You don't know, I'd rather I was her.

Then they can meet at the age of fourteen.

At this time, I was already fantasizing about my lover.

Seeing you may no longer be love at first sight.

But I don't like people either.

By the age of fifteen, I must have learned to be brave.

Will tell you what I like.

It will be the same as those female classmates I envy.

Nervously wrote the first love letter.

Wait until you leave school.

I will not choose to wait but to chase.

You can't escape what I like.

It's a pity I'm not her.

When I met her timid and great love.

I can only humbly choose to avoid it.

Maybe for love.

I'm just too idealistic a player.

It's no match for years of your mutual concern.

Lost to the encounter too late.

Give her back the words she gave me: You must be happy.

Not in touch with each other.

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Zhao Qingshan fantasized that he hugged three wives and six concubines left and right, for a moral gentleman, this is a crime that deserves death, and he must be castrated a hundred times, a hundred times.

But in Zhao Qingshan's view, the more beautiful things, the better, isn't this the most normal psychology?

This is the same as not eating grapes to say that grapes are sour, many people always like to criticize them for not getting them, and countless weak people in reality, in addition to the eyes of others who are left and right and rich, may not have thought that they are weak, and others are strong.

I didn't realize that since ancient times, this has been a world where the strong are respected, and no matter how beautiful a civilization is, it can't wrap up the law of the jungle.

It is natural for women to cling to the strong, but there are too many women who have lost their souls in the world of flowers, and are willing to be called by men to drink without self, and the saying that women are like clothes has been popular for more than three or five years, right?

Zhao Qingshan is not a strong person, and he will not turn female characters into clothes that can be discarded at any time, or thrown away to others to wear.

But he really couldn't make a choice between Li Diefei and He Qing.

Li Diefei is hearty, generous, considerate and coquettish, her family background and education are impeccable, and the most important thing is that Zhao Qingshan likes her.

He Qinghui is a must-have product for home travel, her family background and education are still impeccable, and she has been his magic obstacle for so many years, no matter how cruel he is to her on the surface, there is no doubt that he likes her.

Obsession has gone deep into the bone marrow.

Choosing one means losing the other, and not choosing means that Li Diefei is his girlfriend, and it will not push He Qing away.

Amorous men know what is best for them.

Shameless and selfish? In this world where there are only men and women, who is not shameless and who is not selfish?

Not everyone will treat love as noble as Li Diefei.

It's just that when Li Diefei made a choice, Zhao Qingshan unexpectedly found that he had no sadness or pain, only reluctance to a good girl, or that he was used to parting and had strong resistance.

He finally realized that it was Li Diefei who fulfilled the first love complex that he collected in his heart, and fulfilled the attachment in the depths of his memory

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made him like He Qing and could always like it, Li Diefei's choice seemed to send him to that youthful era.

It's just that sometimes he asks himself, "Who am I, who am I? Who do I like?"

And at that time, the girl had grown up.

This is the third day that Li Diefei has left the hospital, and He Qing, who has been able to walk around alone, stays in Zhao Qingshan's ward for several hours a day.

Zhao Qingshan rarely speaks, his biggest hobby is to stare at He Qing shamelessly, his eyes are as if he is going to rip off He Qing's clothes, where can He Qing, who has no personnel, bear it, his eyes flicker left and right, looking forward to this color embryo to quickly tease Zhou Gong's daughter, as long as he doesn't stare at her.

After being interrupted by the hooligan-like eyes that he was going to speak a few times, He Qing simply turned his head to avoid meeting his eyes, and said, "Qingshan, I really didn't say anything to her, I guess my mother said something unpleasant, which caused some misunderstanding, can you call her and explain?"

Zhao Qingshan, who didn't want to bother with this matter or explore the specific reason, said with a smile: "She is not the kind of person who will back down when someone says a few words, don't you see how scrappy she is when you appear? She left only because she made the decision to leave, and I accept that the decision she made is as simple as that." ”

Is it really that simple? Definitely not, sad people don't know Li Diefei.

He Qing suddenly turned her head and wondered, "Why aren't you sad at all?"

Zhao Qingshan, who was lying on the bed like a zombie, rolled his eyes and said: "She didn't take away my virginity, is it possible that I still have to cry, make trouble, and hang myself?" ”

He Qing's eyes lit up and said, "That's a good point." ”

Zhao Qingshan, who accidentally became a copyist, said: "Of course it's good, so it's better to be a little less melancholy." Besides, if your girlfriend runs away, you won't have to pay me a girlfriend. ”

Is this a confession? It's so sudden, completely unprepared, He Qing blushed, hung her head and twisted and pinched: "How can I compensate?"

