This is where the story of Jin Ranh is told.

She cried again.

In front of me, I cried.

Jin Lan wiped away a handful of tears and said to me, "Ah Xi, do you think I'm bad? I deserved to be deceived later, because I am a liar myself." ”

What can I say?

What Jin Lan did was of course wrong.

Either way, it is wrong to deceive a person's feelings.

Even more harmful to the other person than to cheat one person out of their money.

But she was really forced to do that again.

She also wants to repay the favor.

It turns out that in this world, black and white are not always so distinct.

It turns out that it's not just the good guys and the bad guys.

There's also a lot of gray area.

And people are so complicated.

Jin Lan continued.

Later, she returned to her stepfather's house.

Jin Lan concealed her cheating marriage, and only said that the usury matter was solved.

The other party saw that there was really no oil and water here, and he was worried that the matter would be big and fatal, so he stopped pestering.

Then Jin Lan said, let the father-in-law take care of his illness.

In the future, my younger brother will be responsible for going to school.

Then, Jin Lan came out to work again.

Her words count.

is not just sending money to his father-in-law's family on time for his godbrother to study.

I started saving money.

Save the bride price money that was cheated away from Yu's family.

She wants to return it to the Yu family.

That's why she's so eager to make money.

So when her parents approached her and said that the house could be divided, she was really happy.

Not only did he feel that his relationship with his biological parents had eased, but he even thought that he could exchange his part of his property for money and return it to the Yu family as soon as possible.

That's why she was brainwashed by the Chuanxiao organization.

That's why now, she wants to be a seafarer.

Not afraid of hard work.

Just want to make more money.

"Jin Lan, do you think that if you return the money to the Yu family, your heart will feel better?" I asked.

Jin Lan shook her head: "No, I still feel guilty. But that's the only thing I do. ”

"You're wrong, it's not the only thing you can do!"

I denied what Jin Lan said.

"Because what you owe to Lao Yu's family is a daughter-in-law. ”

"But I can't pay it back. Jin Lan smiled bitterly.

"If I'm not mistaken, you're already in love with him, aren't you? I asked, staring into Jin Lan's eyes.

Jin Lan's eyes flickered.

"Ah, what are you talking about? I don't understand. ”

She didn't answer my questions directly.

But it's also an attitude.

"What I say, you know it very well in your own heart. People can deceive others, but they can't deceive themselves. Jin Lan, you yourself understand that even if you give the Yu family those dowry gifts that were cheated away, you will still have a disturbed conscience, because what you feel most guilty about is that you deceived Yu Tongli's feelings and betrayed the kindness of the Yu family's parents to you. Then unless you give yourself back to them, you will never be free. And from the look in your eyes when you mentioned Yu Tongli just now, I can see that you really have feelings for that man. ”

Jin Lan was silent.

Then nodded.

She whispered, "Yes, Axi, you're right. I did fall in love with that man. At first, I was scared and guilty of that man. After getting along slowly, I found that the other person was really nice and good to me, and his face was not terrible. Then, on the day of the East Window incident, when he shouted and told me to go, I found that I was really in love with him, I didn't want to leave anymore, I really wanted to be his daughter-in-law. After being out for so many years, suffering so much outside, and suffering so many sins, in fact, I am also tired and want to have someone to rely on. Later, when I was outside, I often thought of him, remembered his appearance, and I found that in my heart, he was not only not ugly at all, but also very cute. ”

"Then why did you leave in the first place, why didn't you make it clear and stay?" I asked Jinlan.

"How did I stay back then? Everybody was scolding me, hating me, and they wouldn't believe me anything. Besides, how can I say I want to stay? I don't have the face to ask for that!"

Jin Lan said with a wry smile.

She's right.

Think about it, at that time, everyone was scolding Jin Lan with their teeth.

It is said that this is a female liar who should be cut with a thousand cuts.

What can Jin Lan say?

Say I'm not leaving?

I'm going to stay?

I want to live a good life with Yu Tongli?

Trust me.

Give me a chance to change my mind.

Because although I came to cheat on the marriage at first, now, I already have feelings for it.

No one will believe it.

I will only think that this female liar has ulterior motives.

