Since the news of my marriage spread in the workplace, I have clearly felt that the level of attention I have increased. Whether it is in the office building or the cafeteria, there is always one or several eyes staring at me behind me, maybe there are some whispers, and even Lao Fan next door also respects me intentionally or unintentionally, but I am not good hearing, and I usually laugh at it. Until the leaders of the Ideological and Political Department came to talk to me.

Usually only if you make a mistake will you be called to talk by the leaders of the Ministry of Ideology and Politics, so when I came to the office of the Minister of Ideology and Politics while thinking about what mistakes I had made and what wrong things I had said recently, I still didn't understand why.

The head of the Ideological and Political Department is a middle-aged man in his 40s who is slightly chubby, with a mighty appearance and a lofty weapon; it is said that he was transferred from the army to our unit, and he used to be a regiment commander.

When I knocked on the door and entered, he politely stood up and asked me to sit down, and poured me a cup of tea.

"Xiao Xu!" the leader looked up, but took a sip of the teacup and looked at my expression.

Seeing that I was sitting in a precarious position, he listened attentively, nodded with satisfaction, and then said, "I heard that you are married?"

I hurriedly said: "Yes, yes, it has been filed with the Organization Department." ”

The leader smiled and said, "Congratulations, it's a good thing for young people to start a family and then devote all their body and mind to work." ”

I didn't speak, smiled and nodded.

"Your wife......" He picked up a document and looked at it, and I squinted at the cover, which was my family report form.

"Oh, Miao, a researcher at the Institute of Physics. He read.

"It's drip, it's drip. I replied respectfully, feeling irritable in my heart, and wondering if it was necessary to say such a half-talk?

"That's it......" The leader took another cup and took a sip of water, cleared his throat, and said: "The Institute of Physics called and said that this Xiao Mi is an important person in charge of major projects, so the family situation needs to be monitored." We've already reported your situation. As for you, the file transferred by the school is very clear, and we have verified it. I joined the party in school, and my parents are people who have made great contributions to the country, although their deeds are still confidential, but you will always know about them in the future, right? ”

He took another sip of water from the cup, and then said: "I came to you today, just to inform you, if you, or Xiao Mi, want to go abroad or have dealings with someone abroad, I hope you can report to the unit in time." It's just a normal procedure, Xiao Mi should know, and you don't have any psychological burden. ”

I hurriedly said, "Okay, okay, there won't be any burden." "But I thought in my heart, I'll report you a ghost, what age is it, and you're still doing this.

"Then, leader, it's okay, I'll go to work first. I said.

"Wait, wait, there's one more thing. The leader took another sip of water from his cup, which made me worry about his prostate.

I had to sit back in my chair, lift half of my ass, and make a deferential gesture again.

The leader nodded again, probably extremely satisfied with my attitude.

"Recently, the comrades in the unit have been talking a lot about your marriage. The leader said slowly.

"You mean?" I asked.

"I heard that Xiao Mi is married to you with a child?" the leader said softly.

I laughed dumbly, organized my language, and said to the leader: "Leader, that's my son, my own son." We met at school, when the Institute of Physics was right next to our school. ”

The leader laughed and said, "Oh, it's good to make it clear, but the impact of this incident on your unit is not very good, after all, unmarried pregnancy is unreasonable, not according to the normal procedure." ”

Looking at my face, he continued: "But young man, it's understandable, it's understandable, hahaha. ”

I said with a blank face: "Thank you for your understanding." ”

When I walked out of the leader's office and passed by the secretary's office, several middle-aged women whispered behind my back, and I walked to the trash can next to the elevator and kicked the trash can hard, and the world was silent for a moment.

Life after marriage is calm and warm.

Every morning, I drove my home 50 kilometers away to work in my red car, and in the afternoon I drove back to my home 50 kilometers away, just so that I could see my son every day.

The little guy grew fatter and fatter, and he looked like a little dog bear. When she saw the adjectives I had written down for my son in my diary, she crossed out the bear and rewrote the word "little fat pig", and although she was extremely disgusted with her peeking at my diary, I didn't think there was any difference between the two titles, so I didn't change it. Just put the diary in a locked box and tucked it under the big closet.

At night, after I put my son to sleep, I would continue to write my novels at my desk, and Mi Min would appear by the door from time to time, hooking her finger and saying to me, "Da Xuxu, my sister wants to requisition you." ”

After the people in the unit saw the photo of Xiao Xu Xu I put on the desk, they didn't gossip, because this kid did look too similar to me, and the longer he looked, the more he looked, and by the time he was four years old, he was basically a miniature version of Da Xuxu.

