That night, Liao Tang covered the quilt and cried in it for a long, long time. For a moment, she felt that she couldn't hold on, she wanted to give up this depressing life at this time, but only a year had passed, was she only so capable, did it end here?

At the beginning, she was sure of her confidence and courage, and in the confinement environment, day and night dance practice, the xenophobic isolation of local trainees, and the pain of being treated injustice as an adult, she still silently endured it.

She didn't dare to call for help.

When the man from the high-level worker appeared, the first step she thought about was not to shout for help, but how to escape. She has been reluctant to think about it, because Xu Chutong was forced out of depression by the company system and that group of trainees, and her crying would be heard every night for about half a year, she tried to comfort her, but she was afraid that she wanted to harm her, and then Liao Tang saw bright red strangulation marks and bruises on her neck, and she suddenly understood everything.

"I want to die. ”

Xu Chutong said this to her more than once when she was mildly depressed, so Liao Tang gave her a retractable utility knife one day. When she took it, her expression gradually changed from melancholy to complex, and finally expressed gratitude, "Thank you for believing in me." ”

The way everyone asks for help when they collapse is different, but she just guessed what Xu Chutong lacked the most in her heart. Later, Xu Chutong voluntarily left to receive treatment for her condition, and her hard work and monthly evaluation results were not bad, but the company seemed to know some other things, such as high-level unspoken rules and trainee relationship processing obstacles, which should be resolved privately for an entertainment company to avoid creating unnecessary panic for newcomers to the company.

She gave up her dreams and in a sense became a victim of a particular circle.

The knife left on Liao Tang was the last thing Xu Chutong left her.

She said that it is a capital offense for a depressed person to come into contact with anything that can be used to harm themselves in the eyes of outsiders. Because of doubt, many people with mild illnesses have fallen into a cycle of self-denial, but I don't want to be an outlier.

"Fortunately, you have always treated me as just a normal person who is emotionally out of control. I hope you can walk for me the path that I didn't achieve. ”

Liao Tang opened his eyes, he forgot to close the curtains last night, and the light of the white flowers shone into the room, and his eyes were slightly sore in the dizziness. When she looked in the mirror, she found that her eyes were badly swollen, and her face was pale and bloodless, she yawned and found that there was a coat left by Senior Nan Xujia yesterday next to the bed.

After entering the company, Liao Tang reflexively said "hello" to all the people who took the face. This morning she was tasked with cleaning the office, wiping the mirrors, washing the humidifier, and cleaning the bathroom...... I was thinking about how to find Senior Nan Xujia in the company, but I ended up drinking coffee with him and the vocal teacher in the office.

Liao Tang hurriedly bowed politely and greeted the two in Korean.

She walked over to wipe the dust off the table, the air seemed to freeze, no one spoke, and the atmosphere was slightly awkward. She then wiped the bookcase behind her, and although she didn't inadvertently, she still heard Nan Xujia whispering to the teacher communicating in Korean, she didn't listen carefully, and turned around and left the office after finishing the work in hand.

When she was mopping the hallway, Nan Xujia walked over from the door of the office and said softly, "I was going to ask you for a leave, why did you come here?"

Liao Tang glanced up at him, a little puzzled: "I have half a day off in the afternoon, why should the senior ask me for leave?"

Nan Xujia didn't seem to expect Liao Tang to ask the second half of the sentence, he smiled helplessly, looked at the girl in front of him pursed her lips slightly, and thought seriously, and said: "The things that can help you solve have been solved, the number of Chinese trainees is small, and I will protect you in the company." ”

After finishing speaking, he felt that it seemed a little inappropriate for him to say this, but fortunately, Liao Tang didn't react much to this, and he was relieved in his heart.

"I understand that seniors protect weaknesses, but I don't seem to need them. ”

Liao Tang smiled and refused. She has long since lived herself as a hedgehog in a foreign country, and under her hard shell hides a heart that does not trust anyone easily. The only thing she can trust and rely on is herself.

Nan Xujia asked, "I'm curious you don't even know who I am?"

Liao Tang stared at his face for a while, Peugeot's facial features, handsome appearance, are the standard looks of male Korean stars who are sought after by most girls. She doesn't watch Korean dramas, and she hasn't surfed the Internet for a long time, so naturally she doesn't remember who the young man in front of her is.

Nan Xujia looked at her dazed and hesitant appearance, sighed, and said, "Okay, it seems that I am not famous enough." You'll know later, but don't ask me to protect you. ”

Liao Tang was not very interested in this topic, and wanted to end the conversation: "I put your coat in the storage room, remember to get it." ”

"Well, look forward to seeing each other next time. ”

Nan Xujia left this sentence before leaving.

When I returned to the practice room, several little girls were lying on the glass and looking into the distance, and a sixteen-year-old Chinese girl asked Liao Tang: "Sister, did you see Nan Xujia's predecessor when you just came in?"

Liao Tang thought for a while and said, "See, what's wrong with him?"

