Later, when my grandmother talked about the poisoning of my uncle, she always blamed herself very much, and often said: "Hey, they all blame me, if you leave Si'er at home that day and let Erya and Sanya watch it, there will be no such thing, you shouldn't take him to the field, let Si'er suffer such a big crime and suffer such a big grievance." Si'er will shout the word "mother" in this life, but this word is in my head and I have heard him shout for a lifetime! Si'er's cry has also sounded in my ears for a lifetime! The cry that broke the sky is Si'er is crying out for grievances!"

After saying that, he burst into tears and sobbed.

Grandpa heard it next to him and said, "Can you be blamed for this incident? Aren't the first three brought up like this? Besides, you didn't carry Si'er a few days before the accident? Don't always take out the past and chatter, if something happens, let's just carry it." ”

Grandma stopped talking, knowing that her strong grandfather was under no less pressure than she was.

It has been more than ten days since the uncle returned home, and when the father and the two aunts came back from the neighbor's house and saw that the younger brother who had been amused by them had become this stupid look, shouting and ignoring them, and not looking at them, the two aunts were frightened and cried, and the father dared to ask the grandmother, "Mother, why did the fourth child become like this?"

Grandma said while putting the uncle on the kang: "You all listen well, Si'er doesn't know anything, you can't see, hear, and can't speak, it's all caused by the poisonous mushrooms on the mountain, you have to be obedient in the future, don't eat the things picked on the mountain, your mother will take care of Si'er in the future, you can't take care of you, you have to do more work for your mother, and let your mother worry less." ”

The father and the second aunt nodded in agreement, and even the four-year-old third aunt nodded as if she didn't understand after seeing it.

The sudden addition of a severely disabled child in the family, and the repayment of foreign debts for medical treatment, undoubtedly made the situation worse for the family, which was not wealthy, and the difficulties of life can be imagined.

When the uncle first arrived home, he always lay quietly, except for being picked up by his grandmother after feeding and physiological excretion, he just stared at his eyes and lay down without blinking.

After lying down for a while, he gradually began to touch east and west, and then crawled around on the kang, and the third aunt watched from the side, afraid that he would fall off the kang.

When it was a little older, the third aunt pulled the uncle to walk back and forth on the kang, and the seven or eight square meters of the kang was the uncle's activity venue. The third aunt became the uncle's guardian and only playmate.

Uncle can't leave people around him all the time, grandma almost doesn't go out much, and the third aunt's shout can always be heard in the house, "Mother, the little four are" and "Mother, the little four pee".

When the uncle's teeth were almost long, his grandmother broke him from feeding, but it became a problem for him to eat.

At the beginning, the steamed bun was broken into small pieces for him, and the uncle didn't know how to put it in his mouth, so the grandmother broke the steamed bun and dipped it in the stir-fry soup and fed it a little bit, and then it was, like a hamburger, he sandwiched the vegetables in the steamed bun for him to eat, and he still needed to feed the porridge and eat noodles.

One day when the uncle was more than three years old, the grandmother cleaned up the physiological excrement of the uncle on the kang, washed her hands and said to the grandfather: "Dad, we can't let Si'er live on the kang for a lifetime, we have to let him live in the yard and live on the street." Grandpa listened and nodded solemnly silently.

In order to cultivate the uncle's perception of time, grandma broadcast on the radio every night at eight o'clock Beijing time, hugged the uncle and coaxed him to sleep, and gently woke him up when the rooster crowed three times in the morning, and then gently woke him up when the sky was bright, and then he peed and defecated, put on the kang after getting dressed, and then went to Zhang Luo for breakfast.

Over time, the uncle's schedule and physiological excretion have become very regular and accurate.

Uncle should be the first in the village to use the toilet, grandpa asked the village carpenter to make two small chairs with armrests, one chair dug a big hole under the seat and a wooden barrel under it for excretion, the barrel can be taken out from the back. One pressed a detachable wooden board in front of it to be used as a dining table, and it can usually be used as a chair for the uncle to come out to bask in the sun. I also found a jujube wood to make a crutch, and the length matched the uncle's height just right.

Grandma and the two aunts began to try little by little to help the uncle from the house to the yard, the uncle put on his shoes and did not dare to move, so the grandmother used her hands to help him move his steps, and finally the uncle was able to move out of the room step by step.

Grandma took great pains to teach the uncle to eat by himself and thought of an ingenious solution: When eating steamed buns, burgers and pancakes, touch the uncle's thumb with his hand, and the uncle will know that he will go to the table and touch the steamed buns and pancakes wrapped in vegetables to eat; when he drinks porridge, he will touch his index finger, and the uncle also knows that he will hold the cold bowl with both hands to drink; eating noodles is to touch the middle finger, and the uncle will touch the spoon with one hand and the other hand will pick up the bowl and slowly feed it to the mouth with a spoon, and the noodles are pinched into a very short time with a spoon in advance; eating dumplings is to touch the ring finger, or use a spoon. In this way, the problem of eating was solved under the repeated and tireless training of grandma.

Many of the uncle's life skills, such as wanting to urinate and touching the belly, wanting to poop and touching the buttocks, were slowly explored and taught by the grandmother in the life of serving the uncle.

The seemingly simple life skills, behind which are countless repetitions and patience and meticulousness, teach a disabled person like an uncle how much patience and energy it takes, and the hardships during the period are probably only known to the family members who have experienced it firsthand.

Later, there were often such scenes in the village: sometimes it was the grandmother, and more often the three and a half children took turns to lead the uncle in the village, and the villagers greeted the grandmother when they saw it, and the grandmother always said to the villagers optimistically: "In the future, when I see our four children coming, I will talk to him and say hello, maybe one day the four children will be able to hear it." ”

When the old and young in the village saw their families come out with their uncles, they didn't take the initiative to talk to healthy people, they all talked to their uncles, "Xiaosi came out to play?"

Although they can't hear polite responses, loyal and kind people want to express more sympathy and warm kindness for their uncle's suffering.

The uncle grew up tenaciously under the careful care of the whole family.