Do you want to be resentful, or do you want to go with the flow, and what kind of attitude should you face it?

If all the signs before were her own guesses, then tonight is confirmed by her silence. Like the fireworks of the New Year's Festival, others say something and then how brilliant, how vigorous, after returning home, stay in anticipation and anxiety until the night comes, solemnly, a serious light fuse, standing in the distance and watching, a "coo" shot out, bright through half of the night sky, and then the rhythm gradually accelerated, but all the shots were black bullets, duds, only the tremor of the bullet on the ground, but there was no dazzling night sky, colorful world -

"Brother Xian" leaned on the side of the bed, the warm quilt gave people a little warmth, and the snoring of the roommates one after another, wrapped in the sound of dreams and grinding teeth - perhaps because of the rapid rush back, all the depression was dissipated in the battle with the cold wind, and now the mood is unusually calm, as still as water, only a lot of the past in the mind, trembling slightly ripples on the surface of the water-

Thoughts came back and forth, and I didn't know what I saw in that journal the other day: Maybe it's because of our separation, there is so much snow this winter. The thousands of pieces of sorrow that are flying cover the joy, fill in the gloom, and erase the smile on your face. Under the quiet street lamp, we walk with the first snow, the world is bright, and the mood is dark. The wings of the snow moth flutter leisurely into your eyes. I said, "Because your eyes are bright." You say, "It's my feathered teardrops."

Thinking about it, I couldn't help but get up, picked up a book next to my pillow, and wrote in the blank space on the back cover by the dim light:

"Why do I always have tears in my eyes, because I love the earth deeply. ”

Why do I always have tears in my eyes, because I am obsessed with this elf?

Like a snowflake, it quietly came, and suddenly, it brought my heart / closer

Holding you in my arms, there is always a feeling of dissolving/dissipating, one by one, like thin lips, sticking to my face.

In the mud, I took your hand and walked to the snowfield, leaving my footprints for / the two snowmen in a corner of the country.

Maybe it was another kind of catharsis, and after lying down for a while, he also joined in the snoring one after another-

Christmas Eve - "Brother Xian" thought that he should spend it peacefully, waiting in peace, in the red candles, sincerely praying for the safe birth of new life. In the dormitory and at school, from mid-afternoon, they have been in excitement and restlessness, and "Brother Feng", "Viagra", and "Brother Tao" have gone out early to find classmates - most of them are female classmates who go to spend Christmas Eve "justifiably", but in fact, they are going to "date". There are only "Brother Xian", "Brother Fei", "Brother Shan", and "Brother Xian" in the dormitory before dinner, like the two of them, they proposed: Just the three of us "lonely people" go out to the "next restaurant" together to improve the "food". The two of them are relatively shy, focusing on schoolwork, and want to be an "ordinary person", the two are like-minded, "colluding", and going in and out all day long, and when they hear the suggestion of "Brother Xian", they also readily agree, but insist on the AA system.

The three young men happily entered a restaurant on Xueyuan Road, each ordered a dish, each had a bottle of beer, let go of their appetites, let go of their guts, and had a bit of gluttony, and finally "Brother Xian" quietly went to pay the bill; on the way back to the dormitory from the side door after they had had eaten enough, the two of them perhaps felt that "Brother Xian" had invited them to dinner, and their "shyness" was exposed"The shoulder is all "heart-to-heart" and "heart-to-heart" "heart-to-heart" words; Brother Xian "wanted to come back and read the book carefully, but he was also mixed up by these two people, and he could only be pulled by the two to chat, but after chatting and chatting about the shyness of the two, he surfaced again as the strength of the wine dissipated, until he returned to his respective beds in a daze, and took out his textbook seriously and flipped through it-

"Toot-toot-toot-" Suddenly the phone rang. "Brother Shan" picked up the phone, "Hey-" with "Trump", and shouted at "Brother Xian" with a smile and envy: Brother Xian, phone, a girl-

"Brother Xian" frowned, looked at him with some puzzlement, walked over and picked up the phone, and hesitated to "Hey-", and there was a chaotic and noisy voice on the phone, shouting: Brother Ghost - Brother Xian - I'm waiting for you in the bell tower, come out and play together!

"Brother Xian" shouted in surprise: Xuemei - "Brother Xian" wanted to refuse, Zhang Xuemei shouted loudly on the phone: Hurry up, don't ride a bicycle, we will be there soon, wait for you, we will meet at the Bell Tower bus stop, see you or leave!

"Brother Xian" was a little happy, a little helpless, put on a coat and walked out of the school gate quickly, boarded the carriage with a strong festive atmosphere, it was already crowded and impermeable, and he would not fall down without his hands; he could vaguely see the images of Santa Claus pasted at the door of the shops on both sides of the road, and some of them were still shining Christmas trees at the door, and the streets were full of groups of three or five, in groups, frolicking with each other, some wearing pointed red Christmas hats, some wearing Christmas clothes, some holding light sticks, colorful balloons, and cold fireworks——

When we arrived at the bus stop, the flow of people was squeezed out of the carriage and the bus was empty. At the door of the store behind the stop sign, Zhang Xuemei was also wearing a Santa hat, and when she saw him, she kept waving at him, "Brother Xian" hurriedly walked over, except for Zhao Zhigang, who knew him, and a few girls I saw in the city last time.

"Brother Xian" greeted them one by one, Zhang Xuemei happily walked over, while holding his arm, while holding Zhao Zhigang's arm, the group swayed from the bell tower to the East Street, and then chased me back the same way. Zhang Xuemei kept holding him along the way, as if she was afraid that he would run away or fly, but Zhao Zhigang was running back and forth in the group, looking extremely excited.

In this way, going round and round, until the flow of people gradually became scarce, Zhang Xuemei looked at "Brother Xian" and said: I still call you Brother Ghost - "Brother Xian" looked back at her and said: Okay, you are casual!

Zhang Xuemei tugged at his arm and said, "I'm going back!" "Brother Xian" smiled and said, "Okay, where are you going to take the car?" After hearing this, Zhang Xuemei "giggled" and said, "Brother Ghost, I'm going back to my hometown!"

"Brother Xian" smiled and said: Okay, there will be a New Year's Day holiday in two days, and I will go back with you! Zhang Xuemei was a little angry and pulled out her hand and smashed it on his back, saying: I will go back to my hometown this time, and I will never come to the provincial capital again!