Lao Fan, who was enthusiastic about me again, secretly told me that now I am the idol of all unmarried women in the unit, including her hot daughter-in-law, saying that I am a responsible and good man. I was just as dismissive of such rumors, just as Mi Min was equally dismissive of public opinion in her unit.

However, when our son was four years old, our warm family life came to an abrupt end, because Mimiin left us forever. In an accident in the national key project she presided over, which caused the equipment to explode, Mi Min was the first to rush into the laboratory and pull down the gate of the prevention and control device to prevent greater harm, but because of the ultra-high pressure radiation, she and the laboratory were reduced to ashes together.

At the memorial service for Mi Min, the leader of the Institute of Physics handed me a password box, and there was a piece of paper on the box, which was written in the unique cursive and cursive font of Mu Min: Please hand it over to Da Xu Xu, the password is his son's nickname, and he knows it.

When I got home, my son was already asleep, and I put my third martyr's certificate in the drawer of the large closet, and I went to the living room and typed into the keyboard of the lockbox: Little Fat Pig. but an error is displayed. I thought about it and typed: Little Dog Bear. The lockbox opened, and there was a novel in it, the same one she had in her hand when we first met. There was also a letter, which I opened, and it was densely covered with words.

"Lao Xu, I don't call you that because you're old, but because I often fantasize about what I will look like when we get old. At that time, we had already swept Xiao Xu out of the house, and I would tear up your novel about teacher-student love, because it was not interesting, and we would write a story about a woman and a silly follower who mastered the secret of quantum entanglement, and then the soul went out of the body and became a god, called "Quantum God". Do you think it's okay?"

I laughed, wiped the corners of my eyes with my hand, and looked down.

"I'm going to organize an important experiment soon, and I won't write about it, because you won't be able to read it. The chance of success was only 60%, which was already high, but I added a little bit more content, so the success rate of the experiment dropped by 1%, and now it's only 59%. You know, I'm a person who doesn't admit defeat, I want to try to describe and explain the soul in this experiment, I don't know what the specific outcome is, I write this letter to you in accordance with the regulations, the main thing is not to leave a posterity, because I am relieved that Xiao Xu Xu is following you. ”

I looked up at the picture of our family of three on the wall, smiled, and continued to read the letter.

"What I want to say to you is, I love you, although I have never said this to you, but I really love you, from the first time I saw you, I fell in love with you, this is a very peculiar quantum entanglement phenomenon, because the quanta that make up our souls all have the same properties. ”

"Crazy woman. I said to myself, but the tears couldn't stop falling. Reaching out and wiping my eyes, I continued to look down.

"I know you're calling me a crazy woman in your heart again, you said it when you talk in your sleep, don't think I don't know. But what you don't know is that I'm really a very talented scientist, so even if there is an accident in this experiment, my body may disappear, but my soul will not, because the content I added that reduces the success rate of the experiment by 1% is my idea of controlling the quanta that make up the soul. Although I haven't experimented with it, I'm 90% sure. ”

I raised my head and looked out on the balcony, where the afterglow of the setting sun was reflected, and the crab claw orchid was particularly delicate.

"So if, I mean, if something really happens, you can run away with me, and I'm probably already a god, and then I'll be pestering you as a little Lori much younger than you, maybe I'll be an eighty-year-old grandmother, and I'll be pestering you too, and it's more likely that I'll be a tall, delicate-looking black beauty, pestering you every day, and see how fun it is for you to be helpless and hugging your head. ”

Closing the letter, I walked to the bedroom, took out the box hidden at the lower end of the wardrobe, opened it, took out the diary, opened it and wrote the words "Mi Min ran away with someone, I am very sad". Then close the journal and place it in the box. After thinking about it, I took out the notebook again, and flipped to the record of which one Xiao Xu Xu was nicknamed for, but I found that a cross appeared on the "little fat pig", and "little dog bear" was written next to it.

I stood up and took my journal and yelled like crazy, "Is that you?"

Xiao Xu was woken up, rubbed his eyes and staggered to the bedroom door, and said to me, "Big Daddy Bear, what are you doing." I hugged him and said, "It's nothing, Daddy is playing a game with you." ”

In the evening, I carried Xiao Xu to the balcony, he touched my face and said to me, "Dad, Dad, why hasn't Mom come back?"

I pointed to the stars in the sky and said to her, "Mother has gone to heaven, she has become a fairy, and when you think of her, you will meditate in your heart, mother, mother, she will come to your dreams." ”

Xiao Xu lowered his head and began to read silently, I lowered my head and began to read silently.