Early this summer morning.

There is grassy rain and dew and three or two plum-like stars.

Hatsumi got up.

As usual, I went to the well and picked up two buckets of water, washed the clothes and dried them in the yard, and after my mother cooked the noodles, she used tongs to pick up the carbon ash from the sporadic flames in the earthen stove, put two unpeeled raw corn into it, and then buried it and simmered slowly.

After Chu Dapeng left, he may be a little unaccustomed, but this family is much calmer, Jiang Feng works in Zhang Jiqi Fengdu fish powder shop every day with his original intention, and goes to and from school on time for the first time.

Of course, the pimple that burned in this house is still there, and the first time I saw it, I will never forget the situation in the city's First People's Hospital in the early morning, lying on the iron frame covered in bloody corpses, crying and almost fainting, never knew that the original intention of speaking was actually lying next to me and calling my father.

Severe wind and rain enveloped this devastated family.

On the night of the second day of Chu Dapeng's car accident, those relatives, friends and neighbors in Hongshan Lane, who were usually called mothers-in-law, aunts, uncles and uncles, were all standing in the house, tossing and turning and saying those few words: "If a person dies, he can't come back." "Besides, God wants to accept people, and the emperor himself can't do anything about it. At that time, she knelt in the yard and burned nine catties and three taels of paper money, and after putting the paper ashes in a cloth bag, she made pillows for her stepfather. There were six fires rising at the gate of the courtyard, the smoke was dispersed, and the light of the fire reflected on people's faces, giving people an inhuman feeling in the sobbing sound of the mother.

When I first saw that I was extremely tired and extremely awake, in those days, I couldn't sleep all day and night, so I stayed up like this, doing what she could and couldn't do, until Zhang Yunqi came back, he didn't know that there was a tsunami in her heart the moment she saw him, but she stood quietly and didn't let anyone know.

On that day, when she returned to the adobe hut from the funeral in the mountains, my mother seemed to have lost her sense of grief and often sat in the courtyard in a daze. Perhaps grief lasts at the extreme, and it ceases to grieve. I can't empathize with my mother when I first see it. Why did this gambler and drunkard earn so many tears from his mother?

She thought about it repeatedly, and couldn't think of anything good about him.

One year, the family's pig was killed, and the money was swept away by him, and he hid in a neighbor's house to play pai gow, and did not return home for three days and three nights. There was no food at home, and his mother carried her on her back to call him home, but he lost so much that he beat and scolded his mother, and drove him back, but he still returned to the casino, and then he lost until he had nothing left, so he came back.

In her 17 years of life, there were so many such things that she was numb. This family once made her feel that life is to endure, pessimism is the basic attitude of life, and there will be no long-term happiness in life. When she was very young, she always liked to be alone and stared at the burning clouds in the sky, and before she had formed a complete understanding of the world, she always wanted to go far away and find something.

She felt a warm spot far away in the sky.

She remembered Zhang Yunqi.

The light blue dawn, the wind blew the sky clean.

A few small silver stars, a scimitar-like moon, nailed diagonally to the sky.

Before going out after breakfast for the first time, she used tongs to pick up the soot in the earthen stove, and the two corns had been simmered, and the smell of the charcoal fire was bubbling out, and she packed them in a bag and took them out.

Yesterday after school, Yunqi took her to go shopping, and met a vendor selling roasted corn on Ximen Street, he ran over to buy it, grinning while eating, saying that he hadn't eaten roasted corn in his hometown for a long time, and he also said that when he was in elementary school, Ji Ling would go to his hometown to play every summer vacation, and secretly ran to other people's fields to pick corn with him, and roasted it on the mountain to eat.

When I came to No. 1 Middle School, when I passed the football field, the track was empty, Yunqi didn't come to run today, and when I first saw the roasted corn in my hand, it seemed to be a little cold.

She pursed her lips and continued to walk forward, on a boulevard, she met Lin Zihao a little unexpectedly, she didn't think about why this boy appeared here so early, she nodded at him, it was a hello, and when she was about to leave, Lin Zihao, who was standing motionless in front, called her.

Hatsumi asked, "Is there something wrong?"

Lin Zihao was silent for a while, and suddenly said, "I'm sorry." ”

I didn't understand at first sight: "What?"

"Your Daddy's ......"

"This has nothing to do with you, you don't have to think about it. ”

"But...... Don't you understand what I'm thinking?"

"I understand. ”

"I like you. ”

"I don't like you. This sentence almost blurted out at first sight, and she went straight past him.

"Is it because of Zhang Yunqi?" Lin Zihao's voice was hoarse.

"This has nothing to do with you. Chu Jian stopped, and after a while, she turned around and took out a few banknotes from her schoolbag, folded them neatly and handed them to Lin Zihao: "This money is for you." ”

"What do you mean?"

"Last time, everyone asked me to have a drink, I didn't have any money, and then you paid for it privately, right? Thank you, but I don't know how much money you spent, I only have these now, I'm really sorry, I originally wanted to save more and give it to you, how much do I still owe, you tell me, I'll pay you back when I save enough." (Note: The plot thread is in Chapter 35)

Lin Zihao's body couldn't help shaking, and he suddenly felt that he was so cheap. However, many times, the most hurtful thing is not the other party's desperation, but the insistence of illusion: "If this money is from Zhang Yunqi, will you return it to him?"

