Chapter 383: Myself

The old man looked at Chen Le with a calm look and a stern expression.

And Chen Le just looked at the old man with a little puzzled and dazed look, and muttered, "I, I don't know what you're talking about, I don't, how can I be so powerful, I don't have anything, I'm just, an ordinary person, an ordinary person who has nothing." ”

The old man's eyes widened and said, "Heh, even at this time, do you have to lie to yourself?"

"You use the most rational and logical thinking to make up a framework for yourself, so that you can always run in the framework, in your impression, you should be a good person, a person who helps others, an old man who meets difficulties on the road, and a person who will take the initiative to help. ”

"You are a person who will not bully others, and at the same time, you must be strong and not be bullied by others, help each other, love each other, that is your ideal self, friends are in trouble, poisoned, and do your best to help, this is also what you should do in the framework you have built. ”

"You are like a round ball, constantly rotating in the boxy box you have constructed, never off the rails, in order to deceive yourself, you have tried your best, you have done your best to turn yourself, if you don't turn, it is also someone else is too strong, just like now, you feel that you have tried your best, you can go with peace of mind. ”

"I said you, do you really want to save her? Do you really want to kill King Kong? If you want to kill him, why don't you do all your best, why do you have to give yourself the strength to escape, if you really want to save her, why are you not cautious at all, why don't you come for so long, why don't you open the bottle and confirm it? Is all this you do what you want to do, or ,...... Just self-satisfied?"

These words made Chen Le tremble violently, as if he had been touched by the deepest string in his heart, his eyes widened, and then he denied fiercely, "No, I really want to save her, I really want to save her, I tried my best to save her, I failed." ”

The old man sneered, "Heh, it's this sentence again, if you really want to save her, and you use the knife to save her, then why doesn't the knife you swing have any weight." ”

"My strength, that's all. ”

"It's not about strength, it's about the belief that each of your knives carries, when you swing the knife at the werewolf, have you ever thought about who this knife is for, and who are you moving for?"

“......”

Chen Le, I didn't think about it.

"Of course you don't, otherwise you wouldn't have cut even a little wolf, every blow you have no weight, every knife you make is not to save people, or even, not for yourself, you are just doing what you have to do, like a machine working mechanically. ”

"This is what you call doing your best, you do your duty within the framework of your own construction, your ideal structure is that your friend is injured, you have to try your best to save her, use your strength to save her, this is what you should do, right? ”

"But this ...... It's not what you want to do, it's like encountering an old man in distress halfway, you also save it, is this what you want to do, no, this is also yourself in your framework, what you should do, you are just, doing your own duty. ”

"Then, the duty has arrived, and since it has failed, let's wait for death. ”

"The simplest proof is, once upon a time, who did you wield a knife for, did you fight for your life, did you have faith in others, did you have the weight of others? Even if it was for yourself, did you have your own weight? Have you ever thought about letting yourself live?"

Chen Le replied almost immediately, "I have!"

The old man retorted affirmatively, "No, you don't, your moves are ridiculous, I'm afraid that even the wind can blow you away, in your moves, you don't even have the belief in life, you are just doing your own ideal, the framework of yourself, one, do your best!"

"And then I was moved and self-satisfied, so that I could die with peace of mind, and lie to myself that I tried my best?"

“...... Don't make people laugh, any creature is trying to live, I have in you, but I don't see this belief at all, a person who doesn't want to live, says that he is trying to live, disguises himself as a good person, and wants to die with self-satisfaction, it's ridiculous!"

"You talk nonsense. ”

Chen Le's face was swollen and red, and he glared at the old man angrily for the first time and said, "What do you know, what do you know about me, I really, really tried my best, I have worked very hard." ”

"For whom can I swing a knife? I was fostered in someone else's home since I was a child, I don't know what my parents look like, they have never looked at me, who do you want me to work for, who do I live for?

Chen Le said, he actually broke down and cried, and said a little hysterically, "Why, why do we all have parents, but I don't, why do we all have love, but I don't, my adoptive father is always busy with work, occasionally glances at me, occasionally doesn't look, my adoptive mother always looks at me coldly, treats me well in all aspects, bullies me, I just pretend not to know." ”

"The eldest sister has her own business, she is busy making her own boyfriend, the second sister, she often bullies me and scolds me, what do you want me to do, there is no place for me to stay at home, let alone outside. ”

"Because I was poor, because I didn't have parents, my classmates bullied me, beat me, my teachers disdained me, and everyone laughed at me. ”

"My parents never came to see me, and my adoptive parents never told me about my parents, I had to lie to myself, they had something important, they might not be good, and there was no way to come, I can only say this. ”

"But what I actually know, no one cares about me at all, no one cares about my feelings at all, no one loves me at all, do you know how I survived for so many years, do you know, how I survived, do you know how hard I worked, you don't know at all, you are not qualified to say that I have done well enough. ”

Chen Le first yelled at the old man, and then, as if comforting himself, he muttered to himself, "I've ...... I tried my best, I tried my best to be a good person, I was better than many people in school, I didn't bully them, I also helped others, I did it, it was good enough, why do you say me, I'm already good, I'm better than most people, I shouldn't be reprimanded. ”

"Then do I still have to praise you, hahaha, hahahaha, hahahahahahahaha ”

The old man laughed exaggeratedly.

This made Chen Le frown, glared at the old man angrily, and said, "Why are you laughing?" ”

"I'm laughing at your pitifulness, at your low self-esteem, at your stupidity, at your ignorance, at your blindness, at your lack of eyes. ”

As soon as the old man's fingers stretched out, something slowly ran out of Chen Le's arms.

It was the one that Chen Le had carried on his body since he was a child, a quaint clock that would never turn.

The quaint clock just floated in mid-air.

"You said that no one cares about you, no one cares about your feelings, and no one cares about you and loves you, so where did you come from?"

"It's ...... The only thing my parents left me?"

"So what is this left for you?"

“...... Confession?"

Chen Le wasn't sure.

Because in the TV series, don't you always leave something for your children to recognize each other in the future?

"Recognize your relatives, hahahaha, whose relatives do you recognize, these twelve quarter soul clocks are rare treasures in the world, I don't know how many people want it, you don't feel connected with it?"

"Someone has gone to great lengths to bind you to it, entrusting you with this treasure to protect you in my place. ”

"Once you encounter danger, once you really want to resist, this moment the soul clock will be activated, with such a treasure body, how many people can hurt you? Unfortunately, this is just in case, how many years have not been activated, how ridiculous is it! You have been bullied, have you ever thought about resisting, since you don't, then you don't deserve to take it yourself?"

Chen Le was stunned for a moment, "This clock is not for personal use, it is ...... Protect me, treasure?"

"yes, even if you tried once, how could you be like this?"

"This is the ...... left to me by my father and mother"

"You're a white-eyed wolf. ”

When the old man said this, he stretched out his hand again, and Chen Le's knife, which only had the handle left, was also suspended in mid-air......