Water.

There is water everywhere around.

The pressure of the water brings an endless sense of oppression that makes people breathless.

That terrifying feeling of suffocation also came as scheduled.

Struggle, desperately gasping for breath, but the more I struggled, the more I gasped, the more I felt like I was falling into the indescribable abyss.

Hell seems to be just around the corner.

But when this hell was about to open, a bright light suddenly appeared, penetrating everything, through the past and the present, bringing hope for life......

Song Shan didn't know how long he struggled in the darkness, he seemed to see a glimmer of light, and then followed the direction of the light, running non-stop, racing against death, and racing against fate......

"His father, it's not the same thing for the third child to go on like this, or let the third child study for another year, this teacher has said that the third child has such good qualifications, if he doesn't have this disease, he will definitely be able to be admitted to university, so he fell off the list, it's a pity!"

"The third child has been reading for so many years, and our family has been in debt for so many years, and he still goes to read, don't we have to pay off the debt?"

"You can't watch the third child die!"

"Our family is not just the third child, this boss is twenty-two years old this year, and it will be too late if he doesn't marry his daughter-in-law, the second child is looking for his mother-in-law's family, can't he prepare some dowry, the fourth junior high school is the third, if she is admitted to high school, she will have to spend money!"

"But if you don't let the third child read it, can the third child live?"

"Hey, they are all terrible sons and daughters, I'll go to Uncle Ba's house to see if I can borrow some more money!"

“......”

This voice was very familiar, like Song Shan's parents who had long passed away, but just when he wanted to find out, the voice had gradually died out, and the darkness quickly enveloped Song Shan's meaning again.

When Song Shan woke up again, he saw the sunlight shining in, there was no headache, no discomfort, he just felt hungry, very hungry, as if he could eat a cow at this time.

Open your eyes and look around.

It's familiar.

A kang bed, on the left is his territory, on the right is the eldest brother's territory, and in the middle is a boxy case.

This was supposed to be his home when he was younger.

"Shanzi, you're awake!"

A kind voice came in from outside, and suddenly Song Shan was a little caught off guard.

His eyes widened, looking at the middle-aged woman who walked in step by step from the outside, ordinary, a little short, very thin, maybe because she was too tired and haggard, but it made him very familiar, familiar to the depths of his soul.

"Mom?"

Song Shan suppressed his excitement and called tentatively.

"Shanzi, you drink this porridge first, and then there is some medicine here, which was prescribed by Lao Li Tou at the head of the village, he said that you haven't gotten up from your illness before, and now you have a cold in the water, so you have to take some heavy medicine!"

Chen Ruhui put millet porridge, a few side dishes, and a bowl of Chinese medicine on the small case, and then touched Song Shan's forehead, feeling that the temperature was not so hot, and then said: "Shanzi, don't blame your father, your father didn't say that he wouldn't let you read it, don't you want to do it, don't you worry, my mother will be able to persuade your father to let you continue to study for a year, but you can't be a fool anymore, you kid......"

After chattering for a long time, Chen Ruhui walked out.

Song Shan's eyes couldn't help but moisten.

Is this a dream?

I haven't had such a dream for many years.

Even in a dream, the faces of my parents seem to have blurred, and they have never been so real and clear.

Syllable!

He suddenly slapped himself hard, and a handprint quickly appeared on his face, it hurt, it hurt, but his heart was very excited and excited, and the pain meant that it was not a dream, if it was not a dream......

What's going on here?

......

First fell seriously ill for three days, and then because he fell into the Yanshui River and contracted a slight wind chill, Song Shan lay on the kang and recuperated for two days, and the pure masters of the northwest who were one meter and eight meters tall quickly recovered their weak bodies.

On this day, he finally walked out of the room, outside was a courtyard, the courtyard was very familiar, an old locust tree in the middle was half-dead, then the lower right corner of the main courtyard, a well, and the lower left corner was a stone mill.

Facing the sun, with a familiar feeling, he walked up the wooden ladder to the stone wall on the right, and lay on the stone wall by the eaves, basking in the somewhat fierce sun.

It was his favorite place to stay as a teenager.

Bask in the sun here, read a book here, watch the morning sun here, watch the sunset here.

And now, here he is looking at the rising sun in the sky, but in his heart he is underestimating an incredible thing.

"Children who grew up under the red flag, I shouldn't be talking about ghosts and gods in detail!"

"But what's the matter with me!"

"Shouldn't I be dead?"

"Reborn ......"

"Or crossing ......"

He was babbling to himself and talking to himself.

Song Shan, a native of Yongshi, Qinchuan, was born in 1980, 97 years of college entrance examination, a serious illness, missed a day of the exam, the name fell to Sun Shan, repeated for a year, 98 years of Yongshi college entrance examination champion, admitted to the National People's Congress Agricultural College, graduated in 02, resolutely gave up a high-paying position, returned to Yongshi, applied for the civil service, 18 years of tossing in the sea, helpless, several ups and downs, with ability and luck, in 2020, he became the director of the Municipal Bureau of Agriculture, in June of the same year, returned to his hometown to inspect the development of rural agriculture, fell into the water, drowned in the Yanshui River......

