Two thousand one hundred thirty-one, two thousand one hundred thirty-two, two thousand one hundred thirty-three, two thousand one hundred thirty-four......

Jian Feng woke up in a sea of sheep, and it was already dawn outside.

He felt that he might need to sleep in the lab for a while, even though the lab environment wasn't quite what he wanted to sleep in.

After washing up tiredly, Jian Feng was not interested in eating breakfast, and sat alone on the sofa in the living room in a daze.

He hadn't had insomnia for a long time, let alone insomnia so bad, melatonin was useless.

Today is the third day of Song Kite's departure, and he didn't have a video with Song Kite last night, and an inexplicable sense of panic made him unable to sleep. Maybe he should go and have a video call with Song Kite himself tonight?

Jian Feng has been entangled like this, and it is time to go to work.

Today he sat in the outpatient clinic there were no patients in the morning and the recent papers were almost written jian feng had nothing to do and was bored in front of the table turning the pen, turning around, yin ci came over.

Jian Feng felt that Yin Ci looked very busy every day, but in fact, he was idle, otherwise he would always have time to walk in front of him.

"What to do?" Jian Feng asked, looking up.

Yin Ci's eyes were kind, "I haven't greeted you for a long time, come and take a look this time." ”

I don't want your greetings at all. Jian Feng's eyes were full of these words.

Yin Ci ignored Jian Feng's low air pressure and sat down directly on the chair opposite him.

"How's it going?"

What else can I do? Eat well and dress warmly, except for a little insomnia in the last few days.

"Didn't sleep well yesterday?" Yin Ci has been observing mental illness for a long time, and he can see through people who are a little mentally bad.

"Insomnia. Jian Feng frowned, and began to wonder if his melatonin had expired, otherwise it wouldn't work.

"How is Miss Song doing?" asked Yin Ci casually.

"I'm out to make a TV series. Jian Feng said, "In Liangcheng." ”

"Oh, no wonder. Yin Ci is not surprised.

Is it any wonder that I can't sleep because she's gone?

Seeing through Jian Feng's eyes, Yin Ci's gaze became more easy-going, "I think you should contact Song Yuan more." ”

"We've always been in touch and I'm not the kind of guy who can't sleep without someone. Jian Feng, who said this, was stunned for a moment.

"Admit it, you can't sleep when she's not there. ”

"No, I slept well in her absence. ”

"Sleep in the laboratory and fill your empty heart with work?" Yin Ci smiled and shook his head.

Jian Feng didn't know what to say.

"What the hell are you struggling with?" Yin was puzzled.

"What am I struggling with?" Jian Feng looked at Yin Ci.

"Are you entangled in whether you love her or not?" Yin Ci looked at him.

Jian Feng didn't speak.

"Can you tell me now, why don't you want to fall in love with her?" Yin Ci casually closed the door of the outpatient room, opened his pamphlet, and asked the handsome doctor opposite.

Jian Feng pursed his lips.

"You don't have any mind that can escape my eyes. Yin Ci looked at him like this and said calmly.

Jian Feng felt that it was a mistake for him to know Yin Ci, this man seemed to have been born to restrain him, and Yin Ci's restraint towards him was different from Song Kite, Yin Ci was a guy full of aggression, and Jian Feng didn't really want to face Yin Ci.

"Let's talk about it, we still have a long time to go, you can choose not to say it all the time, and I can choose to keep watching you and wait for you to say it. Yin Ci crossed his feet and said in a light tone, "It's like you didn't want to communicate with me when you first returned to China." ”

Jian Feng knew that the person on the other side would wait until he spoke, he didn't cooperate with Yin Ci's treatment at first, and Yin Ci didn't do anything, just stuck to him and annoyed him until he died. Jian Feng is just a little emotionally lacking, and he usually doesn't like to take care of people, which doesn't mean that he likes to be annoyed, on the contrary, because of his quiet personality, he hates others to bother him the most.

