Next to be announced is the winner of the Best Actress Volpi Cup. ”

The lights flickered and swayed in the audience, Xu Chunqiu's body flickered on and off, and she felt as if there was a camera facing her, and the pictures of several candidates on the big screen in front of her were cut back and forth.

A rush of background music played in the background, and the drum-like sound stirred people's emotions, Xu Chunqiu felt as if the drumstick was hitting her nerves, and it hurt one by one.

Lu Xiu held her hand tighter, but she was unconscious.

"At this year's Venice Film Festival, the winner of the Best Actress Volpi Cup is ......"

The lights above Xu Chunqiu's head went dark, and the big screen was fixed on the face of a blonde and blue-eyed white actor.

Jill Leonard, One Step Away. ”

The audience applauded thunderously, and the white actress in a low-cut dress raised her hands to cover her face, lifted the hem of her skirt and walked onto the stage to raise the Volpi cup.

Xu Chunqiu didn't seem to hear anything.

It's not because he didn't get the Volpi Cup, it is already quite a good result to be nominated for Venice for the first time at the International Film Festival, plus Feng Tusheng has won the Golden Lion, it is impossible for the organizing committee of the competition to award the Golden Lion Award and the Volpi Cup to the same Chinese crew at the same time.

At that moment, the picture in front of Xu Chunqiu's eyes seemed to have changed, and everything was extinguished in front of her eyes. No lights, no applause, no Westerners with big noses and big eyes, or blonde or red hair.

Immediately after that, she seemed to see a high podium, and the master of ceremonies tore open a golden envelope and said the award speech in her familiar language.

- The winner of the Best Actress at the 14th Golden Dragon Awards is......

- played the heroine Xu Liunian in "Spring and Autumn in the Pear Garden", Xu Chunqiu.

She saw herself dragging her long gown skirt across the red carpet of the Lumière Arts Center in the cold winter of December, and she saw a beam of light fall on her shoulders and carry her to the much-anticipated podium.

She saw Lu Xiu sitting in the audience, looking at her gently and proudly with those deep eyes.

The surging crowd all blurred, cheers and applause turned into ears, and her perspective shrank and shrank like a shrinking frame, and gradually he was the only one left.

Xu Chunqiu heard a lyric pop up in his mind for no reason.

- And I only look at the bottom of his eyes, and I don't care what thousands of people are cheering about.

But......

But was Lu Xiu really in the audience at that time?

No, she clearly remembered that at the Golden Dragon Award ceremony, whether it was "Jinse" or "Liyuan Spring and Autumn" crew, the actors did not travel with them.

She walked through the long red carpet alone, and Lu Xiu sent her to the door of the venue, half-leaning on the car, watching her back leave from a distance.

Familiar and unfamiliar memories are pouring up like a tide, the yin and yang script of "Scorching Its Glory", the story line that has been repeatedly revised during the "Jin Se" period, the fatalistic overlapping experience of "Spring and Autumn in the Pear Garden", and the various tribulations during the filming of "Crazy Day......

The blockbuster when she attended the Golden Dragon Awards ceremony for the first time and the expectations when she attended the actress for the second time, all kinds of memories are intertwined, and she feels that she has a lot of things in her mind, crowded one after another, as if she is about to explode beyond her capacity.

“...... Xu Chunqiu, Xu Chunqiu?"

Lu Xiu's voice broke into her mind in the chaos, Xu Chunqiu opened her eyes suddenly, and breathed heavily, the corners of her forehead were sweaty.

Lu Xiu saw that Xu Chunqiu had returned to normal, so he gradually let go of her hand.

He found that his palm was rubbed with some ink, which was a cheat sheet that Tang Zeqian asked her to write in the palm of her hand before the award ceremony began.

At that time, Xu Chunqiu smiled heartlessly: "It's useless to write or not, I just came to see the world, and I didn't have much expectations for winning the award." ”

But looking at the refracted Volpi cup in the spotlight, who can say that he doesn't have the slightest thought about it?

"Whether you can win the prize or not is copied in your hand, in case," Tang Ze's mother-in-law instructed, "It's better to be prepared than to be dumbfounded at that time......"

Of course, Xu Chunqiu knew that Tang Ze was for her good, and even though the chance was slim, he still copied the pre-prepared acceptance speech in the palm of his hand according to his words.

But when this Volpi Cup, which symbolizes the best actress, really fell to other families, Xu Chunqiu had to admit that she really longed for this trophy.

She wanted it so much.

The words in the palm of his hand were soaked with sweat, and he spent it in a mess, rubbing Lu Xiu's hand.

The white actress on the podium gave her acceptance speech with tears in her eyes, and Feng Tusheng's brows were tightly locked, as if she was very dissatisfied with the result.

Lu Xiu gently patted her on the back, organized some words in his heart, and was about to say comfort, but when the words came to his mouth, he asked him to swallow them hard.

At this moment, the expression and demeanor on her face could never be just because she failed to choose a Volpi Cup.

Lu Xiu's emotions were stirring, almost ecstatic.

He suppressed his excitement, and his voice almost trembled: "...... Do you remember?"

Xu Chunqiu turned her head to meet his eyes, her ears were still "buzzing", and her head hurt badly.

She nodded a little confusedly, stunned for a moment after looking at Lu Xiu, and shook her head gently.

What does it mean to nod and shake your head again?

Lu Xiu felt that he had never been so apprehensive in his life as he was now.

I only heard Xu Chunqiu say softly: "I remembered part of it." ”

Or partially.

To be exact, that part of her as an actress.

The flip in full view of the trip to Turkey reminded her of all the memories related to idols and the stage, and the awards ceremony of the Venice Film Festival brought all the experiences related to acting.

The stage and performance are a patchwork of all the hardships and achievements that Xu Chunqiu has experienced in this fast-paced, high-rise world spanning nearly a hundred years.

The memories were scattered in her mind, they did exist, but there was no logic.

It's like a jigsaw puzzle, as if there's something missing.

Xu Chunqiu stared intently at Lu Xiu's face, desperately trying to recall the experiences related to him, anything was fine, as long as it was related to him.

But what came to her consciousness were only the clues inadvertently left in the corners and corners.

She remembered everything, the Republic of China is still modern, idols and actors, but there is a piece missing.

In her memory, in the past five years, there was no Lu Xiu.