On this day, a light rain suddenly fell, and the empty valley was strange, but it was very lovable.

In the long pavilion in the water, there is a man in white who sits cross-legged on the qin, and the light smoke rises from the incense burner on the piano case, and there is a faint fragrance in the air, making the surrounding qiē seem so peaceful and beautiful.

Because of the long pavilion pulling the curtain, you can only see the elegant figure of the man who strokes the qin, and on the edge of the fence, there is another man in white, who is listening to the fun in this song, his hand unconsciously stretched out of the pavilion, and the long sleeves immediately faded to the elbow, revealing a piece of snow-white skin and slender hand.

The boy in white was smiling, his expression was calm, and he let the light rain wet his palm, the coolness spread in the palm of his hand, but there was still a trace of itching, and the corners of the white-clothed man's mouth rose, and suddenly he thought of one thing, a person, and there were some sweet feelings in his heart.

Pingxuan listened to the sound of rain and lotus, dripping in his heart.

His piano sound has always been faint and distant, and it is rare that there is a little more joy today, and the man in white suddenly has some doubts, is it his own intention or does the song have another true meaning?

"Yixian, your piano sound has gone to the next level, I'm afraid I can't catch up even if I want to......"

The boy in white was smiling, still looking at the spring rain outside the pavilion, and he was often sad in the rain, but his mood today was exceptionally good, which also surprised the boy in white.

"Wan'er, I am outside the mortal world, carefree, and the sound of the piano is my state of mind. You are in the red dust, how can you be beyond things?"

The man in white lowered his eyebrows and lowered his head, as if he was savoring the meaning of Yixian's words, he was indeed not a mortal, so transcendent in the world, as if every qiē in this earthly world had nothing to do with him.

That's why his piano sound is so clear and melodious, and I can't forget it? Then in my life, don't want to surpass him as a master in piano sound!

"Hehe, everyone calls Yixian a humble gentleman, gentle as jade, that is a praise for your virtues. But in my opinion, you are like a human and not a human, an immortal and not an immortal!"

In Xiao Wan's view, as long as he is a human being, he will inevitably have seven emotions and six desires, joys, angers and sorrows, and he also has Yixian, but he never shows it, isn't this inhuman?

Such an apt and somewhat poisonous description is just because Xiao Wan is a little disappointed in his temperament.

Over the years, Yat-sen has long been accustomed to the occasional ridicule in her words, and every time she arrives, Yat-sen will sigh in her heart, this girl is still innocent when she was a child, and she is the cutest!

With a wry smile, he continued to play his piano and stopped talking. The style of the song turns, the song rises leisurely, between a meal and a mistake, elegant and simple, which makes people feel comfortable.

Yat-sen turned to play this song, and it really had a deep meaning, this song was still the first song he taught himself to play, when she was still young, impetuous, difficult to define, he coaxed himself to learn the piano, cultivate temperament, and this song is the first ancient song he taught me.

In just a few moments, some old things came back one after another, which made me feel infinitely nostalgic......

At that time, the father and mother were still there, the prince and brother were still there, and the imperial grandmother was guarding us with a loving face, how beautiful and peaceful this qiē looked.

Sometimes I wonder if I hadn't been born in this emperor's family, but an ordinary family, far away from the intrigues of the court, and deceived me, would my own family be able to live a peaceful and joyful life, without disasters and difficulties?

If that's the case, at least I won't become like I am now, I only know how to conspire and calculate, step by step, and I can still retain a little bit of the innocent romance of my childhood, and then grow up under the support of my family, find a husband I like, and live this life in peace and joy......

But after all, it was all extravagant hopes, and the queen mother died depressed in loneliness and resentment, and then the prince's brother was involved in a rebellion case for no reason, and finally even the father who once made him extremely reverent, after a period of drunken dreams and death, absurd and decadent days, also left.

In just a few years, my most important relatives, the relatives who love me the most, have left me one by one, and I have lost the love and protection of my relatives and become a lonely person!

