The two rows of streetlights on the long street stretched to the end he couldn't see, and he liked the endless streets, because there was no end, and he could go all the way.

He walked slowly under the lamp, which stretched his shadow to a slender one, and he preferred the shadow at the moment, because in this way, he could walk with only his own shadow.

The shadow is fat or thin, tall or short, no matter how ever-changing, it will always follow itself closely, he walks it, he stops it, what a wonderful and pleasant feeling.

He smiled at the "good buddy" beside him, "Good brother, only you are the best." ”

The shadow is always loyal to him, dead hearted, and never abandons, and there is no more grounded feeling for him.

He jumped happily, and the shadow jumped happily with him, and when they landed, they were united again.

He said to his shadow, "My brother and I are twins, and others say that we stand together like shadows of each other. To tell you the truth, this metaphor is not very appropriate, I have a tacit understanding with him, but who wants to be someone's shadow? There is only one shadow that belongs to us in this world, not him, nor me, but you. ”

He chuckled at the shadow, then laughed out loud, then laughed dryly, and finally wryly, he smiled and smiled, and the corners of his eyes moistened.

He has accumulated depression and depression in his heart for several years, he does not have such a good attitude to face it with a smile, and it is impossible to face it with a cry, he has to use laughter to meet the road of tomorrow when he cries out of depression.

He couldn't see the road ahead, and in the process of discrediting himself, he tried not to let himself fall.

Suddenly, countless continuous sounds of "...... and " came from above, and the street lights on both sides of the road went out from a distance, and the bright street was pitch black in the blink of an eye.

His shadow vanished into the darkness of the night, his smile frozen.

In a panic, he looked up at the extinguished street lamp, the remaining light of the street lamp gradually dimmed, and he looked down for the shadow, the only shadow that accompanied him had been swallowed up by the darkness, and the comfort he had just obtained in his heart died along with the light of the street lamp.

Darkness enveloped him completely, and the fear that followed it was like a great black curtain, wrapping around him.

He was already frightened when he was in place, but at this moment, an even more terrifying voice sounded in front of him, this rough and hoarse voice sounded like two pieces of sandpaper rubbing against each other, "Your hat has fallen off." ”

He looked up, and a charred human corpse was clearly presented in front of him, a pair of blood-red eyes glowing with a ghostly light staring at him on the charcoal-black skeleton.

There was also a fruit knife stuck in the chest of the dried corpse, and this knife actually glowed with a blinding silver light in the night.

Seeing this, the biting coldness instantly ran through his back, and he sat on the damp and cold ground - ghost, ghost!

The corpse's black paws held a cane, which pointed behind him, "Your hat is off." ”

His widening eyes could not escape the corpse in front of him, but an inexplicable force forced him to twist his head or close his eyes. There was also the factor that he feared that in the moment of inattention, it would pounce on him.

He trembled and pointed to the fruit knife in the chest of the dry corpse, and he seemed to want to say something, but the corpse pointed to his back again, "Your hat has fallen off." ”

He had no choice but to cater to its meaning.

He glanced behind his back with the pointing of his cane, and the familiar hat was really behind him!

He reached out and took it back, put it in his arms and flipped it around a few times, "How can this be?

The hat he had put in his backpack had never been taken out at all, so how could it have fallen behind him?

He was a little suspicious, and quickly put down the backpack on his shoulder, and the zipper of the backpack was unexpectedly opened!

"Who pulled my bag open? Could it be you?"

When he looked up at the corpse, he was shocked again, because there was nothing in front of him!

He remembered the last sight before the light was gone, and there was nothing around him!

So what was that thing just now? Is it a hallucination?

Covered in goosebumps, he stood from the ground, his widening eyes still searching for a trace of it in the darkness, and he looked around, but found nothing.

This world is cruel to him, it has always hollowed him out bit by bit, but the world is full of magic, and he can actually experience the wonderful feeling of being lost and regained, even if this wonderful feeling is accompanied by unbearable fright.

The hat in his hand was tightly buttoned on his head, and as he took a step, all the street lamps on the side of the street were lit up, and the dark and endless street returned to its former brightness, and he also gained a sense of security.

He walked with his head down, rubbing his hat on his head, and pondering the strange things that had happened tonight.

If it is said that the extinguishing of the street lights in the whole street is a sudden failure, then how can we explain the appearance of human corpses at this time? Could it be that these days are too tired and hallucinating? Or is there really a ghost in this world!

He pondered and had no clue.

He had a strange feeling in his heart, feeling that the appearance of the ghost corpse was not harming him, but helping him.

The backpack forgot to pull on because of his own negligence, so he jumped with all his strength, and the hat in the backpack could fall out. The floppy hat fell to the ground without a sound, so he didn't notice it at all. If the ghost does not remind himself that he has already set out on his way, he will lose this hat forever.

Could it be that the problem lies with this hat? Could it be that this hat is spiritual?

Could it be that it didn't want to be discarded by itself, and staged a "ghost show" to remind itself!

