If something happens to me, will anyone be sad?

If it was when I first came to the provincial capital, then no one really cared about my life or death.

I was like a bubble that drowned in the crowd of people in the city, disappeared, and there would be no ripples.

But now, if something happens to me.

Sister Dan will be worried.

There are also Sister Shui, Yang Mei, Yang Jie, Xiaofen, Xiaofang...... These people will be worried about me, and they will all be sad and sad.

It turned out that I came to the provincial capital alone, and before I knew it, I already had so many friends.

So many ties.

Once, I thought it was good to live alone.

Although helpless, but unrestrained.

Like a lone wolf, you don't need to be responsible for anyone.

But now, with friends and concerns, I feel that this is actually quite good.

And Wen Shaonian!

I don't want to think of the name.

But it's a name I can't get around anyway.

Will he be sad?

Definitely!

The thought of him makes my heart ache.

Suddenly, I wanted to hear Wen Shaonian's voice.

No matter what you say.

Anything goes.

As long as it's his voice.

You don't even have to speak, as long as you can hear his breathing.

In fact, I often have such thoughts during this time.

But I was forced to press it down before.

Because I don't want to break the ring, I don't want to break the fence that I have built with great difficulty.

But tonight, when he was about to break off with her husband's beast, the thought of seeing Wen Shaonian couldn't be suppressed no matter what.

Usually, I am very proud of my self-control.

I have never been willful, and I know that I have no willful capital myself.

But at special times, like tonight, I want to indulge and be willful.

I took out my phone.

I found Wen Shaonian's name.

My fingers trembled, and I had already clicked on it several times, but a second before I made contact, I paused again.

In the end, I still have a shred of sanity.

At the same time, I didn't have the courage to make the call.

I said it so desperately at the beginning, what kind of face do I have now, and what qualifications do I have to find Wen Shaonian?

If Wen Shaonian asks me, don't you have that gentle and considerate Brother Cui?

Aren't you childhood sweethearts, two little guesses, working together for the future life?

What did you come to me for?

Are you splitting your legs?

I'm sorry, even if you Qiao Huan likes water-based Yanghua and is in the morning, but I, Wen Shaonian, am not the kind of man who has no principles.

How will I answer then?

I can't answer.

......

"Sister Dan, I'll go out tonight. "I called Zhu Dan.

"Okay, be careful. Zhu Dan didn't ask much, her tone was calm, and she was not affected by Guan Zhen, who was still making a lot of noise upstairs at this time.

I walked out of the neighborhood.

I went to the newsstand that I had made an appointment with my husband for the evening.

The newsstand is now unused.

Inside this newsstand, there is also a coin-operated public telephone.

But now that mobile phones are so popular, no one has used them for a long time.

It's all covered in dust.

I pulled a couple of coins out of my pocket and stuffed them in.

When I started dialing that, I didn't have to go through the address book to memorize the number backwards.

"Toot toot. ”

A few busy sounds.

A man's voice rang out over there.

"Hey, who?"

I don't know if it's because of the aging of the line, but the voice is a little low and hoarse.

But I can still hear that this is Wen Shaonian's voice.

I didn't say anything.

Don't even dare to breathe loudly.

"Hello?"

Wen Shaonian asked again over there.

"Wen Shaonian, let's go to the study room together. "Someone over there is shouting Wen Shaonian.

"You go first. Wen Shaonian said over there.

Then he spoke into the microphone again.

"Hey, are you happy?"

I hung up the phone and sat down on the floor of the phone booth with tears streaming down my face.

......

There are still 3 hours until 9 o'clock.

I showed up at Wen Shaonian's university.

I know that Wen Shaonian is still a college student, and I also know the name of his school.

But this is my first time here.

The university is really big.

There are several doors alone.

I was walking around the university surrounded by young men and women.

Some of them are holding books in their hands, some are holding basketballs, and some are holding badminton rackets, full of youthful vitality.

The playground was full of laughter and laughter, and there were couples snuggling up to each other walking on the path.

Actually, they are all peers like me.

But I and them are really people of two worlds.

Looking at their smiling faces, I have the feeling that I am not yet 20 years old.

......

Before I came, I really didn't expect the university to be so big.

It's like a small society.

There are so many buildings.

It's almost lost in it.

I don't know where Wen Shaonian is now.

I don't know where he will go to self-study.

So I had to walk aimlessly.

Walking through a meadow and across a small lake, on a bench by the lake, a couple is entangled in selflessness.

I don't care if I'm being watched or not.

I took one more look, and my heart was full of envy.

But I still quickened my pace, not wanting to be a light bulb that spoiled the atmosphere.

Front. A school building appeared.

I see a lot of students coming in and out.

So I followed the crowd in, and then found a random lecture hall and walked in.

I sat in the last row.

Is this fate?

I saw Wen Shaonian at a glance.

It's just a back, but I'm never mistaken.

He sat in the left-hand corner of the front.

He lowered his head and was looking at a book.

I seemed to see that he still had headphones plugged in his ears.

