I looked down at the rosary that had fallen from the ground, slightly stunned.

This rosary is so close to me......

I didn't know what the people around me were looking at at this moment, so I couldn't help but take a step forward, and then slowly squatted down and picked up the string of prayer beads.

Bodhi is the name of the supreme Buddha.

This is a string of one hundred and eight stars and moon Bodhi beads, it is the seed of Huang Teng, each surface is distributed with dense small black dots, the hole through which the rope passes is the bud eye, from the surface the bud eye and the small black dot gather like the stars and the moon, so it is called the star and moon Bodhi.

And the one hundred and eight bodhi seeds on top of this one means to eliminate one hundred and eight kinds of afflictions, to seek physical and mental stability, and to become desireless and desireless.

But it turns out that even if you have cultivated to the state of the old lady of the palace in your life, there will still be karma in your heart that is difficult to eliminate.

I gently brushed the dust on the Buddha beads, held them in my palm, raised them above my head, and bowed down slowly to approach the old lady of the palace, wanting to return the Buddha beads to their original owners.

It's just that the old lady of the palace stretched out her slightly old and slightly trembling hands, but she didn't take the string of Buddhist beads from my palm, and asked me to gently push my hands holding the rosary to the side, but they seemed to want to touch my face......

"You lean over and let the old man take a good look at ......."

At this moment, the old lady's voice was a little hoarse, which showed that she was trying her best to suppress the excitement in her heart.

The order of the elders, dare not disobey.

I bowed my head slightly, and then, as the old lady wished, I knelt down in front of her, so that I could teach her to look carefully.

The old lady first looked at me quietly, her eyes were a little less fierce than before, and a little more kind of old man's kindness, but I could feel that this kind of love was not for me, but wanted to give it through me to a person who no one could replace in the old lady's heart.

The slightly trembling hands finally slowly touched my eyebrows, as if caressing the treasures of the world, careful and extremely affectionate, and the warmth transmitted in the palms is the love of the elderly, licking the calf.

I couldn't help but tremble slightly, this is the first time, I feel so truly the pity and caress from the blood and family, although I know that this gentle and warm maternal love is not for me, but for my mother, and many years ago, my mother also gave me this love, without reservation......

It's just that I can no longer feel this love, just like the old lady has lost the person who can let her give this love, and this hidden pain in my heart is also infinitely magnified, and at this moment it is passed between me and the old lady without reservation, and the opportunity for all this is that I am very similar to my mother.

I suddenly understood that perhaps the real unrelieved karma in the heart of the old lady was the unreparable regret left by her mother's early death......

"Everything is like yesterday...... Everything is not the same again......"

The old lady's tone was transcendent and free and easy, but it was more of a sigh of impermanence in life, and among them, there was more suffering, because tears flashed in the old lady's eyes unconsciously.

Dreams, after all, will wake up to a moment.

"Old lady......"

I looked at my upright figure reflected in the old lady's eyes, and I only felt that if the old lady came out of the situation, with her old man's transparent eyes to see through the world, everything I wanted to hide would be hidden. Taking advantage of the fact that the status quo is still under control, I have to speak out first to disrupt these entanglements.

Hearing my soft call of pretending to be confused, the old lady's somewhat sloppy gaze gradually gathered, and my figure became clear again in her eyes, but at this moment the love in her eyes gradually decreased, but there was a little more estrangement, and suspicion suddenly appeared.

With a smile on my face, I watched the old lady slowly withdraw her hands, sent the string of Buddhist beads in her hand again, and said with emotion:

The old lady cared for Gao Chen so much, which flattered Gao Chen. ”

Gao Chen, Gao Chen......

That's right, the young man in front of him is a disciple of the Gao clan of the Northern Wei Dynasty.