"I think ......"

"I don't want to listen to excuses. "Yin Ci has a lot of problems.

Jian Feng paused for a moment and continued to speak, "I haven't fallen in love with anyone, and I don't know how I'll do anything. ”

"What do you want to do?"

"If I really fell in love with her, I probably couldn't help but want her to stay with me forever. Jian Feng said.

"Your love is possessive, but everyone has this mentality, and it's normal. ”

"Unscrupulous means. Jian Feng looked at Yin Ci with a compromise in his eyes, "You're right, I'll hurt her." ”

"Choosing to hurt her in order to keep her?"

"Yes. Jian Feng thought back to his plans, the potions hidden in the drawer, love is actually an addiction......

"So what do you choose to do now?" Yin Ci was a little curious, "Even if you don't love her, you don't want her to leave." ”

"Yes. Jian Feng admitted.

"What's the difference?" Yin Ci thought for a moment, "Is there any difference between your love and your dislove?"

"......" Jian Feng leaned back in the chair behind him and frowned, "Possessiveness in the name of love is not only manifested in wanting her to stay by my side. ”

Jian once discussed with Jian Feng what it would be like for him to fall in love with someone.

Now Jian Feng can already imagine and touch that kind of appearance.

"I don't want to be like that, I don't want our feelings to fall into that abyss. Jian Feng looked at Yin Ci and said, "You are right, maybe my nature is indifferent, and my bestiality is bloodthirsty, so I really fall in love with someone, and it is impossible to be like an ordinary person, like her and be good to her." I will take everything from her, let her melt into my blood and bones, and never leave me. ”

“......”

"That's how I can get that — a sense of security. ”

Yin Ci stared at Jian Feng, he hadn't talked to Jian Feng like this for a long time. But today's conversation did not make Yin Ci feel in a new predicament, on the contrary, he had a feeling that the son he had raised for so many years had finally grown up. It's pretty good......

"Have you ever thought about it, now that you've thought about it to this point, you're aware of your own problems. When you really get close to her, you may not really fall into that kind of abyss. Yin Ci looked into his eyes, "In the same way, people don't just have animal nature. Your instincts may be dark and terrifying, but your long-standing personality, the character you have cultivated over the years, cannot be changed overnight. ”

However, to love someone is to face the heart. ”

"You still want to possess her, do you?"

Jian Feng stopped talking.

"That kind of possession and affection has reached a point that you can't control, that's why you're so entangled, and you're stuck in this predicament after she leaves. ”

“......”

"Why can't you face your heart?"

Jian Feng looked at him: "How do you want me to face it?"

“...... Do something on your own terms?"

"That would just make her leave me forever. Jian Feng said.

"Song Kite likes you, you know?"

“...... There may be feelings. Jian Feng thought for a moment, "But it's very vague, and sometimes it's ......"

Yin Ci sat down again and listened carefully to Jian Feng's speech.

"Sometimes I think that the liking she has for me is just that she likes me with that false appearance, if she knows what kind of person I am. Jian Feng's gaze was a little sad, "She may not really like me." ”

"You can't even say exactly what kind of person you are. Yin Ci said.

"I want to be as nice to her as I can and I don't want to lose her. I always felt that if I had been nicer to her, then she would not have left me. ”

"That's what the gentle and kind Dr. Jane in your head thinks. Yin Ci concluded, "So what does the dark and lonely Jian Feng in your head think?"

"Lock her up and let her live in my cage forever. ”

"......" Yin Ci frowned and thought for a moment, "Can I understand that you have already built such a cage?"

"It was a cage that she could easily perceive, and she could fly away with her wings outstretched. Jian Feng smiled, "I just want her to see ......"

"You want her to see the dark side of you and let her make her own decisions?"

"Hmm. ”

Song Yuan learned a lot of simple things from Mu Qi, and at the same time, he also knew a lot of things about Jian Feng.

I have to say, it's still very thrilling......