There were about seven or eight rows between us, and I just looked straight at him.

It stands to reason that my performance should be unusual and noticeable.

But in this large lecture hall, I didn't stand out at all.

Because like me, there are really a lot of girls who are staring directly at Wen Shaonian.

They are colorful, they are showy.

They all made no secret of their appreciation and admiration for Wen Shaonian.

I even suspect that half of the girls in this lecture hall may be for Wen Shao.

From that Chen Dan, I can see that Wen Shaonian should be very popular in college.

But I still didn't expect it to be so popular.

It's no wonder that he is handsome, gentle and polite, and rich in the family.

What girl wouldn't love a man like that?

What woman would push such a prince charming out?

Maybe it's just a fool like me.

......

"That's Wen Shaonian, it's really handsome. ”

"I heard that he is the second son of the Wen family, and the family has money. ”

"I love this perfect side face!"

"I heard that I don't have any bad habits, I don't pick up girls, I don't drag race, I don't drink, it's just a perfect specimen of a high-quality boyfriend!"

"The most important thing is that I heard that I am still single!

"Didn't you hear that you have a girlfriend? It seems to be a person named Chen Dan. ”

"Phew! That's the woman putting gold on her face! Wen Shaonian didn't admit it at all, okay?"

There were two girls in front of me, chattering.

I'm listening in the back.

There is a feeling of pride and honor in my heart.

Although it doesn't really have anything to do with me.

There are not only those who say it, but also those who put it into action.

I saw another girl walk in from outside the classroom.

Dress up like a princess from a fairy tale.

Her hair is long, with two thick braids on the left and right, much like the cartoon Sailor Moon I watched before.

Her eyes are large and painted with blue eyeshadow.

Her lips were red and delicate.

She was wearing a very tight, low-cut shirt, which was bulging in the chest.

I couldn't help but glance at my chest and sigh.

She wore a very short skirt, just over her ass.

Underneath are white over-the-knee stockings.

In short, this is a very amazing and attention-grabbing girl.

Her entry immediately attracted the attention of many people.

Many of the boys in the classroom had straight eyes.

But this girl walked straight towards Wen Shaonian.

In a delicate, very loud voice, he said, "Senior, can I sit here?"

It turned out that this Sailor Moon was aimed at Wen Shaonian again.

The boys all looked disappointed.

And many girls are staring at that Sailor Moon with the same eyes as their rivals.

The two girls who had been chattering in front of me before were also muttering at this time.

"Hmph! Another bewitching slut! Wen Shaonian won't be fooled!"

"But her breasts are so big, and her legs are so long, any man would like them? ”

"How can those pig brothers compare with Wen Shaonian, it is not a grade at all. ”

"No, I want breast augmentation. ”

I was inexplicably nervous.

Although Wen Shaonian and I have broken up.

No, it's too much of an exaggeration to say that you broke up.

We've never been together at all, so where did we break up?

It should be said that Wen Shaonian and I are no longer in contact, or I took the initiative to propose it, so now Wen Shaonian has nothing to do with me no matter who he is with or which girl he is close to.

I have no right to intervene.

There is no qualification to be jealous.

You're not even an ex-girlfriend, so what right do you have to be jealous?

But women are like this, the truth is one thing, and the mood is another.

I just don't want to see it now, Wen Shaonian promised that Sailor Moon to sit next to him.

I couldn't sit in that seat, but I didn't want anyone else to sit in it.

That's how selfish women are.

It's so unreasonable.

I watched Wen Shaonian's reaction, and silently thought in my heart, refusal, refusal!

I can know Wen Shaonian, this is a man who is too polite and even a little stupid, he shouldn't let other girls get off the stage too much, right?

Even if you don't like it?

It's like what I did to Chen Dan before.

Blindly forbearance.

So even if he, Sailor Moon, isn't interested, he'll let her sit down, right?

It's okay, it's okay!

Even if she was to sit down, it didn't mean anything.

My mind was tossed and turned, and it was a mess.

But although there are so many thoughts in my heart, in reality, it is only a few seconds.

After the Sailor Moon finished speaking, he was waiting for Wen Shaonian's answer.

And she deliberately leaned down.

It's a low-cut outfit, it's tight.

Now it's just about to come out.

I'm up there, condescendingly, and I can see the ditch!

"Shameless!"

This time, it was several girls who said it together.

Including me.

Wen Shaonian took off his headphones, and he looked up at the Sailor Moon.

"I'm sorry, there's already someone here. ”

Then he lowered his head again and continued to read.

Hung that Sailor Moon there.

Inside the lecture hall, there was a lot of laughter.

Including me, he smiled unkindly.

Wen Shaonian, I like your incomprehensible style!

That Sailor Moon had a little red circles under his eyes.

She stood there, aggrieved, wanting to say something more, but she didn't know what to say.

The stalemate was there.

"Beauty, sit here with me!" a boy next to him greeted warmly.

But this time, it can be regarded as a hornet's nest.

This Sailor Moon is not good at Wen Shaonian, but he has no good face at all for that boy.