When the queen mother died, I cried very sadly, and the imperial grandmother hugged me, without verbal comfort, but wiped away my tears, and then said:

"Don't weep, for if a woman weeps, she is weak. You have to make yourself strong, only when you are strong can you stand in this court and control your own destiny in the future. ”

Later, the imperial grandmother told me that my queen mother was a weak woman, she lived for love all her life, but in the end she died of hatred, she was weak, and she could never become a woman like the queen mother!

When the prince's brother left, I was so sad and wanted to cry, but I didn't dare to cry, and the imperial grandmother still didn't comfort me, but only said one sentence, saying:

"You are the eldest princess of the Northern Wei Dynasty, you have no right to cry, sacrificing a qiē for this country is what you should do in the future!"

I had tears in my eyes, but I had to raise my head and force the tears back, because my grandmother told me that tears are the things of the weak, and if I want to survive in the court, if I want to control my own destiny, I must give up those things and make myself a real strong.

Since then, I haven't cried, and I've never felt the urge to cry, even a few years later, when my father died......

Looking at the white-clothed plain penny all over the palace, facing the coffin of the emperor, those harem concubines, civil and military officials, knelt on the ground, wept bitterly, crying with grief and sorrow, and it was difficult to restrain themselves. But I didn't feel it at all, not even a little sad......

What's wrong with me?

The one lying in the coffin is my father, my biological father, my father who watched me grow up with loving eyes when I was a child, and also the king of a country who gave me glory and wealth and made me the eldest princess that everyone envies, he died, and the queen mother and the prince's brother, in the future, I will never see him again, but why, I didn't even shed a tear for him*?

Ah, I have become so hard-hearted......

This time, I didn't cry, and the imperial grandmother didn't say anything, but her expression showed a trace of sadness.

Why does the imperial grandmother feel sad, obviously, this qiē is what she wants to see!

I don't understand, I really don't understand......

The sound of the piano is far away, and my thoughts are gradually converging, even when I think back to such a sad past, I still don't see half a tear in my eyes, but in my heart, there will be a little uncomfortable.

I can laugh when I'm happy, I can feel a little sad when I'm sad, but I can't cry no matter what......

I can't remember what it was like to cry!

Ever since I met him, my feelings have become a little unstable and out of my control, which has never happened before.

I closed my eyes faintly, let those troubles and troubles disappear with the wind, and when I opened my eyes again, I was still me, the noble eldest princess of the Northern Wei Dynasty - Xiao Wan.

Yat-sen finally put down the lyre and walked slowly to my side, his figure was still chic and elegant, dressed in white Confucian clothes, not a little free and easy, even if he was also dressed in white, but his temperament is really not comparable to ordinary people.

"You're still cuter when you were a kid!"

The corners of Yixian's mouth rose slightly, and the ridiculous tone was very similar to the prince's brother back then, my heart sank, and I was a little displeased, even if Yixian was the prince's brother's uncle, and he was like a brother, but this doesn't mean that he can also call himself my brother!

"Please remember, my brother has always been the only one who is the prince!"

I raised my eyebrows, and the words I said were faint.

"Yes, Yat-sen remembered!"

Although he bowed, there was no respect on his face, only when I was playing with a child's temperament, in his eyes, I should always be that ignorant and innocent and romantic little girl, right?!

remembered the scene when I saw him for the first time, he was sixteen years old, he was in his prime, his literary talent was outstanding, and he was the pride of the sky. Within a year, his father appointed him to become the prince's brother's concubine, and since then, the prince's brother has rarely played with him.

I was nine years old that year, although I didn't see him at that time, but I often heard the palace maids and eunuchs around me mention this person, either praising his handsome appearance, or being very talented, because of the relationship between the prince's brother, I hate him very much!

One day, bored in the imperial garden, I played with the shuttlecock, which was made for me by the prince's brother, I was very precious to it, and I couldn't bear to work hard every time, so I was afraid that the kick would be broken.

That day, the prince's brother broke his promise and did not come to kick the shuttlecock with me, I was a little angry, and kicked the shuttlecock to the tree with force, the tree was too high, and several eunuchs could not take the shuttlecock down. But he easily jumped up the tree, then flew down and returned the shuttlecock to me intact.