In the face of questioning, she couldn't understand Lin Zihao's thinking at first sight, she just felt that if she owed someone else, she should pay it back. If you have to compare, it was not him Lin Zihao but Zhang Yunqi that day, Zhang Yunqi would never hide from her and invite everyone to drink in her name in private. What is the point of asking for this face? She is poor, and she can't afford to ask for it, but she won't feel that life is meaningless because she is poor, but this boy from a well-off family in front of her will not understand this, he is always self-centered, he always talks loudly, and he doesn't understand that forcibly giving away the dignity of others is also a disguised discrimination! He doesn't understand that what she needs is a normal heart of equal treatment.

She said to him, "Why do you compare yourself to Zhang Yunqi in everything? You are not the same kind of people at all. ”

Lin Zihao's eyes were red, in fact, this boy was good enough among his peers, but the growth of the young man was too slow, he didn't have enough life experience and mature eyes to look at the problem, and the girl in front of him had been fighting on the most difficult road since she was a child, and her cognition of life had reached a deeper level, he couldn't understand her mind at all, and his right and wrong cause and effect were always very direct: "You like Zhang Yunqi." ”

Chujian nodded: "Yes, I like Zhang Yunqi." ”

Lin Zihao clenched his fists, his good-looking face became distorted, and his eyes were scarlet: "What is Zhang Yunqi better than me? Looks? Achievements? Yes! I don't need you to tell me, I know now that he is very rich, he opened a company at a young age, and he knows a lot of officials, but are you the kind of power girl who loves vanity? Don't you know? What is rare is Ji Ling, Ji Chong's daughter! He is a soft eater! Without Ji Ling's relationship, can he Zhang Yunqi have today? You're a girl from a poor family, will he take it to heart?!"

Hatsumi took a deep look at the sky in the woods, and then at the somewhat hysterical boy in front of her, her face was pale and bloodless, but her voice was calm as if she were saying something ordinary: "And then? I still like him." ”

Lin Zihao smiled, the laughter made people shudder, his imprisoned father and collapsed family situation and the ridicule of others did not crush this proud young man, but at this moment, vicious flowers had grown wantonly in the depths of his desperate heart!

He suddenly took out a fruit knife from his pocket, crossed the first sight and walked straight to the same way he came, and his voice was hoarse: "You know what? ”

"What are you going to do?"

At first sight, she thought that Lin Zihao couldn't think of self-harm, so she hesitated for a while, and immediately followed Lin Zihao's direction to chase after her, but Lin Zihao walked quickly, which made her feel more and more uneasy, although she didn't know what Lin Zihao was going to do, but she quickened her pace.

Crossing the boulevard and going up to their building, there were people passing by in twos and threes, and they shouted at Lin Zihao's back at the first time: "What are you going to do, you wait a minute! Everyone grabbed him!"

Most of the people on the stairs were a little inexplicable, they didn't react, Lin Zihao rushed upstairs without saying a word, and when he first saw him panting and followed, when he came to their floor, he saw Zhang Yunqi and Wang Xiaokai standing on the edge of the corridor wall and chatting, facing outward, Lin Zihao put his hand in his pocket, as if he was afraid of alarming Zhang Yunqi, he looked like an ordinary person walking, unhappy, but only more than ten steps away from Zhang Yunqi's back.

At that moment, Chujian's heartbeat seemed to stop beating, she finally understood what Lin Zihao was going to do, she didn't have time to think about anything, and rushed over desperately: "Yunqi!

Zhang Yunqi heard shouts and fierce footsteps, turned his head, and a cold light reflecting the sun pierced into his eyes, and then heard the sound of a rag being torn in half, and then, two figures appeared in front of him, Chujian, who was in front of him and reached out to grab something, and Lin Zihao, who was holding a knife in his hand.

The knife was already stuck in Hatsumi's chest.

It's like being bitten by a poisonous snake, and the blood clots instantly!

At that moment, Zhang Yunqi's head fell into a state of vertigo, his heart was cold to the freezing point, and a tremor similar to a swing gushed out from the inside of his body, almost collapsing: "I'm fucking you! I'm going to kill your whole family!"

Zhang Yunqi kicked over Lin Zihao, whose expression was distorted, and when he saw it, he pulled his legs and ran wildly towards the stairwell.

In the corridor, there was a death-like silence, the men and women were stunned, and the blinded Wang Xiaokai reacted, snap, snap, two big-eared scrapers slapped on Lin Zihao's face, pointed at Tian Zhuangzhuang and Yang Wei and shouted: "Look at him!" and then pulled his legs and ran in the direction of Zhang Yunqi, he has known Zhang Yunqi for two years, he knows his buddy's character too well, if something happens at the first sight, the consequences are unimaginable.

