Meng Yu: "......" is just a joke that is too realistic.

Xu Yi told the reason why Chen Shen had never been on his birthday.

The reason why Chen Shen didn't have a birthday was because when he was three years old, the birthday he had been looking forward to was messed up by the emotional discord between his parents. At that time, he began to learn a lot of courses that were not studied at that age, in addition to poetry and songs, Chen's mother also arranged for him to personally tutor him in the courses, and at that time he was already treated like a student by Chen's mother.

In addition to studying, he has no fun at all, and there is nothing to entertain, but after all, he is only a three-year-old child, and he still has playful sex, but he has been imprisoned early on this kind of sex, and it is impossible for Chen's mother to let go, and it is impossible for him to relax and play, but Chen's father promised to take him to the amusement park to play on his birthday.

He had been looking forward to it, but on his birthday, the housekeepers and servants had already prepared the cakes and meals, but he didn't see his family come for a long time, and there was no one to cherry

After waiting for a long time, he didn't know how many times he slept and how many times he woke up, until he heard movement in the study upstairs, he ran up to look, and through the crack in the door he saw that his family was there.

Chen Shen thought at the time that they were all there, but what were they doing there?

He was about to push the door in, but he heard a roar from his grandfather: "Who let you divorce?!!Who allowed it?!Is this a rule? What should you do if you let Shen'er?!"

He heard his father: "Father, I will take care of Shen'er, and I will often take him to see his mother, but you also know that our marriage is destined to be in name only!"

He saw that his mother was just kneeling next to his father, saying nothing, and there was no expression on his face

At this time, the grandmother spoke, and she called her father's name: "Shen'er is still only three years old! How can you bear it?!"

Chen Shen collapsed after hearing his grandmother's yelling a few words, and everyone else panicked and hurriedly sent his grandmother to the hospital.

In the end, the birthday banquet was destined for no one, even the housekeeper and some servants were sent to the hospital to take care of grandma, Chen Shen looked at the empty house, looked at the table full of meals and big cakes, and remembered the amusement park that his father promised him, everything became ridiculous.

That night he felt like he was dead, there was nothing left, nothing he should have been looking forward to.

He only knew that his father was rarely with his mother, and the two rarely appeared together, and at that time he had the impression that his father was always busy, but his mother was always by his side to supervise him and be strict with him.

He did not complain and was willing to listen to his mother's teachings, and often waited for his father to come home occasionally, and when he came back, he would always bring him some toys and good food.

But after that birthday, he finally understood why his father and mother didn't stay together so often. At that time, although he had basically learned almost the knowledge taught by his teacher, he still knew what the concept of divorce was. After that, he had nothing to look forward to, and there was no fun to talk about, and the amusement park that his grandfather took him to was behind.

Chen Shen has always felt that although his mother and father have not divorced until now, they have already divorced on his third birthday.

And what he should have been expecting was gone.

......

After listening to it, Meng Yu finally understood why Chen Shen died early and talked, it was not literal, it was despair, deep despair, despair rooted in his heart.

She really didn't understand how ruthless a three-year-old child's parents could be after all.

It's no wonder why Chen Shen was disgusted when he heard about his birthday, in his opinion, there was no birthday for him from then on.

His birthday was just a joke, and no one really cared about him anyway, and no one had Sakura

Meng Yu began to sympathize with him again.

Chen Shen's life shouldn't be like this, he shouldn't have autism, but maybe these are not what he thinks, he has to passively accept it like Nan.

She suddenly felt that when she was in the welfare home, Kino's words seemed gloomy and dark, but it was not unreasonable, those adults were always self-righteous, always thought that this was good, always only for their own sake, and didn't care about the child at all, and didn't care about the child when it was born, and never cared about whether the child was happy.

......

Meng Yu canceled the original plan, fortunately, she didn't notify the others but asked Chen Shen's opinion first, but she still decided to spend it with him on Chen Shen's birthday, after all, the gift of preparing a winter vacation still needs to be sent to use.