If that's the case, there's no limit to evil.

He smiled and shook his head, it seemed that he was indeed too tired, so he had better stop thinking about it.

Although he doesn't go into the weird causes, there are two things that always linger.

First of all, the fruit knife inserted in the human corpse is a knife that his grandmother has used for more than ten years, this fruit knife is very familiar to him, the size and color of the blade and the shape and material of the knife handle, he closed his eyes, and he can depict it in his mind, and why did this familiar fruit knife insert into the chest of the human corpse?

The most unrelieved thing for him was that he saw his grandmother's figure from the corpse! The demeanor of the corpse and the height of the corpse were somewhat similar to his grandmother's, and the most similar thing was the voice of the corpse, although the voice of the corpse was hoarse, but he really felt the taste of his grandmother.

Years later, he believed that people had foresight of the future.

In a casual moment, people will see the picture of what will happen in the future, and they will not care about it at the time, until it happens, and they will not think it is incredible.

You don't have to take it too seriously, such moments only happen occasionally, not just because they just happen.

There is no need to share it with anyone beforehand, if you share it with others, others will scoff at it. I think it's incredible, let alone others.

There's no need to tell anyone about it afterwards, and it seems that I'm hindsight.

He thought so, so before and after his grandmother's accident, he didn't tell his brother about the strange things that happened tonight.

......

Chenzishan and Chenzifeng's home is only more than forty square meters, and a bedroom and a living room occupy almost all the area of this house.

There was a small bed in the living room, where their grandmother slept while the brothers slept in the bunk beds in the bedroom.

The dining table in the living room is both a table for eating and a table for brothers to study.

In order to save electricity, they study in the living room at night and share electricity with their grandmother.

After dinner, Grandma would wipe down the simple dining table, and Grandma, who had a busy day, lay on the bed and watched her grandchildren read quietly, which was her greatest pleasure of the day.

Since Chenzishan left home, the happy days are gone.

Whenever night came, my grandmother lay on the bed silently missing, and quietly lost it for countless nights.

Grandma climbed onto the bed with difficulty, she looked at the yellowed ceiling, and felt that she was so tired after all the years that Chenzishan had been away from home.

This feeling is not new to her, and those who have high hopes always return her with disappointment, his grandfather, his father, and him.

When he was young, his grandfather joined the army, but his bright future was cut off from the army for violating military regulations. After returning home, his grandfather was doubly degenerate, drunk and gambled, lost the family business, not to mention, scolded and beat himself, and now his bad legs and feet were also the root of the disease at that time. She had made up her mind to flee from the house for countless nights of weeping, but at that time his father was still young, and he thought that he was going to abandon him, and he secretly wiped away his tears on the night of crying.

finally survived until his father grew up, but fortunately, his father was quite competitive in his studies, and he was also admitted to the civil service because of his talent. A few years later, with his courage and connections, he went to the sea to engage in business. After a successful career, he began to become vain and arrogant, and even learned things that were unpopular in society. When he decided to divorce, his grandmother was so angry that she let out cruel words, but she never expected that after that, her son, who had worked so hard to raise her eldest son, would never come home to visit.

Every year on the thirtieth night, during the festival of family reunion, grandma waits in this cold room.

She lay on the cold windowsill, looking at the few pedestrians downstairs, looking at the night sky full of fireworks, looking at the CCTV Spring Festival Gala reflected on the glass, she looked back at the dumplings on the dining table from time to time, and finally looked at the two well-behaved grandsons around the dining table.

Grandma thought about the past years and felt that she had lived in disappointment with the Chen family all her life.

What she fears most is that these two grandsons will one day follow in their footsteps, and even if they live a poor and difficult life in the future, she does not want them to go astray.

It is another Spring Festival, and this year's Spring Festival is the first Spring Festival since Chen Zifeng went to college, and it is also the fourth Spring Festival after Chen Zishan left home.

There is only one grandson left in the family to accompany her grandmother for the New Year, although her grandmother has unspeakable depression in her heart, but she still faces this filial grandson with a smile.

This grandson of hers is very competitive, and he has also been admitted to the best university in the city, today is his first Chinese New Year's Eve after returning from college, and his grandmother is trying to restrain his long-standing depression in order to make him happy for the New Year.

There were only two people in the family for Chinese New Year's Eve, but his grandmother worked tirelessly to prepare eight dishes for him. Grandma plans to stew a carp, stir-fry three meat dishes, three green vegetables, and finally add a cold dish.

Grandma's legs and feet are not good, and he does all the work of running errands back and forth, and grandma is only responsible for stir-frying.

He was busy beside his grandmother and told the news of college life.

Grandma listened with relish, asking a few curious questions from time to time.

He also recounted a few interesting stories about his sisters' time in college.

Grandma listened, her thoughts didn't know where to fly, and she suddenly interjected, "Your brother planned to go back to school, but it was because of them." ”

As soon as these words came out, the small room was instantly quiet, and the sound of boiling in the pot was clearly terrifying.