A mouth full of nonsense.

I still want to continue to pit people.

"Besides, he didn't keep me. Jin Lan said faintly.

"If he had called out to me and said don't go, I probably wouldn't have left. ”

When Jin Lan said this, her eyes turned red again.

I sighed too.

"Let's go. ”

Jin Lan looked up with teary eyes: "Where are you going?"

I said, "Of course I'm going to find your man." ”

Jin Lan hurriedly shook her head: "No, I'm not going." ”

"Don't you want him, don't you want to be with him, don't love him?" I asked.

Jin Lan lowered her head: "It's because I love him that I don't dare to see him, I don't have a face." ”

I encouraged her: "Jin Lan, as long as you can get true love, what is self-esteem, and what is shame?"

I'm telling the truth, and I'm feeling it.

Because I myself have love and I can't get it.

So I really hope that the people around me can have lovers and eventually become married.

Don't repeat the mistake of falling in love but having to separate.

Really, just love each other.

What is self-esteem?

What is face?

It's nothing.

It's all surmountable.

Unlike me, the reason why I can't be with Wen Shaonian has nothing to do with self-esteem or face.

It's that I can't let anyone hurt him.

So I had to leave him.

"Axi, I don't care about my self-esteem and face!"

Jin Lan became excited: "But I think he definitely won't want to see me now! Maybe he used to like me, but after knowing that I was a shameful liar, he must have hated me to death...... Besides, he's probably married now, so I don't want to be bored and humiliated. ”

Jin Lan's reaction proves that she likes Tongli in her heart.

That's why we look ahead and look backward.

Timid.

Hesitatingly.

Suffer from gains and losses.

She is not afraid of being scolded, or even slapped hard by Yu Tongli.

I'm afraid to see Yu Tongli's indifference.

Everyone's well water does not interfere with river water.

It's better never to see you again.

Never in contact with each other.

I'm even more afraid to see that Yu Tongli already has another love.

"It's useless for you to just think about these things here, no matter what, you have to go and see them. Either break the mirror and reunite, or completely die. ”

I said to Jin Lan.

Jin Lan thought about it again.

Rise.

There was already a determined look in his eyes.

"Yes, Huanxi, you're right, we'll meet sooner or later, thank you for your willingness to go with me. ”

I laughed: "Yes, because we are friends." ”

Jin Lan also smiled: "Yes, because we are friends." ”

......

Yu Tongli's home lies in the town.

Naturally, there are many people with the surname Yu in the town.

The town is not large, with two north-south main streets and four or five east-west roads, which constitute the main architectural pattern of the town.

Although on the way to come.

Jin Lan looked mentally prepared.

But as she got closer to Yu's home, she became more and more nervous.

Growing panicked.

Helpless.

I held her hand and saw that her hands were sweaty.

"Are you really not going to knock?"

I asked Jin Lan.

Yu's house is a bungalow with a single courtyard.

Not luxurious, but very clean and tidy.

She and I have been standing in front of Yu's house for an hour.

But Jin Lan still didn't have the courage to step forward and knock on the door.

I watched the sun set.

Smoke rose from every house.

Can you knock on this door tonight?

"Okay, I'll knock on the door!"

Jin Lan let out a sigh of relief, and then walked to the door of the small courtyard step by step.

"Knock knock......" she knocked softly on the courtyard door.

No one inside came out to open the door.

Of course no one will come out.

Not to mention that the people in the house can't hear the knock on the door.

I was standing behind Jin Ranh and I could barely hear it.

The sound was the same as that of a mosquito.

"Would you like to be louder?" I said angrily.

Jin Lan then began to knock loudly on the door.

"Knock knock. ”

"Knock knock. ”

Still no one opened the door.

"Looks like there's no one at home, let's come back next time. Jin Lan looked at it and let out a sigh of relief.

"Jin Lan, since we are here, you can't hide. ”

I walked up to the door and started knocking.

I knocked on the door loud.

But no one inside opened the door.

It turned out that he was really not at home.

"Axi, let's go, what do you want to eat at night? Jin Lan looked very happy.

"What do you eat? ”

I deliberately kept my face black.

