Chapter 7: The Feeling of Loneliness
Chen Le's rental house is an old two-story rented house.
There are six houses on each floor, some large and some small.
This is also an old house from decades ago, the outer walls are a little peeling, and the top floors on both sides have collapsed in some places.
Almost the entire building is in tatters, and even if the news breaks tomorrow that a building suddenly collapsed and crushed several people, it would not be surprising at all.
A year ago, there were still some scattered tenants here, but today, counting Chen Le, there are actually no more than 3 households renting here.
Those who dare to live here are basically not afraid of death.
The homeowner is still waiting for the national demolition team to visit here and get rich, and he has no intention of asking for much money from the tenant.
So the rent is very cheap, only 200 yuan a month.
It took Chen Leke a long time to find such a cheap place, risking his life to live for several years.
Of course, in addition to being cheap, there is also a small independent toilet in the room, as well as a small balcony outside, and it is also equipped with a super old-fashioned Haier washing machine.
I have to say that the quality of old domestic machines is always very strong.
As for the room, it's relatively simple, there is a wardrobe by the toilet on the left, and then a bed in the middle, and a desk on the right, which is all there is to the room.
This is also a small space that belongs to Chen Le's private and safe.
No one cares about him, no one bother, and no one gets hurt.
Except for the hard work when earning rent, he usually feels quite happy to come back here.
...... Only today, a little tangled.
When I came back, it was already past 12 o'clock.
Chen Le sat on the edge of the bed and looked at the chocolate in his hand, struggling for a long time.
There's always a villain fighting in my head.
The devil villain is saying, chocolate, it's delicious, I've never eaten such a high-end thing, this is not the same glamorous color as the 5-cent chocolate on the side of the road.
The angel said, do you want to eat, do you want to eat, the biggest problem with chocolate is that if you eat him, he will be gone.
Then, the devil villain, a fork and bucket of dead angel villain, tempted, you are very hungry, chocolate is rich in energy, can replenish your physical strength, very hungry, very hungry......
The angel villain "oh" and came back to life, and said in a golden light, there will be no more if you eat it......
When the two villains were in a mess in their minds, Chen Le fell asleep in a daze.
After all, I didn't eat it!
Reluctant.
The boy's mind is still very naΓ―ve.
Although, for others, this may be an ordinary chocolate for dozens of yuan, but for Chen Le, this is the first gift he has received.
Still is...... Received it from Xia Bing.
Even if he was hungry, he didn't want to eat it at all.
Even if you look at it like this, you feel a strange sense of satisfaction.
A little, a little comfort!
Although, her original owner may not have taken it to heart at all, but the boy still cherishes it very much.
After a busy night, I woke up the next day and it was close to 7 o'clock.
Chen Le went to the balcony to drink some tap water to satisfy his hunger, and then rushed to school.
"It's terrible!"
He wanted to get up at 6 a.m. to go to school, but when no one was paying attention, he shoved his phone back into An Youyue's desk.
And now, when Chen Le came to school, he would directly study on his own as a class.
In the classroom, homework is written for homework, and early reading is read early.
The sound of students' immature endorsements, the writing of ballpoint pens, and the whispering of discussion echoed everywhere.
When Chen Le entered the classroom, he glanced at An Youyue quietly, and found that she had already talked and laughed with her tablemates, and she looked much better.
It made him feel good.
As Chen Le walked from the door of the classroom, walked across the podium, walked through the aisle, came to the corner of the desk at the very edge, and sat on the desk, no one looked at him from beginning to end.
He doesn't have any friends, and most of his classmates are ordinary classmates, or maybe even ordinary classmates.
I have to say that the one who usually talks a little more is probably his tablemate Liu Cheng.
Liu Cheng is a big fat man, nicknamed Fat Head Cheng, 1.78 meters tall, round cheeks with a sense of joy, his grades belong to the middle of the upper and lower reaches, his biggest feature is that he has to take breakfast to the classroom every day to eat, and he has to eat 4 meat buns per meal.
Every time at this time, smelling the fragrance of meat buns is the most difficult time for Chen Le.
Not only to smell the smell of meat, but also to listen to Liu Cheng's chirp......
The same is true today.
Chen Le sat on the left and looked out the window boredly, while Liu Cheng was biting the meat bun while desperately catching up with the English test papers, and from time to time he lowered his mouth to taste the aftertaste.
Forget it, occasionally leaning over to Chen Le's side, and said, "Have you finished your English test paper? β
Then there was a mouthful of meat, which gave Chen Le the feeling that it was both disgusting and ...... Envy.