It's just that after knowing Chen Shen's incident, Meng Yu tacitly didn't mention his birthday again.

She only: "Chen Shen, play the piano for me again on Thursday night." ”

In view of the lesson last time and the recent strict investigation of love in school, Meng Yu did not ask Chen Shen to go outdoors, but decided to be in the hall of Xingjian Building.

Anyway, there are very few people here at night, and the teachers only work in it at noon or during the day, and they all go home in the evening.

Chen Shen nodded: "Okay." ”

On Thursday night, Meng Yu put the gift she had prepared for Chen Shen under the piano early, and gave it to him after Chen Shen finished playing for her.

The song played this time is still a dream wedding, and Meng Yu likes this song very much.

After Chen Shen finished playing, he raised his eyes to look at her and asked, "Is there anything else you want to hear?"

Meng Yu shook his head: "No." ”

Then she picked up the box on the floor: "I have something for you, I made it during the winter vacation, and I originally wanted to give it to you as a birthday gift, but since you hate birthdays, I will give you a gift." ”

Meng Yu handed it to him, and Chen Shen took it and looked at it: "Thank you." ”

After that, Chen Shen: "Actually, I ......"

Meng Yu interrupted him: "No need, I know everything, I'll ask Xu Yi, I won't force you, but that's it, so you don't have to think of those unpleasant memories." ”

Chen Shen nodded with a "hmm".

Meng Yu: "Let's take a look." ”

Chen Shen: "Okay. Then he opened it and looked at it.

Inside the box is a very thick memoir, Meng Yu: "I borrowed the idea of the gift to the instructor at the beginning of the curtain, but the difference is the content of the photos inside, and I also added some more things, that is, there are some words next to each photo." ”

Chen Shen opened it and looked at it, Meng Yu: "The photos on this are a lot of beautiful scenery that I took when I went to travel, some of them are usually seen and thought they are beautiful, and some of them are collected on my mobile phone, I think these things are very beautiful, I want you to take a look at them, and the attached words are all about these beautiful scenery that I saw at that time, and some of them are excerpts from sentences that I think are beautiful in literary works." ”

Chen Shen turned a few pages to see that it was indeed as she did, and every sentence on it was photographed by herself, printed, pasted and written down by herself, Chen Shen suddenly felt warm in her heart.

Chen Shen was looking at it seriously, and Meng Yu asked, "Chen Shen, do you like it?"

Chen Shen nodded: "Yes, this is the best gift I have ever received." ”

Hearing this, Meng Yule said: "Chen Shen, don't hate birthdays in the future, okay?" I promised you that I would accompany you in the future, I am really more real than real gold, they don't have to be with you, then I will live with you, don't you still have me." ”

Chen Shen looked at her fiery eyes, of course, he knew that her words were more real than real gold.

Chen Shen smiled: "For your good sake tonight, I will invite you to eat cake, and you can choose the cake when the time comes." ”

Meng Yu heard that Gao Xin was half dead, after all, food is the most tempting, she: "Yes, Chen Shen, you are so good!"

Chen Shen: "A little food is easy to be bought. ”

Meng Yu: "Where is it, it depends on what is eaten." ”

Meng Yu remembered that there were still serious things to do, so she turned the memoir to the last page and said to Chen Shen: "Show you that this is the beginning of last semester...... Poplar...... Well...... The Chinese teacher asked us to write a poem, wasn't she commented that it was very well written, I'll show it to you now. Meng Yu was still not used to Yang Lan, and he was still in front of Chen Shen.

Later, she read it: "The title of the poem, the banana runs in the dark:

White wings are the yearning of you and me,

And how pure white it is,

It's just that the devil is in front of you,

blocked the light,

But you have not lost your brilliance,

Running all the time.

Despite running in the dark,

Although the dawn will not come,

Even laughter has become hypocritical,

But also keep running,

You still believe that the future will be bright,

Although ethereal.