Then the two of us had just walked when we saw a young woman coming up on a bicycle.

The woman parked in front of her house and took out her key to open the door.

At first glance, it is the people of this family.

Seeing the woman enter the door, Jin Lan, who had a smile on her face, froze suddenly.

"Do you know that woman?" I asked, looking at Jin Lan's expression.

"I don't know, there are only three people in their family. Jin Lan whispered.

I understood when she said that.

The Yu family originally consisted of only three people.

Yu Tongli and his parents.

Now there is one more young woman.

Then her identity is about to come out.

It must be Yu Tongli's wife.

No wonder Jin Lan's mood was so low.

She must have had great expectations for her coming this time.

I hope to be reunited with Yu Tongli.

What I see now is Yu Tongli's wife.

What mood is certainly understandable.

This may be more uncomfortable for Jin Lan than when she saw Yu Tongli himself and heard him say a few cold words.

I suddenly felt a little guilty, too.

Do you think I'm too arbitrary?

Why force Jin Lan to come here.

If you don't come to meet, you can still have fantasies.

You can also lie to yourself.

Now here, everything is faced.

There is no longer a reason to deceive yourself.

"I'm sorry, Jin Lan. I said seriously.

"Ahi, what are you talking about? How can I blame you? This is all my own sin. Actually, I've wanted to come back many times before, but I don't dare. Thanks to you coming with me this time, I was relieved to let me know that he was doing well. ”

Jin Lan said this, squeezing a smile on her face.

"So I should be happy now, shouldn't I? I saw that woman, very gentle, very beautiful, better than me!"

She was laughing, but I knew her heart was bleeding.

"So we're going to eat good food, and we're going to celebrate! I'm going to work hard to earn money and pay back those dowries, but I'm never going to bother him again! If I let them discord with each other, I won't be able to atone for my sins." Hey, do you listen to what I say? People have forgotten me for a long time, so why should they quarrel because of me? I think too highly of myself. Rejoice, go, let's go, we must celebrate tonight!"

Jin Lan pretended to be heroic.

Then he took the lead and led me into a dumpling restaurant on the side of the road.

......

We ordered four plates of dumplings.

"Jin Lan, if you feel uncomfortable in your heart, you will cry?"

Looking at Jin Lan's forced smile, I sighed.

"Axi, what do you say? I don't feel bad in my heart, I'm still very happy. This time it didn't come in vain, but it was a matter of mine. I'm sorry, there's nothing delicious in this town, I can only invite you to eat dumplings, this meal is what I owe you, go back and invite you to a big meal, but the craftsmanship of this dumpling restaurant is good, he took me to eat once, and I remember the taste now......"

Speaking of which, Jin Lan stopped talking.

Because he mentioned a person who shouldn't be mentioned.

There was an awkward silence.

"Okay, Huanxi, you try this, the three fresh fillings, I like to eat it the most. Jin Lan stuffed a dumpling into my plate.

I took a bite: "Jin Lan, this is a leek filling, not a three-fresh filling." ”

Jin Lan was silent.

She's certainly been acting.

In duplicity.

In fact, her heart hurts.

But she held on and didn't show it.

So she didn't even know what she was eating.

"Haha, I'm kidding you, my favorite thing to eat is dumplings stuffed with leeks. ”

After speaking, Jin Lan began to stuff dumplings into her mouth one by one.

The last one hasn't had time to chew yet.

The next one has already been stuffed in.

Eat fiercely.

It's very uneating.

It's like I've never had a full meal in three lifetimes.

It's like a starving ghost reincarnated.

We were eating.

Two more guests came in from outside.

The boss hurriedly went over to greet him: "What do you want to eat?"

"What's the specialty?" the guest asked.

"We are a dumpling restaurant, dumplings are a must, three fresh fillings, pork and green onion filling, celery meat filling, cabbage filling are very good. "Introduced by the owner.

The guest looked inside.

I just saw Jin Lan gobbling it up.

So he smiled and said, "Well, it should be good, look at that girl's food, it's so delicious!"

He just finished speaking.

When I saw Jin Lan, I suddenly spit out a mouthful of "wow".

The two guests were taken aback.