"Wow!" The little girl clapped her hands and said happily: "A male star of mixed Chinese and Korean descent, his acting skills are good, and he is the ace artist of our company!"

Liao Tang thought of Nan Xujia's disappointed tone after knowing that she didn't know him just now, and only then did she understand the reason, she said: "No wonder I always feel that I haven't seen him before, it turns out that he has already debuted." ”

"In South Korea, I want to chase Nan Xujia," the little girl paused, and said with a grin: "In China, you have to chase Lu Tingye." ”

Liao Tang's back stiffened, and she stood in front of the mirror practicing her dance moves as if she hadn't heard anything, and she always heard that familiar and unfamiliar name on different occasions, at different moments, and in different mouths.

He is so popular that everyone is following, I don't know which movie, TV series or variety show commercial he is making now, and I don't know which country he is in, France, England or Italy, maybe what she wants to know more is whether he thinks of her at some point.

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At noon, Lu Yamei ate with her in the cafeteria, Lu Yamei said to her: "The company's rules are that trainees are not allowed to show their faces before their debut, let alone go to places where many people gather. ”

She understood the rules and regulations of the company's system, picked up the vegetables and nodded.

After a while, Lu Yamei put down her chopsticks, looked at her and said, "Fortunately, you were born with good facial features, otherwise you would have to go with them to the whole appearance." ”

"Did the company ask for it?"

"Yes, if you want to be famous, standing on stage or in front of the camera, the first thing people see at your face is your face, and the score of favorability in your appearance is gone, who will understand your inner activities anymore. ”

After listening to Lu Yamei, Liao Tang muttered: "Good reality......"

Lu Yamei smiled disappreciatively and said, "It's not all, if you want to develop comedians in the future, of course your appearance is not so important." ”

She continued: "Acting skills are also important, after all, good looks can easily become a vase. ”

"If acting skills and beauty coexist, it must be enviable. Liao Tang said.

"I recommend you to go somewhere later," Lu Yamei returned the phone to Liao Tang and said, "The address will be sent to your phone later." Relax today, practice more tomorrow!"

Liao Tang listened to Lu Yamei's words and disguised himself. The makeup artist in the company is very skilled, she asked the young lady to put on a common ugly girl makeup in movies, and then put on a mask and sunglasses with satisfaction, and she did this partly because she was afraid of the monitoring and tracking of the trainees by specialized personnel.

Liao Tang has been in South Korea for so long, and it is the first time to go to the streets of Hongdae. Subway Line 2 to Hongik Univ. Entrance Station, crowded and lively, there are many trainees performing on the street, she can see many different stages here, singing and dancing.

She completely let herself go, regardless of the eating habits that she had been tempered for so long. Went to a house in i

The high-value café I saw on S ordered a limited amount of pink peach yogurt cake, Korean peaches are really delicious, the soft cake plus the refreshing peach meat, and the wonderful combination of non-greasy yogurt butter suddenly made her girl's heart burst.

After that, she went to visit a Japanese vintage clothing store and some niche Internet celebrity clothing stores with her coffee in hand, although she didn't take off her mask to show her face, but she also took a lot of photos.

She likes to play social networking sites, she hasn't logged in to her Facebook account for a long time, and she wanted to upload a lot of pictures in a row, but thinking of what Lu Yamei said, she had to post a few photos of Street View on her Weibo account to share the rare joy in her heart.

At about five or six o'clock in the evening, she saw painters painting on the streets, all kinds of stalls, and then heard one cheer after another, and the crowd gathered in a certain place with mobile phones, blocking the road section.

It shouldn't be uncommon to meet celebrities on the streets of Hongdae, Liao Tang lowered the brim of his hat and stood on tiptoe to join in the fun, before SBS had a show where artists suddenly stopped on the street, of course, there were security guards, and then selected passers-by to come out to chat, and various benefits will be provided, such as group photos, hugs, etc.

She wanted to see who was so popular, so she squeezed in.

"Wow, Lu Tingye is here in South Korea!"

The voice of a Chinese girl beside her suddenly reached Liao Tang's ears, and she suddenly felt her heart go into arrest and looked over in disbelief. Lu Tingye politely and detached onlookers smiled and said hello, his facial features, sword-like eyebrows, deep eyes, heroic nose and thin lips that he had thought about countless times in his mind now really appeared in front of her eyes, his eyebrows and eyes smiled, giving her the feeling that he was still as cold as white moonlight.

Liao Tang wanted to withdraw from the crowd, but the little girls were too enthusiastic to surround her, and they were in a dilemma.

Liao Tang felt very bored when he heard him say: "I am participating in a variety show, similar to a certain program of SBS, I met you on the streets of different countries, and I happened to come to South Korea today." ”

The translator who followed Lu Tingye's side translated his words in full. Of course, the scene began to be coaxed, and the atmosphere was very good. In fact, he was a little tired at the end of the day, but he was still in good condition in front of the camera, and then he glanced at the gathered crowd, and a complicated look flashed in his eyes.

He felt that he might be too tired.