Chapter 45 I don't see you for a day, and I think like crazy
A master and a group of students came to a farmland, and now it is the season of planting seedlings, and the field is full of busy figures.
A very cute scholar who was only ten years old was also in this group of people, and everyone around him was lamenting that the weather was hot and uncomfortable, only he quietly looked at the busy and sweaty figure in the farmland, and his little head thought of some of the things described in the book, and before the master could say what this group of people were doing, he had already guessed that this was rice planting.
Planting the green seedlings in the field, looking down to see the sky in the water.
The six pure roots are the way, and the regression is the forward.
"Teacher, are they all farmers?"
Pointing to the people in the field, the little scholar asked curiously.
The Master knew that this child was the most inquisitive, and he was always happy to answer his students' questions.
"No, they are not farmers, but serfs."
Serfs, also a type of slave, were born dependent on the nobility and had a lower status than the commoners.
"Didn't His Majesty the Emperor make a decree to abolish slavery, why are there still serfs?"
Xiao Shizi was puzzled by this irrational phenomenon.
The teacher's answer was also light, and said:
"That's when they volunteered to become serfs."
"Why?"
Obviously, becoming a commoner can get rid of the lowly status, can not be enslaved by the nobles, can not grovel, and serve the master.
"Because in this era, commoners are more difficult to live than serfs, and becoming serfs is only to hand over the eight layers of the annual harvest to the nobles, and at least two layers can barely survive.
Xiao Shizi couldn't help but show a sad look on his face, and asked:
"Then the court doesn't care? The emperor who loves the people like a son doesn't care? The loyal and upright officials in the court don't care?"
The master touched the little scholar's head soothingly, and at this moment, the master suddenly felt that he could not even answer this question, so he just pursed his lips and lamented for a long time.
The little scholar did not hear the master's answer for a long time, and looked up at the master strangely, but saw that the master looked into the distance and actually shed tears.
"You will all become protégés of the Son of Heaven in the future, and some of you will also become the pillars of the court. Entering the official career is your future destiny. Now answer the master's question, do you want to be an official? What are you doing to be an official?"
Unlike other teachers, he likes to take students to experience the people's feelings, to go outside to broaden their horizons, and he prefers to ask students how they want to be rather than teach them how to do it.
Maybe the question of 'do you want to be an official' is a bit redundant, because after the students of Guozijian are all powerful people in the court, it is a matter that has already been decided to enter the official career, so there is no other answer to this question except for saying that they want to.
As for what you are doing as an official?
For yourself!
For the glory of the family!
For the sake of the country!
The answer is inconsistent, but most of them have not been able to break away from these three types of rhetoric.
Speaking of oneself, it is rare to say one's own heart for the official position*; and for the sake of the family, there is inevitably an inexplicable resentment and helplessness in the heart; as for the sake of the national community, how do you know what the national society is at this young age, most of them are grandstanding, maybe it is rare to have a few lofty aspirations, but they are still unpolished rough stones.
The master only snorted when he heard this, and his appearance of pinching his old beard was extremely elegant, and he said:
"For his own sake, even if the future official becomes a prime minister above 10,000 people under one person, if he doesn't make much achievements, he will only be a lonely and unknown person, and no one may even remember his name in a few decades."
"For the glory of the family, even if the family really prospers because of you, the flame will not be extinguished, but once the country is destroyed, no matter how prosperous the family is, it will fall and prosper again, and after a hundred years, how many people will remember that this family once existed?"
"For the sake of the country's society, its merits may be praised by the current dynasty and recorded in the history of this dynasty, but after a thousand years, the vicissitudes of life and the times have changed, and you are just so few pens recorded in the annals of history, and who will deeply remember what you have done?"
"It can be seen from this that the glory and wealth, and the honor and disgrace behind the death, are all vain, the gain is indifferent, the loss is calm, the fight for its inevitability, go with the flow, the heart is not ashamed, not trapped in love, this is the way for scholars to settle down."
How can everything be as good as you want, but it's just asking for a question worthy of your heart!
Master's words are always full of wisdom and the way of life, and for students who are still children, they may not be able to understand the truth of this, but as long as they are firmly in mind, they will understand one day.
The master turned to look at the pair of brothers behind him, among all the students, only the two brothers of the Gao family were different. Everyone gave many reasons, but they were the only ones who were silent and couldn't help asking:
"Why are you two officials?"
The younger brother is active, courageous and strategic, and will be a tiger general in the future, but I saw that he did not care about those answers, and when he answered the master's question, his eyes were shining, full of confidence, and he said:
"Naturally, it is to unify the world!"