He only cared about choosing vegetables and washing vegetables, and did not talk about college life anymore, and did not say anything more.

Grandma also only cared about fish stew and didn't ask him about college again.

The two people who were silent were busy with their own things as if nothing had happened.

Six hot dishes and one cold dish were placed on the dining table, except for the last dish, meatballs.

Grandma was frying meatballs when suddenly there was a knock on the door, and grandma stopped what she was doing and looked at him.

He also stopped wrapping the meatballs and looked at his grandmother.

As the two looked at each other, there was another knock on the door.

They have common surprises and questions in their hearts, few people at home have come to the door, let alone the Chinese New Year's Eve!

Who will be the one who will get the trick?

The fence in Grandma's hand trembled, "Will it ...... Will it be ......?"

"My brother!"

Grandma staggered to open the door, and when she opened the door, the smile on her face disappeared instantly, "It's you! What are you doing here?"

Brother Guang, whose face was full of smiles, said hypocritically, "Old man, I'm here to visit you." ”

"Visit me?"

Brother Guang glanced sideways into the room, and he only found the figure of one of the brothers of the Chen family, "Chen Zifeng didn't come back for the New Year?"

"You're here to find Chen Zifeng, you want to see if he comes back for the New Year, I'm right. Grandma added indifferently, "Chen Zifeng is not at home, you can go." ”

"Look at what you said, for the New Year, don't I miss you in my heart. ”

Brother Guang ordered the fifth and sixth children behind him, "You two bring in the rice and white noodles." ”

The fifth and sixth children were about to enter the house carrying rice and white noodles, but the old man blocked the door, "I don't want it, take the things!"

Brother Guang showed an embarrassed smile on his face, "Old man, it's not a good sign to refuse people during the New Year." ”

The old man stared at Brother Guang's secretly cunning face, "The weasel greeting the chicken for the New Year is not a good sign. ”

"Our brothers have finally carried it upstairs, you can't let us carry it anymore. ”

"If you don't carry it, I'll carry it downstairs and throw it away. ”

Hearing this, Brother Guang and a group of people left in a huff.

Grandma closed the door and muttered to herself, "What a bunch of scum!"

"They asked for news about my brother and wanted him to work for them. ”

"Alas...... Over the years, they have not forgiving, and your brother will fall into their hands sooner or later. ”

Grandma held the doorknob firmly, she saw the meatballs that had been fried in the oil pot, and wanted to go forward to fish them out, but she couldn't walk.

"Zifeng, turn off the fire. ”

He turned off the gas tank and returned to his grandmother, "Why are you so ugly?" ”

Grandma wanted to go to bed and lie down, but her legs couldn't exert any strength at all, "You go and help me get some pain-relieving tablets." ”

"Pain Pills, Grandma, what's wrong with you?"

"Not much, just a little uncomfortable. ”

He immediately found the medicine box, and couldn't find the medicine with the words "pain tablets" when he rummaged through it, "When did you buy the pain tablets at home?" ”

"I ate it in the morning, you see if there's one next to the kettle. ”

He trotted over, and sure enough, he found it behind the kettle, and when he opened it, he saw that the whole bottle of new medicine had been eaten by his grandmother and only a few pills were left, "You take a few pills at a time." ”

"Three or four will do. ”

He read the instructions carefully, which said to take one pill at a time, "Why do you eat so much?"

"Cheap medicine, maybe the medicine can't work, don't ask so much, hurry up and get it." ”

He handed the hot water and medicine to his grandmother, and watched as she swallowed three large white pills in one go, and he asked worriedly, "Are you really okay?"

"Why don't you just take some medicine, I'll see you're nervous." ”

Grandma suddenly asked him, "You two are twin brothers, if you were him, where would you go?"

"I ...... I don't think Brother Guang can find these people, he is definitely not around here. ”

"Alas...... I shouldn't have said those heartless words in the first place, why don't I have a long memory after living so old? You are still young, I am really old and confused, old and confused. ”

"Grandma, I really don't know what to tell you...... In the past, he and I were always bullied by others at school, and you don't know because we don't want to talk to you. He was beaten by others on my behalf and fired from the place of me, and the reason why he got to this point today was all forced by those people. This home is the only place he can rely on, and you kicked him out of the house...... Grandma, can you imagine how much pressure he is under in his heart when he wanders outside. ”

Grandma covered her forehead and rubbed her temples vigorously with her fingertips, "Your brother is right, I don't know him well enough...... It's all my fault, it's my ...... to him."

"No one in this world can understand him, and he and I are twin brothers, and we don't particularly understand him. ”

"No! I'll go find him!"

He was a little anxious, "Grandma, where are you going to find it for the New Year?"

"No, as long as I still have a breath, I must not let him be found by those vicious people!"

He said emotionally, "He's not in the city, you don't need to worry about him at all!"

"He's not in the city? How do you know? Are you connected?"

He suddenly realized that he had lost his words, and bowed his head and did not speak.

"Since he's not in the city, you're still in touch...... Do you have his phone number?"

