Envy that she has an uncle and aunt who loves her so much.

Buy her clothes, buy good food, and don't be stingy at all.

Unlike me, although I have my own parents and are still around, I don't feel the warmth of family at all.

So I don't understand, why does Jin Lan still look sullen every day?

What are you not satisfied with?

It's really a blessing in the midst of blessings, and I don't know how to be blessed

Until that time.

It was my brother's birthday.

My mother bought my brother a beautiful birthday cake.

The cake was huge, cut out seven or eight pieces.

But none of them were mine.

Even if it's just a small piece.

It's none of what I do.

I watched my brother eat the whole cake by himself.

Eat straight to the point of burping.

The father also poured water for his brother, afraid that he would choke.

Mother smiled and said, if you really can't eat, put it down, and Mom will keep it for you for the next meal.

No one asked me if I wanted to eat it.

My brother also asked that next time I have a birthday, I want to buy a bigger one.

Mother agreed.

Then, they were well fed and drunk.

Let me clean up the garbage.

When I threw the cake pan out, I looked at the only scraps left on the cake pan.

I finally couldn't hold back.

Picked up the cake pan from the garbage heap out of nowhere.

Lick the pitiful bit of cream on top.

Lick the little cake crumbs left on top.

While shedding tears.

At that time, several nasty little boys in the same village saw this scene.

They began to heckle.

"Ah Xi is picking up garbage to eat!"

"Shame on you!"

"Shame!"

"Come and see! Ah Xi is picking up garbage to eat!"

The noise of these children attracted many onlookers.

Father and mother also came out.

My father came and slapped me in the face, scolding me for disgrace to the family.

"Shameful thing!"

My mother was explaining to the neighbors that my child was greedy.

Actually, I ate well, and I was not satisfied.

"Ah Xi is just ignorant, which makes everyone laugh. ”

I was even sadder.

I ran out crying.

Ran to the edge of a small river outside the village.

Crying and shaking.

I cried so much that my clothes were wet.

I feel so wronged.

I feel like I've been abandoned by the whole world.

I didn't notice that there was actually an unhappy little girl by the river.

It was none other than Jin Lan.

Jin Lan was bored throwing stones into the river.

Make a splash.

But she is from the city, and she won't be able to play this kind of trick that rural babies are good at.

She didn't know how to throw it.

I don't know what kind of thin stone flakes to choose.

So when someone else throws it out, it can make four or five, or even seven or eight splashes.

She threw one out and sank to the bottom.

She was sullen when she heard me crying.

So I became even more impatient.

Say to me, "Hey, what are you crying about!"

I sobbed.

Tears in the eyes.

looked at Jin Lan: "I...... I didn't pick up garbage to eat...... That's me...... I just threw it...... Woowoo...... Why don't you give me cake to eat...... Don't give me a single ...... I...... I'm from this family too...... Woowoo...... Brother...... Why did my brother eat it all by one...... A little...... Don't give me ...... at all."

I was so aggrieved in my heart.

In front of my parents, no one gave me a chance to explain.

Now facing Jin Lan.

Although I didn't know her well, I still told Jin Lan everything in my heart.

I said it while crying.

Incoherent speech.

The preamble does not match the afterword.

Jin Lan frowned and listened, as if she understood.

"Your parents are partial, all the delicious food is for your brother, not for you?" Jin Lan asked me.

"Hmm......" I nodded.

"Do your parents also favor sons over daughters? I really don't know what's good about my son!" Jin Lan was angry and threw out another pebble.

It's still sinking to the bottom all of a sudden.

She stomped her foot angrily: "It's not fun!"

That was the first time in my life that I had heard the word "patriarchy."

Although "preference for sons" is a common phenomenon in rural areas.

It's even worse in my house.

But no one cares about such a thing as "patriarchy".

Everyone took it for granted.

As if the world was meant to be like this.

The boy is his own person, and he is passed on from generation to generation.

The girl is a foreigner and will have to leave home sooner or later.

The girl who marries out, spills the water.

It has nothing to do with my own home.

So what's wrong with favoring boys?

What's wrong with giving all the good food to the boys?

