Chapter 7 Confession

"Today, I met someone, and for a certain moment, I thought I saw him. After thinking about it for a long time, Xia He wrote word by word, and her typing speed this time was extremely slow.

"Did he appear in your life later?" "The Blue Rat was very quick to get back, and was probably sitting at the table when he was free.

"Nope. ”​

"It's been almost ten years, and whether you let go or not, you should accept new people and live a new life. He replied.

"I've always known that, but when a suitor comes along, I feel weird. Xia He was distressed, "I will unconsciously want to compare, and then find that those people are not as good as him." Gradually, even the suitors were gone. ”

In the past ten years, all kinds of people have appeared around her, some straightforward and some subtle. In Xia He's eyes, those who are straightforward are particularly superficial, what they say is good and what they do is not good-looking, and those who are subtle, she thinks that the other party must not like it enough, otherwise how can she feel that liking is difficult to speak. So she pretended not to know and not to appreciate it.

Gradually, some people turned to other flowers, and some people gradually became buddies, sharing the fireworks in the world with other girls in front of her.

But Xia He didn't feel sad, in all the lonely and difficult days, all she thought about in her heart was the boy in the white shirt that flew back then.

She actually can't remember what he looks like, and she can't even remember too many memories related to him, he only remembers that he looks good in a white shirt, and he is very handsome playing basketball, but he just took root and sprouted in her thoughts, and she called it obsession for that lingering entanglement.

"Maybe he's also terrible now, it's just that years of obsession have made his image in your heart tall and perfect, but big-faced cats, no one is perfect, you should have a good relationship, and then you will find that in fact, he is not important in your heart for a long time. "He understood her every time, and what he said was in her heart.

"Hmm. Xia He teased: "It's a pity that there is no such an excellent man in life who is so understanding to you." ”

No, she understands everything, but she doesn't want to let herself do casually, and those people can't let her learn to let go.

"But that's not the case, I'm not as good as you think. ”​

"I've asked myself countless times, is he really that good? Looking back now, that person is really full of flaws, but I just feel sorry, if I could have been braver, would I be different now......

"If you can't get it, you must learn to let go, and I hope you can have what you want. ”​

"I'll borrow your auspicious words!" Xia He replied: "I think I have always missed and can't let go, maybe it's not the person I was at the beginning, but I was at that time, there were millions of possibilities, I just chose the stupidest one, so I regretted not being at the beginning, and I was unwilling to let go of the status quo, and I paradoxically closed myself and was unwilling to let go." ”

'Blue Mouse': "Haha, your ability to soothe yourself has grown again. ”​

"Of course! When I don't talk to you, that's what I say. "Maybe one day, that person passes by her, and she won't recognize him. It's not that she Xia He is infatuated, it's really just that there is no one around her who makes her miss more.

"Are you still writing?" asked the Blue-Skinned Mouse.

"Occasionally, I still code words, but I don't post anymore. The writing is not good, the storyline is not interesting, and I can't even write why the hero and heroine are attracted to each other. "'Blue Mouse' is Xia He's first reader, and the only one who supports her creation, when she was in college, she began to publish novels on the Internet, he would give him suggestions for revision, at that time, her work was successfully signed, and she got the first few hundred yuan in manuscript fees, in order to thank him, she also sent him a gift made by herself.

They didn't know each other, and they had agreed not to ask each other's names and ages, and not to explore each other's reality. They have always only known each other's gender, and each other is commensurate with the blue-skinned mouse and the big-faced cat, even if each other's screen names have changed and changed, they tacitly abide by the agreement and never ask each other's lives, like friends, if there are any troubles, they will chat, but they are not like friends, the existence of the other party, in fact, is more like a tree hole, it is dispensable for reality, and when you need to talk, you can rest assured to complain. It's like another self hidden in the dark night behind a person, the real side is unknown to outsiders, but he has always been there.

"Your writing is okay, the rhetoric is simple, but the positioning is not enough. He commented: "I've known you for so many years, and I've watched you grow up, but you always have to adapt to life and ideals first." ”​

"If your hobby can't become a career, will you choose to work first or continue to stick to your hobby?" Xia He asked him, this question has been entangled with him for a year, although she now chooses to work first and then choose a career, but she always can't convince herself to give up writing.

"I think you should have your own answer a long time ago, any time, you should be honest and unintentional about your work. As for hobbies and dreams, you always have to solve the problem of food and clothing first, and then slowly persist and not give up, I believe that one day, you can turn your hobby into your career. "The blue-skinned mouse is worthy of being a blue-skinned mouse, always very clever and empathetic, and enlightening people is the way, which will always make Xia He have a feeling of sudden enlightenment.

"Listening to your words is better than reading for ten years. Xia He happily replied to him: "It's late at night, good night." ”

Seeing that the other party also returned goodnight, Xia He turned off his notebook and was in a good mood, walked to the window and looked at the bright lights in the east of the city in the distance, and suddenly felt that he didn't hate that place so much.

Gently closed the curtains, tiptoed open the door of the room, and saw that Yao Xi was really asleep, but the phone was still in her hand, presumably she fell asleep with Jiang Beichuan on the video, she helped her take the phone farther away, and covered the summer cool quilt for her, and then lay down beside her.

"Thank you, Ji'er. "Thank you for always being with me for so many years, and thank you for always thinking of me. Xia He gently hugged Yao Xi and read silently.

Whether it is the obscure time in the past, or the confusion now, Yao Xi and Xia He have never really separated, this is probably the real friendship, no matter how far apart, you are always in my heart, no matter where you are, the distance will not make you strange, and no matter how noisy you are in the first second, the next second will ignore the previous suspicions, because of trust, you are always indispensable in each other's lives.

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