He shook his head vigorously.

"You give me his phone number!"

He didn't move.

"Give it to me!"

"I didn't!"

Grandma pounced on him, he dodged lightly, and grandma threw herself into the air and fell to the concrete floor.

Unable to remorse, he shouted at the old man with a painful face, "Grandma!"

......

One night, when he returned to his rental house from work, he was drinking heavily and vomiting.

Xu Shiya slapped him on the back and said, "Why did you drink so much again, can you drink less in the future!"

He turned his back to her and waved his hand, "Don't shoot, it's okay." ”

"Can you stop drinking so much in the future, and can you stop fooling around with your fox friends in the future, okay?"

He straightened up, "What do you know, you don't understand anything!"

"You always say that, you don't say the pain, how can I understand. ”

Drunk, he pushed her away, "Get out of here!"

Xu Shiya was so angry that she turned around and left.

After a long time, he staggered to Xu Shiya's side, he tried to please her, but she ignored her.

He lowered his head and said to Xu Shiya slowly, "You are different from me, completely different...... You don't want your parents, I am a parent and don't want me. ”

"The fragmented family made our brothers mature prematurely, and we experienced the warmth of people's hearts and the coldness of the world too deeply. We inherited the blood of our parents, but we did not get the affection that blood and bones deserve. My mother was like she was missing, and we never looked for my father. It is said that father's love is like a mountain," he smiled bitterly, "We never expect to be like other people's children, get father's love, and play things that we are used to when we are young, and we are also used to it without a father...... At that time, I was already desperate, and that was the only time in my life that I took the initiative to find him, I pleaded with him, but he was indifferent...... This is his biological mother, the one who gave birth to him and raised him, he can do without us, how can he be so hard-hearted that he doesn't even care about his mother's life or death!"

"I thought you didn't go to him! I thought he didn't know! Then he was too cruel......"

He said that he had failed in his business and had no money in his hands, whether it was true or not, at least the camel was bigger than the horse. He can sell his luxury car, sell his villa, if he doesn't want to sell, he can borrow it casually, and just ignore it, does he really have no conscience in his cruel heart? When he lives to old age, won't he regret the sins he has committed?"

"He can do it without recognizing his six relatives, but I can't, I can't! Although I haven't been home to visit her for four years, she is my grandmother, and I can't leave her alone! We didn't have many relatives and friends to ask for, and I left all of them, and no one was willing to help us......

"You know, when my grandmother was seriously ill and bedridden, she was kicked out of the hospital because she didn't have money, and I had already put ...... I've used up all the money you have left, and the little money I earn from my part-time job won't help. ”

Xu Shiya held his hand firmly, "I know that my grandmother is suffering from a cancer, which costs a lot of money. ”

Smelling of alcohol, he approached Xu Shiya, "I looked at my dying grandmother, looking at the haggard face of Chenzishan, I really hate myself, why only care about myself! Is it really right that grandma said that I am walking towards his road." ”

Instead of disgusting his alcohol, she leaned close to his face, "You don't, I'm sure you definitely don't." ”

He smiled and shook his head, "How dare you be sure there isn't?"

"After all these years with you, I understand what kind of man you are. ”

He asked, "Really? Are you sure?"

She nodded emphatically.

"Then you go ahead and listen to me, you know that grandma has the most painful cancer. ”

She rushed to say, "I know, it's bone cancer." ”

He nodded, "I stared at her eyes that she wanted to hit but couldn't open, and her mouth that wanted to close but couldn't be closed, I stared at her for months! Although she didn't say anything, I knew that she was in pain, and it hurt me beyond comprehension. She didn't want to tell me when she was in pain, she was already confused in pain, but she had the strength to grab my hand and hold it like that. ”

He held Xu Shiya's white arm, imitating Grandma's movements at that time, "Grandma's nails sink deep into my flesh, I understand that her pain is unbearable......, and her heart hurts even more! She's begging me, she wants to die!"

"She couldn't bear the intense pain caused by the illness, couldn't bear the huge psychological regret, and didn't want to continue to burden our brother. ”

"I also wanted to end her suffering, I went to the hospital that had taken us away and begged the doctor to euthanize her, but they said...... They said no euthanasia. ”

Speaking of this, he buried his head deep and shed tears like blood, "They are in the hospital, if people want to live or not, do they want to die or not?"

She sighed sadly, "You are so young, this has happened to you...... And then?"

"Later, when I saw that my grandmother was so tormented, I asked her, 'Shall I help you end the pain?' and my grandmother closed her eyes and tears fell from the corners of her eyes......"

Finally, she nodded. I ran into the kitchen and got a fruit knife and knelt in front of her, and she said to me in a dying voice, 'Grandma has been sorry for you all these years, I never thought that she would force you to do this.' Zifeng, take care of this family...... Grandma is really sorry for you'. ”

He took a deep breath, then slowly exhaled, "I promised her, and then she closed her eyes and waited quietly for her grandson to come and end her pain...... I held the knife in both hands and aimed it at her heart, but I was deflated by repeated efforts, and I couldn't get off the hand at all...... Grandma found out that I was weak, and she said, 'Think about the pain that Grandma has suffered in this life, don't let me suffer so many sins before I die, help Grandma', I gritted my teeth and stabbed her heart, and plunged deep into it......"

