"Yes, our Professor He. ”

"Oh, your wife is young enough. Wen Shaonian, I don't understand academic things, but in the matter of chasing girls, you really have to study hard with you, Professor He. I made a joke.

Because I saw that next to Professor He, there was also a woman in her early 30s.

Because these two people had just passed by our car, talking and laughing.

So I can see it relatively clearly.

The woman is very good at dressing up, drawing eyebrows and eyes, and has a plump figure, which belongs to the kind of mature woman who is very attractive to men.

At this time, the woman put her arm around Professor He and leaned her head on Professor He's shoulder, looking very close.

With such an action and such a distance, it is natural to be a husband and wife or a couple.

"That's not my wife, Professor He has been divorced for many years. Wen Shaonian said sneeringly.

"And who is this woman?" I asked.

"That's Professor He's nanny...... Wen Shaonian said slowly.

I was stunned and felt very embarrassed.

Why is there a feeling that Wen Shaonian is pointing at Sang and scolding Huai?

"Aren't you going to say hello?" I asked Wen Shaonian.

"It's not appropriate. ”

After Wen Shaonian finished speaking, I also saw that when Professor He and the woman walked more than 100 meters in front of the community, Professor He stopped, and the woman reluctantly let go of Professor He's arm.

With his head down, he looked very unhappy.

Professor He coaxed a few more words, and then walked to the entrance of the community first.

He went in for a while, and the woman followed.

I don't know what they're talking about, but I can definitely guess that Professor He doesn't want the people at the gate of the community, those acquaintances, to see him so close to a nanny, right?

Seeing this, I was a little angry.

"Hmph, dare to do it, dare not be afraid, not a good man!"

I said dismissively.

"Our Professor He is a good person, very knowledgeable, and has a very high status in the industry. Wen Shaonian defended his teacher.

"Can't you be a scumbag if you are educated? The previous Zhou Jie was also very successful, isn't he still a well-dressed beast?" I asked Wen Shaonian.

"Professor He is different from that Zhou Jie, right?" Wen Shaonian did not agree with my point of view.

"What's the difference? Zhou Jie is missing, this Professor He was hugging the little nanny one second ago, rubbing oil constantly, and the next second he kept his distance, and he was serious? Isn't this just lifting his pants and not admitting it, and selling it if he gets cheap? This kind of person is not a scumbag, who is a scumbag?" I asked with a sneer.

My words really stopped Wen Shaonian.

Indeed, what happened before is right before our eyes.

It's useless for him to defend himself.

After a few seconds, Wen Shaonian said hesitantly, "Maybe...... Maybe our Professor He is more high-minded, right? I think it's not good to fall in love with a nanny and spread it out if it is seen by others?"

I'm really angry.

"Qinggao? Really Qinggao man, go to be a monk? Don't touch other women's breasts? It's all men, who is much taller than whom? Isn't it all a group of animals who think with their lower bodies!"

"It's not good to fall in love with a nanny? Yes, you are all high-level intellectuals, Sven scum, naturally look down on a little nanny like us, I think, we won't meet in the future, goodbye!"

I pushed open the door and got out of the car, huffing forward.

Seeing that I was angry, Wen Shaonian hurriedly opened the car door, chased after me from behind, and grabbed my arm.

"Joe Huanxi, you wait a minute. ”

I shook Wen Shaonian away: "What are you pulling me for? Don't lower your own level, let people see that the second son of the dignified Wen family is actually pulling and pulling with a little nanny, what is it like?"

Wen Shaonian listened to my words, overtook me in a few big steps, and turned around to stop me: "Qiao Huanxi, don't be angry, I didn't mean that, you are different from that nanny!"

I looked at Wen Shaonian and squeezed out a few words from my mouth: "Hypocrisy! What's the difference? Aren't they all serving people! Serving you city people, and then being judged and looked down upon by you?"

Wen Shaonian was so anxious that he stomped his foot, and I saw his annoyance, as if I wanted to slap myself.

"No...... You really misunderstood what I meant, I mean, I don't look down on nannies, I don't mean to disrespect working people, and I don't look down on rural people, I mean, Professor He's identity is different, he ......"

I didn't wait for Wen Shaonian to finish speaking, and he had already stopped his words: "He's a professor, that's a nanny, and the cultural level is too different, right? I don't think it's a good match? Hehe, I just want to laugh, why don't you look at your diploma in advance when you do something with a woman?" When you try to coax a woman into bed, why don't you look at your academic qualifications?"

"Okay, Qiao Huanxi, don't be unreasonable, okay? Okay, I admit it, I do have a little bit of a nanny and a professor who are not a good match together, but in addition to this, there is also an age gap, even if Professor He is with a young urban female college student, I will feel that it is inappropriate, do you understand?"

Actually, I get it.

But I don't want to admit it.

So he stubbornly said: "I don't understand, women are not meant to be reasonable!"

"Joe Huanxi, in fact, you are too sensitive sometimes......! You don't have to be so inferior, because only people with low self-esteem are so sensitive. I think you're good, so you really don't overreact. ”

Wen Shaonian sighed.

I was stunned for a moment.