Giving you a bite to eat and not starving you to death is already considered to be benevolent and righteous.

Girls are not qualified to fight.

If you fight, you are not sensible.

Including me, although I am the one in the family who is not valued and despised.

But I don't think it's wrong.

I'm just wronged, why am I not a boy?

If I were a boy, I would be treated the same way as my brother.

"Patriarchy means that the son is a treasure and the daughter is the grass, which is not right! In fact, men and women are the same, and men and women should be equal! We girls cannot look down on ourselves, we are no worse than boys! Those patriarchal parents are not worthy of being human parents! Axi, don't cry, they don't like us now, and when they get old, we won't support them!"

Jin Lan told me very seriously.

It's a kid from the city.

It's more knowledgeable than us rural children.

It was also the first time in my life that I had heard the word "equality between men and women".

This word has had a greater impact on me than "patriarchy".

She woke me up.

Tell me that it wasn't my fault that I was born as a girl.

I'm not inferior.

My parents don't love me, it's not that I'm bad, it's their fault.

So I stopped crying.

Seeing that I don't cry anymore.

Jin Lan pulled out a piece of chocolate from his pocket.

"Here you go. ”

I hurriedly waved my hand no.

Because I haven't gotten anything good since I was a child.

So I'm not used to being given anything at all.

"If you give it to you, you can take it, I have a lot of more here. "Jin Lan stuffed me with a handful of them.

"Don't do it, you give it to me, your uncle and aunt will be unhappy. "Again, I excuse myself.

At least that's how it is in my house.

My mom and dad are stingy.

Don't let me give things to others.

Not even a sip of water.

My family used to grow watermelons before.

On dog days, in the weather of more than 40 degrees, I, a little girl less than 10 years old, was watching melons in the melon shed.

Originally, I was asked to come with my brother.

But my brother stayed for a while and ran away.

He can run, I don't dare.

Because my brother ran away, I was scolded at most when I went home.

But I ran.

When I went back, I was beaten and denied food.

And my father specially told me that this melon should be sold for money.

You are not allowed to eat it yourself.

If it's thirsty. Go and drink water from the well.

So even though I'm hot, I still don't dare to take a bite of my own melon.

But then, a passerby passed by.

He said he drove to the countryside to run errands.

The car broke down on the road.

I waited for rescue for a long time.

Say you're thirsty.

He didn't have a wallet with him.

Can I give him a melon to eat?

I saw that his lips were dry, so I gave him a melon.

Very small.

But my father found out about it.

He slapped me four times.

Scolding me for being a loser.

Didn't let me eat for a day.

Later, my father rode a tricycle to sell melons in the county.

I followed and collected the money in the back.

As soon as he arrived in the county, the tricycle was confiscated by the staff of the relevant department.

Said that itinerant vendors like us are not allowed to do business in the county.

Affect the cityscape.

The father was domineering at home.

But outside, it's very cowardly.

I didn't dare to argue, I didn't dare to ask for anything, so I could only squat on the ground and smoke.

And at this time.

The man I once gave melons appeared.

It turns out that he is actually the little leader of these people?

Seeing that it was me, he asked his subordinates to put the tricycle and melons away.

He also gave me 20 yuan of melon money.

And told his subordinates to arrange a place in the market for my father, so that our family could sell melons.

On that day, my father earned a lot of money.

At noon, I happily drank a little wine and asked for sauced beef.

But he didn't praise me at all.

As if it weren't my credit.

Not to mention apologies.

Said he hit me wrong.

Because in the father's view, whether it is right or wrong, children can be beaten and scolded at will.

By the way, how's that?

What if it's wrong?

Hit is hit.

Even rightly or wrongly, there is no need for a reason.

Because there is also a saying that when it rains, you hit a child, and you are idle.

Listening to my words, Jin Lan seemed very unimpressed.

"It's okay, they don't care about me, they don't care if I give others snacks, if they don't have any, they will naturally buy them for me. ”

"Your uncle and aunt are so kind to you!" I sighed again.

"Okay, I'm not unusual!" Jin Lan kicked a pebble at his feet.

"You ......"

I want to say, Jinlan, you don't know what to do.

If I had an uncle and aunt who was so good to me.

