Li Po is worried about the above things, but Shen Xi doesn't care, since the first day she accepted her mother-in-law to give her a confinement, she has been completely prepared, and she doesn't ask her mother-in-law to treat her well, as long as she doesn't come to hurt. As a result, unexpectedly, without fighting back, the time of breastfeeding became an eternal pain in Shen Xi's heart.

Xiaohe had to feed every two hours at night, and Qin He was arranged by her mother-in-law to rest in another room on the grounds that she had to work during the day. In this way, Shen Xi took the child alone, did not sleep at all, and squinted for a while during the day, and was interrupted by her mother-in-law's "visit", there was no private space at all, the door of her room was open at any time, and her mother-in-law could enter and exit at will.

When breastfeeding, the mother-in-law not only has to watch in person, but also invites other relatives to come to discuss the reason for Shen Xi's lack of milk, talk about feeding every day, talk about it all the time, and treat Shen Xi as an animal that only has the function of mammals.

One day, she was so sleepy that she fell asleep while the baby was feeding. When they were awakened by the sound of talking, their mother-in-law and some unknown relatives of the Qin He family were holding the child, squeezing their eyebrows at her with their clothes wide open, and less than a meter behind them, a man was standing and smoking, and Shen Xi collapsed at that time.

That night, she decided to wean, but she also felt sorry for the child, hugged the sleeping Xiaohe and cried, and bit the quilt, not daring to make a sound.

This is the only thing Shen Xi has ever done that he has not done wholeheartedly for Xiaohe.

"Are you awake?"

Familiar sounds. Shen Xi turned his head: "Brother, why are you here?"

Shen Ming was irritable: "I still want to ask you, how old are you to do such a thing, fortunately you met a kind person to save you, if you don't meet it, you don't think about yourself, but also for us, there are a lot of things in my family, and it is a mess." ”

He hurriedly kicked Shen Xi, who had just been rescued, to the edge of the ghost gate, and Shen Xi's nose was sour. was said by colleagues to be an "incompetent mother", was pointed out by the leader for his poor work ability, and was blamed by his family for causing chaos, at that impulsive moment, Shen Xi had only one thought: I am so unbearable, Xiaohe will also dislike having a mother like me.

"Then, brother, go back first, I'm fine. ”

"Don't be stupid, I found you a nurse, paid 2,000 yuan in advance, you can call her if you have something, there are ready-made meals in the hospital cafeteria, someone is waiting for you, you can lie down." ”

She left a line of tears. Why do women have children, is to fulfill their social responsibilities, fulfill the so-called reproductive obligations, like children, or simply want to have a child, no matter what the reason, when they have children, they will become another woman, for the better, for the worse, anyway, it is not the same as before.

Shen Ming took out a stack of money from his trouser pocket in front of her, one piece, five yuan, ten yuan, only one hundred, he counted it, stuffed it back again, picked up the coat on his knees, and prepared to leave.

"Your sister-in-law is working overtime today, I'll go back to send Xiaoguan and Xiaojin to take interest classes, it's late, I don't know if it's too late to take the bus, if it's too late, I will have to pay thirty or fifty yuan, I'll go back." ”

He looked at his phone, stood up, and put a bottle of water on the bedside table: "The nurse gave it, I haven't drunk it yet." ”

When he approached Shen Xi, a heavy breath floated out from his breathing, as if it was caused by too much exertion and poor rest, and his face was not very good, dark yellow and black.

This discovery made Shen Xi inexplicably anxious, and he pointed to him to take care of Xiaohe, but when he opened his mouth in such a situation, it was like a fool's dream, she said "um", and he left, disappearing into silence. A few patients in hospital gowns occasionally passed by in the hallway, and the microwave oven on the nurse's desk "buzzed" incessantly, wafting the smell of food.

The whole world was so quiet that Shen Xi was steady, and the pain in his stomach was unbearable, which was the sequelae left by drinking too much river water. The curtains in the hospital room were not drawn, and the moon above the tall buildings and rooftops in the distance, with a few stars twinkling around the moon, and she admired the moonlight for a while, and her anxiety increased, this poetic act did not suit her current situation.

The clinic is a middle-aged woman in her fifties, sighing and getting up from the bed, with one foot bare, one foot with a sock on the other, sitting on the edge of the bed and muttering to herself, "It's time to eat again, hey." ”

In the continuous sigh, she fumbled to put on her shoes and took the initiative to ask Shen Xi: "Little sister, what do you eat, I'll call you by the way." ”

"Thank you, big sister, I'm not hungry. ”

"If you are not hungry, you have to eat, people must eat if they want to live, you are young, and you have a long way to go." ”

The middle-aged woman said two words of "chicken soup" that were not painful, and sighed twice, it seemed that she had no ability to comfort people, and her whole person was very weak.

"Don't expect the nurses to treat you sincerely, the nurses in this hospital are dark, three yuan a dish can be said to be five yuan, you don't buy it yourself, you don't know the price at all, hey, when you get to the hospital, the money is not money, and it is like running water. Three yuan can buy a cabbage, add some hot sauce to boil, and you can eat it for a week, hey. ”

"You really don't want to eat it? The soup is free, I'll make you can soup," she tapped on her stainless steel insulated jar: "Corn steamed buns cost five cents each, which is still porcelain, and two can be full." ”

The light on the porch hit her body, and Shen Xi saw her appearance clearly, medium, slightly chubby, wearing a colorful turtleneck sweater and black woolen pants, an ordinary female worker, but the two twisted braids hanging under her shoulders were abruptly piercing. Shen Xi didn't want to talk to anyone now, lest she show her kindness again, so she had to say, "Trouble the eldest sister to help me make two corn steamed buns." ”

"Okay, you wait. She spoke crunchedly, but walked slowly.

After the middle-aged woman left, Shen Xi picked up the mobile phone, the mobile phone was dried and could still be used, she saw a missed call from Han Xiaoyin, and she had no face to go back. At first, she asked Han Xiaoyin to agree to her mother-in-law's request to sue, in order to stop Li Po from tossing, but now it suddenly dawned on her that if a woman wants to toss a woman, the means are endless.

Shen Xi also sighed in his heart, not thinking about anything else, he was too tired, just thinking about Xiaohe.

She thought about Xiaohe's mobile phone, Xiaohe didn't answer, called the landline at home, no one answered, if nothing else, Xiaohe should be in Cao Xiu. Shen Xi's eyes were full of tears, and he didn't even have the courage to call to confirm, the child was still an ignorant child, and confirmed the result, that is, to let Cao Xiu witness her failure as a mother.

Life is too heavy to withstand the intense ridicule.