It's been a long time since I've posted a single chapter.

Counting the time, it should be almost a whole year, right?

It's also a year that the leader of the Red Alliance hasn't appeared, and this reunion is full of emotion, so let's talk to you, you shouldn't be annoyed, right?O(∩_∩)O

I've been closed for nearly a year, and I recently returned to the group, and I will go online every day in the future.

Chatting with old friends, it is like going back to the happy old days. Although many familiar people are no longer there, or have left the group or are not online. Busy at work, or not reading, or alienated and disappointed because fat people don't bubble.

It doesn't matter, I'm always here. At least once happy.

People must always learn to change, grow up, and mature. Even if I'm not young, I'm looking at Ben San.

Everything you do has consequences, good or bad.

You also have to bear the consequences of making changes, good or bad.

It's not that you will be encouraged and praised for changing, and it may not be seen at all.

Let's make small talk.

Discussion books, old books, new books.

Last night, I suddenly chatted about a new book, and we talked together until one o'clock in the morning. Many book friends also gave valuable advice and encouragement.

It's just that I went offline but didn't sleep, and I firmly believe that the idea of the new book is good. But I seemed to wake up to one thing in an instant.

How have I changed? I'm not as competitive as I used to be? not with other authors, but with myself.

I feel like I'm getting farther and farther away from my old self.

At that time, it was a joy to write, and it was a joy to read, and there was not even an outline to write wherever you wanted. I don't think about things outside of the book and the plot at all.

But now that my mind has become more complicated, it seems that I think more about things outside of books.

It shouldn't.

I'm not right!

I want to get back to my old self, and if I can be better, why not do my best?!

I firmly believe that the book is well conceived, and in addition to everything I am good at, it also adds suspense. What do you look at in entertainment articles? My career is rotten, even if I can bring forth the new, it's not me. I'm not good at this.

It's a variety show, a song, pink, emotion, and a sense of substitution.

In addition to these, there are also YY female stars. Of course, it is not possible to connect with reality these days.

I have to admit that when I am older, I don't have the tenacity and arrogance of my youth, and I am easily affected. I am afraid that I will become outdated, so I always have to adjust to cater to the market, cater to the tastes of new book friends, and cherish the emotions of old book friends.

Read a book review, once someone doesn't like it, change it immediately, and fix it as soon as someone says it's not good-looking. Like an octopus, go around building walls and take care of it as much as possible.

The female star YY has it, and the suspense of the unknown concubine in the mobile phone is there. There will be a career, there will be love, if you don't like it, you won't write it, and if you like it, you can quickly change your name to make people unrecognizable.

Every aspect is taken care of.

I...... This?

I can't find myself anymore.

That's right, all industries are services these days.

You should forget that you are fully committed to satisfying your God.

I thought so too, and even I was happy that my mindset had changed. I finally caught up and didn't fall behind.

When my book friends learned that I didn't subscribe much, didn't earn much, and was still full-time, they comforted me, encouraged me, and even persuaded me that I had to eat before I could think about anything else.

Of course I do.

But in the middle of the night, I seemed to wake up.

Maybe it's changing, but I'm a firm believer that writing a book should never do that.

You can't afford to lose yourself.

I've lived a hard life. I have to mention my first book, The Great Fate. I made a lot less money back then than I do now. I insisted on writing for a year, and I didn't give up in the infamy, in the re-evaluation, and in the low income.

Looking back now, I don't think that was advisable.

But if there is merit, it is that he did not give up on himself easily.

Maybe what I'm insisting on is wrong, at least I'll have to try, I'll have to touch it myself. Rather than compromise before you have insisted.

Eventually, it became a four-way dislike.

Failure is the price I bear, and I can't afford to lose the most precious thing I gained from it after learning from it.

Of course, the so-called change is not about abuse, but also about poisoning, and about getting those that everyone doesn't like.

After all, I'm also an old author, so I can't be so 2B. That's not what I want to stick to. I don't know what I want to say, so I can say whatever I want.

I know it's wrong, and I'll correct it. I shouldn't be autistic, I'll just go back to the group.

I'm willing to correct it, at least not too late. The price to pay is that many people are no longer bubbling.

It doesn't matter, whatever choice you make, you will suffer different consequences.

As long as you are willing to change, there is always time.

I'm willing to write as much as possible about what is light, as much as possible about what people want to see, and as much as possible to avoid things that people don't like.

It's something I've changed over the years.

But I seem to have changed my head, I lost myself.