I still can't forget the figure of him jumping down from a tree, like an immortal, agile and elegant, transcendent and dusty......

He knelt down in front of me on one knee, and then looked at me with a smile, his eyes were as bright as stars, and he smiled very beautifully, I saw him slowly take my little hand, and then handed the shuttlecock back to my hand.

At that moment, for the first time, a slight ripple appeared in my young heart, and I felt a heart-pounding feeling......

I don't know what kind of emotion it is, but I know that since then, I have followed him stupidly, he likes white clothes, and I have begun to prefer light colors, he likes to play the piano, and I have begun to want to understand the rhythm, and he likes the Book of Songs, so I have memorized the poems by heart......

But within a few years, he told himself that he was going to get married, and he was married to Wei Jingxian, the daughter of Uncle Taishi Wei, she was a beautiful woman, Yan Jingxian was graceful, knowledgeable and courteous, and everyone was beautiful, and he thought it was very right.

Saddened and overwhelmed, I suddenly understood, what does this emotion represent, it turns out, this, is it like?

The funny thing is that my love has ended before it really began......

Later, the family suffered great changes, and in the blow after blow, the lovesickness of the little daughter's family has long become unimportant, and he is also because he is the prince's brother and master, not only the family almost collapsed, and his career was nearly ruined, and his wife also died early due to illness.

Yesterday's things died yesterday, the future is unpredictable, and people can only grasp the present.

If you want to ask me if I still have other intentions for Yixian, I can only sigh lightly, Xiao Wan is no longer the little Wan'er of the past, and Yixian is no longer the high-spirited and dedicated Yixian of the past, we have all changed!

"A few days ago, I saw him, and sure enough, he is a talent, a dragon and a phoenix among people!"

Is he?

It's rare to hear words of appreciation from Yixian's mouth, since he has no intention of career, he has rarely heard him praise a civil official or military general.

"Oh?"

My tone was still faint, and I couldn't hear the joy or anger.

"He's worthy of you!"

“......”

Perhaps, it was my delusion, I actually heard a little helplessness from his tone, this is not like him, he is Yixian, an immortal-like character......

I have to admit that I couldn't see Yat-sen in the past, and even now I still can't see it.

"He's really funny......"

When Gao Chen was mentioned, the corners of my mouth unconsciously raised a beautiful arc.

I don't know why, every time he appears in front of my eyes, he can bring me a bit of strange feelings and realizations, obviously he is a coward who is afraid of death, but he can always do something that surprises me, I don't know when, even my eyes will be uncontrollable on his body.

The next time I met him was in the Imperial Garden, it was also raining that day, he was restless, even the punishment of kneeling did not make people worry, one moment looked up to the sky and sighed, and the other time he shook his head, I don't know what he was thinking in his head. With a purpose, I deliberately approached him as a little eunuch, and only then did I know that I really can't just look at the surface when looking at people.

In fact, I have heard of his talent and learning, the prince and the prince have been our teachers, and I have read his high school policy that year, and I admire him very much, so when I learned that the imperial grandmother pointed me out to him, I didn't have much emotional fluctuations, but I didn't expect that the first time we met that night, my impression of him was completely ruined!

Knowing the gamble between him and Cong'er, I was sure that he could become Cong'er's teacher, so I secretly pushed him and told Cong'er who wrote the policy, and the next thing was just as I expected, Cong'er went to apprentice in person, and he really didn't disappoint me, and he taught Cong'er very carefully, which is commendable.

This is the first time I've had a slightly better impression of him.

In those days, in order to find out the spies who had infiltrated the capital, I was often absent from the palace, and when I returned to the palace, I often heard the royal doctor mention that he had come to me, and I thought that I had promised him that day that if it rained, I would go to make an umbrella for him again. It's just that the sky is very beautiful, and the sky is clear and sunny for a few days, so I don't need to make an umbrella for him.

When I returned to the palace again, I heard that he had been kneeling in the Imperial Garden for another three days, and that the Imperial Physician had been summoned to treat him.