Black wings envelop you,

Lift the veil,

And he found that the city was nothing,

The flower is nothing,

Even that land is nothing,

But what is it?

Running is your faith,

Persistence is your pursuit,

The future is your dream,

Nothingness or nothingness,

Demons or not,

You and I will run towards the light. ”

After reading it, Meng Yu explained: "This poem is written by me to my favorite anime character Charles, and the intentions in it are also from the anime Black Butler, but it is not difficult to understand in real life." ”

Chen Shen savored it carefully, and he: "It's very good, it's very well written." ”

Meng Yu: "What I want to express is in it, you also know that although Charles has no future, he is still looking forward to it, even though he is in the dark, although he is shrouded in black wings, he still does not give in, and I firmly believe that he will run towards the light, and he will definitely reach the light when he runs in the dark." ”

Meng Yu took out a postcard: "And this, this is not prepared for the winter vacation, it is the lyrics of a song that ran to you with everything I had, I think it is very good, and the singing is also very touching." Before I got to know you, I didn't feel much when I heard it, but after knowing a lot about you, I finally felt it, you see, the above is also what I want to do to you. ”

Wu Fang had told her after the art festival before, and she really didn't feel much at the time, but now she listened to it and made her feel very deeply.

After Xu Yi told him about Chen Shen's birthday, she understood when she listened to this song again, how much it made people want to cry when they shouted "You have me".

Meng Yu also took out the mp3 and put the headphones on Chen Shen's ears and put them on: " Is it lonely, only to learn to grow up, is it separated, to know how to care, if friends are not afraid, scattered, but at the moment I want to be by your side, if the world is complicated, false, noisy, I use everything I have, run to you, even if it is far away, I will definitely arrive, if you are stupid, drunk, lies, I use everything I have to run to you, even if it is far away, I will definitely arrive, if you only have scars, struggles, armor, even if it is small, no one should be lonely, you have me"

This song was temporarily remembered by Meng Yu for Chen Shen, originally she thought about learning to sing it to him, but she couldn't stand the high notes at the climax, thinking that it was given to Chen Shen as a gift, it would be really bad if it made a joke instead.

Meng Yu now feels that the lyrics are full of touching, the sentence: "Is it lonely that you learned to grow up." "It reflects how sad it is to grow up.

The line: "If the world is complicated, false, and noisy, I will run to you with all my might." "It shows that the world is very cold, but I still want to run to you and warm you.

That sentence: "No matter how slim it is, no one should be lonely, you have me!"

Shouldn't anyone be alone?

How is that possible?

It's just that a lot of loneliness is also a last resort, not the death of some relatives and friends, but their abandonment.

But even so, Meng Yu still thought: "You have me!"

Yes, that's enough.

Everything is enough.

Chen Shen felt that his body and mind were unprecedentedly warm, and what Meng Yu showed him and listened to him, he understood and understood.

He suddenly stood up and hugged her, Meng Yu was startled but quickly picked him up, Meng Yu hugged him: "Chen Shen likes you more than me, but I want to do more, let's work together, work together to move towards the light." ”

Chen Shen: Okay.

After that, he felt a mist in his eyes, but he just kept holding her tightly and whispering in her ear: "Thank you, thank you, thank you really ......"

The two didn't notice that the night sky was particularly beautiful tonight, and there were traces of meteor showers slipping elsewhere.

The wind blew outside, blowing off the last petals hanging on the tree, and at the end of March, the peach blossoms and plum blossoms were gone, but there were buds on the branches.

Spring is coming.

At the same time, Chen Shen's spring also came.

Neither hot nor cold, not impatient or impatient, it is a spring-warming spring, and it is a spring that belongs to him.

......

At noon on the second day, Chen Shen really took Meng Yu to pick the cake.

Meng Yu picked a big one, and Chen Shen asked, "Can you finish eating?"

Meng Yu: "Isn't there still you......"