Who am I, where am I coming from, where am I going, why is fate so arranging for me...... It's been a few days, Chen Long can't eat well and can't sleep, and his head is about to explode!

Through the eldest sister's memories of telling him when he was a child, and sorting out through his own memories, the process of his abduction slowly made him fully recall......

It was dark and rainy, and the wind was blowing wildly, and people on the streets were fleeing in all directions to find a place to hide. Parents don't know where they're busy. He saw a letter with a stamp on the table, and he knew what a letter was, and he had seen adults put letters in their mailboxes on the street, saying that they could send them...... So he picked up the letter on the table and ran out. I turned a corner, ran to a mailbox not far from the street where I could send letters, and tried hard to put the letters in the mailbox. But he was too short, and he couldn't reach the mailbox, so he couldn't put it in. Suddenly, a big hand snatched the letter from his hand, picked him up and ran quickly. At this time, the raindrops of beans and the wind came down and hit the face directly, making it difficult to open the eyes...... Everything happened so fast that he didn't have time to react, he couldn't see the faces of the people holding him, and his mind went blank......

After being carried and running for a long time in the wind and rain, he was put down and grabbed and dragged to continue running. At this time, he finally realized that something was wrong, and the person who was dragging him was not his own family......! He cried desperately, struggled desperately, and ran away several times, but in the end he was caught, unable to escape his clutches, and was frightened by loud yells and beaten fiercely! In the vast wind and rain, he called his father and mother, and cried and cried to the heavens and the earth, but no one showed up to save him......

This terrifying image of crying and struggling in the wind and rain has always been deeply imprinted in the depths of memory, and I often dream of being frightened and woken up in my dreams...... Later in Chaos' upbringing, he thought it was just a nightmare. Gradually, he assimilated into the family's complicated daily life, and spent every bad day in the hard years.

Chen Long remembers that he was always beaten and scolded by Chen Dexiu when he was a child. Of course, not only him, but also the eldest sisters and siblings also grew up being beaten and scolded by him. Even my mother was in the same situation, and she was often bullied, beaten and scolded.

When he was a child, Chen Long looked forward to growing up quickly every day, and then he had the ability to resist Chen Dexiu. Then you can protect your sister and younger siblings, and you can stand on your mother's side against Chen Dexiu......

But the days of rotten bags have never been good. Later, Chen Dexiu rarely stayed at home, and even when he returned home, he couldn't help much. Every time he came back, he was always full of alcohol, and almost everyone in the family became his punching bag, and he scolded whoever he caught. So the family was afraid that he would avoid him. If he doesn't come back home, it's a peaceful day. The children in the family rely on their mother to raise them while farming......

He had long exceeded the age of studying, so he went to study in a primary school in a nearby village accompanied by his eldest sister. Wise, he successfully made it to junior high school.

In the second year of junior high school, one day Chen Dexiu gambled outside and lost a lot and was forced to go into debt. In order to pay off that gambling debt, he sold whatever was valuable in his family. Even all the grain and oil that my mother had earned from her hard work in farming was moved away and sold to pay off her debts.

After that incident, the whole family entered the lowest point of life. Like the eldest sister, Chen Long resolutely dropped out of school and returned home to support this family, which could be in danger at any time, with his mother.

The eldest sister got married early, but fortunately she married in a neighboring village, which is only more than 20 minutes away from home. So even though I'm married, I can often go home and even come back with my brother-in-law to help.

In order to increase the family's income and expenses, he supported his younger siblings to study smoothly. He once went to the town to pull popsicles to sell, to the abandoned reservoirs and ditches to catch fish and sell them, and to go up the mountains to pick Chinese herbs to sell. Later, I followed some scattered migrant workers who did construction to the surrounding villages, towns, and county towns to do handymen.

Later, he accumulated some money, and at the age of twenty-two, he spent 20,000 yuan with a few older singles in the surrounding villages. married a foreign girl who was about the same age as him through the introduction of the border matchmaker, which can be regarded as a hasty completion of his marriage.

Unfortunately, a few years after the two children were born, once they went up the mountain to collect medicine and chop wood, because they were not familiar with the mountains, the virtuous wife accidentally fell to her death......

Immediately afterwards, the elderly mother fell unexpectedly half a year ago, suffered a cerebral hemorrhage and stroke, and the left side of her body was hemiplegic. After spending a sum of money on rescue treatment, he was able to save his life, but now he can only live in a wheelchair. Her mother was unable to take care of herself and needed someone to accompany her every day.

The family had been supported by her mother's desperate farming. Later, the eldest sister and he dropped out of school and came back to help, and the family burden on her was relieved. In the half a year that his mother was paralyzed, basically the eldest sister came back every day to take care of him, so that Chen Long had the energy and time to cultivate and care for the crops in the fields, and take time to go to the surrounding areas to collect various handymen to earn money. Especially the two children, since they have no mother, if it weren't for the eldest sister coming back to help take care of them, it would be really difficult for him to endure these hard days......

The eldest sister has been helping her mother support this family all these years, and everything she has paid for this family is incalculable. It was the fearless and selfless behavior of his mother and eldest sister that deeply taught him to do things for others.

In Chen Long's small circle of activities, in addition to going to the county town to pick up handymen, most of the rest of the time is to find some handymen in the town. Such as repairing and demolishing old houses, building buildings, moving, repairing roads, pulling water and electricity, and so on.

As the country's cities and towns continue to urbanize, many people, especially young people, are looking for jobs and development in big cities farther away. And he is the only one who has been nesting in such a poor mountain village, suffering a hard life.

The eldest sister, including his mother, had persuaded him many times before, telling him to look for work and development in farther places, especially in big cities, like others, but he never left home. In fact, it's not that he doesn't want to go, it's just that he can't let go of this home in his heart. Although the family has always been very short of money and needs money...... Especially after he got married and had these two children, it was even more difficult for him to give up and couldn't bear to leave this home.

Now, all of a sudden, such a background of his life was revealed and confirmed in him, so all his thoughts in life were disrupted!

People, even if it is the most bitter and difficult, no matter how poor and tired they are, they are not afraid, at least it is a peaceful and peaceful day. But the joys and sorrows of life, especially bad events, can really torment people into white-headed people in three days!

In the past two days, in addition to recalling and confirming with him what happened back then, the eldest sister has also continued to enlighten and persuade him. He was asked to go to the provincial capital anyway and look for the address he left in the letter, hoping to find his biological parents and find a better job in the city......

However, this was a difficult choice, what should he do, how should he choose? Why did fate play such a trick on his life? He suddenly felt that he was standing at the crossroads of life, and he didn't know which way to go! He didn't even know who he was......!