The old lady's gaze at me gradually became a little sharper, because she saw through my superficial smile at a glance, and felt a little angry, so she did not rush to take the Buddha beads from my hand, but changed her tone and reprimanded bluntly:

"Ling Zun Gaozhen is upright and loyal, learning and cultivating, filial piety and purity, and an example of people. As the saying goes: the father is watching his will, the father is not watching his deeds, and he has not changed his father's way for three years, which can be described as filial piety. Do you introspect yourself, what you have done so far, is there a loss of filial piety?"

The old lady's sudden sternness surprised everyone present, not only because the old lady did not treat Gao Chen as a guest at all, but as if she was reprimanding the children of the clan, without mercy.

It has been several years since I was so severely reprimanded by the elders, and this sudden change can not help but make me a little shaken, but it also rings a warning in my heart, because as the old lady said, I am gradually drifting away on the road of power, and I am gradually about to forget my father's kindness to me, so if I indulge in virtue, I will have so many worries and harm others.

I am like a child who has done something wrong at the moment, holding the Buddha beads tightly in my hand, bowing my head in shame in front of the old lady, and sincerely pleading:

"Gao Chen is ashamed, he does have the careful teachings of his loving father, he has a loss in filial piety, and he is not virtuous, and he is ashamed to be a son of man. ”

But then I felt that the old lady had something to say in this remark, which was by no means as simple as what she seemed, could it be that she was already doubting me?

As soon as I thought of this, I couldn't help but cautiously probe:

"The old lady knows the family strictly?"

The corners of the old lady's mouth only rose slightly, and there seemed to be wisdom in her indifferent gaze.

"When Ling Zun went to Luoyang to study, he was younger than you, but your achievements now have already surpassed Ling Zun back then.

"Jia Yan once went to Luoyang to study?"

I couldn't help but be surprised, and if it weren't for the old lady telling me about this past, I wouldn't have been able to know why.

"Ling Zun came to Luoyang to study alone with his lonely courage, wanting to seek a way to save the country and survive. ”

Then the old lady said something meaningful, saying:

"Your temperament is not as good as Lingzun, but the ambition of father and son is in the same vein......"

Hearing this, the expression on my face was very different, but my gaze became extraordinarily deep.

Seeking a way to save the country and survive, do you have the same ambition in your heart......

"Gao Chen has a perverse temperament since he was a child, and his personality is stubborn, after all, he has to bear the teachings of the family strictly, and he does not dare to compare with the family strict, and now the so-called achievements are just opportunistic and good at climbing, and he really can't talk about any ambitions in his heart, if he really wants to say what he wants, he is probably unwilling to do so!"

The old lady saw that there was a kind of arrogance between the eyebrows of the young man in front of her, who was quite familiar with him, and there was a pride that refused to give in easily, which was the most common characteristic seen in young people with arrogance, and this arrogance was melted into the bones, which could not be concealed by ordinary disguises. But too much arrogance is conceit, which is also the most common shortcoming of young people.

But the young man in front of him still knows how to forbear, which is a special quality that is difficult to see in a hot-blooded young man, because it takes years of experience and the tempering of the surrounding environment to be created, just like a sharp mountain peak is eroded by frost, wind and snow day after day, and it is possible to smooth out the edges and corners.

The total amount that this young man has experienced in just twenty years has long exceeded the scope of what he should bear at his age......

"It is said that filial piety is loyal to the minister, and only those who are filial to their parents can be loyal to the king. You were born into a famous family, and you are the son of a high family, inheriting the ancestry, and now you have a noble status, and you have to be reused in the court, and your career is smooth, and your future is limitless. Where does that unwillingness come from?"

Although the children of the scholar clan often talk about loyalty, filial piety, benevolence and righteousness, how many people can really do it in this chaotic world, and the sharp eyes of the old lady are also telling me that all false cover-ups will be hidden in her deep gaze......

I smiled bitterly, and my weight fell on my crossed legs, and my hands were put back in front of my knees, and I sat down in front of the old lady.