It's his whole life.

The memory of every day of his life seemed so clear that he couldn't think that it was just a dream, in that life, he cried, laughed, hated, loved, blamed himself, and felt guilty......

He never thought that life could be repeated.

Just three days ago, only five days after the college entrance examination in 1997, he walked out of that psychedelic life like a big dream, and returned to the closed and backward Fengsheng Village.

Like a dream, what is real and what is illusory, he is already a little unsure.

That is the world of dreams......

He's been thinking about it for the past few days.

"Maybe God is really good to me and has given me another chance to make amends!"

He closed his eyes and said softly to himself, "Even if it's a dream, I'm going to have a sweet dream!"

For the Song family in the previous life.

It's a nightmare.

A nightmare that Song Shan never dared to recall.

In order to allow him to repeat his studies for a year and then go to college, in the past five years, the family has paid too much price, so heavy that he can't bear it.

He was unwilling to miss the exam because of illness.

So he's going to repeat it.

But the conditions in the house do not allow it.

His persistent and selfish nature forced him to die and jumped into the river of stones.

So Father Song still agreed.

However, this is the most remote and backward mountain village in the northwest of '97, and the ordinary education level is only a junior high school in Fengsheng Village, and not a single college student has ever been out, so it is very difficult to provide for him to go to college.

In order to repay the debts in the family, he worked day and night, picking a load of vegetables from here to the town to sell, first to walk three miles of mountainous land, then to take five miles of paths, and then to turn into the highway, seven miles of highway, at least three hours, but he did not stop day by day.

In the end, he coughed up blood because of excessive fatigue, and when Song Shan got the university notice, he suddenly fell ill, but in order to save money, he was unwilling to go to the hospital, and he stayed at home for twelve days, and when he was sent to the hospital, it was too late.

Mother Chen Ruhui, because of her father's death, was overly sad and stayed up for two years, and Song Shan also died of illness when she was just a junior in college, and when she died, she was skinny.

The Song family has four children.

Big brother Song Jiang.

Second sister Song Jin.

The third Song Mountain.

The fourth Song embroidery.

At that time, Song Jifang, who didn't know a few illiterate people, specially gave a piece of bacon stored in the house to the respected Xiucai Gong in the village, so he gave such a name, which made him very proud for a while.

Song Jiang has the same reputation as the boss of the Water Margin and the rain of time, but he is just an upright northwest man, he only dropped out of school in the third year of junior high school, in order to make way for his sister and brother, he did not see the gate of high school.

After dropping out of school, he worked as a carpentry apprentice in the town, he had learned well, this craft gave him a few more years, he could be a teacher, but for Song Shan's tuition, he went to the mine in the county, and in the past year, he stepped on the mine, broke his leg, was lame for a lifetime, and had only a small dream in his life, taking a daughter-in-law and giving birth to a baby, but it has never been realized, even if Song Shan has made a fortune in the future, it can't change the fact that he is a lame man, he has low self-esteem and hid in Fengsheng Village, guarding a few rooms in the house, a few acres of land, and living a depressed life.

The second eldest of the Song family, Song Jin, a branch of flowers in ten miles and eight townships, graduated from junior high school, worked as a waiter in a restaurant in the county, married the hotel owner for a bride price of 5,000 yuan, but was often subjected to domestic violence after marriage, Song Shan remembered seeing her several times, the corners of her eyes, always with bruises, in 08 years, Song Shan was the deputy director of the county agricultural bureau, and personally sent his brother-in-law who was not as good as pigs and dogs to prison, Song Jin divorced, with a seven-year-old child, and was lonely all his life.

The little sister Song Xiu, this is the one whose personality is most similar to Song Shan, is struggling for her own destiny, and she is unwilling to fall between this poverty, but the Song family has a Song Shan, and she is destined to be a tragedy.

After graduating from junior high school, the family had no ability to support her to go to high school because of the provision of a college student, she was unwilling, and made trouble for a long time, but her father never spoke, she was angry, and went to the south alone to work, and since then, there has been no news.

In one or three years, Song Shan had just entered the Municipal Agricultural Bureau, and went to the south with the city's senior officials to inspect, in Shenzhen, he finally saw the little sister, showing off the flowers, wearing heavy makeup, living in a villa, driving a car, but he couldn't see the light, he was very heartbroken, and wanted to take the little sister back, but the little sister said that although some days were bitter, but she was used to it......

The tragedy of the Song family seems to have started when he Song Shan wanted to repeat it.

Then in this life, he can't let the tragedy of the Song family repeat itself, if this is just a dream, he hopes that the dream will be longer, and he is willing to create a dream for the Song family, a dream that everyone will no longer have regrets.

Ninety-seven years!

That's great!

I am back!