In the early morning of this day, Zhang's mother was doing business in Zhang Jiqi Fengdu fishmeal shop as usual, the business was very good, and she sold nearly 100 bowls of fishmeal in a short time, but when she was leading a guest into the door to eat fishmeal, she unexpectedly saw Zhang Yunqi, the third child in the family, rushing to the middle of the road with her first sight and desperate, and directly forced to stop a private car.

Zhang Yunqi didn't hear it.

He almost begged the driver to take him to the hospital.

The driver of the private car was a middle-aged man, who was stopped halfway by someone, and his stomach was full of fire, but when he saw the girl Zhang Yunqi was holding in his arms, his face was pale, there was a knife in his chest, and the blood stains on his skirt were shocking.

Zhang Yunqi put Chu Jian flat on the back seat, the space was small, he used a strange posture to half kneel and half squat in front of Chu Jian, took off his shirt, and he didn't know where he got so much strength, "Ah" The ground directly tore the shirt in half, the knife could not be pulled, he did not dare to press to stop the bleeding, he put a cloth on each side of the knife, but the blood kept flowing out, he didn't know what to do, he found that he couldn't do anything now, he could only keep urging the driver to hurry up, but the time was as slow as a knife, anxiety and despair like a devil clutching his heart, he seemed to return to the night when his father was imprisoned for him many years ago, the 15-year-old boy, only panic and unbearable pain in his heart!

Chu Jian stretched out his hand and held his trembling hand: "Yunqi, don't worry, don't worry, I'm fine, you listen to me, no matter what happens in the future, don't retaliate against Lin Zihao, just leave it to the police to deal with." ”

Zhang Yun nodded: "Okay, you have the final say, I will listen to you in the future." ”

A smile appeared on the little face that was pale at first sight, faint but warm: "If anything happens, you have to help me take care of my mother and sister." ”

Zhang Yunqi shook his head and kept shaking his head: "This is your business, your business, I can't do it and can't manage it." ”

Chu Jian reached out and touched Zhang Yunqi's cheek: "Don't be excited, I still have a lot to say to you, Yunqi, do you know, I have never dared to tell you, I like you." ”

Zhang Yunqi hooked his head, holding the torn clothes and sticking them to both sides of the wound repeatedly, blood stained his trembling hands: "I don't know, and I don't want to hear it, you can tell me tomorrow how much you like me." ”

Chu Jian put Zhang Yunqi's blood-stained hand on his cheek, and his bloodless lips sneered: "I don't want tomorrow, because I've waited too long, so long that I almost forgot when I liked you, blame me, always look ahead, always afraid of losing, now I'm not afraid, because I like you now, let me have the courage to tell you that I like you and will always like you." ”

Zhang Yunqi looked at the corners of the girl's wriggling mouth in front of him, the miserable white little face and the large blood-red skirt seemed to be a contrast between life and death, a burst of heat rolled under his nose, he didn't know how he laughed, his fingernails were buckled into the flesh, and he used all his strength to make the voice coming from his throat seem less desperate: "First time, do you remember your previous name?"

"Zhao Yu, what's wrong?"

"Yu means light, right?"

"yes. ”

"I've heard a saying before, and now I want to tell you, that saying, sometimes, when we love someone in the dark, our love is like a light in a flashlight, hitting that person, making that person a god in your heart. But you know what? Although the light is not in you, you are the light itself. ”

Zhang Yunqi put his head against Chujian's forehead, grabbed her cold hand and put it on his cheek, looked at the smiling eyes, and couldn't hold back the tears anymore: "Yu, you are my light." ”

Volume V: Yu and Final Chapters

Comments at the end of the volume:

I don't want spoilers, I don't want spoilers.

At first sight, you will live well.

Believe me, rainbows are always after the storm.

Before I wrote this volume, I had already thought about writing it this way. If you really read this book carefully, then you will find that from the title of this volume [Yu], there is a lot of foreshadowing in the text, and 80% of the plot revolves around [Yu] Unfolded, from the character and event promotion, such as the rainstorm traffic jam incident in the Jinping mining area of Guiping County, to the Chu Dapeng lottery incident, and Lin Zihao privately bought drinks for class 156 classmates in the name of first sight (this plot is what I wish in Chapter 35 of this volume, and some readers mistakenly think that Zhang Yunqi bought it in this chapter, and Zhang Yunqi was in Lijin City at the time, which fully proves that reading books is not serious.) ）

In fact, from the perspective of an author, I have only one goal, which is to reveal the true character of the characters. True character comes from pressure. It is pressure that pushes the characters into more and more difficult dilemmas, forcing them to make more and more difficult risky choices and actions, gradually revealing their true nature, and even approaching their unconscious selves, thus refracting the arc between the characters and the structure. This volume is based on Chu Dapeng's character of gambling like his life and Lin Zihao's extremely strong personality since he was a child, which triggered a series of plots in the future, and the final scene will appear.

Of course, this scene may not be what readers want to see, after all, it is the Internet, happiness is the key, and the focus is to be happy. I can't write anything very cool, but don't worry, I'll make you happy. If Zhang Yunqi's light makes you cry at this moment, the next volume may sweetly kill you.

Next volume: Chitose Han.

Updated tomorrow.