I want to ask rhetorically, Wen Shaonian, what are you kidding?

Where do I have low self-esteem?

I don't feel inferior!

You have low self-esteem, your whole family has low self-esteem!

But I couldn't say it, because I knew that what Wen Shaonian said was right.

The more deliberately a person pretends to be strong on the outside, the weaker he may be on the inside.

The more people who show their teeth and claws, the more vulnerable they may be.

Just like me.

I'm a lot of the way and I seem to be a fighter.

I talk and laugh a lot of the time, and I don't seem to care about anything.

But in fact, I know that I act it all.

Actually, I'm scarred inside.

Actually, I care.

I often have nightmares.

I often dream that I am still in that place where I was exchanged, ravaged, tortured.

I tried to run as hard as I could, but I couldn't find the junction or direction.

It's like being in a misty forest.

There is no way out, no matter how hard you try, it is all in vain, and it is all going in circles.

Then, my husband, father-in-law, mother-in-law, village tyrant, father, mother, and brother all started to chase after me with a smirk.

They said, Joe, you can't run away!

They said, "Joe, the purpose of your life is to be our cargo and plaything."

And they said, Joe, rejoice, resign yourself to your fate.

I cried, I shouted, but no one came to help me.

Until I woke up sweating profusely and found that my pillows were all wet.

It wasn't just sweat, it was my tears.

......

The past was like a spell that always held me back.

I don't get real happiness.

The past experience made me feel inferior, and I knew that I had a good impression of Wen Shaonian, but I didn't dare to show it at all.

Past experiences have sensitized me, especially in front of Wen Shaonian.

I know I like him.

I also knew he liked me.

I also knew that I couldn't like him.

Because there is a gap between us that cannot be bridged.

But I don't want him to despise me.

I don't want to spoil my image in his heart.

I obviously know that if I want to break it completely, then the best way is to make Wen Shaonian hate me and stay away from me.

But I couldn't help it.

On the one hand, I always say that Wen Shaonian doesn't know me, and what he knows is not the complete me.

But on the other hand, I was a little happy, but luckily, he didn't know the whole me.

Actually, I'm shameless, right?

Actually, I'm duplicitous, right?

I keep accusing others of hypocrisy.

In fact, I myself am the most hypocritical!

Just like now, in fact, what Wen Shaonian said is no problem, no matter how you look at it, it is a shocking thing for a university professor to get involved with a little nanny.

It's easy to criticize, that's normal, I don't need to go online.

But I still have such a big reaction, maybe it's really oversensitive, right?

......

"Yes, I'm inferior, sensitive, and unreasonable, so don't look for me anymore. ”

I bypassed Wen Shaonian and strode towards the community.

I could hear Wen Shaonian saying sorry to me in the back.

But I didn't look back.

I'm afraid to turn around and let Wen Shaonian see my red eyes.

What woman wouldn't want to be a princess?

What woman doesn't want to have an innocent past?

What woman wouldn't want to wait for a prince's favor?

But I didn't have a choice.

What has happened, whether forgotten, concealed or erased, will always be there.

From time to time, you are reminded of what you have been through.

......

In the days that followed, Wen Shaonian sent me several messages, all of which were telling me that I was sorry.

He also told me about Professor He.

Professor Ho teaches ancient literature, and his wife, who is also a professor, teaches economics.

However, his wife went abroad more than ten years ago, and the two divorced.

He also has a daughter, who is also currently abroad.

Now Professor Ho lives alone.

It stands to reason that a single man cannot hire a young female nanny.

It is to avoid a peachy incident between the nanny and the employer.

But because Professor He is over 50 years old and a senior intellectual, the housekeeping company allowed it, but I didn't expect such a thing to happen.

I only replied to Wen Shaonian, it didn't matter, so I didn't pay attention to him.

It's not that I'm cold, it's not that I'm hypocritical, it's not that I'm cheap and obedient.

It's that I don't really know what to say to him.

Actually, I shouldn't say forgive him, because he wasn't wrong at all, was there?

......

This evening.

Zhu Dan and Guan Zhen did not go home after work, but said that they were going to eat and listen to a concert together.

I'm also happy to be relaxed, and I don't need to cook anymore.

So at around 7 p.m., I took a walk in a small garden at the back of the complex.

Although the area of this small garden is not very large, it is very green, with jungle and layers, and some stone benches and pavilions dotted in between.

Therefore, people in the neighborhood like to come here for a walk and exercise in the morning and after dinner.

It's just that I'm here at the same time as most people are having dinner, so there are almost no people.

I wandered aimlessly.

When I walked to the front of a small forest, I suddenly heard the voices of two people talking from inside.

"Xiaoqin, let's go back, there will be more people here in a while, and it's not good to be seen. ”

"Professor He, don't you like me? Dislike me? I know I'm uneducated, I know I'm not worthy of you. Okay, I'll pack up and leave your house when I go back, and promise not to harass you again. You'd better go find your ex-wife, I know she's also a big professor, and I'm right with you!"

After only listening to these two sentences, I knew who they were.

It was Professor He and his nanny lover, who turned out to be called Xiaoqin.