"Why are you still vomiting? Is this food poisoning? Let's change the house." ”

So no matter how the boss greets him, he flashes people.

The owner of the dumpling restaurant was so angry that his nose was crooked.

He ran over and looked at the two of us.

"Two girls, what do you mean? Sincerely make trouble? I've been open for more than ten years, and it's the first time I've seen someone eat and vomit!

I hurriedly apologized to my boss.

"I'm sorry, my sister is feeling a little unwell and has caused you trouble. Don't worry, I'll pack it up. ”

I dragged Jin Lan out of the dumpling restaurant.

There is a small supermarket on the side of the road.

There is a bench in front of the supermarket.

I went into the supermarket and bought a bottle of water for Jinran.

Let Jin Lan sit on the bench and wait for me.

"Rinse your mouth, drink some water, I'll clean up, my aunt!"

I reluctantly returned to that dumpling restaurant.

I borrowed tools from the boss to clean the ground where Jin Lan Tu.

This boss is also a good person, and he also came to help.

While working, he asked me, "What's wrong with your sister?"

I sighed, "Hey, out of love." ”

The boss nodded understandingly.

"The young man can understand, okay, you don't do it, go out and take care of your sister. ”

I thanked him.

When I went out and found Jin Lan again.

I found the bottle of water I bought.

Jin Lan was holding a small bottle of liquor in her hand.

Already halfway drunk.

At this time, the face was red.

Is this not drinking water, but drinking instead?

Terrified?

I wanted to scold her.

Because I know that Jin Lan doesn't drink.

I hadn't drunk a sip before.

But when the words came to my lips, I swallowed them again.

Let her drink it.

Although alcoholism is not a good habit.

Although it is self-deception to drink away from sorrows.

Because the water is more flowing because the knife is drawn, the water is more flowing, and the glass is more sorrowful.

You count on getting drunk to get away with the troubles.

After sobering up, the problems that should be faced still need to be faced.

But many times, when people are too painful in their hearts, if they are sober, they will be doubly painful.

It is also a relief to be able to anesthetize yourself with alcohol and forget the pain for a while.

It's like me, when I just broke up with Wen Shaonian.

I was also in pain.

I want to get drunk too.

But my amount of alcohol is so good that I can't get drunk no matter how much I drink, but I am more and more awake, and I can't sleep at night.

It's a maddening feeling.

Of course, if I really get drunk as soon as I get drunk, I don't dare to drink.

A woman, alone.

She didn't have the right to get drunk at all.

It is important to be awake at all times.

So now, since Jin Lan is in such pain, and I am watching by my side.

Just let her be willful.

I've made up my mind.

After leaving here, he took Cam Ranh to the provincial capital.

Let her start a new life.

Although it is impossible for her to forget that man.

But also learn to forget.

......

Jin Lan was drunk.

I found out that what she bought was actually 60 degrees old white dry.

She's there!

I carried Jin Lan and looked for a hotel where I could rest on the way.

Jin Lan blushed.

Slurred speech.

"Ahi?"

"Hello!"

"I ...... My heart hurts!"

"Ah...... Hi, I'm so uncomfortable!"

"Ahi, you know...... You know...... I...... I've been lacking love since I was a child...... I...... I've been lacking love since I was a child...... For...... Why did he marry another woman?"

"That woman just now has ...... Does it look good with me?"

"For ...... Why don't you go find me?"

"You say he'...... Does he hate me?"

He ...... Doesn't he like me at all?"

"You've forgotten about me!"

"At the beginning, as long as he said a word, I stayed!"

"Why didn't he say anything?"

Jin Lan whispered in my ear.

And then she didn't go.

He sat on the ground and began to cry.

"Jin Lan, let's go. I crouched down and persuaded her.

"Don't go...... Don't go...... I'm not going anywhere! Ah, I don't want to lie to anyone, I can't help it!"

"Ah...... Ahi, you said that if I said that, he would ...... Will he believe it?"

"Axi, is it too late for me to apologize to him? Do you think he will forgive me? Will he accept me? Will he love me? Will he admit that I am his wife?"

"I'm going!"

"I'm going to find him!"