I know very well that the purpose of the old lady to deliberately make such a criticism is to distinguish what kind of person I am, Gao Chen, and what does Gao Chen really want in his heart?

"When the younger generation was young, the qualifications were dull and unambitious, and the elders of the clan also knew that the younger generation was stubborn and unworthy of cultivation, so they did not give high hopes, even if they later entered the national prison and were carefully taught by the teachers, they were not able to be wise and proficient, and apply what they had learned. Fortunately, the younger generation is good at self-knowledge, and has not been too obsessed with the way of official career. ”

Speaking of this, I also had a rather proud tone, which made the children of the family present hear this, and they can't help but feel that this person is nothing more than that.

When the old lady heard this, it was rare for her to smile at the corner of her mouth, the children of the family were uneven, and it was common for a few children to come out.

"If you are so complacent, why are you unwilling?"

I smiled indifferently and said:

"The courtesy, the high and the low, the young and the old, the rich and the poor, are all proportionate. There is a difference between the rich and the low, and there is also a difference between the rich and the rich, but each is just in its own place. Just as the old lady said, the younger generation was born in a famous family, and they are the children and grandchildren of the Gao family, and now the Gao family is in a high position in the middle of the court, even if the younger generation is not both talented and virtuous, but it is also long and noble, and people envy it, so how can they be unwilling? Originally, the younger generation was also self-contained and complacent, but later, a subordinate guard scolded the junior three times in public, but directly woke up the junior!"

As soon as these words came out, everyone who heard them was quite stunned, how could a child of a dignified family have suffered such humiliation and be whipped in public by a subordinate guard?

"You were beaten in public by one of the guards?"

The old lady's tone was vaguely caring, but everyone was more concerned about who this person was, and the guards were so bold and reckless that they didn't pay too much attention to it.

I laughed a few times as if I laughed at myself, and it stands to reason that being whipped by a lowly person is as humiliating as being stripped in public for the children of the family, but in my mouth it is so understated, but the unwillingness is overflowing.

"Yes, one of the subordinate guards under the command of the Turkic Khan, in front of my uncle and the minister of civil and military affairs, whipped me three times, it was really bloody, and the pain was terrible!"

As I spoke, my hands clenched into fists, and I suddenly felt a faint pain in my back, perhaps it was the hysterical feeling caused by my inextricable knot, because that day was really unforgettable for me!

I gritted my teeth and continued:

"But the pain is good, the pain is very valuable, and only such a sharp pain can wake me up from my flashy dreams. In a poor and weak country, no matter how valuable the children of a noble family are, they can't compare to a subordinate guard under the command of the Turkic Khan!"

What kind of famous family, what kind of noble status, in the face of the disparity in national strength, is a sad joke.

"Is this your unwillingness?"

"Yes, this is the unwillingness of the younger generation. The younger generation has no talent and no virtue, and is narrow-minded, how can he easily give up after suffering this great shame in his life, so on the same day, the younger generation made an oath: He will teach the Turks to pay back a hundred times the humiliation they suffered today. ”

Hearing my fierce voice, the old lady frowned slightly, but she did not make a light judgment because of my words, but asked a rhetorical question, and said:

"Are you really a person who will repay you? If so, you want to brush such humiliation, but I am afraid that it will not be easy!"

If you want to seek justice from the Turks, you can't get it unless you are a country with a unified world and a prosperous national strength!

Is this what Gao Chen wants?!

"Yes or no, it doesn't matter now. The old lady should also know that the younger generation is like this, but if there is something she wants to do, even if she fights for the head and blood, she must fight regardless of the gains and losses. ”

The old lady only smiled slightly when she heard this, and said:

"Then what are you fighting for in Luoyang this time?"

......

I clasped my fists and said with a smile:

"The world is bustling, all for profit, and the world is bustling, all for profit. The younger generations are naturally here to compete for fame and fortune!"

Such straightforward words made the old lady laugh.

"Okay, what a sentence to fight for fame and fortune......"

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