"I saw a smile on her face that I had never seen before, and she was relieved. ”

He burst into tears and smiled bitterly, "And I, too, cried and laughed with her." ”

He cried bitterly for a while, suddenly gritted his teeth, and his hateful eyes glared at his hands, "I look at these hands stained with grandma's blood, I hate that I inherited the blood of my parents, but I am grateful that they inherited my cruelty!"

After a long silence, he gradually calmed down the hatred in his heart.

He looked at her dumbfounded, and laughed miserably, "Do you still think I'm the man you know?"

She was completely shocked, her eyes stared straight into the void, and she couldn't say a word for a long time.

Seeing that she was speechless, he continued, "I took the knife in my backhand and stabbed myself in the heart, the tip of the knife stained with my grandmother's blood had pierced into my skin, and a thought flashed through my mind that made me suddenly regain my strength...... What should you do? What should I do with Chenzi Mountain? When he sees me and my grandmother both lying in a pool of blood, what will he do in the future!"

......

When he came back from school, as soon as he opened the door, a strong fishy sweet smell came to his face.

When he found the scene in front of him, he was immediately stunned, his mouth trembled and he shook his head desperately, he couldn't believe the scene in front of him.

Kneeling beside his grandmother, he said slowly, "You're finally out of school." ”

His breathing became rapid, and his trance-like expression looked like he couldn't accept his grandmother's death from his brother's knife, "You tell me how you managed to do this." ”

"A matter of gritting teeth. ”

He sarcastically said flatly, "It's so light to say that you grit your teeth...... You can always surprise me greatly...... We come from the same mother's womb, I didn't expect you to be so cruel. ”

"We come from the same mother's womb, and there is only a minute gap between us before and after birth, but this minute gap gives us different personalities, and different personalities determine different paths in life. The difference in minutes, the difference in a lifetime. ”

He suddenly became furious, "Are you exonerating yourself by saying this? You have killed someone, and you have killed your grandmother who has worked hard to raise us with your own hands! The difference is indeed very different! You can kill your grandmother, what else can you not do! You are really a beast, I will slaughter you as an animal!"

His eyes widened and filled with blood, and he rushed forward with a few arrows, kicked him from the bed to the ground, kicked him in the stomach and kicked him wildly, kicked him tired and rode on him and punched him violently, still angry, he picked up his schoolbag and smashed it desperately on him.

He didn't fight back, didn't dodge, didn't make a sound, didn't blink, like a dying fish, stared at desperate eyes, used the last breath of his life, and then lay on the board to be slaughtered by others.

He was ravaged by him in every way, he raised his head slightly, his sad eyes saw the sunset through the gap in the curtains, and the infinite sunset seemed to dye the whole world blood red, "I ended grandma's pain, you can end mine, just use the knife on grandma's body." ＂

He panted and said, "I'm not going to end your pain, I'm going to let you live in pain, I'm going to make you miserable!"

He stared blankly at the yellowed ceiling, "Do you want me to turn myself in?"

Hearing this, he was blindsided, and looked at him stupidly, not knowing how to speak.

"You have an idea, you can do what you say, as long as you are happy, I will depend on you. ”

"Why don't you discuss with me before you do it? You have done everything you need to do and what you shouldn't do, and what decision do you want me to make at this time?"

His tired eyes looked at him, "How can I discuss this matter with you?

He retorted loudly, "So you killed Grandma with your own hands!"

He roared even louder, "Do you have the ability to find money to help your grandmother treat her illness? Do you have the ability to relieve her pain? Now you can't even afford morphine injections, you tell me, what can you do to see her pain to the bone every day, and listen to her wail in pain every day!"

He slowly stood up from his brother, and when he saw his grandmother's dead face, he couldn't bear to turn his head away.

He whispered, "Sometimes, I look at my grandmother in extreme pain, and you don't know how much I hate myself in my heart!"

"I hate my powerlessness, I hate my insensitivity, I hate my naivety and naivety, I hate that I have the heart to study when my family is ruined, and I even want to find a way out for myself...... I naively thought that when I had a way out, I could do something for my grandmother......"

"I hate the world, and I hate them even more for bringing us into this world and leaving them alone. ”

He couldn't help shedding tears of grief, and the resentment against him in his heart weakened a lot, "You have done everything, and now you are still asking me what to do? What can I do, you are now my only remaining relative, what can I do? Can I let you turn yourself in, can I let you go to prison?"