She stomped her foot hard: "Who is going to sit there with you!

Then he looked at Wen Shaonian and said loudly: "Wen Shaonian, I must pay attention to me!"

As he spoke, he ran away crying.

I suddenly felt a little unbearable.

I feel that my previous schadenfreude is too villainous.

This Sailor Moon didn't do anything wrong either.

Wen Shaonian is single now, and everyone has the right to pursue him.

Not only should I not laugh at her, but I should admire her courage and audacity.

admires her attitude of being indomitable and not caring about the eyes of the people around her in order to pursue love.

At least stronger than me, braver than me.

She dared to stand in front of people and confess boldly.

But I could only hide in the corner like a thief.

Although there are thousands of troops and turbulent waves in my heart, in reality, I dare not take a step beyond the thunder pool.

......

I thought that what Wen Shaonian said that there was someone next to him was a perfunctory sentence.

I also praise in my heart, this wood will be smooth now?

But I really didn't expect it to be true.

A few minutes later, a girl came again.

This girl has a completely different style from the previous Sailor Moon.

Short hair, which looks neat and neat.

Glasses, which look very bookish.

There is no heavy makeup, no fancy dresses, no sexy, just Sven, but it makes people look comfortable.

This looks like a girl with excellent character and learning.

The bookish girl walked to Wen Shaonian's table, and did not ask out loud, but naturally sat down.

Then he opened the bag he was carrying and took out a lot of books from it.

And Wen Shaonian also took off his headphones and whispered something to the bookish girl.

The two of them are very familiar friends at first glance.

Then, the two of them began to read the same book again.

I wrote and drew with a pen on that book, and I didn't know what I was talking about.

Yes, how could Wen Shaonian like such a hot beautiful girl before?

With his character, he should like such a bookish girl.

Only such a girl is worthy of Wen Shaonian.

Looking at her appearance, she must have a good family background.

Better than me.

Better than me.

More literate than me.

Cleaner than my background.

Cleaner than my family background.

More suitable than me for Wen Shao'an.

She and Wen Shaonian are together, a prince and a princess.

And I'm just a Cinderella who can't see the light.

I sat there, clutching my palms tightly with my fingernails.

It hurts me so much.

Jealous!

I'm really jealous!

Before, I thought it was a very inexplicable thing to be jealous.

It is a very stupid thing for a woman to be jealous of a man.

There is no such thing as a man, whether there is such a thing as the same.

A man is such a thing, if you like him and he is still having an affair with other girls, then you should not hesitate to dump him.

There can be no nostalgia or reluctance.

Otherwise, it's too cheap.

But now, looking at Wen Shaonian's relationship with that bookish girl, I can't be as calm, so chic, and so decisive as I once imagined.

I feel very aggrieved.

I really want to ask Wen Shaonian, what is the relationship between you and her?

Didn't you say you liked me?

Have you forgotten me?

Or do you like me at the same time that you also like other women!

You scumbag!

I'd love to tell that bookish girl, please leave, you're sitting in my place!

What is jealousy?

It's your heart, as if it's being scratched by many hands.

It's your eyes, and it's inseparable from him at all.

It's your ears that can't wait to be around them and hear their every word.

It's you who want to break into their world, only to find out that you are superfluous and have no place at all.

It's you who is sad and crying, and the person concerned doesn't know what's going on.

It's you who want him to see your unhappiness and your mind, but he never looks at you more.

It's you who think you've been let down, but everyone thinks you're inexplicable.

It is you who feel that you are wronged, but you are not qualified to stand up and tell your grievances.

It's because you love very hard, but you can't make the decision.

It's that you love very tired, and you can only be haggard alone.

Only you know your sadness.

Your loneliness is only accompanied by yourself.

In your heart, he is the whole world.

And for him, you are the same as strangers.

It is you who begin to become humble, to become suspicious, to suffer from gains and losses, to toss and turn.

Becoming less like yourself.

I became self-hating.

You can only blbut and say insincere cruel words, but as long as the other party gives you a look and a smile, you will immediately fall apart and collapse!

It turns out that this is love!

I pulled out my headphones, I turned on my phone, and I clicked on that song.

I've listened to it these days, and I've heard it many times, and I can already sing it.

Karen Mok, "Love"

If it weren't for loving you

How can you not be sleepy in the middle of the night?

Every thought is about you

I miss you

Miss you

I miss you so much

If it weren't for loving you

How can there be uneasy emotions

Every inexplicable day I miss you

Miss you

I miss you so much

Love is something that torments people

But he was reluctant to give up like this

Keep speculating about your psyche if you have my name

If it weren't for loving you

How can you sigh inadvertently

There is a feeling of incompleteness

Love you

Love you

Love you

Love is something that torments people

But he was reluctant to give up like this

Keep speculating about your psyche if you have my name

Love is my only secret

Heartbreaking yet fascinating

No matter what the words are used

Only

I will only miss you

If it weren't for loving you

How can you sigh inadvertently

There is a feeling of incompleteness

Love you

Love you