"Xiao Tang, I have had a crush on Tang Yun'an for so long, but I have never mentioned the reason to you. ”

At night, the two of them were lying on the bed in the bedroom, Ning Qin's voice was a little muffled, and she said to Liao Tang. The lights in the bedroom had been turned off, but the darkness was faintly flickering with neon lights decorating the high-rise buildings from across the balcony.

"You and him seem to have known each other since junior high school," Liao Tang thought for a while and said, "I used to think about why I fell in love with someone, because of appearance, talent, and character? Later, I thought it was probably an opportunity, maybe there was no reason." ”

Her words were more like saying to herself, and someone unconsciously appeared in her mind with handsome facial features, and her face suddenly became a little hot.

Ning Qin's soft voice slowly came from his ears: "I've liked him since junior high school, and he never knew it, probably because of his crush." ”

Liao Tang turned his head sideways to look at Ning Qin, and the two just looked at each other. She seemed to be hiding a lot of unspeakable emotions, and the glimmer in her eyes was a little more melancholy in her trance.

"Do you want to say?"

Ning Qin was silent for a while, then moved her lips and said something. Seeing Liao Tang get up in surprise, he sat up against the wall.

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At that time, Ning Qin was not good at socializing with people, her personality was weak, she was always alone, and she had no friends. The patriarchal ideology in the family is deep-rooted, and after Ning's mother gave birth to her daughter by caesarean section, the ** wall became thinner, and the doctor said that she could no longer get pregnant.

She grew up carefully, thinking about whether she could be recognized and liked in her every move, she didn't dare to look at her family, especially the indifference and alienation in her father's eyes, which made her feel why she was a girl, and the Ganges River was a sand. She envied the childhood of other girls, with happy and beautiful innocence and innocence, even if she didn't.

Low self-esteem and cowardice.

It wasn't until she was in junior high school that Ning's mother became more and more suspicious, and she quarreled with Ning's father again and again, saying that he had cheated on other women, and scolded him indiscriminately. Finally, he cried out to him, "Do you blame me for not being able to give birth to a son?"

Then came the sound of various things being smashed to the ground, sharp and piercing.

She hid in the quilt and cried and cried, and finally turned into a whimper, and the pillow was so wet that it seemed like it was about to be submerged.

When she was a child, her mother liked to misunderstand her and beat and scold her without listening to explanations. She never knew what it was like to be warm, she longed for security, for the love of her parents, and for a happy family. But she has never had these, and she always feels that she is the only one in this world.

Her pessimistic inner world is lonely and helpless, which gradually becomes a lingering shadow in her life.

Until one day, the sky was blue-gray, the autumn air was severe, and all she could see was the yellow leaves all over the ground. The powerful rich second generation of women with a few girls who were not easy to mess with blocked her way at the entrance of the teaching building, and they hooked the corners of their mouths disdainfully.

"She's wearing the same dress as me?"

"I'm sorry ......"

She pleaded, her hands dodging and twitching, and her voice was suppressed and sobbing in pain. The passers-by watched coldly and slowly left.

The leading girl tore at her collar as if to dig her nails into the skin of her neck, and a quiet despair struck her.

She couldn't suppress and couldn't suppress the cry that pulled out from the depths of her soul with difficulty.

"I've been tired of you for a long time. ”

Cheng Xinyuan was the boy who stood there and helped a few girls look out for the wind.

She let the tears flow freely, and she didn't have the courage to resist, so she could only cover her face with her hands weakly, and her shoulders trembled.

When the girl raised her hand and was about to drop it on her, a basketball hit her head with precision, and she let out a "bang" in pain and looked behind her.

"Did you forget your brother, and you didn't even come to inform me of the fight?"

Tang Yunan seemed to be laughing, but there was anger in his tone.

A few girls were afraid, they knew that sports students knew a lot of hooligans outside the school, not to mention the ruffian Tang Yunan.

Ning Qin looked at Tang Yun'an, her eyebrows were like swords, her appearance was handsome, and a warm current suddenly surged in her heart, and she could never forget that feeling. He took off his coat and draped it over her body naturally, and when he saw several people behind him cowering and trying to escape, he shouted again: "Stop." ”

"Apologize to her. ”

They hesitated, a little reluctantly.

"I can't see this kind of thing the most," Tang Yun paused, raised his eyebrows and said, "But bullying people for no reason must be repaid." ”

"I'm sorry. ”

"I'm sorry. ”

"Not next time. ”

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Later, those girls didn't trouble him again, and the last scene was fixed when she lowered her eyebrows and said "thank you" to Tang Yunan. In his eyes, it was just an insignificant little thing, passing by and helping each other, so he didn't remember it in his heart until he forgot it.

But in her eyes, it is the longed-for light, the fierce joy, and the enduring comfort in her heart.

From then on, she only dared to secretly follow his every move.

I was moved by his handsome spirit of running and dunking, raising his head to drink water and his throat moving slightly, remembering his favorite dishes in the cafeteria, snacks bought in the supermarket and magazines and magazines in the bookstore, and being more accustomed to going to the places he frequented and breathing the same air as him.

She always thought that this would be a crush that ended in nothing, humble to dust, and later because of Liao Tang, Tang Yunan remembered her existence.

After Liao Tang leaned against the wall and listened, tears slipped down silently. She didn't speak, and Ning Qin could be heard in the air calming down her breathing because of her choking. When I thought of knowing her at the beginning, I always felt that the girl in front of her had some scruples in front of her, as if she had never been honest with each other.

Now, she realizes that sometimes honesty may not be a good thing, it may just reveal a long-hidden scar.

Liao Tang touched the cold escalator and got out of bed, climbed to Ning Qin's bed, and saw that her emotions had not calmed down, so he stroked her shoulder and whispered: "There will be me in the future, whoever bullies you, I will help you beat him." ”

Ning Qin couldn't cry or laugh, she said, "How can you let a boy protect you like this?"

"I protect him. ”

After Liao Tang spoke, he felt a little weak. It's good that someone can't hear it, otherwise it would be miserable.

The two of them sat on the bed, chatting with each other, not feeling sleepy at all, but becoming more and more energetic, and finally made Ning Qin laugh.

At that moment, Liao Tang calmed down, hoping that she could keep laughing like this, not wanting to let the past pain and grievances haunt her anymore, and wishing her to be happy forever.