The elder brother is happy to be quiet, he is good at school, he is good at reading, and whenever he has an idea, he happily forgets to eat, and it is he who asks the master questions.
"Wish...... The world is peaceful!"
Xiao Shizi said this softly.
These two children both amazed the master, at a young age, the world blurted out, one is the way to follow the king's hegemony, the other is to follow the path of the king, the personality is opposite, the ideal is also completely different, but the road is the same.
It's so much fun......
"You are still too young, this 'world' is still so narrow in your eyes, when you grow up, if you still don't change your original intention, you will go on hard, see if you can get it?"
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In my sleep, the teacher's words gradually drifted away, and I couldn't help but wake up, and when I looked up, I actually dozed off in the Hanlin Academy, and cleaned up the books on the table with a little hands, and yawned a few times.
I don't know why I suddenly thought of this past, maybe I felt a little emotional because of Che Huai's visit a few days ago. It was a pleasant conversation with him, and it was nothing more than a matter of taking what each one needed and getting what he wanted.
I promised to help him ascend to the position of head of the Hanlin Academy, and all he needed to do was kick his opponent Motoyoshi out, and I would naturally reciprocate.
It's not difficult to control Che Huai, go upstairs and draw the ladder, as long as I help him get what he wants, let him rely on my power, go up to this attic, and want to go down again, it will be difficult.
To set him up and abolish him is only in my thoughts.
Thinking about it like this, Che Huai is an official for himself, running for a bright future, shining on the lintel, and it is not in vain to come to this world to go this way.
So what am I being an official for?
Wish...... The world is peaceful?!
I couldn't help but smile and shook my head, now I think that what the teacher said is still a little reasonable, at that time, we were still too 'narrow'!
This world is really vast and boundless, even if I stand in the highest Tongtian Pavilion in the Imperial City of the Northern Wei Dynasty, I am only a leopard in the tube, and I can only see it;
This world is also very small, as small as the map on the desktop, the world is divided and combined, jumping on the paper, at a glance.
Time can indeed change a lot of things, our vision has become broader, our ideals have become clearer, what we think and feel has changed, but the original heart has not changed.
If you ask, what is the original intention?
That is: the world is unified and returns to peace!
Yes, this is my original intention, and it is also Gao Wei's long-cherished wish!
Wen is Anbang, and Wu can set the country.
This oath may have been regarded as a momentary blood and righteousness of two teenagers back then, but now it has become the ideal and goal of two people, and it is no longer an unattainable dream!
I will definitely become the great prime minister who controls the power of this country, and Gao Wei will become the great Sima who holds the power of the army, and then it will be the time when we will change this country with our own hands until the divided world is unified again!
Therefore, I need to continue to accumulate political experience and design power in the ups and downs of the Huan Sea, in order to obtain higher power, while Gao Wei needs to have the opportunity to make meritorious contributions, and then realize his ideals and ambitions, and get the highest glory that a general can get, so that the world will become complete in his hands again.
We seek completely different things, but we all have the same goal......
I thought that was what I wanted. No, I should say that this has always been what I wanted.
Years of dormancy, years of planning and calculation, and years of flattery, aren't they just to fulfill this ultimate long-cherished wish, and not to violate the original intention of this scholar?
So, even if I was asked to marry the princess at that time, I readily agreed, didn't all the qiē already be carried out in my design?!
From the very beginning, I've been playing the next game, a game that I'm playing by myself.
I was born to be a clever setter, and perhaps until now, all the qiē have been designed by me and run according to my predetermined trajectory, as if all the qiē can be controlled by me.
But I seem to be able to control a qiē, but I can't control my heart, this qiē is all because of her, she is the eldest princess of the Northern Wei Dynasty, my destined wife, and my lover!
In a certain sense, she is also a silly girl, who has obviously sensed my ambition and*, but still chooses to be by my side, protect me, and indulge me, because she is in love with me, a little more than I love her.
I also love her so much, and my love for her is also sincere and heartfelt, she has brought me an unprecedented emotional experience, it is the first heartbeat, it is the first time to forget myself, and it is also the first time to ignore a qiē......
Because she, ambition and *, have become less important.
Loving her and guarding her has become my first responsibility.
I thought I could do the 36-word mantra given by the teacher:
Gain indifferently, lose calmly, strive for its inevitability, go with the flow, be worthy of the heart, not trapped in love.
But once it was replaced by her, I couldn't be calm, and I couldn't help but be in love!
