That's when I realized.

I realized that they didn't care about me, what I wanted to do, what I was thinking.

My future and life path are not up to me, and the people who help me make them care nothing about my future or present.

"I'm full. ”

With half a bowl of rice left, I couldn't stand this arrogant and prejudiced environment.

I paced upstairs, briskly.

For a moment, I want to go back to the dimly lit room where it's just me.

To be honest, I thought it was going to be a big fight, and it ended with my defeat and having to go to school again.

After all, adults are always winning.

There is no reconciliation here, no victory.

There is only absolute domination.

Eat theirs, dwell theirs, spend theirs, use theirs.

The hand that takes people is short, and the mouth that eats people is short.

Along with my cowardice, those physical and rational laws gradually drained my confidence.

I have become a puppet with no self-esteem and no right to speak.

However, my family unexpectedly accepted my willfulness, and this kind of awkward tolerance relieved the pressure in my heart a little......

I shrunk into the quilt and enjoyed this moment of peace and time for myself.

When I went to bed that night, I remembered.

I've seen it.

I've seen exactly the same ......

I've seen the exact same looks......

I can't shake off that kind of look......

In the classroom, in the office, or even at home......

Actually, I found out a long time ago.

The message they are revealing is actually the same.

It's all a look of pity.

Downstairs, the sound of parents arguing gradually came.

It's because of your laissez-faire attitude that his brother left this house, right?

Then you say it's my fault? Is it my brother's fault for leaving?

Didn't you force him to study too hard, beat him and scold him, so he ran away from home?

I tucked my head into the quilt and curled up in a ball.

But even then I felt uneasy and couldn't sleep.

After that, I was still wandering the streets aimlessly.

When I opened my eyes, what awaited me was a chaotic day.

Why can I throw punches like that?

The original motivation was not to learn how to fight.

Instead, I stood in the bookstore and picked up the book and looked at it a few times, and it started out of a playful mentality.

I bought the 'Beginner Martial Arts Instruction'.

When you take it apart at home, the first page is the easiest way to get started.

【Straight Fist】

A straight punch is a striking method that moves in a straight line from the punch to the target. Straight punches are generally used to disrupt the opponent's movements and disrupt the opponent's position when attacking or consciously retreating, and are the main means of winning the victory. Someone once said, "Mastering the technique of straight punching is equal to mastering 80% of the technique of boxing." ”

That's it for the frontier.

【Left Straight Fist】

Action essentials

Starting from the pre-fight position, the left arm is quickly straightened with elastic force, while the left shoulder is sent forward, and the upper body is slightly turned to the right to increase the speed and power of the punch. While the arm is straightened forward, the left fist is turned inward to the center of the fist and shot down in a line, and the elbow joint is raised and flattened with the inner turn of the fist. At the same time, push the ground hard with the back foot, slide the front foot (left foot) forward, land on the ground with the inside of the forefoot, and after the back foot pushes the ground, the heel is lifted, the back leg is slightly straightened, and the weight of the body is shifted to the front foot. At the same time as punching, it is necessary to use the leg, waist, and hip force to increase the force of the blow, so that the force acts on the target in a straight line through the shoulder, arm, wrist joint and fist peak. Relax your arm and shoulder muscles during your punch, and when you're about to hit your target, your fist clenches abruptly to make the final phase more powerful. The right hand moves forward naturally with the left fist, protecting the chin and face. After hitting the target, the punch quickly relaxes and retracts from the original path and returns to its original position.

Prone to making mistakes

At the beginning of the punch, the body and arms should be naturally relaxed, and the arms should not be pulled back in advance, which will affect the power and speed of the punch. Because the action of preparing to punch can be detected by the opponent in advance, so as to make corresponding defenses and counterattacks. Therefore, the punch must be sudden to catch the opponent off guard. When punching, you should not lean forward too much, so as not to lose your balance and create convenient conditions for the opponent to counterattack. If it is difficult to hit the target with a straight left fist at a distance, you can first take a half-step forward with your left foot and strike a straight left punch at the same time, and pay attention to protecting your chin with your right fist throughout the development process. In the process of punching, you should always observe the changes in the opponent's movements, and beginners often have the problem of closing their eyes when they use a left straight punch, which should be gradually corrected and overcome in practice.

【Right Straight Fist】

Essentials:

Start from the basic position with the right foot on the ground, and the force from the right leg sends the right hip forward, driving the waist to quickly turn forward, and at the same time the right shoulder is sent forward. Increases the power and range of the right straight punch.