Is this dating here?

Although knowingly, it is not appropriate to eavesdrop on people's conversations.

But the cause of the conflict between me and Wen Shaonian is because of these two people.

So it aroused my curiosity, and I didn't speak out and became a competent listener.

Professor He's voice rang out: "Xiaoqin, how can you say that? If I don't like you, how can I be like you now? You are gentle, sensible, and motivated. Although you are not highly educated, you can persist in learning, and when you first came to my house, you were just a nanny, but you could take the initiative to read books and newspapers, and ask me questions, which are all your advantages. And my ex-wife, although educated, has a strong personality, she talks to me at home, argues with me about everything, makes no family atmosphere at all, does not fulfill the responsibilities of a woman and a wife at all, what do I go to do with her? We have no relationship for a long time, we have not been in touch for many years, and we are no different from strangers. ”

After listening to Professor He's answer, Xiaoqin's words already had a crying voice.

I looked through the trees and saw that she had fallen into Professor Ho's arms.

The body twisted around like a fish: "Professor He, of course people don't want to leave you! You don't know, how much I admire you, how much I love you, you are knowledgeable, and a gentleman, I have no father since I was a child, lack of father's love, in Professor He's body, I not only experienced sincere love, but also experienced the long-lost father's love, I am willing to be with you for the rest of my life, even if I have no name, it doesn't matter." But I'm just inferior, I'm afraid that you will dislike me and leave me!"

Professor He gently patted Xiaoqin's back: "Xiaoqin, of course I understand your thoughts, but in fact, why am I not the same? I have only studied academics for half of my life, although I have been married, but it is a failure, I have not experienced much family warmth at all, and my relationship with my daughter is also very indifferent." It was you who made me experience the long-lost passion of youth and gave me a second spring, and I never disliked you. And I also promised you, I will marry you in the future, I can't let you be with me without a name, that's too wronged, don't think about it. ”

Hearing this, I couldn't help but shake my head and sigh.

Men, they can't escape the entanglement of fat powder.

Especially for old men, when they meet young women, they are even more irresistible.

Any big professor, who is knowledgeable and has a high social status, is useless.

The only thing that drives human behavior is instinct, only desire.

As soon as a woman is coquettish, when she snorts, when she shows adoration, as soon as she says I love you, they are all captured.

Xiaoqin raised her head: "Really? Will you really marry me? But now you don't even want to go out shopping with me, you don't want to be seen." ”

Professor He said gently: "Xiaoqin, you have to understand me, after all, I have been single for so many years, and I suddenly found a you, who is so many years younger than me, I am afraid of other people's eyes and discussions." I'm not disgusted with you, I'm afraid that those people will talk about me for being disrespectful to the old and eating tender grass for the old cow. It's that I'm embarrassed, not that I think you're embarrassing me. Because we are true love, love has nothing to do with wealth and status. ”

"And when will I wait?" asked Qin.

"It won't be long before I'll slowly introduce you to the people around me. By the way, my daughter is abroad, and I will also tell her, so that she can fight for her to come back and meet you. ”

"No...... Don't tell your daughter!"

Hearing Professor He say that he wanted to inform his daughter to return to China, Xiaoqin seemed a little excited.

Professor He was stunned: "Why? My daughter has been studying abroad, and her thinking is very Westernized, and she will not object to me remarrying." ”

"Because...... Because...... Because I'm also a little embarrassed, let your daughter call me stepmother...... When we get married for a while, and I get used to my new identity, I'll tell you if my daughter is okay?"

"Okay, listen to you. Professor He was very tolerant of this woman who was more than 20 years younger than him.

"Well, dear, you're the best...... What kind of old cow eats tender grass? You're not old at all, you're still bad...... Hee-hee-hee......" Xiaoqin laughed.

The smile was ambiguous.

I'm a person from the past, so I naturally understand the meaning of her words.

It seems that although there is a lot of age difference between men and women, it is quite harmonious?

I couldn't help but laugh a little.

At this time, I saw that the two of them had already walked towards me.

I hurriedly hid behind a tree.

I saw that Professor He and Xiaoqin had already walked past me.

"Professor He, give you nutrients, you work so hard every day, you need to supplement nutrition, this is my fellow countryman from overseas to buy on behalf of me, said that the effect is very good. ”

Xiaoqin took out a bottle from her pocket, opened it, poured out a pill, and handed it to Professor He.

But Professor He's hand slipped and he didn't hold it steady, and the pill rolled into the grass.

He's going to pick it up.

But was stopped by Xiaoqin: "Oh, it's all on the ground, what are you going to eat?" ”

Professor He said, "Isn't that too wasteful? Didn't you say that this nutrient is very expensive? Or did you buy it with your own salary, I will give you the money, and you don't want it." But the effect is really good, I feel much stronger than before after eating it. ”

Xiaoqin leaned her head on Professor He's arms: "People just want to buy it for you with their own salary, to prove that I am not with you for money." ”

......

They were gone, and I came out from behind the tree.

There was something complicated in my eyes.

After listening to the conversation just now, I have a new understanding of the relationship between the two of them.