Scarred, he got up and sat on the ground, "You are also my only relative." ”

His moist eyes looked at the blood-stained fruit knife, "You didn't let Grandma suffer too much. ”

She walked away with a smile. ”

He looked at his grandmother's dead face, as calm as a deep sleep, "Let's cremate her." ”

"Go to the barren mountains in the middle of the night. ”

"I have to go there...... You settle Xu Shiya, don't let her be suspicious. ”

"Well, I'll prepare what I need by the way. ”

"Well, I'll clean it up here. ”

The two brothers were separated from their families, and they did not sit idle for a moment, and they did a lot of consideration and work to eliminate the traces.

If one day others were suspicious, they would unanimously say that because their father didn't care about it, they didn't have the money to pay for grandma's medical treatment, and they tried everything they could, and grandma finally died of illness at home. They had no money for mourning or cremation, so they had to cremate her themselves.

They believe that people should be sympathetic to their brothers when they give more.

If the police came to investigate, the grandmother's body had been cremated, the scene in the house had already been cleaned up, and they were the only witnesses to the crime scene.

The only evidence is the fruit knife used in the crime.

They polished it and secretly threw it on a street stall selling knives, and they didn't know who it would go to in the future, and they used it to cut fruit.

Even if the police were suspicious, there was no evidence of a conviction, and there was no way to deal with them.

When they were young, they simply thought that if the paper was thick enough, it could contain the fire.

In the middle of the night, when they couldn't see their fingers, the brothers transported their grandmother's body and all the relics from their previous life to the barren mountains and stacked them together. One of them had gasoline for burning in his hand, and the other had a shovel for digging a pit, and everything was ready, except for a fire.

Chen Zishan sprinkled his grandmother's body and her relics with gasoline, he struck a match, and then threw it over, and with a "poof", the exuberant fire ignited instantly.

The brothers watched quietly as the fire burned, and the smell of meat wafted from it as the heat swept across their faces.

The fire reddened their faces, and the same solemnity was evident in the same faces of the brothers.

After a long time, Chen Zifeng first broke the sad silence, "You don't need to pour some oil, I don't feel like it's burned completely." ”

"The fire is okay now, it's just this temperature, it can't be clean, let's see later." ”

"Burn to ashes?"

"It shouldn't be ashes. ”

"If it can't be burned to ashes, isn't that a black and mushy dried corpse!"

Thinking of his grandmother, who had been raised since he was a child, was about to turn into a miserable dried corpse, he couldn't help but cry.

In order to no longer let his grandmother work hard to sell vegetables, in order to let her live a good life in the future, this is also an important belief that he can persist in countless days of hard study.

At this moment, this belief was extinguished in his heart.

What he lost was not only an important relative, but also an obsession with the future.

He turned his back to the sky, not knowing whether to look at his grandmother's soul flying to heaven, or to let the tears in his eyes stop flowing.

He asked his brother, "You threw your grandmother's picture in too?"

"Threw it in. ”

"Why don't you keep one. ”

"It's all photos of grandma when she was young, burn it and let her take it with her. ”

"Grandma doesn't have any pictures from recent years?"

"For as long as you can remember, have you ever seen your grandmother take a picture of herself?"

He lamented, "I have the impression that she has been busy maintaining this family. ”

She didn't have the time, let alone the heart to take a picture of herself. ”

"You say, will we forget what grandma looks like one day?"

"Who knows, I can't forget it this year, I can't forget it next year, and what about another 10 years? 20 years?"

He shook his head, "One day in the future, when we deliberately think about grandma's appearance, we find that the more we draw in our minds, the more blurred it becomes. Inadvertently, we will recall the past of living with grandma, and in those profound fragments, her words, her movements, and her expression will be clearly presented in our minds. With the passage of time, grandma's appearance will blur in our minds, and the pain at this moment will fade in our hearts, but our memories of her will never fade. ”

He silently wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, "Yes, it will never be forgotten." ”

He asked his brother, "What is the thing that impresses you the most about your grandmother?"

"The most impressive...... It must have been in the fall of the year we were nine years old, when we were in elementary school. ”

"Huh?"

"I'll give you a click, and you'll understand...... I still remember that the toilet in the primary school at that time was a dry toilet, and there were two pedals on the urinal for people to squat. ”

He smiled, "I know what you're going to say. ”

He smiled too, "Well, I'm very impressed." ”

"For you, it's profound. ”

"It's not all about you, it's all your bad idea. ”

"Hehe, that's exactly my idea...... I can't remember the name of that little fat man, but I remember him bullying a classmate with a disabled leg in our class all day long. ”

Zhang Xuanliang. ”

"Yes, yes, that's him. ”

"You can't look past it, so you asked me to discuss it and punish him. He usually eats a lot of food and snacks, and after eating at noon, the first thing he does when he arrives at school is to, and he also picks a clean thatched pit to pull! So we shovel all the pedals in the other thatched pits and spread some and urine on it, and leave a clean thatched pit and remove the pedals inside, and when he comes to school, we put the two thin planks prepared in advance into it......