Notes:

Because when the right straight fist punches, the forward delivery and twisting amplitude of the body is larger, so that the body has a great inertia to turn to the left, which causes certain difficulties to the retraction of the right fist, so immediately stop the rotation of the body after punching, swing the right fist to the left side of the body with the inertia to buffer the inertia of rotation, and then quickly withdraw the right fist to protect yourself.

The description of straight punches in the book is quite handsome. Meticulous.

When I was younger, I thought it would be good to be able to learn this trick.

Without further ado, I immediately took a pose with a playful mindset and followed the posture taught in the book.

Kick the ground with your right foot...... Waist ...... forward Right shoulder forward ......

Whoosh————

It's a bit ashamed to say that the first punch in my life I almost fell to the ground, and I didn't stand firm at all.

I know that I don't have any athletic cells at all, let alone talent.

However, I think it's fun.

So I threw my fist again, and this time, I didn't fall, but it didn't seem to be in the right position.

After a few more passes, I stumbled upon the right punch.

I was sweating profusely, and I don't know why I felt so comfortable.

Feeling the power of this punch, it was as if for the first time in my life I had succeeded in doing something because of my own efforts.

Although I haven't performed that correct posture again in the past dozens of times.

But I'm enjoying it, and I'm not distracted.

And just like that, I started practicing my fist swing every day.

It will be done every day, morning, noon, evening.

Before and after meals, I do it.

And so a month passed............

I've been able to land decent punches.

It's almost exactly what is written in the book.

I was very happy, I felt like a martial arts hero in the comics.

It wasn't a big deal, but at the age of 14, I had a great day.

But............

It's as if Heaven must punish me.

I went out on the street that day, as usual, but I encountered a school thug who was on vacation.

They immediately spotted me, surrounded me with pretended concern, and asked me how I was doing.

I knew in my heart, I knew very well, that they still wanted to bully me, that they wanted to make fun of me.

They don't care about 'me', they just care about their old punching bag.

Sure enough, things were just as I thought, and they pulled me to the corner of the city.

In the gloomy alleys, the light made their ugly faces even more terrifying.

I leaned against the corner, trembling too much to look up.

What a martial arts hero.

It's just a dream.

I hate being so cowardly and content with my own spiritual world.

One of the thugs pressed his hand against the wall behind me and 'watched' me.

"It's been a long time since I've seen you come to school, how are you doing?"

Another thug also chimed in: "Yes, yes, why don't you come to school? You're not here, we're lonely!"

"Is it because we bullied you, and the bullying is unbearable for you? Isn't it? We didn't do that, did we?"

I didn't say a word.

"Yes, yes, we are good buddies, good brothers! How can there be school bullying? I heard that some people even commit suicide because they can't stand this!"

"You didn't do anything stupid like suicide, did you?"

I tried to hold back, but my cowardly self betrayed my resolve once again.

My tears were dripping down my collar.

His cowardice was seen through, and he didn't even have the last dignity left.

"Hey!?won't you? You're really going to kill yourself?"

"This guy really didn't have a seed!! Committed suicide when he encountered this little thing, what will he do in society in the future?"

"Hmm...... I feel that we still have to train our little 'brother' again, otherwise he will not be able to withstand the beating of society in the future. ”

After saying that, the thug directly slapped me.

I was so scared that I didn't dare to move, I didn't even have the strength to turn my head, only tears flowed endlessly.

"What are you crying for? Kill yourself! Aren't you quite kind?"

"Big brother, he's still standing here, a timid person like him, he doesn't dare to commit suicide. ”

"Yes, yes, a waste, there is no value in living in the world, it is better to commit suicide, forget it if you die, and if you live, you will cause trouble to others!"

Syllable!

Another slap in the face.

"Why don't I help you? It's useless for you to live anyway, so why don't I help you?"

With that, the thug pulled out a knife from his trouser pocket.

"I just want to try the feeling of killing!"

Now that I think about it, it might just be a prop to scare me, they shouldn't have the guts, and they won't be stupid enough to do that.

But for me, who was 14 years old at the time, it was a fear that transcended all fear.

"Don't!!"

Touch!

I hadn't made up my mind yet, but my body responded.

I threw the straight punch that I usually practiced, hitting the knife-wielding thug in the jaw and knocking him to the ground with one punch.

It was so unexpected that I and the two remaining thugs froze where we were.

This is...... Did I do it?