I sometimes have some understanding of my condition, because I have been sick for several years, and in the past few years, I have slowly experienced some pain, but behind these pains, I slowly found some ways that can be beneficial to my condition, in fact, this is also a kind of life, I should sum up some experience, no matter what kind of thing, after a long time, there are still some feelings and benefits, but this is a disease, can not talk about benefits, can only be said to be developing in a good direction. I find that every time I am sad, I will have insomnia at night, which is certain, but I maintain a good mood every day, so that I can sleep well at night, this is what I slowly discovered, so I tried my best to control my emotions, let myself relax, not to worry about anything so much, let myself want to open some, so that I was good for myself, at the beginning, I did not find that I was such a person, but slowly I found that only in this way can I be good for my condition, in order to get better, this is also no way to do it。 I never thought that I would now become so open to everything, don't care about anything, it turned out to be this way refined, there was always a utilitarian heart before, there was always a competitive heart, always hoped that no matter what I did, I could always fight, later, I found that the people around me are also like this, maybe this is the driving force of social development, if everyone does not strive for anything, like Fan Zhongyan, do not like things and do not feel sorry for themselves, such a realm, our society is not good, and now the status quo of such talents should be caused by people's self-motivation, but now I find that I have always been in such a state, and my previous self was the same as them, so I don't have to laugh at other people's uneasy at all, and when I can be free, I don't need to think about why others can't think about it, no matter what kind of person it is, since there is a reason for existence. If everyone is the same white, without those black backgrounds, no one can see the shining points on themselves.

In fact, I found that as long as you have a free and easy heart, these are nothing at all, but under the influence of the world, how many people can think of at all? Everyone is still fighting for rights, interests, and everything they want, we can't deny such people, maybe everyone has their own way of living.

I used to think a lot about it, but maybe it's because I'm older, people are more realistic, and they're more content with the status quo, which is a normal law, but I find myself in such an environment, I still have to be a free and easy person, it's a little not easy, people in this world, how can they have no desires? But on the other hand, if you don't have any desires, you will purify your heart and still be able to firm your own ideas. Recently, I didn't feel much sadness, I didn't shed tears, although I knew that my tears were useless, I still couldn't help crying, sometimes tears swirled in my eyes, sometimes I couldn't help it, tears still couldn't help falling from the corners of my eyes, at this time, I usually scolded myself, what to cry, what is the use of crying, those who don't like themselves still don't like it, those who love themselves still love, the truth is that nothing can be changed. On the contrary, it is a manifestation of cowardice, I used to know this truth, but what such cowardice looks like, and then I just realized that crying can make my mood unstable, and sometimes I have been crying until midnight, and I still can't control myself. The result is just to take a few more sleeping pills by yourself, and nothing else can be changed.

At this time, I found that I would still be very sad at night, or I could not sleep quietly, when I could not fall asleep, I had to get up, find out if there was boiling water around me, eat my own medicine, otherwise, the next day I would not be able to do anything, I could only fall asleep, I was different from normal people, when I used to, sometimes I could not sleep for two nights or I could go shopping normally, and I would do what I should do during the day, but now I can't, if I don't sleep at night, I will still have a very sleepy feeling, grogginess, and I don't want to do anythingIt's really different from before. That is, my body is really not as good as before. But it's already like this, what can be done? It can only be the current situation, and I can only make myself as good as possible.

I used to always know that good and bad coexist, but now I know that I have a deep experience, when I encounter disaster, sometimes I can't say what kind of situation it is, sometimes I can really bring myself some blessings, the key is to see how you look at the problem, the attitude of looking at the problem is different, the results are not the same, the mood is not the same, life is everyone's, no matter what your living standard is, you can't change the status quo, but you can change your mood and lifestyle, which is also a good choice.

For example, your monthly income is only 3,000 yuan, if you save money, you can still live a good life, and if you want to buy luxury goods, it is estimated that it will take a long time to save money, and then I found that the requirements for my life are lower, so that I will be less troubled, instead of putting so much pressure on myself, a teacher in the past, he was my teacher, taught me knowledge, or taught me some other truths. He said that riding a bicycle to work is also to work, taking the school bus to work is also to go, walking is also to go, driving is also to go, the key is that you are in a good mood, and what you say is also very reasonable, which shows that you can choose a different life, the key is to have a good attitude.

Now I gradually want to open up, live a good life, and make my condition better and better, which is my greatest luxury, just be a normal person, and other things, hehe, just want to open. There are not so many things that are necessary, live a good life, live every day well, let yourself have a good mood every day, this is the best life, there is a lot of luxury, there is still pressure.