"It doesn't matter. β
Chen Le said and took out the English test paper, and didn't care about it, just abcd scribble.
Anyway, the teacher only checks to see if you have written it, so it doesn't matter if it's right or wrong.
Just deal with it.
And the vast majority of people will communicate with each other and help each other.
Liu Cheng said to the one in front of him, "Copy the English test paper for me, quickly, I can't finish it." β
The person in front replied, "I'll copy your physics test papers." β
Someone else came over and said, "Have any of you done the language exercises, show me." β
"Take a look at 2 pieces. β
"Damn, you're too dark, I showed it to you the day before yesterday. β
"The one I found with great difficulty, a very hard ......"
"Hey, you can do this question, amazing, how to do it, talk about ......"
"Which way?"
β......β
If you don't read English in the morning, it's basically a time when everyone is busy copying homework from each other.
Chen Le finished a few test papers casually, and then lay on the table, facing the window and pretending to sleep.
Let's be honest.
Chen Leting envied them.
Something like this that happens between classmates or friends can never happen to him.
Even if there is something you don't understand, you don't even have someone to ask for advice.
In addition to not having a good relationship with his classmates, even the teacher doesn't care much about him, and even hates him.
In this environment, there is no motivation to learn.
Although he always has an attitude of indifference and indifference on the surface, in fact, in his heart, he is still very envious of everyone "helping each other" like this.
I always feel that the relationship is very good.
Chen Le didn't know why it became like this, maybe it was because he had "no parents" since elementary school, or he was poor, always wearing torn clothes, carrying an old schoolbag, or he was too silent, or he had forgotten it.
When I was in elementary school, I thought it would be good to go to junior high school, and I would definitely try to make new friends and classmates.
But the situation in junior high school has not changed, and I am still ostracized and even bullied.
Then I thought that it would be fine in high school.
Practice has proved that high school has not changed.
He's still a man.
Chen Leye once naively thought that it would be good to go to college.
But, that's even more unlikely.
Because he doesn't have a college anymore.
It's time to work as an adult!
"Okay, class, each group leader puts away the math workbook. β
With the words of the math teacher, the first class officially began.
Chen Le also raised his head silently.
For example, friends, classmates, and studying together, these are all words that are extremely far away from oneself.
No one is born with a love of solitude, it's just that some people have to get used to being alone!
After taking one class after another, there is actually nothing to gain, probably the only gain is that the drowsiness in the brain is getting bigger and bigger.
Chen Le has been thinking about how to find a good opportunity, and quietly returned the phone to An Youyue.
It feels like it's going to be a hassle if someone sees it, and he doesn't like it.
If you think about it, you can only wait until after class at noon, while everyone is going to eat.
Four classes passed quickly.
As the teacher announced the end of class, most of the boys rushed out like mad dogs, busy going to the cafeteria to grab food.
The girls are more reserved.
Chen Le lay on his desk and didn't move, thinking to himself that there should be no one in 20 minutes.
And then, right now.
I listened to a few girls on the other side.
"Yueyue, how is your phone. β
An Youyue showed the sweet smile of the past.
"Fortunately, I told my dad too, but he didn't say anything, just let me pay attention next time, and said that he would buy me a new one. β
"That's good. β
"I'll just say your parents won't blame you, everyone is careless sometimes. β
An Youyue's expression stiffened for a moment, but she still tried to smile and said, "Yes, it's okay, I'm going to report the case, since I lost it, I can't help it, let it be fate." β
"Then let's go and eat. β
"Hmm. β
"Wait, I'll fight again, maybe someone picks it up." β
As Su Ying casually dialed the number again, she heard a melodious ringing bell.
You said you like the Mori Female Department~~
And I have one more G~~
Just like LOVE, remove half and become loli~~
I'm silently waiting for you, even if it's a mid-life crisis~~
My love is not angry~~
You said that love likes to follow the will of God~~
I fell in love with koi fish~~
Advance all the luck for a chance to pull down ~~
The disguised ones don't care oh pretend to be very Buddhist~~
......
This is the "Buddhist girl" that has been very popular on Douyin recently, and it is also a song that is often broadcast in the radio room after class on campus, and everyone has long been accustomed to listening.
At the same time, this is also An Youyue's mobile phone ringtone.
With the sudden ringing of the mobile phone, for a moment, everyone's movements stopped.
The eyes of the whole classroom were focused on the position sitting in the corner......