"So I don't really understand why you want to bring up this kind of thing that doesn't have any special meaning.,,This really makes people feel that there is some meaningless.,It's really enough.,But now it doesn't seem to be anything special that I need to care about.,So,The actual situation or something, please pay more attention to it.,See you later.,I'll go and rest for a while.,After all, staying up late last night caused the quality of sleep to be not enough.。 ”

Yan Xin complained again, and then began to leave this place.

"Well, I see, then I hope you can take a good rest, Miss I wish you a happy rest. ”

The man also understood that the eldest lady's mood was not very good, and he also noticed that Yan Xin's expression seemed to be a little unnatural at first, so he didn't pay too much attention to this matter.

Besides, as the eldest lady, she wants to take a good rest now, and what can he say about it, and in addition, there is nothing special to care about now, so there is nothing bad about taking a break.

"Well, then, thank you for your understanding, bye-bye, no, I should say good afternoon at this time, right? ”

Yan Xin yawned as she spoke, and then walked towards her room.

"Alas, it's really hard to know what to say, but it's precisely because of this character that the eldest lady will be so carefree, even if that happened to her, alas, if you can, I really hope that the eldest lady can realize her ideals as soon as possible. ”

The man looked at Yan Xin's back and prayed silently.

.........

The next day, it was still as dark as dawn, and the lights in Li Mu's room were already flickering.

"Well, I really need to review my course, but I stopped classes for a few months because of that incident, and I think Lao Jiang should also be a little helpless, after all, because of this kind of thing, it seems that he missed some particularly important things, I think, although Lao Jiang doesn't say it, he should still want to kill me. ”

Li Mu muttered to himself, and laughed at the same time.

Yes, how could that kind of carefree campus life make Li Mu not feel happy.

Because of some special circumstances, Li Mu now also feels that he can't return to the previous state at all, so now he can only do what he should do, to me, Li Mu also thinks, even if he said that the learning foundation he used to have is still very good, but he hasn't read a book for a long time, so now it should be a very special and difficult one.

"Forget it, this kind of thing should really make me a little difficult to do, if it really involves learning, even if I want to break away from the organization for the time being, Xiaoyue's seniors should not hesitate to agree, but at that time, everyone should work hard, only I am doing some irrelevant things, thinking about it this way, I really feel that there is something unbalanced in my heart." ”

Li Mu sighed, it seemed that he was still a little uncertain about his future thoughts or something, or rather, because of the situation now, Li Mu had no way to make up his mind.

What should he choose, how should he do it, and what is the best choice, these are all things that Li Mu needs to consider now.

Not to mention anything else, at least Li Mu felt that he must have to make a choice that could not go against his original intention, after all, this is a principle that Li Mu has always pursued.

If he can't even do this kind of thing, then Li Mu also feels that he has lost part of the meaning of existence, although Li Mu is also very clear that his description may be a little too strange, but Li Mu feels that this is the best description to describe himself now.

"If my parents are still here, they must also hope that I can do something that I like very much, I remember my parents also told me before, if it is really possible, I hope I don't get so tired, don't do something I don't like. Although Li Mu didn't know what his parents meant at that time, Li Mu now can probably understand why his parents want to be so hopeful. ”

Li Mu said lightly, and at the same time, his eyes were also very firm, as if he had found something.

After all, everyone has a lot of ideas, or ideals, but there are not many people who can really pursue their ideals, after all, on the one hand, the social reality is too cruel, and there is no opportunity and possibility that belongs to you, and on the other hand, your existence is still too weak, and you don't have the ability to realize your own ideals.

Everyone will be oppressed by society and life to do something they don't expect, but there is no way to do this kind of thing, after all, you have to do this kind of thing in order to survive.

Therefore, Li Mu also thinks that it is difficult to be a person, and it is really too difficult to do something he likes.

There is a saying that although your parents say that they can't decide your starting point, you can reach the end through your efforts.

But how can this be the case, these are just words that some parents like to encourage their children.

Your parents can't decide where your end is, but your parents can make your starting point right where you end, so the need for such a thing is completely non-existent.

Everyone needs to find the value of their own existence, and it is not that they want to reach the end, because what awaits you at the end may not be something very beautiful, or it may be an endless disaster, and no one can say this kind of thing clearly.

It is precisely because of this kind of thinking that Li Mu sometimes thinks about it, what is he looking for to stand at the beginning of the journey, is the end of his journey really the place he wants to reach?

Although it is not a long time, in the past few months, Li Mu has also experienced a lot of things, large and small, and Li Mu's heart has also undergone some changes to a greater or lesser extent.