When the alarm clock rang, it was already half past six in the morning, and Dai Xiyan woke up in the morning to feel a little better, and the heart that had been hanging yesterday fell slightly, and the whole person's mood became a little better.

Since the appointments are all for tomorrow's inspection, I still go to work today and arrive at the company on time.

After arriving at the company, I had a brief meeting, and I didn't feel much energy to do things while sitting in the chair, so I contacted a few customers and chatted with them, but I still had no intention of cooperating, and sighed.

After a day in a daze, I didn't bother to play games when I got home, so I went to sleep after eating takeout and playing with my mobile phone for a while. I still need to get up early tomorrow, and the scheduled examination will start at 8 o'clock tomorrow morning, and it will take more than an hour or so to travel from the hospital to the place where I live, which means that I will have to get up earlier than usual to go to work tomorrow morning.

The next day, the alarm clock rang on time, and Dai Xiyan got up to wash up, and did not eat breakfast, because there was a check marking that he needed to be fasting.

When I came to the hospital, there were still so many people, and there were endless patients in large tertiary hospitals every day, and all kinds of queuing up for examinations could make an adult male tired enough, not to mention the elderly who came to see the doctor alone.

Dai Xiyan waited in line with the appointment form, checked one by one, and when several inspections were completed, it was already noon, and the Dai Xiyan was tired enough, sitting on the chair and even feeling that his legs and feet were not obedient.

The doctor said that the results of the examination will not come out so quickly, and it will take about two or three days to get the results, and then you can go to the machine to get the list together.

The waiting time is always torturous and long, especially when it comes to your own health. In the past few days, I have been thinking a lot about it, and I have talked a lot less in the company, and I suddenly feel that I am not interested in anything.

On Friday, my colleague called for a dinner party, and also found an excuse to shirk it, saying that he would not go because of something.

Dai Xiyan originally planned to go home this weekend, but after thinking about it, I went to the hospital next Monday and waited for the doctor to see it.

During the period, Dai Xiyan's mother called and asked why she didn't go home this week, and Dai Xiyan lied that the company was busy at the end of the month and had to work overtime, and she would go back next week, and she didn't mention going to the hospital when she was sick.

In fact, Dai Xiyan has basically reported good news and not bad news since college, his idea is very simple, that is, he doesn't want his parents to worry about him at home, and he can deal with general problems, after all, he can't rely on his parents for everything.

After the phone call, Dai Xiyan felt the urge to cry, but he still held back and didn't let the tears flow.

Dai Xiyan suddenly felt that although the city was very prosperous, he was very lonely in the city, and there was no one to confide in him, so he could only hold it in his heart and endure it silently. But when I think about myself as a big man, I really don't have any interest, what are you afraid of for this little thing, maybe I am scared that I don't have any disease.

Dai Xiyan has been a pessimist since he was a child, and he will think of the worst outcome of everything, and what to do if the result is not good, and he has some fear in his heart.

In this way, in the back and forth of self-comfort and self-scare, I spent this difficult weekend.

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On Monday, Dai Xiyan got up early, and he was not in the mood to crowd the bus, so he rushed to the hospital directly. I first took a few report sheets of inspection results, and I couldn't understand what it meant when I got the list and looked at it, but it seemed that many indicators were not within the normal range, and Dai Xiyan's heart was cold, his scalp was numb, and his back began to sweat a little.

When it was the turn of Dai Xiyan to show the doctor the results of several tests, the doctor took the list and looked back and forth several times, asked about some more information, and frowned. Even the pessimist who had prepared for the worst was still inexplicably nervous when he saw this, and his hairs stood on end.

After a few minutes, the doctor said, "Judging from the test results, it is not very optimistic, you better be hospitalized for a biopsy." ”

After listening to the doctor's words, he felt that the situation was not good, and immediately asked: "Doctor, what kind of disease do I have, do I have to be hospitalized? Is it cancer?"

The doctor said, "It's not yet possible to determine whether you have cancer or not, and you can't wait until a biopsy is done to diagnose the diagnosis, so don't worry too much, even if you actively cooperate with the treatment, you can still be cured." ”

Dai Xiyan was a little confused, he felt that his throat was choked, his face turned pale, and he spit out a few words with difficulty: "If so, how much time do I have?"

The doctor was a little desperate when he saw the endorsement, and comforted: "Young man, don't worry, there is no diagnosis yet, even if you actively cooperate with the treatment, there is still a great hope of recovery." I see you're still young, why don't you come alone, tell your parents first, it's okay. Dai Xiyan said thank you softly, got up and left.

The doctor looked at Dai Xiyan's lonely back, sighed, and shook his head...

Out of the gate of the hospital, the sun was just right, but it didn't make the endorsement feel warm on his body, and some were only cold, cold from the inside out.

Dai Xiyan walked down the street in despair, looking at the people who came and went on the street talking and laughing, and was stunned。。。。。 The endorsement suddenly envied them very much, and they could rush around with all their might. And now, these seem to be getting farther and farther away from themselves, and it seems that there is no going back.

Dai Xiyan was in a bad mood, got on a bus casually, found a seat by the window in the back and sat down, greedily looking at the scenery outside the window, as if he was missing a glance, and his mind echoed every bit of himself in this city.

I hung outside for a long time, didn't go to the company, and it was already more than four o'clock in the afternoon when I got home, and my roommate hadn't come back from work yet.

When he got home and closed the door, Dai Xiyan finally couldn't hold back the tears in his eyes and cried, thinking about his aging parents, thinking of his helplessness, he was grief-stricken, and the tears couldn't stop flowing.

Dai Xiyan has never cried so much, this is not a tear of physical pain, but a tear of extreme fear and loneliness in his heart. Dai Xiyan kept crying until he couldn't shed tears anymore.

After crying, I got up and went to the bathroom to wash my face fiercely, and silently looked at myself in the mirror for a long, long time, not knowing what to do next.

After crying, his emotions were released, and Dai Xiyan's heart was not so blocked, and he felt a little better.

Dai Xiyan suddenly wanted to go home very much, so he decided to go to the company tomorrow to resign and sort out his things, and take the car home early the day after tomorrow.

Home is always a life-saving straw when everyone's heart is the most vulnerable, he can contain all of you, and it will always be the warmest place in your heart.

He decided not to tell his parents about his illness first, even if he was not finally diagnosed, he was still afraid that his parents would be afraid, although he didn't know whether it was right or wrong to do this, but he still decided to do it.