In my short twenty years, I have been like an empty shell, but I have an incomparably powerful curiosity* that can only be filled with books and knowledge.
So I like to read books, study, accumulate a lot of knowledge that I can learn, I have learned a lot, I have learned conspiracy, I have learned to be sophisticated, I have also learned to observe words and colors, I can clearly know what the other party is thinking, from the language, from the facial expressions, from the behavior, which almost gives me the ability to see through others at a glance.
This may be what ordinary people call talented, it does give me a lot of wonderful feelings, but I can't tell what it feels like to like someone.
The first time I had this question, it was because of catkins, it was she who let me know, it turned out that even if I was well-read and extremely smart, I was not a complete person, because I didn't even know what I liked.
But what really taught me what I liked and gave me the feeling of 'love' was she, the princess, Xiao Wan, my wife, and my ...... Wife!
It was her gentleness that taught me what it was like to be loved by someone, and it was also her strength and courage that made me know what kind of courage and sincerity it takes to love someone!
At this time, I realized that maybe what I had always thought was not what I really wanted, maybe it was just the mission given to me by talent, and my selfishness told me what I really wanted!
......
Yes, I now know that what I really want is her, the princess, I want to see her, I want to see her, I want to go crazy thinking about her!
For four whole days, I have been staying in the Hanlin Academy for four whole days, dealing with official documents and sorting out ancient books and classics every day, I have never felt like now, I feel that it is such a boring thing to stay in the Hanlin Academy, I haven't been home for four days!
This qiē is all for the so-called assessment of becoming a lecturer, and of course, Yuanji, as a competitor this time, is also in the same situation. It's just that I'm better than him, because Che Huai is already preparing to give him little shoes to wear, chasing the reason, and blame Yuanji for showing his attitude from the beginning to go to the chair of the master, which obviously didn't take Che Huai seriously.
So no matter how good Yuan Ji is, someone can always pick out the bones in the egg, and with Zhou Wen in charge, Yuan Ji wants to take the position, even if his father is outside to promote it, and he runs in many ways, because it is difficult to touch the internal affairs of the Hanlin Academy, the result is very variable.
What's more, this time, the bachelor's examination claimed to be in the name of fair competition and merit, which was like the imperial examination, and everyone stayed in the separate study room of the Hanlin Academy for four days and three nights, and no outsiders were allowed to visit, no leave of duty without permission, and no exchange of heads and ears.
These days, I do my best in everything I ask for, I review the official documents I have to deal with as usual, and I answer the questions I ask in the interview.
I just want to finish this torturous assessment, and I look forward to the end of this long night tonight, and then I can be let go home tomorrow, otherwise, I'm really going crazy!
Ah, there are beautiful women, and I will never forget them. I don't see it for a day, and I think like crazy.
Princess, princess, I miss you so much, do you miss me?
Pushed open the window, held his cheeks and looked up at the bright moon in the sky, and was distracted.
"Alas, if I knew that this Laoshzi assessment was going to be tortured by such inhuman torture and beat me to death, I wouldn't want that waiter to lecture on the bachelor, princess, princess, I miss you so much, if I can see you right now, even if I die, I am willing!"
I fell to the edge of the window and sighed sadly.
"But the truth?!"
"Of course it's true!"
I didn't have time to think about it, and I took it over. When I came back to my senses, my heart was full of ecstasy, and the shadow of the white-clothed shadow that I had been longing for for a long time had already been deeply reflected in my eyes and engraved in my heart.
"Hah...... Ha...... I must be dreaming. ”
I'm smiling in my mouth, but I can't help but cry in my eyes.
"Fool's ......"
The white-clothed shadow stood outside the window like this, pulled my neckline, and kissed my lips without stopping!
This kiss came so suddenly but so naturally, lingering and a little bitter, delicate and sweet, as if to tell Qing Qing about the bitter love for each other in the past few days......
Against Emei, I took a breath, and my heart was already half sweet and half surprised, this was the first time she took the initiative to kiss me, she kissed me!
"I'm willing to die even if I die!"
I couldn't help but say this, so that I could see her, and for her affectionate kiss.
"Your life is mine, I don't allow it, you are not allowed to go anywhere!"
Her voice is still gentle and inviolable, it is a catastrophe that I cannot escape in my life, and it is also the fate of my great affection!
"Good!"
As soon as the words fell, through the window, I leaned out half of my body and hugged her, and continued to kiss her in one place, like a flower mist, hazy and far-reaching, infatuated and difficult to part.
How long has it been like a spring dream?
Tonight is destined to be a sleepless night......