"I remember, we were quite nervous when we looked at the side, he was standing on the two planks and it was fine, and it was okay to squat down after taking off his pants! I thought to myself, it's a pity, the planks are still thick, and it was a toss in vain! Who would have thought that he would exert force in his lower abdomen and heels, and fall down with a thud! Hahahaha...... Think about it, he's when he drops off, how scared he is. ”

"Hahahaha, he was so scared that he cried...... The funniest thing is that his chubby body is still stuck in the pit, and we both laughed next to him until my stomach hurts, who can control him. When we finished laughing, you ran over and asked him, 'Do you dare to bully people in the future?' and he cried and begged you, 'Help me, I don't dare, I don't dare anymore, pull me up, please pull me up'." ”

"This little fat man promised us not to talk out, so we saved him, who knew that this kid ran to the teacher to complain as soon as he came up...... Later, my grandmother found out and took us to the dry toilet at school after school, and calmly said to the two of us, 'I won't beat you today, I'll let you taste what it's like to treat people like this.' She asked me to go in first, but I refused to go in, and she said angrily, 'Chenzishan, I will wash your clothes, and I can also wash you in a bath, but if you don't enter, I will definitely leave you here'. I really had no choice but to go into the pit...... I endured the stinking smell, closed my eyes tightly and didn't look at the 'miserable' scene in front of me, and my arms firmly clamped the pedal to prevent myself from falling like Zhang Xuanliang. At the same time, try to curl up and balance your body so that you don't touch the feces and urine in the pit. Then she ordered you, 'Morning wind, and you, you will also let me in,' and you see that I have already gone into the pit and have to go in. I suddenly heard a 'plop' sound from the thatched pit next to me, and I thought to myself, it's broken, you must not be clamped, hahahaha......"

"Hahahaha......"

"You are walking on the road with your head down, and I have been keeping a distance of more than two meters from you on the road, and at this distance, I can still smell the smell of you! In fact, I am still close to you after walking this way, and passers-by are so disgusted when they see you like this that they want to be 108,000 miles away from you!"

"My grandmother made such a deep impression on me, and to this day I still have a shadow in my heart when I see the aqua toilet. ”

"Yes, grandma left you a deep impression. ”

The two brothers looked at the fire and smiled bitterly, laughing and laughing and silent with each other, and their slightly curved eyes gradually straightened and gradually moistened.

"Along the way, my grandmother is the closest person to me...... Along the way, my grandmother held my hand firmly and never let go...... She never hated the smell of me, and she never cared about the eyes of passers-by. I peeked at my grandmother from time to time, her resolute gaze was always looking ahead, I looked down and didn't dare to see anyone, but I also slowly mustered up the courage, slowly straightened my waist, and I was led by her, and strode down. ”

Speaking of this, he shed tears, "I still think, when my grandmother is old, I will hold her hand and continue to walk...... Grandma hasn't tasted the happiness I brought her, and she ......."

He felt his deep sadness, but didn't know how to comfort him.

When he regained his composure, he asked, "What impressed you about Grandma?"

"Do you remember the day my mother left? ”

"It turned out that this was the case, at that time my grandmother wanted to keep my mother and wanted to keep the family. ”

"At that time, they were divorced, and my grandmother had to beg my mother, and my grandmother cried and said to my mother, 'I am not qualified to ask you for anything, it is all the fault of the unfilial son I raised, and it has nothing to do with these two children'. ”

"Mom said to grandma, 'You are an upright and kind person, the day I entered this door, I called you Mom, you will always be my Mom. But I can't stay here, my son and I are divorced, what's the matter if I stay here'. ”

"Grandma said, 'If you go, take these two children with you.'" ”

"Mom said, 'I don't even have a serious job, I don't even have a place to live, how do you tell me to take them away, so that they will suffer with me?' Mom looked at us brothers and thought about it for a long time, and finally she decided that if she wanted to take them away, she could only choose one of us. ”

Grandma was furious when she heard this...... She looked at the back of her mother leaving, hugged our brothers in her arms, and hugged them tightly. She said in our ear: 'I will never allow anyone to break up your brothers, not anyone!' ”

When he said this, the tears that he had been holding back burst in an instant, "Grandma left with a smile in the end, she left with a smile...... She worked so hard to pull us brothers so big, didn't let us freeze, didn't let us starve, didn't let us separate, she did it, she did it!"

They looked at the corpses in the fire and fell silent.

After a while, he said, "Grandma asked you to take care of this family before leaving, I don't need you to take care of it, I only ask you for one thing." ”

"What's the matter?"

"Send Xu Shiya home. ”

He reluctantly smiled, "Do you care about Xu Shiya now?"

"I'll admit it's all my fault, count me as begging you, okay?"

"If you beg me now, it's not easy to do it. ”

"Why?"

"This time, I really can't send it back. ”

"What do you mean?"

She ...... Pregnant. ”

"How can you do that to her!"

"I was stressed out those days, and when you took over my grandmother, I was drunk almost every day. ”

"So you ......"

He stared at the dancing flames in front of him and fell silent.

He then asked, "What are you going to do with her?"

"What else can I do!" he asked rhetorically, "we can't even take care of ourselves, can we let her have another child?"

