Chen Quan took off his glasses, rubbed his somewhat sour eyes, and came to his senses for a while.

The pale, handsome face conjured up in her mind.

Those beautiful eyes looked lifeless, and the whole person looked lifeless.

She remembers the intense sympathy that welled up in her heart.

She clearly realized at that time that the reason why she was so sympathetic to the other party was because the child was too handsome, and beautiful things would always produce a strong aura, even if she was a senior psychological counselor, she could not be completely immune to this appearance aura, so she could only consciously adjust herself and not be affected too much.

The second reason is that she knows how much suffering this child has gone through. Those who are a little mentally fragile will not be able to withstand online violence. Although it is said that it was actually caused by himself, few people think that he is actually a victim.

Putting his glasses back on, Chen Quan continued to read.

Summary of the second consultation: The mental state of the client Du is quite stable, which is better than I judged before.

His personality traits are actually not like those descriptions on the Internet. In the process of talking to him, his language reflects a good upbringing, and "rough" and "vulgar" are actually not touched.

After repeated questioning, Du did not have any other hallucinations, and it could not be judged that he was mentally abnormal.

Du's "other existence in one's own body" may be a certain alienation of oneself, and in some people who are particularly psychologically sensitive, this symptom may occur, although it is indeed very, very rare. Of course, it is not yet possible to draw conclusions, and we must continue to observe.

This symptom did not affect his life, social interaction, etc., and even promoted him well, helping him become a genius in the field of music and comics. In the future period of counseling, you can leave it alone for a while and focus on solving the problem of depression first.

At present, it can be inferred that the onset of Du's depression originated after the photography incident, and due to the online violence and the betrayal of some people who he regarded as friends, it had a great impact on him.

In addition, the "car crash" may have a more far-reaching impact. Du said that the person driving at that time was actually Su Manqian, but Su Manqian was worried that her career as a singer would be affected, and begged Du to help her, and Du agreed to help her take the blame.

After this incident was exposed, Du suffered another wave of online violence, and Su also left him, which hit Du quite hard, and he thought that Su was the true love he had finally found.

Key points of the next consultation: First, guide Du to re-understand the relationship with Su. Second, learn more about Du's family background, especially explore Du's relationship with his father and look for other possible causes of depression. Third, help Du find a support point.

After reading this consultation record, Chen Quan shook his head and turned to the next page.

Time passes.

Before she knew it, she had seen the last page.

17th consultation, 24 November 2007.

......

Counselor: How are you feeling this week?

Interview (smiling): It's not bad, I've noticed a lot of beauty in life. By the way, I went to see my daughter yesterday.

Counselor: I remember you mentioned that you and Ms. Yan have an agreement that you will only let your daughter stay with you for a month in June every year.

Interview: Yes, so I went to her secretly. Took her to eat a pizza and grilled chicken wings, and if her mother knew about it, she would definitely scold me to death. But she was very happy, seeing her innocent smiling face, the meat foam and oil next to her small mouth, she smiled so happily, I think it was worth it even if she was scolded.

Counselor: Sounds like you're getting along well with your daughter, congratulations.

Interviewer: Now that I think about it, when I first met her, I didn't really want to deal with this crumpled little thing. But now, before I know it, she has taken over all of my mind. Before she was 4 years old, I got along with her very badly, I didn't know how to get along with children, and she was too young. In the past two years, she has become a little more sensible, her language skills have improved, and I have gradually gotten along with her a little better.

Counselor: Talk about your emotions. The happiest and happiest is 10 points, and the lowest and saddest is 0 points. What was your highest score and lowest score in the past week?

Interview (without thinking, laughs): The highest is of course 10 points, when I get along with my daughter. Minimum...... 6 points, pass. The overall feeling is ok.

Counselor: You know what? I'm actually a little worried.

Interview: Why?

Because, you transferred the shares of "Zhizhen Culture" to your daughter, and used the subsequent proceeds from the copyrights of your songs and comics to set up a charitable foundation, if I remember correctly, you used your daughter's name, called "Caiwei Charity Foundation" The main focus is on two aspects: one is to give unmarried single mothers small interest-free loans, and give them some subsidies according to their actual difficulties; second, in the face of mental retardation, children can be given a certain amount of subsidies to help them go to specialized vocational and technical schools to learn a trade. You're doing great things, but I'm uneasy.

Interview (smile): Why are you uneasy?

Counselor: With all due respect, it feels like it's being arranged.

Interview: Mr. Chen Quan, I have to say that you think too much. Actually, I've wanted to do these things for a long time.

Advisor: Then forgive me for asking more, you are now in debt from your parents, with tens of millions of debts, but you have gifted Zhizhen Culture to your daughter, donated the future proceeds of music and comic rights to the foundation, plus you have already given the shares of Genesis Chinese Network to your daughter as a birthday gift two years ago. Now that you can say that your source of income has been cut off, how are you going to pay it back?

Interview: Mr. Chen Quan, please forgive me for saying that how I plan to repay the money is my private matter, and you don't seem to have the right to ask.

I thought we had a very close relationship and would allow me to ask these questions.

(Silence for a moment): I'm sorry, I said something I shouldn't have said. I didn't mean that.

Counselor: You don't need to apologize, I'm just trying to figure out what is the thought process behind when you say that?

Interview: It's nothing, it's just a momentary mistake. You're right, Mr. Chen Quan, you are qualified to ask this question. I'm still young, and I still have memories of "another existence," which is a precious treasure, a great treasure.

I've released hundreds of classic songs, and you think that's all there is to it? No, I remember songs that were several times that number, some of them more classic. So, as long as I want, I can easily make money.

Advisor: So, you're planning to start writing songs again and get back into the entertainment industry?

Interview: It doesn't have to be in the capacity of "Lin Ke". But yes, I'll start over.

Counselor: Sounds good. Looking forward to seeing a brand new you!

Interview (laughs): Yes.

Counselor: I have to ask, what has happened in the past two weeks? In the last consultation, I felt that you were still plagued by depression.

Interview (relaxed, smiling): I just figured it out, epiphany, understand? I met a person a while ago, talked to him a lot, and then I had an epiphany. People sometimes need this light.

Counselor: Well, sometimes. That's it, Xiao Du, if you realize that you are affected by depression again, and you feel that you can't get over the next hurdle, don't hesitate to pick up your phone and dial my number, understand?

Visit: I know, thank you for your long care, Mr. Chen Quan, I am honored to meet such an excellent consultant as you.

......

Chen Quan took off his reading glasses, sighed, and spread the consultation record on the table.

At that time, I was also deceived by your expression, and saw your relaxed smile...... Although I have an ominous premonition, although I feel that some of your words have a sense of farewell, but I have not delved into it.

Outcome...... You're really arranging the aftermath. And your relaxed smile is probably because you have made up your mind to leave everything behind and go to another world, so you feel relaxed.

One of the biggest mistakes I made in my counseling career.

It is said that if a person who commits suicide once, if he is lucky enough not to die, the three views will change permanently. Chen Quan gently stroked the ugly scars on his wrists.

What about you, will you make a big difference? ...... you? Is it really amnesia?