I'm sure I'm smiling from ear to ear every day.

But I don't have such uncles and aunts.

That's a luxury.

"What? Ahi, do you think I shouldn't do this to them? I'll tell you a secret that you can't tell anyone. Jin Lan said to me.

"What's the secret? But I'm not going to tell anyone!" I said formally.

At the same time, I was still a little moved in my heart.

A person's willingness to tell you the secret represents a kind of trust in you.

"They're not my uncles and aunts, they're my mom and dad!

Jin Lan told me an earth-shattering secret.

At that time, I was so young, and I was stunned.

"Why do you call your mom and dad uncles and aunts?" I asked.

"Because they dislike me for being a girl, they want a younger brother!"

Jin Lan said hatefully.

It has been said that girls are generally precocious.

And Jin Lan is also exceptionally precocious among girls.

I didn't understand a lot of what she said at the time, but I thought it made sense.

Jin Lan told me.

Their house is from the city.

In the city, it also belongs to the very rich kind.

Because his dad is the leader.

Her mother is also a cadre of a state-owned enterprise.

So since she was a child, Jin Lan has had no worries about food and clothing.

But she wasn't happy at all.

Because her parents want a son.

I didn't give birth to a son, which is a pity.

Of course, they didn't abuse Jin Lan, they didn't treat Jin Lan harshly, and they were still very good to Jin Lan.

Materially not stingy at all.

But they didn't allow Jin Lan to call their parents in front of outsiders.

Because they have to have another one.

According to the family planning policy at that time, only one child could be born in a family.

If someone is overborn.

It's a serious problem.

Not only do you have to pay a fine, but you also have to lose your job.

So in order to have a son and keep their job, Jin Lan's parents lied to the outside world that Jin Lan was the child of her brother's family.

They did have an older brother who went abroad.

That's the best excuse.

This time they came to live in the countryside, in fact, they came to give birth to a son.

Choose to be in the country, not in the city.

It's because the countryside is quiet and doesn't attract attention.

What kind of relatives of the village chief's family are also deceitful.

They just gave the village chief a favor and let the village chief help cover it up.

When their sons are born, they will return to the city.

Have you seen that sketch "Superborn Guerrilla"?

My parents are fighting guerrillas everywhere for the sake of superbirth.

Jin Lan's parents plan well.

But Jin Lan was very unhappy.

Although she is not short of food and clothing, she feels uncomfortable in her heart.

She said to me that she hated.

Hates his parents, why do you have her and a boy?

I hate my brother who has not yet been born, why do I lose the right to call my parents because of you?

Jin Lan also said that after her younger brother is born, then her parents will definitely not care about her anymore.

Anything delicious will not be given to you anymore.

At home, she became a superfluous person.

Because of this secret that Jin Lan told me.

So Jin Lan and I quickly got closer.

At this moment, we don't have the difference between a little princess in the city and a girl in the countryside.

We are all the same.

They are all marginal people in the family.

Although Jin Lan was treated much better than me.

But at that moment, I understood.

For a child.

It's delicious, it's important.

It's delicious, it's important.

New clothes, very important.

Beautiful dolls, very important.

But none of this is as important as the love of parents.

If parents have love, even if there is no good food, good drink, new clothes, and beautiful dolls, they can live happily and warmly.

But if your parents don't love you with all their hearts.

Then even if you are the same as Jin Lan, you don't have to worry about food and clothing, you won't really be happy.

On the contrary, there is only resentment and hatred in your heart.

So, we became friends.

I told Jin Lan the skill of playing water drifting.

Pick a little flat stone, lower your body, throw it out horizontally, try to ensure that the flat side of the stone touches the water surface, rotate horizontally fast enough, the water splash can still bend, if the stone rolls vertically, it will basically not make a splash.

Jin Lan, on the other hand, generously shared her delicious food with me.

I didn't dare take it home.

Because it will be snatched away by my brother.

I hid out and ate it all.

Later, Jin Lan's mother, of course, in the eyes of outsiders, was Jin Lan's aunt who was pregnant.

Then, a boy was really born.

They set up a table in the village.