Zhao Qingshan pondered for a few moments, and said seriously: "You don't have a few beautiful girlfriends?"

He Qing was disappointed for a while, buried her head in silence.

It's not fun to take the joke seriously, Zhao Qingshan looked at her side face, and said slowly: "The biggest reason why I didn't dare to confess to you back then was that my future was full of unknowns, how pure and clear it was at that time, there was only you in my eyes, so I thought that once I held hands, I would definitely have to go for a lifetime, and I didn't want to see other female classmates again, but my parents were not there with my sister, and any small accident in life could break us up."

I am indeed conceited, but I know that there are many accidents that I can't fight, so how dare I tell you? How dare I hold hands with you? In this case, it is better to look at you from afar, there will be no harm without beginning, and there will be no resentment and hatred, at that time my heart was darker than anyone else, and I wished that the end of the world would be completely dead, and the suffering of life caused me to have malicious intentions towards too many people.

In school, only when I look at you, I feel that I am normal, even noble, because I am not afraid of being hurt at all, what I am afraid of is that you squandered your first love in vain, even if you can endure it, you may not be able to go to the end, even now, I still have no regret for my original silence. ”

glanced at He Qing, who had her pupils widened, and she

's eyes were complicated and inexplicable, Zhao Qingshan continued: "You said how tall you were at the time, and your face was very beautiful and your grades were very good, after leaving school, I thought that one day I couldn't find a girlfriend who couldn't be too bad, otherwise how could I be worthy of my excellent first love? Don't mind, I have always been in love with you."

And people will always grow up to make themselves feel terrible, no longer feel that holding hands with a person will take a lifetime, and even think that the scene of saying goodbye at dawn in the TV series is normal, when I was twenty years old, I had a simple love with a woman, what is pure love?

It was she who said from the beginning that it was impossible to marry me, she said that she wanted to be like the wind, and let the past pass away with the wind when she left, at first I was quite angry, and jokingly said that she would tie her to the mountains to be the lady of the village to live a savage life, and then lingered among the mountains and mountains, and gradually relieved, because some people are really not suitable for marriage, and they are embarrassed to delay others, and freedom is the best state. ”

These words are all the obsessions of the predecessor in memory, and there is no need for Zhao Qingshan to rack his brains to recall or brew words, as soon as he speaks, he is extremely smooth.

Seeing Zhao Qingshan stop and look at her, He Qing chuckled and said, "Go on, I'll listen." ”

Zhao Qingshan said: "I want to see if you are jealous." ”

He Qing hurriedly waved his hand like a rattle, and said with a red face: "No, I knew you were very attentive at that time." ”

Zhao Qingshan said helplessly: "Do you still remember that I hugged and hugged those girls? That's not to make you empathize and don't fall in love, forget it, you definitely won't believe it, I went on to say ah, I am very grateful for your excellence at that time, otherwise I would definitely not have the courage to pursue those unattainable women."

It was also because I ignored you at that time, in order to prevent the repetition of the past mistakes, I was extraordinarily fearless of death and had the courage to pursue later, no matter how beautiful and rich I am, it is always a woman, and I, a big man who even dares to run with a wild boar, is still afraid of a little woman who is dozens of pounds and hundreds of pounds? Can't take it down and watch you slip away from the story back then? No wonder some people say that first love is the best teacher for men, and this is all realized from you. He Qing. ”

Leng Buding was shouted, and He Qing hurriedly responded: "Huh?"

Zhao Qingshan looked at her and asked with a smile: "I walked around, I seem to be quite tired, shall we get married?"

You didn't confess, I didn't confess, and I got married directly?

He Qing, who was not very accustomed to this unconventional development, stared at the neurotic man with watery eyes, and wondered: "You don't seem to be joking..."

Zhao Qingshan said with a bitter face: "It's really not the time, I can't kneel if I haven't bought the ring, or we'll continue to talk when I am discharged from the hospital." ”

Although He Qing has a weak temperament, she seems to be very decisive, and immediately said: "Why isn't it time? Don't regret it!"

After saying this, He Qing ran out of the smoke, as if all the wounds were gone.

In the ward, Zhao Qingshan was left alone.

"Zhao Qingshan, you are killing yourself, the task I gave you is to let Li Lifei leave, you can't keep it, and get along with He Qing wholeheartedly for a year, instead of letting you marry He Qing directly!" the system warned solemnly.

"What did I violate the requirements of the mission?" Zhao Qingshan asked rhetorically with a cold look in his eyes.

"Why are you so extreme? We won't hurt you. The system whispered.