From today onwards, I want to get back to my old self.

The funny and stinky self who kowtows to the mirror.

The one who always boasts of his talent and God's appreciation.

That everything is about books and book friends as the most important self.

It's the self who can write the plot to cry and laugh.

Where to start?

Start with the book.

If it can be better, why not make it the best.

I'm not sure if I can do it, but it doesn't matter, if I can't do it, there will be a next book, and if I can't do it, there will be people who will despise me, will be disappointed in me, and regret and even sympathize and disdain for my failure.

Unimportant.

As long as I still persevere, as long as I get back to my former self.

I believe that one day I will be able to rewrite something that everyone will be satisfied with.

How long have I forgotten that I mentioned it myself, that entertainment can be a god.

To be lived, to be defeated, to be self-contained and forgotten, that once there was also a heart that looked up to the sky and could be replaced.

I know that many old book friends will feel sorry for and regret when they see this. Many new book lovers will think when they see this, who is this better than? What kind of thing is a horn? A low clicker loser moans without disease?

That's what I thought when New Dream hit the streets.

I'm old, I can't keep up with the times, I'm not good anymore.

Then it becomes more and more autistic, a vicious circle. It's getting farther and farther away from your former self.

A few days ago, I thought that returning to the group was a change, a return.

It wasn't until I talked to my book friend for so long last night that I realized that I was back, but my soul was not yet.

I want to find my soul, my spiritual qi.

I want to find my natural talent and the pride that I don't give up. (Don't spit out, swallow it back!)

The book is only 10 chapters and 50,000 words. It's still too late.

Most book lovers don't say it's bad, but they don't say it's good.

So I can't be satisfied. Because it's not good enough.

If I can be better, I want to do better.

Having said a lot, here comes the point. It may be overhauled, so don't bother. Because even if everything I do is not as good as the original, please believe that an old author wants to write to perfection with a heart. If you can't do it perfectly, do your best to do everything you can.

Let everyone watch it more happy, more interesting, and have a stronger sense of substitution.

If I can't do both, I'll do at least one of them.

I can't do everything and I can't do anything. I don't need you to reward and support me, I don't need you to recommend votes or even invest. (But don't you really give nothing!!)

I just beg you to support me in my determination and faith to find myself!!

I want to be worthy of everyone who has not given up their support and encouragement to the fat man!!

All I can do is repay with a better book!!

I don't want to or I think it's not good, so I have to keep some connection with reality. I can't change it just because you don't like me. Because this is not a matter of principle. It's not like abusing some poisonous points, and you have to arrange it for book friends to see, that's called head iron.

There are pure overheads, good or bad grades, and some are that I can't satisfy everyone. I can only do my best. It's also my insistence.

Speaking of licking, there are also many book lovers who don't like to read it.

I gave up in an instant. But I found that I gave up too cleanly, I was just a small person, others might be able to write about the domineering president, write about the emperor, write about treating women like playthings.

But I can't.

I don't deserve to lick it, I have my own dignity and pride. If it's worth my licking, I'm going to lick her skin. I thought that you might be the darkest, shameless, and pure and real thing buried in my heart. (Manual shy~)

I like a goddess that I write, pure, kind, noble, beautiful, gentle, inclusive, and unattainable, licked by me until I look down at me, a little person.

Then give up everything that belongs only to me and only be with me.

This is YY. The highest level of licking. O(∩_∩)O

Of course, I'm not talking about that person, in fact, the name has been changed to not that person when I rubbed God. Many people say that they are afraid that they will get bored of watching it.

In fact, it has long been impossible to write real names. I don't have her in my heart anymore.

If you want to say that the only real female star I have really written about is Soft Jingxian, maybe for you the star is still that star, just change your name.

But for me, the name is changed, and nothing else is the same. Even if the experience is similar, the age is similar, and the appearance is similar. It's no longer her for me.

Wait for me to wash my face and comb my hair. Go to the mirror and give yourself a snort.

I haven't kowtowed to myself in a long time!!

I'm going to take my old self back one by one. Knock you down too!!

In the past, a single chapter was sent out.,Once the message is left and anyone doesn't like it, I quickly deleted it for fear of offending everyone.。 Affect the flow of passengers.

This time, at least this single chapter, that's it.

Remind myself of what to change and what to hold onto.

What should change is that I want to write what people like, not what people don't.

What I should insist on is that I want to find the rhythm that I am good at, the style I am good at, and the plot that I am good at.

Zzang！！！