How did I know, as soon as he saw me, he actually laughed stupidly a few times, and I realized in a moment that he had been waiting for me to see him?

I was a little unwilling, and deliberately didn't look at him, and when he saw that I was angry, he didn't dare to stare at me anymore.

Yang Anyuan and Li Hao are the same Jinshi as him, the three of them have a very good relationship, I heard Aunt Qiushui (Lao Bustard) say, it is common for the three of them to go to the Drunken Immortal Building to drink and admire the moon together, and they are a few "close friends" who push cups and cups!

The two of them didn't have any scruples when they spoke, you said a word to me, and then brought out the broken sleeve, I was a little angry, almost said "presumptuous", glared at them a few times, and he was just red, but he didn't shirk it, just as he acquiesced......

He, like me?!

Before I could figure out the clue, the imperial doctor's medicine pillow fell in response, and the scene became very embarrassing, the imperial doctor's face was pale, and he also turned pale, and immediately let go of the imperial doctor's hand, and said for no reason, saying:

This official doesn't like men!

I couldn't laugh or cry, this sentence was really ambiguous, and the meaning was unclear.

So, when I was helping him with the medicine, I deliberately teased him, and his reaction was funny, which made me want to bully him.

"My lord, have you ever embraced a woman like this?"

Stroking his face, I don't know why I suddenly asked this question, but I think he was born so handsome and amorous, there must be many women who admire him, and he is not ignorant of the world, and there must be a confidante around him, right?

Suddenly, I wanted to know what kind of woman she was, and she could be so favored by him!

How do you know, he actually got angry, grabbed my hand, met his eyes, and found that his dark jade-like eyes were so clear and transparent, as if he could see the bottom of his heart at first sight.

I was a little surprised, and a little frightened, because his clear eyes seemed to be able to detect the darkness hidden deep in my heart, and when a cold light flashed in his eyes, I first broke free from his hand, and then lowered my head and stopped looking at him.

He took the opportunity to ask me for my name, and I casually told him "Little Bowl", but I didn't know that he changed it to Little Bowl, and I didn't want to change my mouth when I called it.

Little bowl, little Wan'er......

When I heard this title again, it seemed that there was a gap between life and death, because the prince brother who used to call me by this name was long gone.

It's just a title, he can call him whatever he wants!

In this way, he became an exception for me, but what I didn't expect was that once this exception was made for him, a second and a third would appear one after another......

Until now, I have to admit that I have begun to care about him, and gradually began to understand him, and sometimes he would inadvertently show the eyes of a wounded little beast, just like that day, when he jumped into the pool, obviously trying to die, but pretending to be smiling, so that others would think that he was just joking.

I was angry, really angry, I didn't expect him to be so disrespectful of his life.

When he hugged me from behind and kept repeating sorry words in my ear, at that moment, I suddenly realized that I really cared about him, I was really scared, so scared, so scared, afraid that he would die......

He is no longer insignificant, for it will not be long before I will marry him and become his wife!"

......

The rain of this season came and went quickly, and before I knew it, the rain stopped, and the whole valley seemed to have been washed, fresh and quiet. It's like my heart, after some struggle and emptiness, suddenly became calm and clear, and I became a little more honest with myself.

Taking a deep breath, I smiled and turned to look at Yat-sen, and said:

"Yat-sen, the rain has stopped, let's go......"

After saying that, I took the lead and left the long pavilion.

Yi Xian looked at my departing back, there was a complicated look in his eyes, thinking of the smile on the corner of my mouth when I mentioned him, Yi Xian suddenly understood something, but in his heart it was as if he had lost something.

......

He only wished that he could be silently by her side forever, and that his inability to protect her brother had made him feel deeply guilty, and this time, no matter what, he would have to protect her from any harm.

The Buddha said that suffering is not suffering, happiness is not happiness, it is just a temporary obsession. If you cling to one thought, you will be trapped in one thought, and if you let go of one thought, you will be free in your heart.

But in this world, how many people can really let go of their obsessions and truly transcend the world?

Picking up the lyre, Yat-sen also left the long pavilion, and a qiē seemed to be restored to its original appearance......