"Only euthanasia. ”

In the pet hospital, the two-year-old orange cat Xiaohuang is no longer uncomfortable and unable to breathe. I couldn't even scream, and after I finished saying the word euthanasia, it was as if something had collapsed.

It was brought home when it was two months old. Xiao Huang is very well-behaved, and he has been very well-behaved since he was a child. Not afraid of people, naughty, lively and honest, even if it beats it, it doesn't know how to dodge. Instead, it looks at you stupidly, not understanding why you want to hit it, let alone running away.

It will spin around at my feet when it sees me, jump on my keyboard while I'm working, and let me touch its head. Jumping into my arms and rolling around while watching TV, then standing up and looking me in the eye and putting my head on my chin.

Every time I get home, it jumps on the windowsill when my motorcycle sounds. Standing on the windowsill looking at me, he meowed at me and told me to go home early.

When I'm asleep, it sneaks in, burrows into the crook of my arm, and sleeps with my arm. When you're in a good mood, you suck on your palms, just like a baby.

I was the person it trusted the most, but I lived up to its trust.

It was sick, but I didn't notice it in the first place. By the time I got to the hospital, it was already very serious. After a week of treatment, its condition deteriorated.

Although the doctor tried to build up psychologically, and I was prepared, I still had a faint hope. Sometimes spending money doesn't solve all problems, such as illness.

Its weak coat color is tarnished, like a weed. It was weak, its cry was hoarse, it was very uncomfortable. But when they saw me, they wanted to get into my arms. I stroked its chin with my hand, and it closed its eyes and stopped chirping hoarsely. It doesn't seem to be so painful anymore.

But it has little life anymore. I told the doctor as plainly as I could, that if it didn't work, I could just let it be euthanized, and then turned around and went out.

But when I walked out of the hospital and put on my sunglasses, I couldn't control my tears. I didn't dare to look at it anymore. I didn't even have the courage to send it off for the last time, so I had to ask my mother to pick it up and go home for the end.

For the past week, I have been in a bad mood and have been very tormented.

When I went home today, I met a friend and asked: Why are your eyes red?

Me: Riding a motorcycle too fast, not wearing a helmet, the wind blows.

What a good excuse to make me feel less vulnerable.

After two years of companionship, Xiao Huang has brought me a lot of joy. Because I am lonely, there is no one to confide in my big city, only it is very well-behaved. Always trusts me so much, and will get into my arms at any time and comfort me with its little head.

There was no update yesterday and no update today.

Because I really can't let go of such emotions. If the cat will also be reincarnated, I hope this little elf can be found by me again, this time I will be careful and gentle, let you live a long life, let you live a worry-free life.

Tomorrow I will resume the update and resume two updates.