Kalam's Hill. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

There is no light in the sky, just like King Arthur's heart is empty and dark, in addition to weapons and a large number of corpses, there are only Arthur and Lin Xiao in it, Lin Xiao, who originally maintained a spirit state, slowly transformed from a fluttering spirit state to an entity.

It seems that this is already the end of Artoria.,Suddenly I understand the reason why Merlin said that it is difficult to awaken Artoria's personality.,The terrible degree of this nightmare is at least the level of a king if you use the difficulty of a certain game.,Because there's nothing more direct than destroying all a person's expectations.,All dreams.。。 And what makes people completely desperate is that this dream ends in her own hands, is the king who is denied by others, the king who lives up to the expectations of others, still qualified to be a king?

Looking at the half-kneeling king not far away, Lin Xiao took a deep breath, this time he must redeem the girl in front of him.

Even if the country is destroyed, even if this world is just her spiritual world, Lin Xiao has seen everything in her, and her smile is very beautiful, she should never sink into this damn purgatory-like nightmare like this.

"Why? It's like this, I just want to save my country... ”

"I can't even see through the hearts of those who follow me。。。。。 ”

"Maybe it's all a punishment for a king who doesn't understand people's hearts... ”

"I can't do anything, I can't do anything... It's over.... ”

“。。。。。。。。。。 ”

These voices were all Artoria's distorted voices, decadent, dark, desperate, had they given up everything?

Lin Xiao clenched the fist in his hand and he raised his foot and walked to Artoria's side, every step was slow, of course, it wasn't that he didn't want to get to her side a little faster.

It is the negative emotions in Artoria's spiritual world that constantly corrode and interfere with him, and once he gives up a little, then his will and ego will be disintegrated and completely swallowed up.

Step by step, time passes, and the distance is slowly closer, and the negative emotions of the bombardment are like demons celebrating in front of a bonfire, and they will not easily give up if they disturb their revelry and sacrifices.

The language bombardment of negative dark emotions is becoming more and more obvious, just like the attack of the demons in martial arts novels, constantly wanting to invade and destroy Lin Xiao's spirit, and Lin Xiao's footsteps still haven't stopped, although his speed is getting slower and slower, but he hasn't given up yet.

(Even if she could only step 1 centimeter, she would definitely have to reach Artoria's side, she must be scared and miserable now。。。。。 Regardless of whether others are betrayed, no, disdainful, the girl is the only king, this is an undoubted fact, the girl who has been fighting for her ideals is really handsome, you must tell her seriously. So even if it is Artoria you who question all this, it doesn't matter, because it's up to me to identify, I'm to protect, it's up to me to decide. ）

Finally, he was still a short distance away before he could reach out and touch Artoria, but suddenly the attack of negative emotions suddenly changed, and Lin Xiao's own memories began to appear, as well as the voice of his own dark side.

What came into his heart was his own voice, this moment made Lin Xiao temporarily stop, his eyes began to hollow, as if his soul was sucked away, memories and strong feelings surged, lonely and helpless, confused and frightened The dark voice that belonged to himself surged from all directions.

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Lin Xiao grew up in an orphanage, and most of the children in the orphanage are not on TV, and they look happy in the movie, but most of them are not happy.

And Lin Xiao is also one of them, and no one of the orphans here knows why they are staying in such a place。。。。。 Lin Xiao has no sense of identity at all.

Although he had a friendly nurse at the orphanage and a large number of companions, it only gave him a little comfort, and the absence of parents was like an imprint engraved in his heart.

In fact, this is a wound that every orphan has, when he sees other people's classmates having parents to pick him up and go to school, he feels uncomfortable but will deceive himself and say: "I am more independent without father and mother." ”

The loneliness and helplessness of the soul tormented him all the time when he was young, and even when he grew up, this shadow accompanied him throughout his life, which also led to him not only having no relatives, but also no friends.

Of course, it is said that most orphans are basically like this when they grow up, and they are very lonely.

To put it in a compelling phrase, the loneliness that comes from the soul is incomprehensible to no one, even he himself feels like a freak.

However, Lin Xiao found that he was abnormal only because of a simple question, that is, when he grew up, Lin Xiao found that he couldn't find the purpose of life at all, is it a bit like saying this, I don't have a dream, so I am very confused and can't find the meaning of life.

In fact, in Lin Xiao's definition, the so-called goal of life is to know what he is living for, which is definitely a philosophical question.

1W person can definitely say 1W answers, but no one can come up with his answer, so this answer is unknown, but Lin Xiao knows that the future waiting for him is definitely something that is extremely disgusting.

For example, in the future, like a normal person, study, work, and then find a suitable woman, then get married, have children, and then grow old.

Before I die, tell my son and grandson or something, you don't want a dime of my property, I want to donate it to the country, so that my life will be meaningful? I haven't lived in vain, is this why I live? Of course, this is just a joke, for Lin Xiao, don't want such a future.

So wanting an extraordinary life is his goal? Just like in those comics, novels, and movies, he suddenly encountered an adventure, became a superpower, or a hero, or the protagonist of an enviable anime, and lived a life beyond mortals from then on.

Anyone has thought like this before, but when you wake up from the dream, you will find that everything is still a cruel reality, and you still have to live to live.

However, Lin Xiao was relatively lucky, but before he was selected by the Salvation Space, he didn't feel any interest in anything at all, I don't know when he started? Lin Xiao has developed a lazy habit, he doesn't care about anything, he always likes to fight against the bed, and he is sealed by his own bed, but in fact, he is just hiding his heart, because he doesn't know what he is doing every day, and he doesn't know what he wants, and his numb life without expectation is like waiting for the end of himself.

After that, when he died for the first time, he came to this salvation space, and he had no substance for death, but suddenly such a wonderful thing happened to him, which made Lin Xiao suddenly feel that he could find the answer.

Therefore, for the first time, Lin Xiao wholeheartedly adapted to the salvation space, perfectly completed the tasks arranged by the salvation space, experienced a life beyond mortals, and constantly made herself stronger.

also enjoyed the treatment of a savior because of the mission, but gradually Lin Xiao got tired of it, and he found that the answer he wanted was not in this so-called savior space at all, nor was it in the satisfaction of being a savior.

Whether it is a hero or a savior, he often has to pay an unimaginable price for others, and the so-called savior's satisfaction and extraordinary life are just self-deception, and his own life goals should not be established in this deceitful environment at all, from the bottom of his heart, Lin Xiao feels that he is not the material to be a hero at all, because he lacks a sense of mission, becoming a hero is not what he wants at all, he just expects to be able to find his own answer, but if he can't get the answer, everything is meaningless?

So, why do you want to save the world, why do you have to become a savior, forget it, it's meaningless, Lin Xiao came up with such an answer in her heart.

These are some of the thoughts in Lin Xiao's memory, and this surging loneliness and confusion slowly took over, and his voice, which was dark and unexpected, continued to spread, and gradually began to occupy Lin Xiao's body, and the hollowness of his eyes became more and more obvious.

The sky is also darker, will it be the end or the redemption next?