of thing is really not a very simple thing, but it is indeed a super complex thing that you imagined, and you have never thought of it.

There may be situations where she really thinks she might have a home, and this home might give her a place to lock herself for a while.

And this home may allow itself to have a very warm place in this place, and it used to be a very nice thing too.

And this thing was originally moving towards a very good thing, and it has slowly developed step by step.

But now, what else can happen?

No one knows what will happen in this situation.

"Where should I go now? Where is my home, it seems like I can't live in this city, it doesn't seem like it's my home, I don't know how to hold on to these things, I know sometimes I'm really sad, I really feel miserable, but I don't know why, for this happened, I'm so sincere to everyone, and it seems like I really don't have anywhere to go, but it's all because I should have the courage to live......"

"I don't know why, is it that I really don't fit into this city, is it that I should come back, this is a wrong thing, maybe I leave this city, maybe I choose a new place to start, maybe it was a good choice at the time, I believe I can get back on my feet, and I can raise my baby well, I don't believe that I can't do anything that I can't do, although I am very reluctant to do this thing now, but I know that I have to take that step, I know I have to get out of that situation, maybe this thing is something that should be done by me......”

"It's a lie about these things, maybe this thing is something I imagined myself, maybe this kind of thing may be too different from my own imagination, maybe this kind of thing may have too many smells, but I know that no matter what happens to this thing, no matter what kind of confusion there is in this thing, but I will still insist on the existence of this thing, I will still regard this thing as something that I used to be not passionate about, but I know that this kind of thing may cause me too much confusion and I will definitely stick to it, right? ......”

"Okay, okay, now I think I've been kicked out of here, although I'm in a situation where I feel particularly depressed, but it doesn't matter if this thing is my frank and open, I will definitely use my own hands to earn another point, I must use my own feelings to get such a thing Okay, baby boy, I'll take you away, let's go away, I'll leave here forever, there's nothing here that can make us know nostalgia......"

"Yes, yes, I'm going to leave here again, right? I have to leave here, there's nothing worth it to let me go back, there's too much nostalgia for me I don't believe, just with me, I can't go out and find a job, what's the big deal to leave anyone, can't I survive? Because you are an individual, an independent person, and a capable person, this thing has been the best test for yourself for so many years......"

"Is it why my heart is so uncomfortable, why am I so entangled in my heart, why I seem to leave here, I really feel a very uncomfortable and painful feeling, maybe I have lived and grown here, so many years of feelings, in the process of being here, maybe a little reluctant, maybe this is the situation that may cause me to be really difficult to leave here, but no matter what, these things really don't matter, now I should leave here, isn't it like this......"

"Believe in your mother, your mother will take you there, start over, we will be presidents, we will go to a place by the sea, we will go to the seaside place, where it is really facing the sea, the spring flowers are blooming, I heard that there are very beautiful things there, and there are too many things there, so that you feel very happy in the process, it will be fast, and it doesn't matter if we come back again......"

"My most beloved child, then you have to promise your mother not to make trouble in her belly? So the train we took this afternoon, where we got off, we saw the scenery over there, if which side would be particularly beautiful, we would get off there, we didn't care which city we went to, if we felt that somewhere had a fate for us, we would get off there, we would definitely start again, I would definitely make a lot of things for you to eat, you can rest assured, just like a mother by your side, you will definitely grow up happily, okay?"

Leng Shuiyue was sitting next to this pool at this time, she really saw this time in a trance, and at this time she touched her belly, she had a very brave feeling.

She knew that she didn't know why, and in that brave process, she had a little haggard and sad feeling that she couldn't speak, and she didn't know why it seemed that she was so really difficult to get out of here, and her heart was very confused.

Because after a quarrel with Ye Jingbei this morning, and she suddenly realized something, she was really homeless.

Maybe it's really that you've reached a kind of helplessness, this is something to persevere, do you want to go back to your hometown?

That's impossible, how can they accept themselves?!

And if you go back to the Ye family now, it will be even more impossible!

Don't you yourself have the self-esteem, don't you have a brave heart? If people feel that this kind of thing has not been broken in your spine, you should stick to it according to your own way of life.

Instead of going back over there with the image of a poor death, you should have your own dignity, right?

So at this time, Leng Shuiyue made up her mind that no matter what, now that I have reached this situation,

You can't wag your tail like a pug and beg others to pity this thing, you will never be able to do this kind of thing, no matter what, you will never be able to do such a boring thing.

I am a person with dignity, and at this time I am a person with a face, do you think that according to this kind of thing, in fact, this kind of thing will not cause you a lot of harm.

That nonsense.

The damage is terrible, and if it is impossible to judge the possibility of such a thing in this case, then the best thing to do now is to leave here and leave yourself forever and ever.

And then even when she found out that she really wanted to leave, she suddenly realized that she really had nothing.

And a destination that I once missed deeply is really successful now, and I really have nothing, maybe I really have it.

All that was left was this child, and his own pitiful courage.

"The child only thinks about me and you now, you don't have to worry too much, I will definitely take good care of you, don't worry, I will definitely give you the best childhood and the happiest things." Do you believe it? You believe your mother, and it's been four years since she came back from studying in the United States, do you believe it? Mother is a top student, and is a scholar, and in a certain place and any position, and we will definitely go to a lot of playgrounds to play, can go to a lot of places, you can go wherever you want, I will not restrict you to have a happy life in life, I know that I will actually give you a very abundant dignity, can be very happy and free, I believe that you will get better and better in the process of this ......"

Even when he said this, he was really gently stroking his slightly convex abdomen, at this time, unconsciously the child was almost three months old, at first she was just an accident, this was a surprise,

But now I can't give her up anyway.

It is impossible for her to directly knock her out like Ye Jingbei said, and directly abandon her to another cold world, Leng Shuiyue will never be able to do it!

Even if Ye Jingbei made such a request to himself, he would never be able to make up that determination, and he would never be able to fall into that determination for the rest of his life.

No matter what happens to her, she will definitely take this child very seriously to raise her.

"If the child really does not have your existence, maybe I and your father may never be together, this kind of thing you can rest assured, the child's mother will always love you, even if your existence is an unexpected thing, but from the moment you appear, the mother of the world is really only you, you can rest assured, the mother will accompany you from a young age to grow up happily, this is a common secret of ours, but also a common wish of ours, okay......?

When she said this, with tears in her eyes, she always felt that no matter what happened in this situation, no matter what happened, she could never give anything at the expense of her children.

Because the child is innocent, this is a living being, and it is impossible to betray anything ever.