I invited a lot of people to congratulate him.

even invited the troupe to sing on stage, which was very lively.

When watching a play and eating, people come and go, making a lot of noise.

Jin Lan's "uncle" drank too much, and his face was red from drinking.

He also shouted "there is a back", "there is a back".

That night, Jin Lan ran to the mountains alone.

I went with her.

I didn't come home all night, no one came looking for me.

Jin Lan didn't come home all night, and no one went to look for her.

No one is looking for me, that's normal.

But before, Jin Lan came home a little late, and someone was looking for her.

Jin Lan was right, from the moment her brother was born, her fate was completely changed.

Later, the Jinlan family returned to the city.

At that time, we didn't have mobile phones.

So we lost touch.

But I also think of Jin Lan sometimes.

Especially when I saw on the news that the country had liberalized the two-child policy, and many of the eldest children in the family had great opinions, I would think of Jinlan even more.

I don't know how Jin Lan is doing at home.

She doesn't get along well with her brother.

Some time ago, when Li Pingping told me that Niuniu was actually not her sister, but her daughter, and she could only call her sister in front of outsiders, I also remembered Jinlan.

But Niu Niu is different from Jin Lan.

Niuniu can't call her mother a mother, she can only call her sister.

It's because her mom loves her.

And Jin Lan can't call her mother a mother, she can only call her aunt.

It's because of her mother's selfishness.

......

Jin Lan's parents, in order to give birth to a boy, did not let their daughter call her parents, and went to the countryside to give birth.

In fact, the same thing happens in the countryside.

Even more cruel.

Later, rural areas also began to attach importance to family planning.

And I was only able to be born because my brother was 12 years older than me.

And in our country, family planning is not so strictly enforced.

Because it's so remote.

The mountain is high and the emperor is far away.

But later, the family planning policy became more and more stringent.

Rural people do not have formal jobs, and even if they give birth, they will not be fired.

But there are naturally rural solutions in rural areas.

That is, whoever has a superbirth, the family planning cadres will bring people to the door.

Move things.

Pickpocketing the house.

Take your pigs and cows away.

Let your house be surrounded by walls.

It's the same as the forced demolition that followed.

And even more.

This is the background of the sketch "Superborn Guerrilla".

In fact, many things are more absurd than the sketches.

For example, we know that there is a village more than 30 miles away from our village.

There is such a family.

began to give birth to a girl and named it "Zhaodi".

What that means, it is self-explanatory.

The next year, another daughter was born, named "Zaizhao".

In the third year, she still gave birth to a daughter, and she was named "Returning Recruitment".

In the fourth year, they still gave birth to a daughter, and they had to admit defeat.

Because there is nothing left in the house that can be taken away as a fine.

I had to give up the idea of having a son.

I had no choice but to name my youngest daughter "Trick".

In fact, things have been beautified in the sketch.

And when I was a child, I also saw many times with my own eyes that the head of the household was holding a kitchen knife and fighting with the family planning cadres who came to the door.

Later, the policy in the countryside changed.

It became a little looser.

At that time, the policy of the village was that if the first child was a boy, then the second child could not be born.

But if the first child is a girl, you can have another one.

But the fine still has to be paid.

So many people are really bankrupt in order to have a son.

Before I dropped out of school, there was a female teacher in our school.

The female teacher was a graduate of the Teachers' College, wore glasses and was very knowledgeable.

So I once asked this teacher.

Why is it that if the first child is a girl, you can have another one?

Isn't there more and more boys, fewer and fewer girls, and more singles?

Wouldn't it be troublesome for these people to find a daughter-in-law?

The reason why I paid attention to the imbalance between men and women at such a young age was that there were a lot of singles.

It's not that I was well-informed.

It has been predicted that there will be 30 million singles in the future.

It's because of my brother.

Because at that time, my brother yelled for a woman like a male dog in heat all day long.

No woman began to beat her father and scold her mother, and threw things, as if she was crazy.

Every time, he tossed enough, and I had to clean up the mess.

At that time, I really hoped that my brother would find a woman quickly.

That way, you don't have to watch him mess around all day.

It's just that at that time, I didn't expect that the woman my brother was looking for would actually be exchanged for me.