"So you're going to ......"

"Grandma is gone, and there is nothing to do recently, so I have done it recently. ”

"What are you going to do after that?"

"I don't know, Xu Shiya is probably following me in this life, let's take one step at a time. ”

"What can I do for you?"

"You study hard, don't worry about it. ”

"Can I do it if I don't worry about it? Grandma's serious illness has cost us all our money...... What about life, what about tuition?"

"Why don't you understand? I said, don't worry about it, you just have to study hard. ”

He hesitated for a moment, and then said, "Among our brothers, one of us must go out to work for the other to study." ”

He narrowed his eyes, "It's up to you to say that...... What exactly are you trying to say?"

"Grandma's long-cherished wish in this life is to see both of us brothers go to college. ”

"Are we both going to college?" he chuckled, "it's impossible!"

"If I ask you that, I also want to take care of Xu Shiya?"

"Forget it, what the hell do you mean?"

"We brothers, one for one day. ”

"I don't understand. ”

"You find a job, we brothers each have a day, and this study, our brothers also have a day. ”

"I understand what you mean, but I don't understand what you mean. ”

"With only one payment, we can both study, we both work, and no one owes anyone. Leaving behind a day's homework is nothing to the two of us. In the evenings after work, you can read the notes of the other person, and the events of a few hours will not affect each other's progress and rest at all. I believe that we can spend one day studying the homework of others in two days. If one person for a week, too much homework is left behind, and it is too difficult to make up for it, so one person for a day is the best choice. ”

"You have said so much, it doesn't make any sense, you should know what I mean. ”

"So I asked you just now, I also want to take care of Xu Shiya, do you believe it?"

"I don't believe it, if you really feel indebted to Xu Shiya in your heart, let's just exchange them completely, you will take care of her wholeheartedly in this life, take care of her for the rest of your life, why bother with one person for a day?"

"Xu Shiya's is not my child, don't you have responsibility?"

The fire in front of him was much weaker, and he found through the rubble that his grandmother's body had really been burned into a black and dried corpse.

He picked up the gasoline and took a step forward, turned his back to him and said, "I promise you one day! Hopefully, the day it ends, we can all be ourselves again. ”

He poured the gasoline in his hand, and with a "poof", the fire raged again, and the heat rushed to his haggard face.

"But there is one thing that we have to make clear in advance. ”

"Me too. ”

"You speak first. ”

"You mention it first, you say it first. ”

At the same time, he said. ”

"Okay. ”

The brothers said in unison, "No one is allowed to touch Xu Shiya again, let alone touch them!"

......

"I know about your grandmother, and you want me to understand that our sisters love you both at the same time!" she laughed miserably, "You brothers deceived our sisters so badly!"

"I admit that we lied to you very badly, and it can't be said to be a bad thing at all, at least, there is Chenzishan among the people you love. ”

"Chen Zifeng proposed that you be one of you for a day, on the one hand, to fulfill grandma's lifelong wish, on the other hand, to make up for the debt to Xu Shiya, and most importantly, he wants to make up for the debt to you...... For me, I wish it was always the morning wind. ”

"Why?

She mocked, "I'm tired for you! Think about it, you are one day at a time, you rotate every day, every day you have to switch from one adapted rhythm of life to another, you face different living environments every day, you face different people and things every day, and you have to always pay attention to yourself not to be exposed, aren't you tired?"

"Our brothers have lived in lies, and we have long been accustomed to the life of lies. ”

"So you think you're normal," she sneered, "Actually, you've long since deviated from the orbit of normal people, and your mind has long been deranged!"

"You're talking a little serious. ”

She smiled and shook her head, "Chen Zishan and Chen Zifeng, only when they are together, do they understand who they really are." After separation, Chen Zishan had to pretend to be Chen Zifeng to face Xu Shiya, and Chen Zifeng had to pretend to be Chen Zishan to face us, and this rotation took up most of their lives. The most unthinkable thing is that they rotated like this every day for the rest of the university years, and I can't imagine how twisted their lives were. ”

"You're exaggerating!"

"I'm telling the truth, and I'm not exaggerating at all...... The cruel reality has given your brothers too many tribulations, you struggle between good and evil, you can't tell what kind of person you are, you hover between selflessness and selfishness, you can't tell which side you are on. You can't get out of the world of fantasy, you can't tell the difference between reality and fantasy. You can't break the bondage, you're locked in a cage that closes your ego. You seem to be normal people on the surface, but you are just a lie to cover up your abnormal behavior!"

He smiled lightly, "What's wrong with me?"

"How can a normal person not be able to tell who the person he loves is?"

"Why can't I tell the difference? The person I love is Xiaoyu!"

"You think that the person you love is Xiaoyu, but you are just deceiving yourself! You deceive yourself in your heart that you are a normal person, then you should also have your own exclusive feelings like a normal person!"

He was speechless.

"So I'll ask you another question, since the person you love is Xiaoyu, then who will my chastity be given to?"